Before going abroad, has read some school shootings and fears case file Sun Xiaoxun is very at heart clear, oneself and the others front scoundrel is the most fearful that person. 【Entire writing reading】 出国前看过一些校园枪击案和恐袭案子档案的孙小逊心里很清楚,自己等人面前的歹徒才是最可怕的那种人。【全文字阅读】 They compare these to ask the terrorist who the wealth or requests some terms of exchange more fearful, their anything did not strive, but wants to retaliate this world. 他们比那些求财或者要求得到某种交换条件的恐怖分子更可怕,他们什么都不求,只是想报复这个世界。 They have not begun now, does not represent them to let off here everyone. 他们现在还没有动手,并不代表他们会放过这里的所有人。 They are waiting for more people to know this matter, waiting more and more reports and bystanders, as well as police and FBI person. 他们只是在等待更多的人知道这件事,等待越来越多的报道和围观者,以及警方和FBI的人。 They want to become the matter cause a stir, finally under the gazes of most person, all thorough destructions that they can see at present, including them and these hostages. 他们想把事情变得更轰动,最终在最多人的注视之下,把他们眼前所能见到的一切彻底毁灭,包括他们和自己这些人质。 Then, oneself this group of people now probably in short barely managing to maintain a feeble existence, perhaps were the opportunity of nothing returning alive. 那么,自己这一群人现在大概只是在短暂的苟延残喘,或许是没有什么生还的机会了吧。 Sun Xiaoxun sometimes seems very weak, but does not represent her really not to have the opinion, can in be a good class leader in the university three years, the class business management in good order, relational processing between schoolmates must be watertight, simultaneously oneself learn/study actually does not fall completely, actually she is seems like the semblance is more tenacious than much people. 孙小逊有时候显得很软弱,但并不代表她真的没有主见,能在大学三年时间里当个好班长,将班级事务管理得井井有条,将同学间的关系处理得滴水不漏,同时自身学习却又完全不落下,其实她是个比外表看起来更坚韧得多的人。 At this time is this, more places the crisis-ridden situation, although she is more anxious the tooth to shiver, but mentality actually not Primal Chaos in brain, instead the status quo and situation think extremely thoroughly in the heart. 此时就是这样,越是身处危机四伏的处境,她虽然越是紧张得牙齿打战,但脑子里的思路却一点儿也不混沌,反而将目前的现状和处境在心中想得极其透彻。 Pitifully cannot only change the present aspect calmly, more is thinks thoroughly, in her heart is actually desperate. 只可惜冷静并不能改变现在的局面,越是想得透彻,她心中却越是绝望。 It is not good, I cannot continue to think this matter again, otherwise, I same will also cry aloud with nearby this girl? 不行了,我不能再继续想这件事了,不然,我也会和旁边这女孩子一样哭出声来的吧？ I must divert my attention. 我得分散自己的注意力。 In her brain goes to think that unceasingly many other things, forcing oneself do not look at that but actually corpse 78 meters away again, before his body disseminates the shop in that beach blood of ground. 她脑子里不断去想很多别的事情,强迫自己不要再去看那个倒在78米外的尸体,还有从他身前弥散开来铺在地面的那滩血。 Only by doing so, she can control oneself mood thoroughly, can study in the television such, seems more and more low by own existence feeling, best thorough did not pay attention, forgot by that two fearful lunatic was best. 只有这样,她才能彻底控制得住自己的情绪,才能学着电视里那样,让自己的存在感显得越来越低,最好彻彻底底的不被人注意到,被那两个可怕的疯子遗忘了就最好了。 Under those images and scenes, can make her concentrate the person and matter that the attention thinks are not many. 此情此景下,能让她集中注意力去想的人和事并不多。 Perhaps in the domestic parents, they have not known this matter now. 远在国内的父母,他们现在或许还不知道这件事吧。 They should just get out of bed, perhaps at this time, the father was blowing under the whistling to arrive at the underground parking storehouse, lights a fire toward exporting his beloved POLO car(riage) point. 他们应该刚刚起床,这个时候,老爸或许正在吹着口哨下到地下停车库,把他那心爱的POLO车点燃火往出口开。 The mother who especially does not like underground garage that depressed smell perhaps, is making up the makeup in the community entrance to the mirror, why the mouth toot toot shouts the father not to drive the car(riage), works always sluggishly. 特别不喜欢地下车库那沉闷气味的老妈,或许正在小区门口对着梳妆镜补妆,然后嘴里嘟嘟嚷嚷着老爸为什么还不把车开出来,做事总是慢吞吞的。 In these ordinary days sloppy ordinary picture, appears under this situation in the heart, lets the pain that in her pit of the stomach pulls out on the contrary. 这些平日里稀松平常的画面,在这个处境之下浮现在心中,却反倒让她心窝里一抽一抽的痛。 If I died, the news feeds in the home, the father, mother and grandparent and will grandfather grandmother, have the uncle aunt younger male cousin they certainly to cry extremely sadly? 如果我死了,消息传回国内,爸爸、妈妈、爷爷奶奶、外公外婆,哦还有舅舅舅妈表弟他们一定会哭得万分伤心吧？ „It is not good, I cannot, I probably want to select again like this happily!” “不行,我不能再这样了,我得想点开心的！” Sun Xiaoxun silently arranges the air/Qi to oneself, she shifted on the thoughts Chen Guang. 孙小逊默默的给自己打点气,她又把心思转移到了陈光身上。 How do oneself like that male student? 自己到底是怎么喜欢上那个男生的？ From starts, oneself every enters the classroom one time, the association/will searches high and low subconsciously his form? 从什么时候开始,自己每一次进教室,总会下意识四处寻找他的身影的呢？ From greatly from the beginning? 是从大一开始的吗？ Sun Xiaoxun thought unexpectedly thinks did not get up. 孙小逊竟觉得想不太起来了。 As if oneself and between Chen Guang have not experienced what too deep memory, is that light, does not have the indication and reason, bewildered being unable to bear will focus in his heart. 似乎自己和陈光之间并没有经历过什么太深的记忆,就是那么平淡的,毫无征兆和理由的,莫名其妙的忍不住将心思放在了他的心上。 Difference that this and in the soap opera develops, without so many imposing, has nothing to part forever, but Sun Xiaoxun did not regret, she is very clear, this is the true life, true life. 这和电视剧里演的不一样,没那么多轰轰烈烈,也没什么生离死别,但孙小逊并不后悔,她心里很清楚,这才是真正的生活,真正的人生。 What reason liked a person being probable to find? 喜欢一个人非要找到什么理由吗？ What reason if really can find, perhaps that this instead no longer did like purely? 如果真能找到什么理由,那这或许反而就不再是单纯的喜欢了吧？ Sometimes Gao Ya/elegant scolded itself, although Sun Xiaoxun on the mouth never acknowledged that but actually knows at heart she scolded right. 有时候高雅骂自己,孙小逊虽然嘴上从来不承认,但心里却知道她骂得对。 It is not no one wants, why you put that lowly yourself, does in the eye to only stare at him? 又不是没人要,你干嘛把自己放得那么低,干嘛眼睛里非得就只盯着他？ In the past Sun Xiaoxun had not directly replied the Gao Ya/elegant issue, she actually can only now at heart silently read one, Gao Ya/elegant, I did not know. 过去孙小逊从来没有正面回答过高雅的问题,现在她却只能在心里默默的念一句,高雅啊,我还是不知道啊。 Even if to the present, probably the next second must die, must make me seek a reason at heart, I don't know either! 哪怕到了现在,或许下一秒钟就要死去,非要让我在心里找个原因,我也不知道啊！ I cannot provide lodging my heart and eye, what means do I have? 我就是管不住自己的心和眼睛,我有什么办法？ Perhaps, the Pan Jiang matter calculates that makes one remember the specially profound matter, but this and he experiences in Hong Kong compares, is really not worth mentioning. 或许,潘江的事情算一件让人记忆特别深刻的事,但这和他在香江所经历的比起来,实在不值一提。 Sun Xiaoxun will often envy others, envying Jin Shiyue can when his situation is difficult, to pretend girlfriend's status to shield him ; Envying Teacher Zhuo can stand with him above resisting Wang Ren's court ; Envies Wen Wen, she that perfect, as if will stand in her woman becomes will change colors gloomily, what will be more important will be goddess common she can actually put to Chen Guang opens. 孙小逊时常会羡慕别人,羡慕靳诗月可以在他处境艰难时,以假冒女友的身份来掩护他;羡慕卓老师可以和他一起站在对抗王仁的法庭之上;更羡慕文雯,她是那么的完美,仿佛站在她身边的女人都会变得暗淡失色,更重要的是女神一般的她对陈光却又能比自己放得更开。 Especially saw he sprint that fights tooth and nail after Hong Kong that Sun Xiaoxun felt oneself really cannot be joined to Chen Guang, her not only time wants to give up, but has actually never succeeded. 尤其是看到他在香江那搏命的冲刺之后,孙小逊觉得自己真的配不上陈光,她更不只一次想放弃,但却从未成功过。 She does not give up. 她舍不得。 She can also think once for a while occasionally, the multi- hopes some day can also be the same with others, what matter many and he experiences a point together, by oneself neat giving up, either, can perhaps more entered points his innermost feelings? 她也时不时偶尔会想,多希望有朝一日自己也能和其他人一样,多和他一起经历一点什么事情啊,要么,让自己干脆利落的放弃,要么,或许就能更多的走进一点他的内心了吧？ She has not thought this condition no indication came, moreover comes such violently. 只是她没想到这状况毫无征兆的就来了,而且来得这么猛烈。 Even makes one want the hope that from the beginning gives up going on living. 甚至让人从一开始就想放弃活下去的希望。 Right, Chen Guang now probably also in Detroit. 对了,陈光现在好像也在底特律吧。 Present he, should just finish his world breaking off the wrist/skill competition, perhaps is clinking glasses at the glee feast, drinks, laughs? 现在的他,应该刚刚结束了他的世界掰手腕大赛,或许正在庆功宴上和人碰杯,和人喝酒,和人开怀大笑吧？ If on the television emits the news of this matter, he will see? 如果电视上放出这件事的新闻,他会看到吗？ If he sees, how he will think? 如果他看到的话,他会怎么想呢？ Can he...... and sad for my death? 他会……为了我的死而难过吗？ Will he stand in front of my tombstone sprinkles the next flower petal for me? 他会站在我的墓碑前面为我洒下一片花瓣吗？ I can touch his cheeks with the condition of soul, heard him saying that thinks I or did like me? 我能用灵魂的状态抚摸他的脸颊,听到他说一声想我或者喜欢我吗？ Sun Xiaoxun touched own cheeks, endured for a long time not to shed drop of tears, actually when thought of Chen Guang, tears actually completely not by mood control was low, has delimited the cheeks, tick-tock tick-tock knocked on the ground. 孙小逊摸了摸自己的脸颊,忍了这么久也不曾掉过一滴眼泪,却在想到陈光的时候,泪水却完全不受心情控制的低落下来,划过脸颊,滴答滴答敲在地上。 But her body has not shivered, has not sobbed, but the tears cannot stop wells up from the eye socket outward, like bursting a dike dam. 但她的身体并没有颤抖,也没有哽咽,只是泪水去止不住的从眼眶里往外涌,像决了堤大坝。 Her at present a dimness, how regardless to rub eye anything not to see clearly, but the picture in brain even more is clear. 她的眼前一片朦胧,无论怎么揉眼睛也什么都看不清楚,但脑子里的画面却愈加清晰。 The memory in mind as if whisked off to cover by the strong winds dust-laden in the above sand, reveals to cover the tips under sandy soil. 尘封在脑海中的记忆仿佛被狂风拂去盖在上面的沙,露出遮盖在沙土下的点点滴滴。 „Schoolmate, you are also the link branch? I called Chen Guang, knew you very much happily, needed me to help you move the thing?” “同学,你也是环科的吗？我叫陈光,很高兴认识你,需要我帮你搬东西吗？” „Our class leaders can only be Sun Xiaoxun!” “咱们的班长只能是孙小逊！” „You asked why I do want to hit Pan Jiang? He skidded others girlfriend played several days to trample, resulted in cheaply also showed off cleverness, all day long hung on the mouth said whoever happens to come, now the male student female students want to leave school, this waste no one managed, I managed!” “你问我为什么要打潘江？他把别人女朋友撬了玩了几天又踹了,得了便宜还卖乖,成天挂在嘴上逢人就说,现在人家男生女生都想退学了,这种人渣没人管,我管！” „Leader Sun big, in He Ming family/home the condition is so bad, won't he be able to attain the stipend? What? The quota did not have, does a class only have three quotas? Thus, you to He Ming said that the instructor gave us more than one, then gives him these 2000. All right, you know that I am not short of money to spend, He Ming helps me open the water frequently, I owe him many favors.” “孙大班长,贺明家里条件那么糟糕,他怎么会拿不到助学金呢？什么？名额没了,一个班只有三个名额？这样,你给贺明说辅导员又给了咱们一个多的,然后把这两千块给他吧。没事,你知道我不怎么缺钱花的,贺明经常帮我打开水,我欠他好多人情。” „Had a study elder sister to take poison to commit suicide? WTF! This domestic animal surnamed Wang, Leader Sun big I said to you, you must guard, relax, if that domestic animal surnamed Wang really asks you to trouble, you said to me, but also there is a law of the land?” “有个学姐服毒自杀了？卧槽！这姓王的畜生,孙大班长我给你说,你也得防着点,放心,如果姓王那畜生真找你麻烦,你给我说,还有没有王法了？” „Good good, I promise you, so long as Pan Jiang do not ask me to trouble again, leaves all day long that broken pitiful look, I live certainly together in peace and harmony with him.” “好吧好吧,我答应你,只要潘江别再来找我麻烦,也别成天那破熊样,我一定和他和睦相处。” „Class leader saves a life, my four levels hung! I pledged, I really review earnestly ultra!” “班长救命啊,我四级又挂了！我发誓,我真复习得超认真！” „Class leader, tomorrow helps me ask for leave, I have the matter. It‘s nothing, in my family really no.” “班长,明天帮我请个假吧,我有事。没什么没什么,我家里真没什么。” „It is not tired, the driving ratio studies interestingly.” “不累,开车比读书有意思。” „You contribute what to me, this which with which!” “你们给我捐什么款啊,这都哪跟哪啊！” „The sky collapses I also to withstand, my mother can also withstand, whose not pain? Small issue, small issue.” “天塌下来我也顶得住,我妈也顶得住,谁没个病痛的？小问题,小问题。” All pictures, actually condensed a monitoring to record finally, Chen Guang appeared in the Elegant Pavilion hall, trampled the passenger compartment door, overturned Pan Jiang ruthlessly on the ground. 所有的画面,最后却凝聚成了一段监控录像,陈光出现在清雅轩的大厅里,一脚踹开包间房门,狠狠将潘江打翻在地上。 Right, this was initially he to rescue Sun Xiaoxun, when Elegant Pavilion beats savagely the Pan Jiang picture. 没错,这正是当初他为了救孙小逊,在清雅轩暴打潘江时的画面。 Sun Xiaoxun covers own mouth stubbornly, is nipping own palm ruthlessly, suppresses itself to sob to make noise with the severe pain to * moves. 孙小逊死死捂住自己的嘴巴,狠狠咬着自己的手掌,用剧痛来镇压自己哽咽出声的冲*动。 Cannot cry. 不能哭。 Is unwilling. 不甘心。 Does not want dead. 不想死。 The multi- hopes can leave here safely, has the courage of being saved from death, the brave stand his front, compelling him saying that „I liked you”. 多希望能安然离开这里,带着死里逃生的勇气,勇敢的站到他的面前,逼他说一声“我喜欢你”。 Bang! 嘭！ The sound of gunfire begins, this time, does not have any indication, two lunatics struck to kill a hostage. 枪声再起,这一次,没有任何征兆的,两名疯子就击杀了一名人质。 Sun Xiaoxun side that continuously in female student of weeping. 正是孙小逊身边那个一直在啜泣的女生。 „Really annoying.” “真烦人。” Opened fire that lunatic honk to shout, the whole face was silent, then looked at outside the eye piece. 开枪那个疯子嘟嚷了一句,满脸默然,又回头看了眼窗外。 Outside warning light flicks, Neil Subdue Local Police authorities have turned out in full strength to gather outside the stadium, but this useless. 外面警灯一闪一闪的,尼尔镇当地警局已经倾巢出动聚集在体育馆外面了,但这没什么用。 The police forces in only small town are really insufficient, they do not even have the specialized sniper, is impossible to threaten these two scoundrels who held under duress the hostage. 区区一个小镇的警力实在不够,他们甚至没有专业的狙击手,根本不可能威胁到这两个挟持了人质的歹徒。 Sun Xiaoxun bit the mouth of palm to make an effort, the death was close, she was terrified, was unwilling. 孙小逊咬着自己手掌的嘴更用力了,死亡越是近在咫尺,她越是惶恐,就越是不甘心。 She is actually very clear, with the Chen Guang character, if really knew this news at this time, even if he is impossible to have time, but insane will also certainly catch up equally toward here. 她其实很清楚,以陈光的性格,如果真在这个时候知道了这消息,哪怕他根本就不可能赶得及,但也一定会疯了一样往这边赶来吧。 Perhaps this useless, but he is such person, like that time matter that has in Wenxing Town, although does not know that he after leaving the Internet cafe exactly had anything, he made anything, but actually made the imposing matter finally at that time, did not have the sound in invisible unexpectedly. 或许这没什么用,但他就是这样的人,就像那次发生在文兴镇的事情一样,虽然不知道他在离开网吧之后到底发生了什么,他又到底做了什么,但结果却是当时闹得轰轰烈烈的事情,竟在无形间没了声响。 No one has told Sun Xiaoxun that any truth, but girl's sixth sense told him, this was certainly related with Chen Guang, because after that because he was injured disappeared one after another for several days. 没有人告诉过孙小逊那次事情的任何真相,但女孩子的第六感却告诉他,这一定和陈光有关,因为那之后他因为受伤接连消失了几天。 Yes, if he knows, today he will also certainly come.( To be continued.) 是的,如果他知道,今天他也一定会来的。(未完待续。)