( 1 ) 【I must live】 （一）【我要活】 The main hall center, form side to extinguish of blue candle, Buer has then drawn back from the blurred illusion. 大殿中央,蓝烛的身影方灭,不二便从迷离的幻觉中退了出来。 raised the head looks, in the main hall an emptiness, early does not have the human footmark. 抬头一望,大殿里一片空荡荡,早无人迹. Thousand people here are just now fearful the situation of restless, putting up a last-ditch struggle as if are only an illusion. 方才千众人在这里惶惶不安、垂死挣扎的情形仿佛只是一场幻梦。 But the body of person turns into the meat froth blood fog the fishy smell still to flutter in the midair, showed that just now the brutal situation clearly occurred. 但人的身体化成肉沫血雾的腥味还在半空中飘着,证明方才惨无人道的情形真真切切发生了。 He is incapable of rejoicing secretly. 他无力暗自庆幸。 Also makes the feeling without enough time. 也来不及多作感慨。 The exhausted feeling of all over the sky everywhere, blotting out the sky raids to him, the whole body is incapable weak, fish that if still the block general dies. 满天满地、铺天盖地的疲惫感向他袭来,浑身瘫软无力,犹若砧板上将死的鱼儿。 magical power in inner sea already pulled out cleanness. 内海中的法力早已被抽的干干净净。 The inner sea source was also whirled away, again adds mixes, the pain of bringing repeatedly is linking the nerve, asking people several to want the faint. 内海本源也被卷走一些,再加反复地搅动,带来的痛苦连着神经,叫人几欲昏厥。 But at this time, but also has not arrived to relax the vigilant time. 但这个时候,还远未到可以放松警惕的时候。 He withstands the dilutedness and intermittent severe pain, retained a consciousness forcefully. 他顶住无力感和阵阵剧痛,强行保留了一丝意识。 Turns head to look in the future, in the ground does not know unexpectedly when burns several groups of black flame nighttime to eat the wild animal of person likely, approaches oneself line slowly. 回头往后瞧,地面上竟不知何时烧起几团黑色火焰像黑夜里吃人的野兽,缓缓向自己行来。 His chest one tight, thought that this black flame mostly is grasps principles can greatly the writing skill. 他胸口一紧,心想这黑色火焰多半是悟道大能的手笔。 Own day must glue on one, formerly did all sort of all completely changes into the nihility diligently, the soul turns over to the hell to expect. 自己旦要粘上一丝,先前所作诸般努力皆尽化为虚无,魂归地府都是奢望了。 Immediately wants to set out to run away. 当即想起身逃去。 Which material did not have including least bit strength unexpectedly. 哪料得竟连半点力气都没有了。 Saw that black flame faintly very near, goes all out to live the ruthless vigor that to rush to the top of the head. 眼看着黑色火焰幽幽挺近,拼命想活下来的狠劲儿冲上头顶。 „I must live!” “我要活！” He shouts one, adjusted a inner sea source nearly to faint forcefully. 他心里大喊一声,强行调了一丝内海本源险些昏倒过去。 Also compares to take out from storage bag with this source magical power 【Shadow wind dragon Jian】. 又用这丝本源法力勘勘从储物袋中取出【暗影风龙剑】。 Holds up the treasured sword furiously, has sheared one on own arm fiercely. 奋力举起宝剑,在自家手臂上猛地割了一道。 The stabbing pain gets up suddenly, the nerve high-rising of whole body shrinks, the whole person has then stood. 刺痛骤起,全身的神经兀地一缩,整个人便站了起来。 „I must live, go on living.” “我要活,活下去。” He wants to say wickedly. 他恶狠狠地想道。 Looks up the day, looks at these like the jack-o'-lantern light ball, is more terrifying than behind black flame. 抬头看天,看着那些如鬼火般的光球,比身后的黑色火焰还要恐怖。 „I must live, go on living, go on living one day, must stand in this high place certainly,” “我要活,活下去,活下去总有一天,要站在此界高绝之处,” He taking advantage of this pinnacle stabbing pain, the doom proceeds, 他借着这股极致的刺痛,死命地往前走, „Stands in this high place certainly, asking everyone unable to treat as the ants to be ordinary me, pinches, stamped, bullies dead.” “站在此界高绝之处,叫谁也不能将我当做蝼蚁一般,捏死,踩死,欺负死。” He keeps shouting, the wound on arm has flowed off greatly the blood, soaked a scarlet 50% clothing, the whole person has as if worn a half-length bloodstained clothing, 他心里不停地喊着,胳膊上的伤口流下了大把的血,把一半的衣衫浸透成一片猩红,整个人仿佛穿了一身半身血衣, „I must stand in this high place certainly, glances the numerous mountains to be small.” “我要站在此界高绝之处,一览众山而小。” The treasured sword shears the pain of arm to be gradually pale, was numb, the murky consciousness must well up. 宝剑割臂的痛楚渐渐淡去,麻木了,昏昏沉沉的意识又要涌上来。 „I must stand in this high place certainly, is a giant of being indomitable spirit, no one can surround and bind me.” “我要站在此界高绝之处,做一个顶天立地的巨人,谁也不能把我困住、绑住。” He raises the treasured sword again, backhandedly to carrying on the back is one stroke...... 他再提宝剑,反手冲着背上又是一划…… The burning pain came. 火辣辣的痛来了。 „I must stand in this high place certainly, own destiny, controls in own hand.” “我要站在此界高绝之处,把自己的命运,掌握在自己的手中。” He was also sober, quickly walked several steps, only remained final held to read: 他又清醒了一些,快走几步,只剩最后的执念: „I must stand in this high place certainly, manages his human race enmity, hate of corner/horn clan, so long as I am having my years, roams through various Tian, enjoys me to be free!” “我要站在此界高绝之处,管他人族的仇,角族的恨,我只要带着我的岁月,遨游诸天,享我自由！” Black flame is surging faintly, obviously be quicker than him. 身后,黑色火焰幽幽地涌动着,显然要比他快许多。 God of death footsteps beside close. 死神的脚步就在咫尺之外。 Aura from ghostdom never such near...... 来自冥界的气息从未如此之近…… Then in this time, together the severe gale blows from the top of the head, flame along with it dying out. 便在此时,一道厉风自头顶刮来,火焰随之寂灭。 „Lived.” “活了。” He long exhales the one breath, has made an effort the strength and potential of whole body, such as mud weak ground. 他长长呼出一口气,用劲了全身的力气和潜能,如烂泥般瘫软地上。 Lying on one's back. 仰面朝天。 Sees, is a yellow skirt form and is covering the face of dense fog. 看见的,是一袭黄裙身影和罩着迷雾的面孔。 His mind remembers just now last in illusion suddenly, covers the damage because of the light, a yellow skirt female who other people have not seen certainly cultivates is interrupted together black light around the middle, dripping with blood, desperate facial expression...... 他脑海忽然想起方才幻境中的最后一幕,亦是因光罩损毁,旁人绝没有看到的一幕黄裙女修被一道黑光拦腰截断,鲜血淋漓,绝望的神情…… ( 2 ) 【Causes and effects】 （二）【了因果】 Above formation, the appearance unclear yellow skirt female cultivates one of the precisely Six Venerables of the Grand Truth 【Skilled artist】 Su filament no wonder she will also appear in the Buer illusion, collaborates to oppose the enemy with other four. 阵法上方,容貌不清的黄裙女修正是宏然六尊之一【妙手】苏纤也怪不得她会出现在不二的幻境之中,与其余四尊联手对敌。 Just now, she sees the unexpected visitor to become aware the dao cultivation gentleman in numerous to capture crazily, really also has formation that the ample force sneak attacks itself to protect, but also prevailed easily. 方才,她看见不速之客在一众悟道修士狂攻下,竟然还有余力偷袭自家守护的阵法,还轻易得逞了。 Under the startled anger, throws a daoist technique seal to the formation central black strange plant immediately. 惊怒之下,当即向阵法中央的黑色怪异植物投去一道法印。 Is the plan lived its cage, so as to avoid has destroyed big. 原是打算将其笼住,免得毁了大阵。 Has not actually thought, the black plant as if perceived law seal in the future, instant changes to one group of black flame. 却没有想到,黑色植物仿佛觉察到法印将来,瞬时化作一团黑色火焰。 One has burnt a cleanness formation. 一趟将法阵烧了个干干净净。 Big already extinguished, she is also beyond any help, since the black corner/horn day Venerable came, this result also in reason. 大阵已然灭去,她也无可挽回既然黑角天尊都来了,这结果也在情理之中。 She thinks, „already said prediction is easy to suffer the scourge, is really not the lies.” 她又不免想到,“早就说预言阵易遭天谴,果然不是虚言的。” „Has destroyed also well, finished causes and effects.” “毁了也好,算是了却一桩因果。” Then immediately chanted incantations, law seal that will project summoned. 便当即念咒,将投出的法印召回来。 Lowers the head looked, finds in unexpectedly, in addition is also living low rank cultivator, unavoidably was startled, in the heart wonders, „this boy how unyielding life, can save the life under backlash of big annihilation.” 低头一看,竟瞧见阵中尚且还活着一个低阶修士,不免吃了一惊,心中直纳闷,“这小子怎一个硬气的命,才能在大阵湮灭的反噬下保住性命。” She just now attention all outside palace on the unexpected visitor, has not seen clearly low rank cultivator to run away the birth day method, in the heart lived a curiosity but actually. 她方才注意力全在殿外不速之客身上,没有看清低阶修士逃出生天的手段,心中倒生了一丝好奇。 Also found still had the fragmentary black flame spread, but that low rank cultivator was pale the complexion, the whole body is soaking the blood, but also was struggling desperately, must be fired one group of ashes shortly. 又瞧见仍有零星的黑色火焰蔓延,而那低阶修士苍白着脸色,满身浸血,还在苦苦挣扎,眼瞅着也要被烧成一团灰烬。 She is called 【Skilled artist】 Su filament \; first, because of counting on the fingers the say/way of deduction \; second, because of the medical ethics of skilled artist rejuvenation. 她被称作【妙手】苏纤,一是因掐指一算的推演之道,二是因妙手回春的医道。 This also has the medicine kind-heartedness, providing relief has, today for the human race important matter, observed these bloody scenes, in the heart some did not endure, then wants saying: „If not for this person of divine ability, leads formation, evolved the grasping principles level war, how can the black corner/horn 【Min Luo】 Has incurred. So calculates, he also will be a wonderful child luck. Nowadays big also broke, does not need to be worried that predicts the principle to implicate, do I rescue his one why not?” 本也有医者仁心,济世胸怀,今日为了人族大计,观了这些血腥场面,心中已有些不忍,便是想道:“若不是此人神通,带动阵法,演化出了悟道层级大战,怎么能将黑角【闵罗】招了过来。如此算来,他也算是一枚妙子福将。现今大阵也破了,不必担心预言法则牵连,我救他一手何妨？” In the heart moves, has wielded hand wind to under conveniently. 心中一动,随手向下方挥了一道手风。 This at one fell swoop, in the world another causes and effects were a go-between conveniently...... 只是这随手一举,天地中又一丝因果牵了线…… ( 3 ) 【Eternity merit】 （三）【千古功】 At this time, above main hall sparring must conclude only fighting suddenly unexpectedly, a human race side severely wounded, minor wound five, were simply shocking. 这个时候,大殿上方的斗法竟也要收尾了只瞬息间的交手,人族一方已重伤一位,轻伤五位,简直耸人听闻。 Black corner/horn 【Min Luo】 Also has opened formation, walks this goal then to calculate that achieved. 黑角【闵罗】既拆了阵法,走这一遭的目的便算达成了。 His idea is firm, links personal appearance not to reveal an corner/horn unexpectedly, then in hidden place hearty laughter one. 他主意坚定,竟然连身形也没有露出一角,便在暗处朗笑一声。 At once drives out outside the main hall a formation corner/horn, goes from out of the blue. 旋即轰开大殿外阵法一角,破空而去。 A main hall, actually listens to one person to drink high: „Corner/Horn breaks through the enemy lines opens!” 一出大殿,却听有一人高喝:“角破阵启！” Also some people shouted: „Four print complete/even open/start!” 又有人喝道:“四印齐开！” The heavy line from the place bottom, the direct impact culmination, the end to inundates together suddenly, will be shortly black the entire sky, just like a giant pot cover covers the earth....... 一道黑线自地底而起,直冲中天,线头忽地向四下漫开,顷刻间黑了整个天空,犹如一个巨大锅盖笼罩住了大地。…… Originally 【Min Luo】 The corner/horn that broke through, precisely human race numerous grasped principles can greatly pains design. 原来【闵罗】冲过的这一角,正是人族一众悟道大能的苦心设计。 Beyond has arranged one. 阵外又布置了一阵。 cloud Hefeng, cloud Heyue, the Sublime Dharma Monastery management book holds, Beast and Human Pagoda worried eternally, Six Venerables of the Grand Truth its four, already tied oneself principle law seal. In the place of formation breaking, went into hiding the aura silent waiting. 云和风、云和月,还有法华寺主持本执,兽人塔万古愁,宏然六尊其四,早就结好了自家法则法印。在阵法破开之处,隐匿了气息无声等待。 【Min Luo】 The side reveals the personal appearance, four people then pass through void, beyond direct link in all directions eye. 【闵罗】方显露身形,四人便穿越虚空,直达阵外阵四处阵眼。 This holds 【Spirit Mountain law seal】 Similar to ten thousand zhang (3.33 m) Weishan covers loudly. 本执的【灵山法印】如同万丈巍山轰然罩下。 cloud Heyue 【View moon/month law seal】 In midair frivolous, 【Min Luo】 The nowhere escaping line of covering. 云和月的【观月法印】在半空中轻浮,将【闵罗】罩的无处遁行。 clouds the gentle breeze 【Astral wind law seal】, Is fast violent \; Worries it eternally 【Ten thousand beast law seal】, Is turbulent overbearing, one and rumble approaches 【Min Luo】 Pats. 云和风的【罡风法印】,最是迅捷猛烈\;万古愁之【万兽法印】,最是汹涌霸道,一并轰隆隆向【闵罗】拍去。 Other everyone grasp principles, does not dare to delay the moment, with a sudden burst head, in 【Min Luo】 Supplemented several talisman seal, such as the meteor shower has delimited the expansive sky. 其余诸位悟道,也都不敢耽误片刻,卯足了劲头,在【闵罗】身后追加了数道符印,如流星雨般划过长空。 By 31 enemies one, already was the arrange/cloth good the ambush, is this opportunity how rare? 以31敌一,又是早就布好了埋伏,这机会何其稀罕？ Kill! 杀！ human race numerous grasping principles heart to this, which dares to have together keeps the hand slightly. 人族众悟道心齐向此,哪一个敢有丝毫留手。 But 【Min Luo】 Far from the common black corner/horn, how otherwise only depending on own prestige, then frightens the human race number thousand years. 但【闵罗】远非寻常黑角,若不然如何只凭自家威名,便震慑人族数千载。 Before he this time, apparent human race numerous grasp principles to seek, but this is the open intrigue, he has to come. 他此番来前,便知人族一众悟道所谋但这是阳谋,他不得不来。 Was compared to break the future result by human race to be how passive, is unable to withstand faced with the corner/horn clansman of life and death crisis. 被人族勘破未来的结果何其被动,面临生死危机的角族人根本无法承受。 He already dares to come, then has the assurance that the whole body draws back. 他既敢来,便有全身而退的把握。 Many years of take action, has not forgotten anything to the human race old matches. 多年未曾出手,才至人族的老对手们忘了些什么。 This time, happen to was called them to think. 这一次,正好叫他们想起来。 He looks back faces one another indifferently, a law stick finger/refers, the black flame passes through in the sky darkly, broke Spirit Mountain law seal distantly, such as the mountain pressure removes immediately \; 他回首冷眼相望,法杖当空一指,黑炎穿过幽暗,遥遥破了灵山法印,如山的威压随即卸去\; Another finger/refers, black ignition lunar shadow, observes the moon/month law seal to change into the nihility, own whereabouts go into hiding \; 又一指,黑色灼烧月影,观月法印化为虚无,自家的行迹又隐匿起来\; But the time has delayed slightly, the person was said ten thousand beast law seal that gentle breeze astral wind law seal and worries eternally hit truly, when vomiturition a beach black blood. 但时间稍微耽搁了些,人却被云和风的罡风法印和万古愁的万兽法印实实击中,当空呕了一滩黑血。 Actually also the skillful skilled artist, can receive half prestige of law India , China, coordinates from the family discipline stick strikes fully, huge, the whole body burns the queer bird of black flame to appear in the midair suddenly. 却也巧施妙手,将法印中的一半威能收了下来,配合自家法杖的全力一击,一只巨大的,浑身燃烧着黑色火焰的怪鸟忽然出现在半空之中。 A lot of winds in the upper heavens such as violent agitation of magical treasure in formation, the top grasping principles pressure as if will tear the space, 【Min Luo】 The destruction principle was been really fearful and apprehensive. 千百道罡风如法宝在阵法中猛烈搅动,顶级的悟道威压似乎将把空间撕裂,【闵罗】的毁灭法则真叫人心惊胆战。 At this time, 【Skilled artist】 Su filament also side Ganlai, 【Spirit Mountain】 This holds, 【White clouds】 cloud Hefeng, 【God moon/month】 cloud Heyue, 【Thick earth】 Worried eternally, ties five daoist technique seal together, light moon/month variegated, the wind and cloud agitation, the earth is heavy, hits toward the black flame queer bird. 这时,【妙手】苏纤也方赶来,【灵山】本执、【白云】云和风、【神月】云和月、【厚土】万古愁,齐结五道法印,光月斑斓,风云搅动,土重万钧,直往黑炎怪鸟撞去。 Two sides touch, give birth to invisible, vanishes into thin air unexpectedly. 两方一触,生出一道无形波芒,竟然同时化为乌有。 Min Luo sneered, the law stick in airborne has drawn a circle, the whole person changed to a black phoenix, was sending out meaning of the destruction, fired in the dark night recklessly. 紧接着,闵罗冷笑一声,法杖又在空中画了一个圆圈,整个人化作一头黑凤,散发着道道毁灭之意,在黑夜中肆意灼烧。 His destruction principle overbearing fearsome, called in this space unexpectedly, other various people principles all had or the disorder or dying out sleep. 他的毁灭法则霸道可怖,竟叫此空间内,其余诸人的法则皆生出或紊乱或寂灭之觉。 After the people cultivate Celestial Realm, all had ahead of time indication to perceive to the death. 人修到天人境后,皆对死亡有了提前的征兆觉察。 After Dao Comprehension Realm, this perceived that is keen. 到了悟道境后,这觉察更是敏锐之极。 After the black phoenix appears, the people heart on the scene raises the unclear feeling of all in light of this falling from the sky. 当黑凤出现之后,在场众人心中无不升起就此陨落的不详之感。 Min Luo layer upon layer adds imposing manner, phoenix aims at an corner/horn, exudes one to resound through sounding of world, clarified must henceforth break through the enemy lines to go. 闵罗则层层更添气势,凤头对准一角,发出一声响彻天地的鸣叫,摆明了要从此破阵而去。 „It is not good!” “不好！” cloud Hefeng makes noise the reminder people, „demon strives!” 云和风出声提醒众人,“魔头又有精进！” Sees with own eyes 【Min Luo】 Imposing manner such hold, beyond in this holds, cloud Heyue, clouds the gentle breeze, Su Xian four people all had the meaning of giving way to traffic. 眼见【闵罗】气势如此之盛,阵外阵内本执,云和月,云和风,苏纤四人皆生出避让之意。 The eternal enmity must kill to prevent, sees this aura, in the heart is greatly anxious, only wants saying: „My human race life and death in this at one fell swoop. If asked the demon to run away, returned to the corner/horn clan big camp, from now henceforth again did not have good opportunity so. In the future the demon becomes my human race heart big trouble, when corner/horn and Grand Truth World world coincide thoroughly, my human race total destruction?” 万古仇原要杀去阻挡,见此气息,心中大急,只想道:“我人族生死存亡在此一举。若是叫魔头逃去,回了角族大营,从今以后再无这般良机。往后魔头又成我人族心头大患,等到角界与宏然界界面彻底相合,岂不是我人族灭顶之灾？” „everyone dao friend!” “诸位道友！” He drinks one high, facial features are fierce for a while, imitates, if the call letter of life and death, 他高喝一声,面容一时狰狞之极,仿若决死的呼号, „Recognizes and develop one's being for my human race, is myriad cultivator stands said, for this reason all living things open the peace!” “为我人族立命,为万千修士立道,为此界众生开太平！” „Only this one time, only this for a while, why not we at risk of life wrestle, finish the eternity merit in a service!” “只此一次,只此一时,我们何不拼死一搏,毕千古功于一役！” His said, calls to accompany the beast 【Wild ominous ape】, The left hand was fifth-order Kun shakes the fine gold stick, the right hand held itself 【Ten thousand beast law seal】 【Ape law seal】, Just likes a deicide, fierce does not fear the deathtrap to keep off in 【Min Luo】 Breaks through the enemy lines the road which must be taken. 他一句说罢,唤出自家伴兽【蛮荒凶猿】,左手是五阶坤震精金棒,右手持了自家【万兽法印】【蛮猿法印】,犹如一尊杀神,悍不畏死地挡在【闵罗】破阵必经之路。 This holds by him is said touches, holds their palms together, said a Amitabha, said with the people: „Said that who I do not enter hell to enter the hell, how could to call this demon again for the calamity world?” 本执被他所言触动,双手合十,道了一句阿弥陀佛,也与众人道:“佛曰我不入地狱谁入地狱,岂能叫此魔再为祸人间？” Was saying the personal appearance flashes, has stood side worries eternally. 说着身形闪动,已站在万古愁身旁。 Fokuang shines, fifth-order magical treasure 【Spirit Mountain bead string】 Pinches in the hand, Spirit Mountain law seal floats in the sky, Fokuang instant shines. 佛光普照,五阶法宝【灵山珠串】捏在手中,灵山法印浮于当空,佛光瞬时普照。 cloud Heyue and Su filament know to be important, does not dare to save the selfishness again, complete/even complete/even follows. 云和月与苏纤晓得事关重大,也不敢再存私心,齐齐跟上。 Everybody already with is Six Venerables of the Grand Truth, cloud Hefeng sees this situation, in the heart complains of hardship secretly, but also can only brace oneself on. 大家既同为宏然六尊,云和风见此情形,心中暗自叫苦,但也只能硬着头皮而上。 Five people defend an corner/horn respectively, 【Min Luo】 Encircles, five daoist technique seal each other principles are connected, cast the impregnable bastion. 五人各守一角,将【闵罗】围得一圈,五道法印彼此法则相连,铸成铜墙铁壁。 【Min Luo】 Melts black phoenix vision to surround indifferently for one week, immediately debated in five people the weakest point. 【闵罗】所化黑凤冷漠地目光环绕一周,当即辩出五人中最薄弱一环。 phoenix cry sound loud, black flame burns the day again certainly, just likes calls from different world, has blocked everywhere Buddha God brilliance, such as the tide hits generally loudly to Su filament that bang! 凤鸣声再响,黑炎烧天绝地,恍若从异界唤来,挡住了漫天佛神光彩,如潮水一般向苏纤那处轰轰然撞去！ Late at night informal essay 深夜随笔 Just changed this chapter, is night. 刚刚改完这一章,已是深夜时分。 It is not very calm, suddenly wants to write a point anything. 心情很不平静,忽然想写一点什么。 These days, the work was very laborious, enterprise was not quite smooth. 这些日子,工作很辛苦,事业也不大顺利。 Said, the person the life must experience several difficult times. 都说,人一生总要经历几回艰难的时候。 I think, I have generally met like this difficultly. 我想,我大抵也遇到了这样的艰难。 In own article, my excellent writings, I have one's wish, I spoke freely. 在自己的文章中,我妙笔生花,我随心所欲,我畅所欲言。 But in the real life and work, I am not good at managing actually greatly, will not look for the relations, does not understand to be flattery greatly, will not ask for the leader to be happy. 但在现实生活和工作中,我这个人其实不大擅长经营,不会找关系,也不大懂得溜须拍马,不会讨领导开心。 The awkward in speech, only understands to quietly work hard, only knows that duties, conscientiously completes. 笨嘴笨舌的,只懂得埋头苦干,只知道把一个个任务,认认真真完成好。 This is my worry, is my helplessness. 这是我的苦恼,也是我的无奈。 This is the disposition makes it so, disappointment that also cannot complain to other people. 这是性格使然,也是不能向旁人抱怨的缺憾。 What a pity, has toiled painstakingly for 8 years, in the end does not have what result. 可惜,苦苦干了8年,到头来还是没有什么结果。 Turns head to think these years, in the innumerable days, work oneself to death work overtime in the unit, mostly get rid the part that in the life can enjoy. 回头想想这些年,无数个日子里,卖命地在单位加班,把生活中可以享受的部分大都抛弃了。 Has the little own spare time, is used to pursue own dream to write the novel that this wants to write. 有一点点自己的业余时间,又都用来追去自己的梦想写一本自己想写的小说。 My life is very senseless, because almost does not have own leisure time. 我的生活很无趣因为几乎没有属于自己的休闲时光。 But my life is also hopeful at least I also to be able with the keyboard to describe my hope. 但我的生活又充满希望至少我还可以用键盘描绘我的希望。 The person is really good to be difficult to control own destiny. 只是,人啊真是好难掌握自己的命运。 You adore spell to wrestle with every effort, may sometimes actually only be able to see that in the mirror spends, unable to fish in the water the moon/month. 你倾心尽力去拼去搏,可有时却只能看到镜中花,捞不起水中月。 Therefore, Wei Buer aspiration, is my aspiration. 所以,魏不二的心声,也是我的心声。 Wei Buer wants to stand in the Grand Truth World high place certainly, controls own destiny. 魏不二想站在宏然界高绝之处,掌握自己的命运。 My request is not high, so long as can with own effort, strive for the little proper repayment to be then enough for oneself. 我的要求不高,只要能用自己的努力,为自己争取一点点应有的回报便足够了。 I type on the keyboard today, writes Buer 【I must live】 This mood, is I in the mood in the difficulty tenaciously travelling. 我今天敲打键盘,写不二【我要活】这一段的心情,便是我在艰难中顽强行路的心情。 Writes, is somewhat excited, some are uneven, is somewhat suffering from injustice, some are not convinced. 写的时候,有些激动,有些不平,有些委屈,又有些不服气。 To try hard, wants to struggle, wants to withstand the difficulty, wants to spell to try. 想努力,想挣扎,想顶住困难,又想拼尽全力。 When Wei Buer close to the death, I really did not endure his suffering so laborious, has arranged Six Venerables of the Grand Truth for him 【Skilled artist】 The Su filament rescues. 在魏不二临近死亡的时候,我实在不忍他煎熬的如此辛苦,为他安排了宏然六尊【妙手】苏纤来救。 In the reality, do I want also to invite one „Su Xian”? 现实之中,我何尝不想也请来一位“苏纤”？ But the reality after all is not the novel. 但现实毕竟不是小说。 I can only be my Su Xian. 我只能做自己的苏纤。 Sometimes, thinks, in the trade of hypertext fiction, instead is quite fair. 有时候,想一想,网络小说的行当里,反而是比较公平的。 You can write, can write, the reader will certainly show respect for somebody's ability. 你写得好,就是写得好,读者一定会买账。 On the contrary is in the real life, the unfair uneven factor were too many. 反倒是现实生活中,不公不平的因素太多了。 Has written these many, my mood returns to normal gradually. 写了这么多,我的心情渐渐平复。 The life is unpleasant most likely. 人生不如意十之八九。 But the life will forever continue. 但生活永将继续。 The ancients said very clearly 古人已经说得很明白了 It is not pleased by external gains, is not saddened by personal losses. 不以物喜,不以己悲。 Is indifferent to personal gains and losses, looked before the courtyard , the flower blossoms to fall. 宠辱不惊,看庭前花开花落。 The staying or going has no intention, looks at space cloud woolpack stretch/leisurely. 去留无意,望天上云卷云舒。 My some net ID is cloud woolpack stretch/leisurely. 我的某个网名就是云卷云舒。 I think, gives this name, when some day is unpleasant, shows a bright way for oneself. 我想,取这个名字,就是为了在某一天不如意的时候,为自己指一条光明的路。 Late at night is very static. 深夜很静。 My nighttime sky is the orange red. 我这里的夜空是橙红色的。 Because the sky has thick cloud, but in the city is extremely also brilliantly illuminated. 因为天空有厚厚的云,而城市里又太过灯火辉煌。 My top of the head also has the thick cloud, in my heart also has the radiant light. 我头顶也有厚厚的云,我心中也有璀璨的光。 I am struggling, trying hard, striving for success, is anticipating one day, my light wears out the thick cloud, shines in the vast universe. 我挣扎着,努力着,拼搏着,期待有一天,我的光穿破厚厚的云,映照在浩瀚的宇宙中。 Has supported long night, has supported the blackest daybreak, waited for that the sunlight punctures the dark night, warm and bright sprinkles the world. 或者,撑过漫长的夜,撑过最黑的黎明,等待阳光刺破黑夜,温暖和光明遍洒人间。 I am since birth tiny, but I have the great dream. 我生来渺小,但我有伟大梦想。 The life road difficult and rough, but I will hold up the head, is hopeful, smiles slightly, the stride faces forward! 人生路艰难和坎坷很多,但我将昂起头,充满希望,微微笑着,大步朝前走着！ Wrote at March 6, 2018. 写于2018年3月6日。