Chapter 258 extreme guilty conscience 第258章极端负罪感 Is a baby, the stature results in Xiaosong lion rolling, black ink poor holds it in the bosom, pastes rolling immediately very much safely in his chest, is curling up the body. 滚滚还是个宝宝,个子跟小松狮似得,墨穷将其抱在怀里,滚滚立刻很安心地贴在他胸口,蜷着身子。 black ink brings to be first satiated with food and wine in the base poorly rolling, side Gou Ye looks envies. 墨穷带着滚滚先在基地吃饱喝足,旁边苟爷看得羡慕不已。 Without the contrast , there would be no injury, because of the pit father of silly roe deer, had no interest Gou Ye to the pet, emerged suddenly to the affection of pet. 没有对比就没有伤害,原本因为傻狍子的坑爹,对宠物没什么兴趣的苟爷,又突然兴起了对宠物的喜爱。 Gou Ye could not have endured in one side, picks up forcefully billowingly, lets crawl on him rolling, later by the billowing tumbling, was entrained directly is not angry but actually, crawls to laugh foolishly from the ground. 苟爷在一旁还耐不住,强行抱走滚滚,让滚滚在他身上爬,之后被滚滚一个翻滚,直接拽倒也不生气,从地上爬起来傻乐。 Although rolling to Gou Ye not the false word usage, but Gou Ye likes as before. 虽然滚滚对苟爷不假辞色,但苟爷依旧喜爱不已。 However regarding black ink poor, the trouble that does not place also came, that is he really cannot raise. 不过对于墨穷而言,不寄养的麻烦也来了,那就是他真的养不起。 No matter the dairy products or the bamboo root tender stem, the administration department can provide, he does not need to invite the person specially, bought directly on the line. 不管是乳制品还是竹根嫩茎,总务部都能提供,他不用专门请人,直接买来就行了。 Even so, one year light/only eats and drinks takes 200,000 dollars, commits suicide the beast simply. 但即便如此,一年光吃喝就要二十万美金,简直是吞金兽。 Is sells in the black ink poor consideration Tafij stone looks for roaming taking advantage, Gou Yebao the billowing sudden big hand is wielding said: „I leave!” 就在墨穷考虑是卖塔菲石还是找游辛借时,苟爷抱着滚滚突然大手一挥道:“我出！” The black ink poor whole body shakes, startled say/way: „Do you have money?” 墨穷浑身一震,惊道:“你不是没钱吗？” „Sold the pill wood to have, divided minute to the account.” Gou Ye said. “卖个丹木就有了,分分钟到账。”苟爷说道。 „Trench inhuman...... can your pill wooden many enough to save?” black ink said poorly. “壕无人性啊……你的丹木多到可以存起来了吗？”墨穷说道。 „No.” Gou Ye said. “没有啊。”苟爷说道。 „...... Was that was just long one batch?” black ink said poorly. “呃……那是刚长好了一批？”墨穷楞道。 „Also no, but also takes two months.” Gou Ye said. “也没有啊,还要俩月呢。”苟爷说道。 black ink said poorly startled: „This...... do you empty glove white wolf?” 墨穷愕然道:“这……你空手套白狼啊？” „What spatial glove white wolf? This called to sell ahead of time in advance! pill wooden does not have the city valuably, others first have half of advance payment, after a period of time gives the goods again, has greatly the person is willing to do.” Gou Ye said with a smile. “什么空手套白狼？这叫提前预卖！丹木有价无市,别人先出一半定金,过段时间再给货,有大把的人愿意干。”苟爷笑道。 black ink poor hurried say/way: „You did not say early that did not use you, I sold.” 墨穷急忙道:“你不早说,那不用你了,我自己卖吧。” Gou Ye sees him to insist, does not move unnecessarily. Grain that type of thing his there saves a lot, can share with the black ink poor part, but the billowing meals was different, buys administration department's good tender stem honestly. 苟爷见他坚持,也就不多此一举了。粮食那种东西他那里存得多,可以匀给墨穷一部分,但滚滚的伙食就不一样了,得老老实实地买总务部上好的嫩茎。 However reminded: „Selling one was good, you are an rookie, needs pill wooden this thing enhancement maintaining life ability, if you were too weak, will make the duty to be a drag on my. Later plants, do not take away to sell, oneself eat!” 不过还是提醒道:“卖一个就行了,你是新人,非常需要丹木这种东西增强保命能力,你要是太弱了,做任务会拖我后腿。以后种出来的,不要拿去卖,自己吃！” black ink smiles poorly, online hung to sell a pill wood, stated clearly that will sell ahead of time in advance, wants to attain six months later. 墨穷一笑,在内网上挂卖了一个丹木,言明是提前预卖,要半年后才拿得到。 Without a doubt, first gave money, then wants to attain the thing six months later, this first did not have the member of society to buy. 毫无疑问,先给了钱,然后要半年后才拿得到东西,这首先就没有社员会去买了。 Bid peripheral personnel who only then need, but in peripheral personnel that part of special need, cannot wait for a half year, bidding warmly is not high. 出价的只有需要的外围人员,但外围人员中特别需要的那一部分,也等不及半年,出价热情就不高。 Only then that local tyrant not the urgently needed pill's wooden person, will choose first subscribes. 只有那种又土豪又不急需丹木的人,才会选择先订了。 black ink waited poorly for a half hour, finally some people left 10 million, the decisive deal, black ink attained 5 million poorly. 墨穷等了半个小时,才终于有人出到了一千万,果断成交,墨穷拿到了五百万。 Later was busy at work for one hour, for bought one year of food rolling, and placed it on the empty island in own villa, was looked after by two students in turn, this held the heart. 之后又忙活了一个多小时,足足给滚滚买好了一年的食物,并把它安置在虚岛上自己的别墅中,由俩书生轮流照看,这才操完心。 „Your this panda is small, has time, you must train it to listen to your instruction, the panda will be very intelligent, waits for it to be bigger is your partner.” Gou Ye said. “你这熊猫还小,得闲的时候,你要多培养它听你的指示,熊猫很聪明,等它大一些将会是你的伙伴。”苟爷说道。 „I know, at least must enable it to understand to sway back and forth this instruction, hears me to order, immediately tumbling.” black ink said poorly. “我知道,起码也要让它能听懂打滚这个指示,一听到我命令,立刻就翻滚。”墨穷说道。 Gou Ye nods saying: „I have had an investigation assignment, in the clear island, after completing, you can freely move some time, goes home to have a look while convenient.” 苟爷点头道:“我已经接了一个调查任务,在清岛的,完成之后,你可以自由活动一段时间,顺便回家看看。” „Many thanks.” black ink said with a smile poorly. “多谢。”墨穷笑道。 „This has anything to be good to thank, now also a little time, I must look at an old friend.” Gou Ye said. “这有啥好谢的,现在还有点时间,我要去看个老朋友。”苟爷说道。 black ink thinks poorly, Gou Yelai the Canada, in the surface is leads him to get the pet, in fact wants to visit a friend. 墨穷想起来,苟爷来加拿大,表面上是带他领宠物,实际上是想探望一个朋友。 „Good, where?” black ink asked poorly. “好,在哪里？”墨穷问道。 „Oakville mental institution.” Gou Ye tranquil say/way. “奥克维尔精神病院。”苟爷平静道。 „......” Is black ink poor, goes to the mental institution to visit the friend? “……”墨穷错愕,去精神病院探望朋友？ ...... …… Oakville mental institution in a small town of Ontario. 奥克维尔精神病院在安大略省的一个小镇。 In here surface is a mental institution, in fact is one of the blue white She affiliated health insurance organizations, only receives the members of society or the peripheral personnel who collapse. 这里表面上是一家精神病院,实际上是蓝白社的旗下的医保机构之一,只接收崩溃的社员或外围人员。 Without a doubt , because the pressure is too big member of society of collapse to be few, even if there are will still cure. 毫无疑问,真的因为压力太大而崩溃的社员很少,即便有也会治好。 What here most living is by the member of society who the mind twists. 这里大多数住着的是被心灵扭曲的社员。 Was received destroyed tolerantly mental, or in contamination some unusual psychologic effect. 是被收容物摧毁了心智,或是沾染上某种异常心理效应。 Many...... is the non-solution. 很多……是无解的。 Gou Ye the friend, is one by the beta member of society who the mind twists, named Sneijder, is the white man. 苟爷的朋友,就是一个被心灵扭曲的贝塔社员,名叫斯内德,是个白人男子。 „You came......” doctor to see Gou Ye, knows that he comes to see anyone, received and instructed him to some room. “你又来了……”医生见到苟爷,就知道他是来看谁,直接引他去往某个房间。 black ink follows poorly in Gou Ye behind, entered a hospital ward, can see that in the room anything does not have, is different from the warm ornaments of other rooms completely. 墨穷跟在苟爷身后,走进了一个病房,可以看到房间内什么都没有,完全有别于其他房间的温馨摆饰。 In the entire room, only the bed, with a hanging lamp, is the dinner that a table and above mark silk have not moved. 整个房间里,仅有一张床,和一盏吊灯,还有就是一张桌子以及上面一盘纹丝未动的晚餐。 Sneijder looks wan, is kneeling in the corner, is covering the face in a low voice broken language, does not know that is doing. 斯内德形容憔悴,正跪在墙角,捂着脸低声碎语,不知道在干什么。 „Sneijder, I came to see you.” Gou Ye walks to say. “斯内德,我来看你了。”苟爷走进去说道。 Sneijder turns head, the instinct returned to one: „......” 斯内德回过头来,本能地回了一声:“狗贼……” Saying, the pupil is shrinking suddenly, the look is sad, in the look reveals the pain, with one type extremely regretted that the tone sobs: „No, what did I do? I actually called your...... me damn......” 说着,突然瞳孔一缩,神色怆然,眼神中流露出痛苦,用一种万分懊悔地语气呜咽道:“不,我干了什么？我竟然叫你狗贼……我该死……” Gou Ye look one gloomy, walks the squatting lower part of the body to support Sneijder saying: „You not wrong, I called, this had nothing to take the blame.” 苟爷眼神一黯,走过去蹲下身扶住斯内德说道:“你没有错,我就叫狗贼,这没有什么好负罪的。” Sneijder is sobbing, Gou Ye quickly takes the paper to clean the tears nasal mucus to him. 斯内德呜咽着,苟爷急忙拿出纸给他擦拭眼泪鼻涕。 Finally this behavior, makes Sneijder collapse to say once again: „No! I smeared your paper! Oh!” 结果这个行为,又一次让斯内德崩溃道:“不！我弄脏了你的纸！天哪！” „Without, you do very well, Sneijder, eats a thing.” Gou Ye the gentle voice is saying, then takes up a flake bread to hand over before his mouth. “没有没有,你做得很好,斯内德,吃点东西吧。”苟爷柔声说着,然后拿起一小片面包递在他嘴前。 But Sneijder, but also was saying crazily oneself breathed wasted the oxygen of Earth, polluted Gou Ye the skin and so on. 而那斯内德,还在疯狂地说自己呼吸浪费了地球的氧气,污染了苟爷的皮肤云云。 Gou Ye regarding this, patiently 11 comforting. 苟爷对此,都耐心地一一安抚。 Is poor in black ink that the entrance looks, saw that for the first time Gou Ye has the patience, the tone also rare ground temperature, with black ink just knew poorly his little while acts like a different person. 在门口看着的墨穷,第一次见到苟爷如此有耐心,口气也少见地温和,与墨穷刚认识他那会儿可谓判若两人。 „What sickness is this?” black ink asked in out poorly in a soft voice. “这是什么病？”墨穷在门外轻声问道。 The doctor looked at the black ink poor reply: „Extreme guilty conscience.” 医生看了墨穷一眼回答:“极端负罪感。” „Mind distortion?” “心灵扭曲？” „Yes, regardless of working, he would the feeling of guilty of command its pain regret. Even if the breath drinks water this daily minor matter, will make him feel that oneself did the huge wrong thing! In which guilty with guilty conscience, has not harmed to his body, but actually suffers his thought. Even if anything does not do, its passing memory will still turn to well up repeatedly, suffering his innermost feelings.” The doctor sighed. “是的,无论做什么事,他总会有令其痛苦懊悔的罪恶感。即便是呼吸喝水这种日常小事,都会让他觉得自己做了天大的错事！其中的愧疚与负罪感,对他的身体没有损害,但却折磨他的思想。就算什么都不做,其过往的记忆也会一遍一遍地翻涌出来,煎熬他的内心。”医生叹道。 black ink deeply inspires poorly, this is equivalent every time in suffering of guilty conscience, eats meal to drink water continually feels to have the mistake, let alone is he a member of society? 墨穷深吸一口气,这相当于每时每刻都在负罪感的折磨中,连吃饭喝水都觉得有错,更何况他还是社员？ In the duty has killed people? Has the animal always killed? The experienced words, a that each article was held the guilty conscience by in addition forcefully, should be suffering how? Fundamental constant disorder and unrest! 任务中杀过人吗？动物总杀过吧？身经百战的话,那一桩桩一件件被强行加持负罪感,又该是多么的煎熬？根本永无宁日！ „Doesn't he eat the food? Breath? Can feel stifled intentionally oneself?” black ink said poorly. “他岂不是连饭都不吃了？呼吸呢？会不会故意憋死自己？”墨穷说道。 The doctor said: „Breath is good, matter that because can only confess one to have the feeling of guilty simultaneously, painful is first highest in the guilty conscience. As the member of society, he had too many important matters ‚to be worth regretting’, rarely met the pain in the breath waste air, basically will immediately be given the shift attention by other matter.” 医生说道:“呼吸还好,因为同时只能忏悔一件有罪恶感的事,优先痛苦于负罪感最高的。作为社员,他有太多大事‘值得懊悔’了,很少会痛苦于呼吸浪费空气,基本上立刻就会被别的事给转移注意力。” „The eating meal words, most we feed normally to him, comforting while feeds. In order to avoid his pain adopts other feed methods to be pointless, because of regardless of what method, unavoidable his heart suffers. Even if forces to anaesthetize makes him go to sleep, should still have the nightmare, nightmare that type is shouldering the giant sin.” “吃饭的话,大部分我们是正常地喂给他,一边安抚一边喂。为了避免他痛苦而采取其他进食方法是没有意义的,因为无论什么方法,都无法避免他内心折磨。就算强制麻醉让他入睡,也会做噩梦,那种背负着巨大罪孽的噩梦。” black ink sighed poorly, Sneijder every time, definitely had all kinds of guilty consciences. 墨穷叹气,斯内德每时每刻,都肯定有各种各样的负罪感。 Cheated him to eat up the thing, was painful. Injects the nutrition with the anaesthesia forcefully, is painful, distinguishes not in a big way. The latter is possibly more painful. 哄骗他吃下东西,然后痛苦。与麻醉强行注射营养,然后痛苦,区别不大。后者可能更痛苦。 „Like this lived...... also too......” black ink to say poorly in a soft voice, like this he has not said lived might as well was dying the words. “这样活着……也太……”墨穷轻声说着,他没有说出这样活着还不如死了的话。 But the doctor listened, said: „We do not have the right to take his life, in the society will not give up treating, we have been finding the way to dispel this effect with every effort.” 但医生还是听出来了,说道:“我们没有权利剥夺他的生命,社里也不会放弃治疗,我们一直在想办法尽力祛除这种效应。” black ink is poor, looks at Gou Ye again, at this time convinced Sneijder to eat a bread with great difficulty. 墨穷沉默,再看苟爷,此时好不容易才劝动斯内德吃了一口面包。 But saw is nipped a bread, Sneijder was panic-stricken extremely: „! I made anything!” 但见到被咬了一口的面包,斯内德更是惊恐万分:“啊！我都做了些什么！” „Doesn't matter, this is only the bread.” Gou Yequan said. “没关系,这只是面包而已。”苟爷劝道。 But Sneijder is opening mouth painfully, does not dare to chew, both hands to become Zhaoxuan shivers in the midair, as if incomparably goes wild. 可斯内德还是痛苦地张着嘴,不敢嘴嚼,双手成爪悬于半空颤抖,似乎无比抓狂。 „I bit such big gap the bread unexpectedly! It was incomplete! It was nipped by me incompletely! Wú......” “我竟然把面包咬出了这么大的缺口！它残缺了啊！它被我咬残缺了啊！唔啊啊啊……” Was saying to be saying, Sneijder wails, as if made what seething discontent among the people, can never forgive own wrong thing. 说着说着,斯内德嚎啕大哭,似乎做了什么天怒人怨,永远不可以饶恕自己的错事。 That weeping sound incomparably regrets and desperate, as if must vomit the soul. 那哭声是无比地懊悔和绝望,仿佛要把灵魂都呕吐出来。 ...... …… ( This chapter ends) (本章完)