Before I take pen in hand, I like myself am first open its person. After I start to write, I want to open its person am you, son, although you have not turned a year old now, is a pitiful kid who cannot eat mother 's milk only to drink the powdered milk. ” 在我提笔前,我喜欢自己是第一个打开它的人。在我落笔后,我希望打开它的人是你,儿子,尽管你现在还没满周岁,是个吃不到母乳只能喝奶粉的可怜娃。” „When however you open this writes down, then please restrain grief, that time I think that has passed away. Our fathers and sons are away from 20 years of time to talk, hopes that you will become one in the future honestly good, to contributive person.” “而当你打开这本笔记时,那么请你节哀,那时的我想必已经离开人世。咱们父子隔着二十年的时光在对话,希望你将来成为一个正直善良,对社会有用的人。” Sees here, Li Xianyu smiles, this is his three days first smiling, brings warm and sad smiling. 看到这里,李羡鱼笑了笑,这是他三天来第一次笑,带着温暖和悲伤的笑。 „Hopes that you will become one in the future honestly good, to contributive person” probably is the parents in the world to the children consistent desire, even if the ferocious criminal, they also hope that oneself children become one honestly good, to contributive person. “希望你将来成为一个正直善良,对社会有用的人”大概是全世界的父母对子女一致的愿望,哪怕是穷凶极恶的罪犯,他们也希望自己的子女成为一个正直善良,对社会有用的人。 Continues to look downward: „When I am thinking, where should start to tell when this past events, then remembered that day .....” 继续往下看:“当我思索着,该从哪里开始讲述这段往事时,便想起了那一天.....” ...... ...... In the modern times, the dance hall in Shanghai stock market is the whole nation has been well-known, can see „the shang beach” from the later generation innumerable modern times film and television movie three characters, people remember it, the ballroom that will remember the debauchery, rides the ricksha to pass in and out the dancing girl in ballroom, wears the qipao, the physique is graceful. 在近代,沪市的歌舞厅一直是举国闻名的,从后世无数近代影视电影里都可以看到“shang海滩”三个字,人们想起它,就会想起灯红酒绿的舞厅,坐着黄包车进出舞厅的舞女,穿着旗袍,身姿曼妙。 The destiny of ballroom changes, with the expansion of foreign settlement culture, in 1922 Shanghai stock market presented the first ballroom, by the 30's, the dancing girl of license achieves over thousand. 舞厅的命运可谓跌宕起伏,随着租界文化的扩张,1922年沪市出现了第一家舞厅,到30年代,执照的舞女达到千名以上。 After the founding of the nation, these ballrooms disappeared, after quiet quite long years, reform and opening, ballroom then like weeds, spring breeze one, everywhere recovery. Reaches the peak in 80-90 ages. 建国后,这些舞厅就消失了,在沉寂了相当久的一段岁月后,改革开放来了,舞厅便如野草,春风一来,遍地复苏。在80-90年代达到巅峰。 Ballroom thing, the essence is placed there, must have wants the fishy mixing of good and bad people, all sorts of people, the good person unprincipled person charlatan, contains all. 舞厅这东西,本质摆在那里,少不得要乌烟瘴气龙蛇混杂,三教九流,好人坏人混子,包容一切。 Once the ingredient were complex, easy causing trouble end, therefore these scale big ballrooms, will look look at the gathering place that on several say/way mixes. 成分一旦复杂了,就容易生事端,所以那些规模大的舞厅,就会找几个道上混的看场子。 The charlatans collect the protection money, pulls up the younger sister in the ballroom, drinks, is actually doing the work of present security. 混子们收点保护费,在舞厅里撩撩妹,喝喝酒,其实就是干着现在安保的工作。 After the Li Xiong junior middle school graduates, made a debut to work as the bludger, on very famous the big brother with a say/way mixed, the dashing spirit of fearless young people, dares to go all out, dares to play ruthlessly, therefore received the big brother to recognize very much. 李雄初中毕业后就出道当混混了,跟着一位道上很有名的大哥混,初生牛犊不怕虎,敢拼命,敢玩狠的,所以很受大哥赏识。 Two years ago, the big brother is drunk, with several brothers gang rape an attractive miss, thinks that can depend on the relations and money handles, does to the miss family/home also a little to relate, wants him to eat the bullet, helpless has to travel. 两年前,大哥喝醉酒,与几个兄弟lun奸了一个漂亮姑娘,原以为可以靠着关系和钱搞定,奈何姑娘家也有点关系,非要他吃枪子,无奈只好跑路。 The big brother did not have, under the hand brothers disperse instantly, the division domain, Li Xiong also won over more than ten brothers, the hand cut the electric wire with the kitchen knife, the spark belt/bring lightning, hit several ballrooms and bars, drank, fights, soaks pick up girls, the easy life crosses very comfortably. 大哥没了,手底下的兄弟一哄而散,分割地盘,李雄也拉拢了十几个兄弟,手拿菜刀砍电线,一路火花带闪电,打了几家舞厅和酒吧,喝喝酒,打打架,泡泡妞,小日子过得非常舒坦。 The bar of ballroom corner, Li Xiong ignites the smoke, sits on the high stool, looks that in the dance floor beats time with the music, jumps the men and women of social dancing, the male, the females, is inspecting oneself territory like the lion, is catching an attractive lioness on the crazy copulation. 舞厅角落的吧台,李雄点着烟,坐在高凳上,看着舞池里随着音乐打拍子,跳交谊舞的男女,男男,女女们,就像雄狮在巡视自己的领地,逮着个漂亮的雌狮就疯狂交配。 Three little brothers sit side him, directs, this said the eldest child, that little girl is good. That said the eldest child, red skirt that little girl you have not rested, did not rest the little brother on. 三个小弟坐在他身边,指指点点,这个说老大,那个妞儿不错。那个说老大,红裙子那个妞您还睡不,不睡小弟就上了。 The charlatans, fight to look at the gathering place, the beauty is also naturally essential. 混子嘛,打架看场子,美色自然也是不可缺少的。 Li Xiong as this piece of eldest child, the junction of his managing dried fish on today on the scene, then has three. 李雄作为这一片的老大,他的管鲍之交就今天在场的,便有三个。 A little brother points at obviously is being a respectable family, could not have let loose the young girl of hands and feet in the ballroom, said grinningly: I want her. 一个小弟指着明显是个良家,在舞厅还放不开手脚的年轻女孩,笑嘻嘻说:我要她。 A Li Xiong close to slap on his face. 李雄一巴掌扇在他脸上。 Little brother suffering held saying that why the eldest child hit me. 小弟委屈的抱着头说,老大干嘛打我。 Li Xiong was foul-mouthed, told many times you, we worked as the bludger, played to turn over to play, the small respectable family do not go to damage. 李雄骂骂咧咧说,跟你讲多少次,咱们当小混混的,玩归玩,小良家就别去祸害了。 The little brother said hastily, 小弟连忙说,是是是,还是老大觉悟高,老大良心未泯。 Then truncated scalp. 然后又被削头皮。 Eventually is the marketplace bludger, cuts has fought excellently, but is unable to lick the blood with the cutting edge true black astringent will place on a par. Without is so ferocious, mixed moistening, is then well satisfied. The deal of killing a person and taking his possessions cannot do. 终究是市井混混,砍过人打过架,但远无法与刀口舔血的真正黑涩会相提并论。没那么穷凶极恶,混的很滋润,便心满意足。杀人越货的勾当也干不出来。 That age, the true big brothers are in the moon's orbit have the relations, if the marketplace bludger is unable to establish that matter relations, can only be a bludger for a lifetime. 那个年代,真正的大哥都是白道上有关系的,市井混混若无法搭上那层关系,一辈子就只能是混混。 Li Xiong looked at gold watch in the wrist/skill, did not say patiently: „How Pingping has not come.” 李雄看了眼手腕上的金表,不耐烦道:“萍萍怎么还没来。” Three little brothers curl the lip quietly, this eldest child, just added that cannot damage the respectable family, turned the head oneself to hit the face. 三小弟悄悄撇嘴,这老大,刚刚还说不能祸害良家,转头就自己打脸了。 Pingping is a tender flower that Li Xiong had a liking for recently, the slim and graceful respectable family miss, comes to the ballroom to play one time with the friend, stared by Li Xiong, then clings to for dear life hits rottenly, various entanglements, said that the woman of integrity fears to entangle the court attendant, look two people quickly on good. 萍萍是李雄最近看上的一朵娇花,亭亭玉立的良家姑娘,跟着朋友来舞厅玩过一次,就被李雄盯上了,接着就死缠烂打,各种纠缠,都说烈女怕缠郎,这不,两人很快就好上了。 Meaning that actually the miss also a little yields with a show of reluctance, must very be really bad to the Li Xiong impression, a werewolf family/home also stick that entangles again kills to you, only if you work as the overlord, on hard. 其实那姑娘也有点半推半就的意思,要真对李雄观感很差,再缠的狼人家也一棍子给你打死,除非你当霸王,硬上。 „You do not understand, I and you may be different, when I marry to go home Pingping, I wash off, is not dry.” Li Xiong said. “你们不懂,我和你们可不一样,等我把萍萍娶回家,我就金盆洗手,不干了。”李雄说。 „We what to do.” “那我们怎么办啊。” „Eldest child, when the bludger prosperity, for why a woman gives up the enterprise.” “老大,当混混前程似锦,何必为了一个女人放弃事业呢。” „Yes, this year the state-owned enterprise lay-off unrest is so fierce, my cousins were unemployed, works as the bludger to be good. The bludger is the motherland's future hope, is the prospect of people.” “就是,今年国企下岗风潮这么厉害,我表哥都失业了,还是当混混好啊。混混是祖国未来的希望,是人民的前景。” The little brothers expressed, if the eldest child walked, they ten came individual, definitely could not preserve these gathering places, when the time comes they also followed to come off sentry duty. 小弟们表示很慌,老大要是走了,就他们十来个人,肯定保不住这几个场子,到时候他们也跟着下岗。 „That was the later matter, said again said again.” Li Xiong beckons with the hand. “那都是以后的事了,再说再说。”李雄摆摆手。 Although he has such thought that but also said when does not permit itself to get married, the young people, always felt that gets married and begins a career to oneself, moreover his money has not gained enough, in family/home except for two suites, no deposit, shabby. 他虽有这样的念头,但也说不准自己什么时候结婚,年轻人嘛,总感觉成家立业离自己还远着,而且他钱还没赚够,家里除了两套房,没啥存款,寒碜的很呐。 A mouth not mouth is chatting, the middle little brother towed one in the dancing girl of ballroom work, to go to the lane that after ballroom the people ganged up merrily. 有一嘴没一嘴的闲聊着,中间一个小弟拖着一个在舞厅工作的舞女,狗男女勾勾搭搭的去了舞厅后的巷子里快活去了。 Behind the ballroom lane was similar the woods in afterward university, nowadays, the young men and women are not fragile, but must open room anything, the condition did not permit, usually was public sex( day word, everyone search). 舞厅后面的巷子类似于后来大学里的树林子,这年头,年轻男女没那么娇气,还得开个房什么的,条件也不允许,通常都是青奸(日语词,大家别搜索)。 The speed is not so fast but so slow neither, after ten minutes, the people came back, the woman cheek blushed has not drawn back, hangs the charming smiling face to enter the dance floor, the little brother sat in brothers several sides drinks. 速度不快不慢,十来分钟后,狗男女就回来了,女人脸蛋红晕未退,挂着娇媚的笑容又进了舞池,小弟则坐在兄弟几个身边喝酒。 „Wears the hat.” Li Xiong asks immediately. “有没有戴帽子啊。”李雄立刻问。 The little brother said that does not have. 小弟说没有呢。 Said that then suffered a palm of the hand. 说完便挨了一巴掌。 „Sooner or later AIDS, remembers to me next time, knows does not have.” Li Xiong felt when one big brother become the father, the heart is very tired. “迟早得艾滋,下次给我记得,知道没。”李雄觉得自己又当大哥又当爹,心很累。 The little brothers age is smaller than him, since follows he to mix, cannot patronize making money, when big brother’s aspects must look, comes out to mix, the brothers forever are first. 小弟们年纪都比他小,既然跟着他混,就不能光顾着挣钱,当大哥的方方面面都得照顾到,出来混嘛,兄弟永远是第一位。 Competent that his eldest child works as, the little brothers are also willing to keep off the knife for him, only he follows the lead. 他这个老大当的称职,小弟们也愿意为他挡刀子,唯他马首是瞻。 Is saying, Pingping came, is delicate person, wears the white shirt, the blue long skirt, is in full bloom like one in the night lily. 正说着,萍萍来了,是个清秀的可人儿,穿着白衬衫,蓝色长裙,像一朵盛开在夜间的百合花。 She also draws the pale makeup today, the facial features seem specially fine, a pair of pupil is juicy, is rare Beautiful woman. 她今天还画了淡妆,五官显得特别精致,一双眸子水灵水灵的,是个不可多得的小美人。 „Sister-in-law is good.” The little brothers greeted. “嫂子好。”小弟们纷纷打招呼。 Li Xiong goes forward to put arms around shoulders with a smile, but was patted by a Pingping palm of the hand, gave back to white one. 李雄笑着上前勾肩搭背,但被萍萍一巴掌拍开,还给白了一眼。 Pingping has played to be very late in the ballroom, Li Xiong looked at the gold watch, he raises the wrist/skill intentionally, to Pingping looked gold watch that oneself buy newly, this is the rich obscene symbol, his is showing off own financial resource to the girlfriend. 萍萍在舞厅里一直玩到很晚,李雄看了看金表,他故意把手腕扬起,给萍萍看自己新买的金表,这是有钱淫的象征,他这是在向女朋友炫耀自己的财力。 Looked at the gold watch, Li Xiong said: „Pingping, I deliver you to go home, recently Shanghai stock market was not peaceful, has in the abnormal homicidal maniac night to start to the attractive little miss specially, next door Jing'an had died two people.” 看完金表,李雄说:“萍萍呀,我送你回家吧,最近沪市不太平,有变态杀人狂专门深夜里对漂亮小姑娘下手,隔壁静安已经死了两人了。” „I do not want, my father was most repugnant you, must make him know that you delivered me to go home, then must say me.” Pingping shakes the head the rejection, where is rejects, clearly yields with a show of reluctance, the excuse that wants to resist also to welcome. “我才不要,我爸最讨厌你了,要让他知道你送我回家,回头又得说我。”萍萍摇头拒绝,哪里是拒绝,分明是半推半就,欲拒还迎的说辞。 The women are artificial. 女人就是矫情。 Li Xiong likes her artificial, the artificial girl is occasionally attractive, the sour odor that fully smells the love, too also called to be in love sanely properly. 李雄就是喜欢她的矫情,一个偶尔矫情的女孩才有魅力,让人充分的嗅到恋爱的酸臭味,太理智太正经还叫谈恋爱吗。 Two people are holding hands to leave the ballroom, three little brothers follow after behind, maintains a distance, is not good to depend too nearly will become the eldest child and future sister-in-law's electric lamp bulb. 两人牵着手离开舞厅,三个小弟跟在身后,保持一段距离,不好靠的太近当老大和未来大嫂的电灯泡。 „, I am your several girlfriend.” Pingping asking suddenly. “呐,我是你第几个女朋友啊。”萍萍冷不丁的问。 „First.” Li Xiong never imagined, perfect score reply. “第一个。”李雄想都没想,满分回答。 „I do not believe.” She snort/hum, should not be excessive, to him did not look corners of the mouth that oneself turn upwards slightly. “我才不信。”她哼了一声,别过头,不给他看自己微微翘起的嘴角。 „Really is the first love, you have not grown up.” Li Xiong vision in the chest of Pingping: „But is unimportant, I will be responsible for raising its one.” “真的是初恋,你都还没长大呢。”李雄目光顿在萍萍的胸口:“但是不要紧,我会负责把它一手带大。” Pingping does not want to understand from the beginning, looks following his vision to own chest, immediately understands, hit his gently: „You, my father said right, is a bad embryo, later really marries you, having a son is also a bad embryo.” 萍萍一开始没想明白,顺着他的目光看向自己胸口,立刻就懂了,轻轻打了他一下:“你这个人,我爸说的没错,就是个坏胚,以后真的嫁给你啊,生个儿子也是个坏胚。” Then, she hmph hmph two: „In the future the son will not give you to bring, I teach.” 说完,她哼哼两声:“将来儿子不给你带,我自己来教。” On Li Xiong mouth „ehm” responding, is thinking at heart, in the future will really have the son, must teach surely him „outstanding” boy, words that the condition permits, but must lead him to make a debut. 李雄嘴上“嗯嗯啊啊”的应着,心里在想,将来真的有了儿子,定要把他教导成一个“优秀”的男孩,条件允许的话,还要带他出道。 When they pass through the avenue, when enters an alley, Li Xiong hears the stuffy hum/snort suddenly, is the body falls in the sound of ground. 当他们走过大街,进入一条小巷时,李雄突然听到闷哼声,紧接着是身体摔在地上的声音。 Vacant has looked back, being startled, they do not know behind were when many stranger, but that three little brothers have fallen down, as if the stupor, from was a little far, dark, did not look clearly. 茫然中回过头看去,大吃一惊,他们身后不知何时多了陌生人,而那三个小弟已经倒在地上,似乎昏迷了,距离有点远,黑灯瞎火的,看不真切。 The Li Xiong first response is the enemy stays at a selected place the retaliation, in the Hong Kong movie develops, the battle between mass organizations, the assassination mass organization eldest child's program fences to be just about to more than mass organizations among forever hardly. 李雄第一反应是仇家蹲点报复,香江电影里都是这么演的,社团间的争斗,暗杀社团老大的戏码永远比社团之间操刀硬刚要多。 May change mind thinks, is not right, my one marketplace bludger, small scale how many gathering places looks, what virtue what can with having the treatment of assassination? 可转念一想,不对啊,我就一个市井混混,小打小闹的看着几家场子,何德何能配拥有暗杀的待遇？ „Friend, what do you mean. Sought the wealth to ask the domain?” Side Li Xiong hints Pingping should not be startled, bends the waist to carry to start a brick, with long hurried strides walks. “朋友,你这是什么意思。求财还是求地盘？”李雄示意萍萍不要惊慌,弯腰拎起脚边的一块板砖,大步流星走过去。 Fights he never to fear, a brick I have in the hand world, he once had to carry is moving bricks expels three score that causes the fruit knife bludger. 打架他从来不怕,一砖在手天下我有,他曾经有拎着搬砖打跑三个使水果刀混混的战绩。 Li Xiong stopped suddenly, he smelled the smell of blood, thick smell of blood, at this time distance of both sides, be only ten meters were less, he saw clearly finally, three little brothers were not the stupors, died. 李雄忽然停了下来,他闻到了血腥味,浓浓的血腥味,此时双方的距离只有十米不到了,他终于看清,三个小弟不是昏迷了,是死了。 They fall down, the large share large share blood spread from their bodies, changes to the pool of blood. 他们倒在地上,大股大股的鲜血从他们身下蔓延出来,化作血泊。 In the darkness, two grains of scarlet rays ignite, probably hidden the devil in abyss is gazing at you. 黑暗中,两粒猩红的光芒燃起,像是隐藏在深渊里的恶魔在注视着你。 „How wonderful virgin, is really the excellent cauldron furnace, tonight is really night of the harvest.” “多么美妙的处子,真是极好的鼎炉,今晚真是个丰收之夜。” Li Xiong only hears clearly these words with enough time, an arm passed through his chest, the mysterious man moves the arm gently, flings to fly to hit on him the alley wall, is the Pingping panic-stricken squeal, as well as laughing wildly of mysterious man. 李雄只来得及听清这句话,一只手臂贯穿了他的胸膛,神秘男人轻轻甩动手臂,把他甩飞撞到小巷墙壁上,然后是萍萍惊恐的尖叫声,以及神秘男人的狂笑。 The cell phone carries m.om no advertisement xin81zhongwnxioshuowng 手机端m.om无广告xin81zhongwnxioshuowng