„I have not bullied her.” “我没有欺负她。” „Real, am I always impossible to hit one her again? We are the artist, Artist!” “真的啊,我总不可能再把她打一顿吧？我们都是艺术家,艺术家！” When Giselle cries aloud, Huai Shi is scratching the head with Ai Qing explained: „We friendly exchanged one. I gave back to her to discover many ability flaws, she must me tell that thanked.” 在吉赛尔哇哇大哭的时候,槐诗正挠着头跟艾晴解释:“我们只是友好的交流了一下啊。我还给她找出了不少能力的缺陷,她要跟我说谢谢呢。” „Oh?” “喔？” Ai Qing looks at Giselle's appearance, „her expression may not seem like must to you say appearance that thanks.” 艾晴看着吉赛尔的样子,“她那表情可不像是要对你说谢谢的样子啊。” „Unpalatable advice benefits one's conduct, truth seldom sounds pleasant.” “良药苦口,忠言逆耳啊。” The Huai Shi blasting said: „I also teach her to sing! She will have sung the small star.” 槐诗震声说:“我还教她唱歌呢！她已经会唱小星星了。” „Real?” “真的吗？” Is comforting the Francesco eyes of companion one brightly, in the heart the great happiness, such later can communicate the music with Giselle? 正在安慰同伴的弗朗西斯科眼睛一亮,心中大喜,这样以后自己岂不是可以跟吉赛尔交流音乐了？ This type matter? 还有这种好事儿？ He said: „Thanks!” 他说:“谢谢嗷！” „You look.” “你看。” Huai Shi lets go to Ai Qing innocently, I have said. 槐诗向艾晴无辜摊手,我都说过了。 But Ai Qing after a being a long story facial expression looked at him quite a while, nod that understands clearly: „Although does not know that what happened, however your words...... but actually also normally.” 而艾晴用一种一言难尽的神情看了他半天之后,了然的点头:“虽然不知道发生了什么事情,但是你的话……倒也正常。” Why you will reveal this look that looks at the dirty thing! 那你为什么会露出这种看脏东西的眼神！ Huai Shi covers the face. 槐诗捂脸。 Felt that this matter could not explain. 感觉这事儿解释不清了。 But Ai Qing, is carefully examining the present Huai Shi appearance, cannot see what thin and pale and exhausted appearance, asked: „All right?” 而艾晴,审视着如今槐诗的样子,看不出什么憔悴和疲惫的样子,问道:“没事？” „Un, condition excellent.” “嗯,状态绝佳。” Huai Shi nodded, looks to Francesco: „That, then? Comes showdown between a musicians? Ahead of time reaches an agreement, the accordion I cannot.” 槐诗点头,看向了弗朗西斯科:“那么,接下来呢？来一场乐师之间的对决？提前说好,手风琴我可不会。” „Exempted, the cello I am not good.” “免了,大提琴我也不行。” After Francesco comforted Giselle, could not bear shake the head: „Mr. Paganini said to me, discussed with the cello purely, you have held the post of the seat of honor of association basso sufficiently.” 弗朗西斯科安慰完了吉赛尔之后,忍不住摇头:“帕格尼尼先生对我说,纯以大提琴而论,你已经足以担任协会低音部的首席了。” „Your performance I have listened.” “你的演奏我听过。” His honest telling Huai Shi: „Truth said, I have not won your assurance.” 他坦诚的告诉槐诗:“实话说,我没有赢你的把握。” Huai Shi asked: „That, can surrender?” 槐诗问:“那么,要投降么？” Francesco shakes the head decisively: „ Beforehand explained, this belongs to resist stubbornly purely, you thought that does not know the good and evil not to relate. However, so long as you can play this music, I admit defeat. 弗朗西斯科断然摇头:“事先说明,这纯粹属于负隅顽抗,你觉得不识好歹也没有关系。但是,只要你能演奏出这一份乐谱,我就认输。 How when the time comes wants to discuss that are not related. ” 到时候想怎么谈都没关系。” Saying, he put out a hand, is in front of Huai Shi to untie the neckband, then, drew the zipper to be the same probably, tore own skin and rib, from the heart of putsation, took out a small block. 说着,他伸手,当着槐诗的面解开了领口,然后,好像拉拉链一样,扯开了自己的皮肤和肋骨,从搏动的心脏之中,取出了一个小小的方块。 In instance that the metal block of thumb size presents, everyone at present starts faint swaying, the consciousness moves fast. After the block unties layer upon layer, fell into his hand, is one pack of broken and ancient music movements. 在拇指大小的金属方块出现的瞬间,所有人的眼前就开始隐隐的摇晃,意识飘忽。而当方块层层解开之后,落入了他的手中的,便是一叠残破而古老的乐章。 Ai Qing has put aside the eye. 艾晴已经移开了眼睛。 She cannot see clearly the above character, is not willing to look. 她看不清上面的字符,也不愿意多看。 Instinct can feel, twines above elementium, or has formed the essence holds to read, so pure curse! 只是本能的能够感受到,缠绕在上面的源质,或者说,已经形成实质的执念,如此纯粹的诅咒！ She frowns. 她皱起了眉头。 But Huai Shi, also frowns. 而槐诗,同样也皱起眉头。 This is one...... 这是一份…… „Violin music?” “小提琴乐谱？” Huai Shi is pinching the chin. 槐诗捏着下巴。 The feeling is a little troublesome. 感觉有点麻烦。 Even the construction is the same, seemingly has no too big difference, but the cello and violin as before are two types of different musical instruments. 即便形制相同,看上去没啥太大的区别,但大提琴和小提琴依旧是两种不同的乐器。 Even if similarly is the 5 lines, still has division of treble and bass, although between both unqualified high, but from performance, completely it can be said that different domains. 就算同样是五线谱,也有高音和低音之分,两者之间虽然无分高下,但从表现上来说,完全可以说是不同的领域。 What is lucky, before directed Yuan Yuan time, Huai Shi has the substantial experiences. 万幸的是,之前指点原缘的时候,槐诗已经有了不少经验。 Simply has not considered the rejection. 根本没有考虑过拒绝。 He is carrying the collection of music scores, is staring at the music movement of above complex change, for a long time, asked suddenly: „Do I use the cello? However, many melodies need to adjust the change and range slightly.” 他端着曲谱,凝视着上面纷繁变化的乐章,许久,忽然问:“我用大提琴可以么？不过,很多旋律需要稍微的进行音域的变化和调整。” „Wanting is this music score on the line.” “只要是这一份谱子就行。” Francesco sees him to agree, immediately also relaxes, but warned as before prudently: „ First reached an agreement, it is very harsh to the condition of performer, once starts, the consequence of failure is also very serious. If you have not grasped, can reject. 弗朗西斯科眼看他同意,顿时也松了口气,可依旧慎重警告:“先说好了,它对演奏者的条件很苛刻,一旦开始,失败的后果也很严重。如果你没有把握的话,可以拒绝。 Our other thinks other resolution formats. ” 我们另外想其他的解决方式。” Huai Shi had not replied, but is looking at the music movement in hand, suddenly asked: „Is this music score to you, very important?” 槐诗没有回答,只是看着手中的乐章,忽然问:“这一份谱子对你而言,很重要么？” Francesco has not spoken. 弗朗西斯科没有说话。 But Huai Shi had not asked again, is only silent reading, for a long time, looks suddenly to the side: „Does concert hall borrow to use?” 而槐诗也没再问,只是沉默的阅读,许久,忽然看向身旁:“演奏厅借来用一下？” In the corner, does not know the head who when presents has waited for a long time. 角落里,不知何时出现的负责人已经等待已久。 This moment hears word, on the old face appeared joyful and anticipation. 此刻闻言,苍老的面孔上浮现了欣喜和期待。 „Has prepared, awaits respectfully your arrival momentarily, your excellency.” “都已经准备好了,随时恭候您的驾临,阁下。” After three minutes, the front door of concert hall opens slowly. 三分钟后,演奏厅的大门缓缓开启。 Above stage that the fine dust does not dye, has prepared all. 纤尘不染的舞台之上,已经准备好了所有。 The preparation is perfect. 准备完美无缺。 But head regrettable looks at the spacious seat position, silent sigh. What a pity the time is extremely tight, without the audience, otherwise oneself can also call enough old friends to appreciate this performance...... 而负责人遗憾的看着空旷的坐席位,无声叹息。可惜时间太过仓促,没有观众,否则自己还能召集到足够的老朋友们来欣赏这一场演出…… „No need, this is good.” “不必,这样就好。” Huai Shi indifferent beckoning with the hand, walked two steps, the doubts looks to behind Ai Qing. 槐诗无所谓的摆手,走了两步,疑惑的看向身后的艾晴。 She also stands in out of the door, does not seem like the idea of watching. 她还站在门外,似乎并没有观赏的想法。 „Don't you come?” “你不来么？” „, You went, will not have what accident/surprise in any case.” Ai Qing said, „happen to have the time, I planned that discussed with Miss Giselle well.” “不了,你去吧,反正也不会有什么意外。”艾晴说,“正好有时间,我打算和吉赛尔小姐好好谈一谈。” Although has not stated clearly, but she as if harbors the contradiction to the concert hall as before. 虽然没有明说,但她似乎依旧对演奏厅怀有抵触。 It is not willing to approach. 不愿意靠近。 „I come back quickly.” “那我很快回来。” Huai Shi waved, moved toward the bandstand. 槐诗挥手,走向了演奏台。 The front door is closed in him behind. 大门在他身后关闭。 Under the light of focus, the gloomy music movement as if lives to be the same, complicated gloomy aura from extends, has occupied in the entire concert hall, making the Huai Shi movement stagnate. 聚焦的灯光之下,晦暗的乐章仿佛活过来一样,千丝万缕的阴暗气息从其中延伸而出,已经盘踞在了整个演奏厅之内,令槐诗的动作有所停滞。 Underestimate. 还是,低估了。 In this music movement contains holds to read and curse. 这一份乐章里所蕴藏的执念和诅咒。 The frontline of auditorium, Francesco also somewhat is restless, is nipping own nail, oneself must be more anxious than Huai Shi. 就连观众席的最前方,弗朗西斯科也有些坐立不安,咬着自己的指甲,比槐诗本人还要更加紧张。 He has never seen this music movement so active appearance. 他从未见到过这一份乐章如此活跃的样子。 Fierce and brutal, as if in which strange thing must shake off the shackles, selects the person to bite. 凶暴的,仿佛其中的诡异之物要挣脱枷锁,择人而噬。 The terrifying chill in the air is dense. 恐怖的寒意氤氲。 As if there is invisible palm to stretch out after behind darkness, is touching own cheeks, is pulling his soul, little toward twittering. 仿佛有无形的手掌从身后的黑暗中伸出,抚摸着自己的脸颊,拉扯着他的灵魂,一点点的向着呢喃之中。 Come! Come! 过来！过来！ That familiar sound is shouting. 那个熟悉的声音在呼喊。 Toward him. 向着他。 Comes to here! 到这里来！ Francesco shakes the head: „Or......” 弗朗西斯科摇头:“要不……” „Starts.” “开始吧。” Huai Shi sat on the chair, gripped the zither | Jean bow of cello, hangs the pupil to stare at the present music movement. 槐诗坐在了椅子上,握住了大提琴的琴弓,垂眸凝视着眼前的乐章。 Also, after these mobile notes, turns toward the gloomy and cold face that here throws faintly. 还有,那些流动的音符之后,隐隐向着此处投来的阴冷面孔。 Just like weighing qualifications of future. 宛如衡量着来者的资格那样。 Is away from that volume of incomplete music movements, seemed away from the gate of death to be the same, deceased held to read with demented and can each other look at each other with the technique of living. 仅仅是隔着那一卷残缺的乐章,仿佛隔着死亡之门一般,逝者的执念和癫狂和生者的技艺和才能彼此对视着。 Ambush in music movement holds to read and curse is regaining consciousness. 潜伏在乐章之中的执念和诅咒在苏醒。 The music movement that soul of dead constitutes, opened the eye of nihility, is carefully examining own Challenger. 亡者的灵魂所构成的乐章,睁开了虚无的眼睛,审视着自己的挑战者。 In that flash, Huai Shi is smiling, sounded the first note. 正在那一瞬间,槐诗微笑着,拉响了第一个音符。 The deathly stillness from this flickers is broken, the string sound that sad and shrill sharp as if weeps blood to cry out raises from the hand of Huai Shi, imitates, if sharp blade such, passed through the body of Francesco. 死寂自这一瞬被打破,凄厉尖锐仿佛泣血呐喊的弦音自槐诗的手中升起,仿若利刃那样,贯穿了弗朗西斯科的身体。 Made him by ‚nail’ above the auditorium. 令他被‘钉’在了观众席之上。 The Disaster Musician instinct controlled his body, making him stare the big eye, gives up hesitant, concentrating on witnesses the performance that this soul is deducting! 灾厄乐师的本能控制了他的身体,让他瞪大眼睛,放弃犹豫,全神贯注的见证着这一场灵魂所演绎的表演！ He gnaws to eat the nail subconsciously, forgets the finger already the dripping with blood. 他下意识的啃食着指甲,忘记手指已经鲜血淋漓。 The eye pupil is producing an inverted image performer under the spotlight. 眼瞳倒映着聚光灯之下的演奏者。 Forgot the breath. 忘记了呼吸。 „Really beautiful......” “真美啊……” Then is ordinary just like Taiyang (Sun), combustion soul! 那宛如太阳一般,燃烧的灵魂！ Also, stabbing pain the magnificent light of his eye pupil...... 还有,刺痛了他眼瞳的辉煌之光…… When dissipates after the devastation eardrum common sad and shrill sound, just like weeping with grief the common low and deep melody in resounds from the cry of zither | Jean box, sound of nihility changes into the mighty current, embezzled all. 当宛如蹂躏耳膜一般的凄厉声响消散之后,宛如悲泣一般的低沉旋律自琴箱的鸣动之中响起,虚无的声音化为洪流,吞没了一切。 Covered the entire concert hall. 覆盖了整个演奏厅。 Just like crashing into deep deep pool same suffocates to follow, that reposes, in pain meaning inscribed in soul of each audience, but bore the brunt...... 宛如坠入深潭一样的窒息紧随其后,将那寄托在其中的苦痛意味铭刻在了每一个听众的灵魂里,而首当其冲的…… Is a performer! 是演奏者！ In the touching and dismal melody, Huai Shi had forgotten oneself is where. 凄婉又悲凉的旋律之中,槐诗已经忘记了自己身在何处。 In absent-minded, he as if saw the present music movement silent change, from the deduction of melody during, the outline of nihility from appears, as if greedy and cruel resentment spirits such, twines on his body. 在恍惚之中,他仿佛看见了眼前的乐章无声的翻动,自旋律的演绎之中,虚无的轮廓从其中浮现,仿佛贪婪又残忍的怨灵那样,缠绕在他的身上。 Little, covered his body. 一点点的,覆盖了他的身体。 It seems like, offers sacrifices to be the same! 就好像是,献祭一样！ Is making inquiries into soul of performer. 叩问着演奏者的灵魂。 That confused and strange note overlaps in the same place, gathers in soul, serves with the pain and suffering, brought never the satisfied hunger and thirst request. 那错乱而诡异的音符重叠在一起,汇聚在灵魂之中,施以痛楚和折磨,带来了永不满足的饥渴要求。 It said: 它说: Gives me, your eye! 给我,你的眼睛！ The performance has not stopped, even, has not had the slight hesitation and stop, the melody evolution that calls out in grief, made the straightforwardest response forward. 演奏并未曾停止,甚至,未曾有丝毫的犹豫和停顿,那悲鸣的旋律向前演进,做出了最直白的回应。 Take away! 拿去！ That flash, the melody of nihility, seemed given the life. 那一瞬间,虚无的旋律,仿佛被赋予了生命。 In the spacious concert hall, at this moment actually seems so crowded. 空旷的演奏厅中,此刻却显得如此拥挤。 In the frontline, Francesco felt obviously own all alone, but here actually becomes so crowded. Probably had the countless audience to cast own vision from the death end. 就在最前方,弗朗西斯科明明感觉自己孤身一人,可此处却又变得如此拥挤。好像有数之不尽的观众从死亡的尽头投来了自己的目光。 Is witnessing all these...... 见证着这一切…… But Huai Shi, has looked to disappear. 而槐诗,已经看不见了。 The eye pupil is empty. 眼眸空洞。 The melody that the cello plays had been given the life, takes discarding a pupil as the price, opened the second music movement! 大提琴所演奏出的旋律已经被赋予了生命,以舍弃眼眸为代价,开启了第二乐章！ Hysteric joy and frantic, since vibrato with continually interlocking of bow, deducts demented liking in composing distortion soul, opens the Hell front door to be the same probably. 歇斯底里的欣喜和狂热,自颤音和连顿弓的交错之中,演绎出谱写者扭曲灵魂内的癫狂欢喜,就好像打开地狱的大门一样。 Void, transmitted the song of response to sing. 虚空之中,传来了回应的颂唱。 From Huai Shi behind, incomplete outlines appeared, concentrate on the frantic song to sing once were buried in the musicians under this music movement, during these are listening respectfully to the audience who rushed to the dead end, is returning step by step, joins during this full frantic performance. 自槐诗的身后,一个个残缺的轮廓浮现,专注狂热的颂唱曾经葬身在这一部乐章之下的乐师们,那些在聆听之中奔向末路的观众们,正在一步步的归来,加入这酣畅淋漓的狂热演奏之中去。 But the price is 而代价是 Right foot. 右足。 The Huai Shi movement is continuing as before, the performance has not stopped, he is smiling, immerses during this performance, concentrates on, when even lost the right foot also did not care at all. 槐诗的动作依旧在继续,演奏未曾停止,他微笑着,沉浸在这演奏之中,全神贯注,甚至就连自己什么时候失去了右脚也都毫不在意。 Take away! 拿去！ Under stage, expression distortion of Francesco. 在台下,弗朗西斯科的表情扭曲。 Felt that own soul as if splits. 感觉自己的灵魂仿佛分裂。 Half is listening respectfully to rejoicing and liking of excellent performance fortunately, may have half, is to Huai Shi the grief and regret. 有一半是有幸聆听着绝妙演奏的庆幸和欢喜,可还有一半,是对槐诗的悲悯和懊悔。 Sorry, sorry, sorry. 对不起,对不起,对不起。 This is my mistake! 这都是我的错！ But,...... could not have stopped. 可是,已经……停不下来了。 That music movement unceasing demanding, will strive for toward the performer, is used to fill itself, completes itself, loses all until the performer, cannot continue. 那一首乐章会不断的索求,向着演奏者所求更多,用来填补自身,完成自己,直到演奏者失去所有,无以为继。 As if the devil is the same. 仿佛恶魔一样。 But isn't the so-called art, this? So-called Disaster Musician, should be so right! 可所谓的艺术,难道不就是这样么？所谓的灾厄乐师,就应该如此才对！ He is trembling, looking forward, is looking up to the form on stage. 他颤栗着,憧憬着,仰望着台上的身影。 Immerses in melody that in he plays, that such as the steel sounds the common clang, world rotation same grand chanting in a low voice, and even burns down all heroical melody. 沉浸在他所演奏出的旋律里,那如钢铁鸣叫一般的铿锵,天地轮转一样的宏伟低吟,乃至焚烧所有的壮烈曲调。 That flash, the hunger and thirst music movement stretched out the palm again. 那一瞬间,饥渴的乐章再度伸出了手掌。 Gives me, your heart! 给我,你的心脏！ Huai Shi is speechless, just likes has not heard, above the incomplete face, silent grinning, the movement has not had the slight stagnation, the full power deduction, makes up this not melody completely. 槐诗无言,恍若未闻,残缺的面孔之上,无声的咧嘴,动作未曾有丝毫的停滞,全力的演绎,补完着这未尽的旋律。 Take away! 拿去！ Therefore, as if the thunder common cry burst out from the performance, making the melody of that nihility be given the heart, was the same just like burning down Giant, from deduction, stride racing line/traverse. 于是,仿佛雷霆一般的鸣动从演奏中迸发,令那虚无的旋律被赋予了心脏,宛如焚烧的巨人一样,自演绎中,大步奔行。 Toward the death and unknown end, sent out own roaring toward the world. 向着死亡和未知的尽头,向着世界发出了自己的咆哮。 In the spacious concert hall, forms appears, the viewers from Hell by the summon of this distant place was attracted. 就在空旷的演奏厅之中,一个又一个的身影浮现,来自地狱中的观赏者们被这远方的呼唤所吸引。 But in the final side of auditorium, silent had/left a chair, on the chair the skinny man was supporting own chin, listened attentively dedicated. 而就在观众席的最后方,无声的多出了一张椅子,椅子上枯瘦的男人撑着自己的下巴,专注倾听。 In side, the head detected that his back, had a big shock, wants to speak, actually saw unhappy look that he casts aside. 在旁边,负责人察觉到了他的背影,大惊失色,想要说话,却看到了他撇来的不快眼神。 A skeleton common finger lifts slightly. 一根骸骨一般的手指微微抬起。 „!” “嘘！” Keeps quiet. 保持安静。 Because, takes the life as the performance of price, is continuing! 因为,以生命为代价的演奏,正在继续！ But in that flash, the curse in music movement, extended own hand for the last time. 而就在那一瞬间,乐章之中的诅咒,最后一次伸出了自己的手。 Gives me, your soul! 给我,你的灵魂！ In the short period cracks, flashes by, but the spirited and demented performance continues. 短暂的乐段隙间,一晃而过,而激昂且癫狂的演奏继续。 Huai Shi lowers the head as before, has not had the slight stop, incomplete face is silent laughing. 槐诗依旧低着头,未曾有丝毫的停顿,残缺的面孔似是无声的大笑。 The reply is 回答是 Take away! 拿去！ At this moment, the darkness that the naked eye may distinguish, from playing the crack in a door of hall falls in torrents. 此刻,肉眼可辨的黑暗,已经从演奏大厅的门缝中倾泻而出。 The entire huge construction had been blocked by secret instrument layer upon layer, is suppressing and preserving that proliferation melody. The distance of if so being close, made that 1/10000 demented meaning divulging that contained, will perhaps first make Control Bureau sound the warning. 整个庞大的建筑已经被层层的秘仪所封锁,压制和保存着那扩散的旋律。倘若如此接近的距离,令那其中所蕴藏的万分之一的癫狂意味泄露而出的话,恐怕第一时间就会让统辖局拉响警报。 Even if away from the front door, can still detect, strange and terrifying change. 即便是隔着大门,也能够察觉到,其中诡异而恐怖的变化。 Is not actually able to imagine...... 却无法想象…… Actually to be having anything! 究竟在发生什么！ In the reception room, Giselle is restless, is unable to concentrate on deals with the inquiry and negotiations condition of Ai Qing, once for a while looked that to direction that plays the hall. 在会客室里,吉赛尔已经坐立不安,根本无法专注的应对艾晴的询问和谈判条件,时不时的看向了演奏大厅的方向。 When Ai Qing tranquil the paper page crossed one again, Giselle cannot be constraining oneself curious and confuses: „ Aren't you worried? 当艾晴平静的将纸页再度翻过一张的时候,吉赛尔在压抑不住自己的好奇和迷惑:“你难道就一点也不担心么？ Francesco that music movement, has swallowed more than six Disaster Musician soul, that is a trap! Only then Francesco is a fool, thought that it has the hope of completion. 弗朗西斯科那一份乐章,已经吞噬过不下六位灾厄乐师的灵魂了,那是一个陷阱！只有弗朗西斯科是个傻子,觉得它有完成的希望。 But more than ten years, he looked did not know many people, no one can complete the performance! ” 可十几年了,他找了不知道多少人,根本没有一个人能完成演奏！” „What relations that and do I have?” “那和我有什么关系？” Ai Qing asked back: „Performance is not I, was worried that will not be useful . Moreover, why do I want to be worried?” 艾晴反问:“演奏的又不是我,担心又不会有用,况且,我为什么要担心呢？” „......” “……” Giselle delay, is unreadable. 吉赛尔呆滞,难以理解。 „...... Do you dislike him?” “难道……你讨厌他？” „ Yes, repugnant, saw each time he will feel troublesome, was flung the mess to come by him each time, will feel the headache. With he spoke, cannot constrain own temperament. “是啊,讨厌,每次看到他都会觉得麻烦,每次被他甩了烂摊子过来,就会觉得头疼。和他说话的时候,压抑不了自己的脾气。 So long as sees that complacent face, wants to taunt. 只要看到那一张洋洋得意的脸,就想要冷嘲热讽。 From the heart did not understand, why in the world will have such person. ” 发自内心的不理解,世界上为什么会有这样的人。” Ai Qing confident reply: „What's wrong, do you like him?” 艾晴坦然的回答:“怎么,难道你喜欢他？” Giselle had nothing to say in reply. 吉赛尔无言以对。 But is actually not able to deny, even if at this time, to Francesco holds to read to worry, but, was still worried faintly that just also defeated itself twice, suffered oneself a half hour of opponent. 但却无法否认即便是此时,对弗朗西斯科的执念有所担忧,但同时,也在隐隐的担心着那个刚刚还两度战胜了自己,折磨了自己半个小时的对手。 Was not worried that Celestial Genealogy following has the retaliation of possibility, is not because will be afraid this woman therefore to have a hostility to oneself at present...... 不是担心天国谱系后续有可能的报复,也不是因为害怕眼前这个女人会因此对自己有所敌意…… It is not cruel enough to see him to bring about own destruction. 只是,不忍心看到他自寻死路而已。 She thought where she has certainly the issue. 她觉得自己一定哪里有问题。 „Does not have any, was again more brutal than the art, Miss Giselle, you as the end artist, should have profound understanding are right.” “再没有什么,比艺术更加残酷了,吉赛尔小姐,你作为末日画师,应该深有体会才对。” Ai Qing looks at her, tranquil saying: „ Music or drawing, not seemingly same beauty. Just the opposite, you can from enjoyment obtained, hundred times is lower than you to receive suffering that. 艾晴看着她,平静的说道:“不论是音乐还是绘画,都绝非看上去一样的美。恰恰相反,你所能从其中得到的享受,百倍的低于你所受到的折磨。 Uses the full power effort, the suffering of racking brains, day after day practice, is unable...... such despair, you to be familiar as before forward. ” 倾尽全力的努力,苦思冥想的煎熬,日复一日的练习,依旧无法向前一步……那样的绝望,你应该早已经熟悉。” Giselle closed the eye. 吉赛尔闭上了眼睛。 Knuckle, pinched blanch. 指节,已经捏的发白。 Indeed so. 诚然如此。 She is unable to dispute. 她无法辩驳。 By person who the art cherishes, pitiful creature but who was cursed by the art. 被艺术所钟爱的人,只不过是被艺术所诅咒的可怜虫而已。 In the immersion and so-called esthetics and art, absorbed dashing about wildly and chase, wait to recover, actually discovered oneself have not had a thing in the world. 沉浸与所谓的美学和艺术之中,忘我的狂奔和追逐,等回过神来的时候,却发现自己早已经一无所有。 But art as before so callous, has not taken pity on the slightest. 而艺术依旧如此的冷酷,不曾垂怜分毫。 Such pain, Ai Qing also once sympathize. 这样的苦痛,艾晴也曾经感同身受。 After Huai Shi becomes mother's student. 在槐诗成为母亲的学生之后。 She understands finally why mother refused to teach her the cello...... 她终于明白,为什么母亲拒绝教她大提琴了…… From can remember that own name starts, was looking forward to mother's appearance, day after day training and industrious learn, think an achievement and self-satisfaction. 从能记得自己的名字开始,憧憬着母亲的样子,日复一日的苦练和勤习,自以为有所成就和得意。 Continuous obtains the trophy and appreciation, each smile, each praise and applause, made her have some illusion, oneself is cherished by the art. 源源不断的得到奖杯和赞赏,每一张笑脸,每一声赞美和掌声,都让她产生了某种幻觉啊,自己是被艺术所钟爱的。 Perhaps. 或许。 Perhaps is this? 或许是这样呢？ But, some certainly people, will be partial. 但,一定有的人,会被偏爱更多。 When oneself trained hard 45 years of cello in secret, by Huai Shi by 2-3 months of easy transcendences, she felt that helpless despair finally. 当自己私下里苦练了四五年的大提琴,被槐诗以2-3个月的时间轻而易举的超越时,她终于感受到了那种无能为力的绝望。 The love of mother there obtaining, obtains the position that from own family/home, the proudest music talent, was all surpassed by that fellow. 从母亲那里得到的爱,从自己的家里得到的位置,还有自己最引以为豪的音乐天赋,全都被那个家伙超过了。 Oneself obtain, only then Huai Shi to flatter oneself puts on airs to give up ‚first’. 自己所得到的,只有一个槐诗为了讨好自己而装模作样放弃的‘第一’。 A pitiful comfort prize. 一个可怜兮兮的安慰奖。 Even if mother passed away suddenly, Huai Shi grasped the foundation merely, but so many years later, only depends on as before studies independently, under unmanned the situation of direction, arrived at this degree. 哪怕母亲猝然去世,槐诗仅仅只是掌握了基础,可这么多年之后,依旧只靠着自学,在无人指点的情况之下,走到了这种程度。 If oneself were similar to once such as before, certainly will hate to go crazy? 倘若自己依旧如同曾经那样,一定会妒恨到发狂吧？