The difference of Chapter 50 iron tower 第50章铁塔之别 Xu Le took the hand of telephone stiffly to flicker, then said very much neatly the sound was good. He puts in the cell phone the bosom, recovers, had passed for twenty days from the dance party, oneself also and Zhang Xiaomeng twenty days have not met. 许乐拿着电话的手僵硬了一瞬,然后很干脆利落地说了声好。他将手机放入怀中,才回过神来,距离舞会已经过去了二十几天,自己也和张小萌二十几天没有见面了。 He assigned out the class schedule to look, this discovered tomorrow is December last day, naturally did not have the class, discovered this days tranquil lonely maintained unexpectedly was so long, forgot the new year arrival the long time to oneself unexpectedly. 他调出课程表看了一下,这才发现明天是十二月的最后一天,当然没有课,才发现这段日子的平静孤独竟维持了这么久,久到自己竟忘了新年的到来。 At this time Zhang Xiaomeng is in a daze in own single apartment, she looked at one to put the black frame eyeglasses on hand, in the delicate facial features had an anxiety with struggling. After even-numbered month festival dance party, Tai Zhiyuan hidden went to the trail again, she could not find any opportunity to be close to that person again...... 这时候张小萌正在自己的单人公寓里发呆,她看了一眼搁在手边的黑框眼镜,清秀的面容里带着一丝愁苦与挣扎。双月节舞会之后,邰之源再次隐去了踪迹,她再也找不到任何机会去接近那个人…… The failure of this duty, has not made Congressman Medellin be dissatisfied, on the contrary elder of that affection like the father, comforted her several well, wants her own to pay attention to hide the identity, simultaneously selects secretly, that named Xu Le boy, since the accident of sorts knew Tai Zhiyuan, perhaps embarks from that side, will have the good result. 这次任务的失败,并没有让麦德林议员感到不满,相反那位像父亲一样慈爱的长者,好好地宽慰了她几句,要她自己注意隐藏身份,同时暗暗点出,那个叫许乐的男学生既然机缘巧合结识了邰之源,或许从那边出发,会有不错的结果。 Can be close to that person using Xu Le? The Zhang Xiaomeng long eyelash winked two, first in denied this approach, she is not willing after harming that man, repeated the injury again. 要利用许乐接近那个人吗？张小萌长长的睫毛眨动了两下,第一时间内否认了这个做法,她不愿意在伤害了那个男子之后,再一次地重复伤害。 ...... …… 37 constitutions undergo 66 years of last a day, the federation immerses in celebrating joyfully the new year atmosphere, although beyond the remote light year, is away from the empire that the galaxy looks at mutually with Westwood Grand District, is still the shadow in federal citizens heart, but the frontline is extremely after all remote, in everyone subconsciousness does not go to think that issue. 三十七宪历六十六年的最后一天,联邦沉浸在欢度新年的气氛之中,虽然遥远光年之外,与西林大区隔着星河互望的帝国,依然是联邦公民们心中的阴影,但前线毕竟太过遥远,所有人都下意识里不去想那个问题。 Federal people, the truly anxious vision, went to the s2 district. After s2 goes around a mountain four states elected to finish, the federal government to the opposition congressmen's indictment gets stronger and stronger, accusing the opposite party genuine putting down weapon, the federal military not to start to step up preparation, the eruption of again civil war, as if becomes the inevitable matter. 联邦的人们,真正焦虑的目光,都投向了s2大区。在s2环山四州选举结束之后,联邦政府对反对派议员们的指控愈演愈烈,指控对方并没有真正的放下武器,联邦军方也开始加紧了备战,内战的再一次爆发,似乎成为了不可避免的事情。 Congressman Medellin of family background rebellion, has succeeded to be elected the new federal administration committee congressman, entered the federalism core region truly, how but regardless of he raised a hue and cried in each conference of capital special zone, is unable to eliminate the danger of civil war truly. Because everyone was clear, Congressman Medellin can affect to go around a mountain four states' these people, is actually not able to affect in the mountain these to take the rebel forces of rifle stock. 出身反政府军的麦德林议员,已经成功当选为新一届的联邦管理委员会议员,真正进入了联邦政治核心区域,但无论他在首都特区的各个会议上如何大声疾呼,都无法将内战的危险真正消除。因为所有人都清楚,麦德林议员可以影响环山四州的那些民众,却无法影响山里那些拿着枪杆的反政府武装。 After the federation embargoes and economic sanctions in successive years, the rebellion in mountain had arrived at the brink of collapse, they do not wait to be suppressed by the federal army possibly honestly, but definitely will choose the way of some counter-attack. 联邦连年禁运和经济制裁之后,山里的反政府军已经到了崩溃的边缘,他们也不可能老老实实地等着被联邦军队镇压,而必然会选择某种反击的方式。 Although so many worried, are regarding the federal ordinary citizens, the life must continue, these about the politics, the issue about life and death, can only let them, when the reading electronic newspaper sobbed to sigh with emotion several. 虽然有这么多的忧愁,可是对于联邦的普通公民们来说,生活总要继续,这些关于政治,关于生死的问题,只能让他们在阅读电子报纸的时候唏嘘感慨几声。 New year's eve, all famous restaurants were ordered, but the neon of colored lantern and amusement park, started to sparkle in the daytime, builds a peace rich and populous joyful scene. Has the family member family member lovers of vacation, occupied characteristics restaurant in these big ferris wheel and snow and ice world. 新年前夜,所有出名的餐馆都被预订一空,而彩灯与游乐场的霓虹,在白昼里开始闪耀,营造出了一种和平富庶快乐的景象。拥有假期的家人亲人恋人们,占据了那些大大的摩天轮与冰雪世界里的特色餐厅。 With these lively compared with, near Hai State that reaching to the sky iron tower, actually lost the elegant demeanor of tourist attraction, becomes incomparably peaceful, because without many people are willing to go into the iron tower that ventilates everywhere to withstand/top in such cold winter. 与那些热闹相比,临海州那个高耸入云的铁塔,却失去了旅游胜地的风采,变得无比安静,因为没有多少人愿意在这样冷的冬天里跑到四处透风的铁塔顶上。 Xu Le has not ridden the elevator, climbed up the iron tower at the back of the shoulders package step by step, the face slightly red, the beads of sweat seeped out his sending border, his breath is still steady, no exhausted feeling, present he has been able in the daily daily life, to keep exercising oneself nerve and organism, making within the body that mysterious strength more and more gentle, is getting more and more powerful. 许乐没有乘坐电梯,背着双肩包一步一步地爬上了铁塔,脸庞微红,汗珠渗出了他的发际,他的呼吸却依然平稳,没有一丝疲惫之感,如今的他已经能够在每天的日常生活中,不停地锻炼自己的神经与肌体,让体内那股神秘的力量越来越平和,也越来越强大。 In the sightseeing level of iron tower the cold wind howls, the orange colored lantern by drawing the solitary line, snuggle in the ice-cold steel work body, no one, only then by the distant place parapet, the girl of wear dark brown windproof coat, is supporting the lower jaw, looks near the Hai State civic landscape lost. 铁塔的观光层上寒风呼啸,桔黄色的彩灯被拉成孤伶伶的线条,依偎在冰冷的金属构件身躯上,没有什么人,只有远处栏杆旁边,有一个穿着深褐色风衣的女孩儿,正撑着下颌,出神地看着临海州的城市风景。 She wears a lovable fabric hat, the double glove the pink glove, the long eyelash is winking in the cold wind, actually cannot feel probably coldly, but calmly looks at outside the column. 她戴着一顶可爱的绒帽,双手套着粉红色的手套,长长的睫毛在寒风中一眨一眨,却像是感受不到寒冷,只是静静地看着栏外。 Xu Le in her more than ten meters place, calmly visits her behind, is somewhat lost. Many days had not seen, however meet again, his state of mind returned to the initial these situations, was very tranquil and peaceful. 许乐在她身后十几米的地方,静静地看着她,有些出神。有好些天没有见了,然而再次见面,他的心境又回到当初的那些情境之中,无比平静而安乐。 „You came.” Zhang Xiaomeng turns around, smiles toward him. “你来了。”张小萌转过身来,向着他笑了笑。 Xu Le walks up, smiles temperately, the shoulders package will take down, throws near her foot, stood her side, looked toward the column outside following her previous vision. Sees only in the snowless sky to drift several to wipe sinking saying that top the construction of seaside metropolis, can actually see snow and ice trace that this leaves in the winter, entire city in new year atmosphere, but he still feels somewhat desolately. 许乐走上前去,温和地笑了笑,将身后的双肩包取了下来,扔到她的脚边,站到了她的身旁,顺着她先前的眼光往栏外望去。只见无雪的天空里飘浮着几抹沉云,临海都市的建筑顶部,却能看到这个冬天留下来的冰雪痕迹,整个城市都在一片新年的气氛之中,可是他依然觉得有些落寞。 „Here scenery is not much.” When Xu Le imagines the previous girl is watching here the mood, said: „How to think that approximately meets here?” “这里的风景并不怎么样。”许乐想像着先前女孩儿在这里观看时的情绪,说道:“怎么想到约在这里见面？” „My childhood parents work were very busy, I am not willing to sit in ferris wheel these small rooms, therefore liked a person rushing to here to come to see the scenery.” Zhang Xiaomeng mist, looks at the shadow of distant place ferris wheel, said: „On that day at the dance party, I refused to dance with you, hopes that do not mind.” “我小时候父母工作很忙,我又不愿意坐在摩天轮那些小房间里,所以喜欢一个人跑到这里来看风景。”张小萌呵了一口雾气,怔怔地看着远处摩天轮的影子,说道:“那天在舞会上,我拒绝和你跳舞,希望你不要介意。” „I had said on that day, I will not dance.” Xu Le narrows the eye to look at the grey in sky as before, said: „If you want to say that today is unfair to these three characters, I thought that is really not meaningful. Although I have not been in love, but also knows, this matter does not have any wrong.” “我那天就说过,我不会跳舞。”许乐依旧眯着眼睛看着天空里的灰色,说道:“如果你今天还是想说对不起这三个字,我觉得真没有什么意义。我虽然没有谈过恋爱,但也知道,这种事情没有什么对错。” „You somewhat changed.” Zhang Xiaomeng turns the head to visit him suddenly, smiled, „at that time in front of the classroom building, you compared with many that the present must speak plausibly.” “你有些变了哩。”张小萌忽然转头看着他,笑了起来,“那时候在教学楼前,你可是比现在要振振有辞的多。” Xu Le also thinks that dialogue, said with a smile: „At that time watched the matter was too simple.” 许乐也想到那一次对话,笑着说道:“那时候把事情看的太简单。” He has turned the head, calmly looks in the Zhang Xiaomeng eye pupil is flowing the brilliance, notices the opposite party not to wear that black frame eyeglasses today, said in a soft voice: „Until today, I still thinks that the matter is very simple, is only probably besides me, the people in this world, are always used to make the simple matter is very complex.” 他转过头,静静地看着张小萌眼眸里流动着的光彩,注意到对方今天没有戴那副黑框眼镜,轻声说道:“直到今天,我依然认为事情很简单,只是好像除了我之外,这个世界上的人们,总是习惯把简单的事情弄的很复杂。” Zhang Xiaomeng has not thought that will hear such a few words, hangs the view, during is lost in thought that for a long time later said in a soft voice: „Perhaps is because I am a very complex person, but you are a very simple person.” 张小萌没想到会听到这样一段话,微垂眼帘,陷入了沉思之中,许久之后轻声说道:“或许是因为我本来就是一个很复杂的人,而你是一个很简单的人。” „No, you are a very simple person, actually wants to handle very complex matter.” The hand of Xu Le is grasping the parapet, felt that parapet cold like ice, received to reach behind the back to come to Ha the tone, asked: „Actually is your secret what?” “不,你是一个很简单的人,却想做很复杂的事情。”许乐的手握着栏杆,才感觉到栏杆寒冷如冰,收回手来哈了口气,问道:“你的秘密究竟是什么呢？” After Zhang Xiaomeng is very silent long, says: „A year ago, I do the voluntary support work in the s2 Medellin representative office.” 张小萌沉默很久后,开口说道:“一年前,我在s2麦德林议员办公室里做义务支援工作。” „This I know, the federation has many young people to go around a mountain four states to do this work.” Xu Le said: „You came back, moreover was determined by the government as return, this should not be the trouble.” “这我知道,联邦有很多年轻人都去环山四州做这种工作。”许乐说道:“你回来了,而且被政府判定为回归者,这应该不是什么麻烦。” „Issue is, till today, actually I am still working for Congressman Medellin.” Zhang Xiaomeng smiled suddenly, the smile seems somewhat chilly. “问题是,直到今天为止,其实我都还在为麦德林议员工作。”张小萌忽然笑了起来,笑容显得有些清冷。 Heard the Zhang Xiaomeng real status, Xu Le fell into silent, for a long time later said in a soft voice: „Then?” 听到张小萌的真实身份,许乐陷入了沉默,许久之后才轻声说道:“然后呢？” „Although I not by specialized spy training, the matter that but I handle, actually does not have much difference from the spy.” Zhang Xiaomeng lowers the head, looks at the foot that heavy shoulders package, said: „I return to Pear Flower University, actually only then a goal, is close to Tai Zhiyuan , helping the congressman and he builds to become to plant the direct link.” “虽然我没有受过专业的间谍培训,但我所做的事情,其实和间谍没有太大区别。”张小萌低下头,看着脚边那个沉重的双肩包,说道:“我回到梨花大学,其实只有一个目的,就是要接近邰之源,帮助议员与他搭成某种直接联系。” „Then?” “然后呢？” The Zhang Xiaomeng slightly feeling surprise looked at his one eyes , to continue saying: „Except for the even-numbered month festival dance party, I had no means to be close to that mysterious Tai Family successor...... being right, you have not perhaps been clear about his real status now.” 张小萌微感诧异地看了他一眼,继续说道:“除了双月节舞会,我没有任何办法可以接近那个神秘的邰家继承人……对了,你现在或许还不清楚他的真实身份。” Xu Le shakes the head, prevented this issue, asked very much calmly: „Then?” 许乐摇了摇头,阻止了这个问题,很平静地问道:“然后呢？” ...... …… Regardless of Zhang Xiaomeng said anything, Xu Le replied her three characters: Then? Zhang Xiaomeng calmly visits him, takes off a pink cotton glove from own hand, wore in his hand, lowered the head said in a soft voice: „You do not seem like surprised, is not angry.” 不论张小萌说什么,许乐只是回答她三个字:然后呢？张小萌静静地看着他,从自己的手上脱下一只粉红色的棉手套,戴在了他的手上,低着头轻声说道:“你好像一点都不吃惊,也不愤怒。” „The strange matter that actually...... my whole life comes across, can imagine you is more.” The Xu Le left hand put on the glove very naturally, the right hand gripped her hand, looks that she said earnestly: „I am not clear, these things and between us the matter has what relations.” “其实……我这辈子遇到的奇怪的事情,比你能够想像的更要多一些。”许乐左手戴上了手套,右手很自然地握住了她的手,看着她认真说道:“我只是不明白,这些事情和我们之间的事情有什么关系。” „I am a spy.” Zhang Xiaomeng visits him very much earnestly, somewhat said perplexed: „Don't you have the little fear?” “我是一名间谍。”张小萌很认真地看着他,有些不明所以说道:“难道你就没有一点点的害怕？” Xu Le muttered annoyedly several, thought that I am a fleeing criminal. He is sighing shaking the head, pulls out under the Zhang Xiaomeng brim hair gently, looks at her bright and clean forehead, said tender: „If before this is your secret...... is very long, I guessed correctly, but has not really thought at that time, the guessed correctly truth is the truth.” 许乐恼火地咕哝了几句,心想我还是个逃犯。他叹息着摇摇头,轻轻拔开张小萌帽沿下面的头发,看着她光洁的额头,怜惜说道:“如果这就是你的秘密……很久以前,我就猜到了,只不过当时还真没想到,猜到的真相就是真相。” Zhang Xiaomeng smiled bitterly, has turned the head, is looking at the sky outside column, said: „I know that I harmed you, moreover my these words should not say, if did not explain to you clearly, I was very uncomfortable.” 张小萌苦笑了一声,转过头去,望着栏外的天空,说道:“我知道自己伤害了你,而且我这些话本来就不应该说,可是如果不向你解释清楚,我心里很难受。” „You want to be close to Tai Zhiyuan, therefore you left me......” Xu Le to comb these chaotic information for her, after silent moment, said: „Finally you discover now, I know Tai Zhiyuan unexpectedly, to be close to him, keeps my side perhaps more convenient...... so many days you not to look for me, you are not obviously willing to turn head again.” “你想接近邰之源,所以你离开了我……”许乐替她梳拢这些纷乱的信息,沉默片刻后说道:“结果你现在发现,我居然认识邰之源,如果想接近他,就留在我的身边或许更方便一些……这么多天你没有找我,很明显你不愿意再次回头。” „In this case I return to your side again, is to you is also to my one insult.” Zhang Xiaomeng loosens is shaking his hand, holds own face, among the facial features is to all extricate the later relaxedness and firmness, „I will not be made this matter to come by myself.” “在这种情况下我再回到你的身边,是对你也是对我的一种侮辱。”张小萌松开握着他的手,捧着自己的脸,眉眼间全是解脱之后的轻松与坚定,“我不会让自己做出这种事情来。” The Xu Le mood was slightly good: „How you asked me to regard George Carlin's theory, as well as these people in s2 district. I had said that I sympathize with and am willing support them, but I do not understand...... the thing that because you are willing to sacrifice, can you sacrifice among us the love?” 许乐的心情略微愉快了一些:“你曾经问过我怎样看待乔治卡林的学说,以及s2大区的那些人们。我曾经说过,我同情并愿意支持他们,但是我不明白……难道就因为你愿意为之牺牲的东西,你就可以牺牲我们之间的爱情？” The Zhang Xiaomeng tip of the nose wrinkled worriedly, sighed: „Perhaps in your opinion laughable, but this after all is my belief......, moreover I must certainly return to s2 to go around a mountain in the future four states, your ideal the principal engineer because of husk mobile company, our two had no future.” 张小萌的鼻尖苦恼地皱了起来,叹息道:“或许在你看来可笑,但这毕竟是我的信仰……而且将来我肯定是要回s2环山四州的,你的理想却是因为果壳机动公司的首席工程师,我们两个本来就没有什么将来。” „Does not discuss the future, only discusses the present. You come today, the crowd that you serve evidently also had the new request to you.” ” The eye of Xu Le narrowed the eyes, the taunt said: „I respect any belief, but needs to sacrifice the emotion, betrays the belief of emotion...... in my opinion, is really very disgusting thing.” “不谈将来,只谈现在。你今天来了,看样子你所服务的人群对你又有了新的要求。””许乐的眼睛眯了起来,嘲讽说道:“我尊重任何信仰,但是一个需要牺牲自己情感,背叛自己情感的信仰……在我看来,实在是很恶心的东西。” Zhang Xiaomeng felt that his anger, was silent was changing the topic: „Goes around a mountain four state present pressures is too big, the soldiers and staff of these life in mountainous area, then must welcome the attack of federal military immediately......, but can change the federal government will only, only then that several respected families, Tai Zhiyuan is in Seven Great Families the Tai Family successor, if Congressman Medellin can win his trust, can help the people in mountain pass through this difficult years.” 张小萌感觉到了他的怒意,沉默着转了话题:“环山四州现在的压力太大,那些生活在山区里的战士与工作人员们,马上便要迎来联邦军方的打击……而唯一能够改变联邦政府意志的,只有那几个大家族,邰之源是七大家里邰家的继承人,麦德林议员如果能够获得他的信任,才能够帮助山里的人们度过这段艰难的岁月。” „In your opinion, I betrayed among us the emotion, is only for some illusory belief, but in fact, I for these colorful lives.” “在你看来,我背叛了我们之间的情感,只是为了某个虚无缥缈的信仰,但实际上,我所为的是那些鲜活的生命。” After Xu Le silent was very long, said: „I also had many days not to see Tai Zhiyuan, perhaps your side things I could not help.” 许乐沉默了很久之后说道:“我也有很多天没看见邰之源了,你们那边的事情我或许帮不上什么忙。” „I want to confess all these to you.” Zhang Xiaomeng visits him, in the eye has the mist to fill the air. “我只是想向你坦白这一切。”张小萌看着他,眼中有水雾弥漫。 Xu Le embraces the bosom her, both hands cuts through her brown windproof coat, is pasting the soft and warm youth body, closely is hugging her, is not willing to let loose, smells the light body of her ear neck place to be fragrant, said: „You are my first woman.” 许乐将她揽进怀里,双手穿进她的褐色风衣,贴着柔软而温暖的青春身躯,将她紧紧抱着,不肯放开,嗅着她耳颈处的淡淡体香,说道:“你是我的第一个女人。” The Zhang Xiaomeng volt said in his bosom: „You are my first man.” 张小萌伏在他的怀里说道:“你是我的第一个男人。” „I am like your.” “我是喜欢你的。” „I am also like your.” “我也是喜欢你的。” „Really can leave me?” “真的要离开我？” „Yes.” “是的。” „Actually among us is what? What that night is? Before dying for justice, to the bestowment of my pitiful man?” The Xu Le sound is suddenly angry. “那我们之间究竟算什么？那个夜晚算什么？殉道之前对我这个可怜男人的施舍？”许乐的声音忽然愤怒起来。 Zhang Xiaomeng lowers the head, is going against his lower jaw like the kitten, said spookily: „You want to become you to my bestowment, perhaps like this will not be happy.” 张小萌低头,像小猫一样顶着他的下颌,幽幽说道:“你就想成是你对我的施舍,或许就不会这样不高兴了。” „You have thought that great person who these play the politics, but is using you...... you to think, actually you are only the girl who a anything does not understand, you very weak......” Xu Le stood the body, forgetting oneself is also only under 20-year-old young people, looks at the eyes of Zhang Xiaomeng melancholily. “你有没有想过,那些玩政治的大人物,只是在利用你……你有没有想过,其实你只是一个什么都不懂的女孩儿,你很幼稚……”许乐站直了身体,忘了自己也还只是个未满20岁的年轻人,忧郁地看着张小萌的双眼。 Zhang Xiaomeng smiled, in the eye socket has the tears to start to flash, the nasal sound is extremely heavy, pulls out said: „I am young, must while be able the weak time is well weak.” 张小萌笑了起来,眼眶里却有泪花开始闪动,鼻音极重,一抽一抽地说道:“我还年轻,得趁着能幼稚的时候好好幼稚一下。” In this flash, Xu Le knows that is unable to convince the opposite party to be separated from that he very strange world, understood in the world faintly the ideas and ideas of certain people, in this moment, he starts to forgive stubborn of this girl, starts moved that appreciates arrives at ahead of time. 就在这一瞬间,许乐知道无法说服对方脱离那个他很陌生的世界,隐隐理解了世界上某些人的理念与想法,在这一刻,他开始体谅这个女孩儿的倔犟,开始体味提前来到的伤感。 Therefore their two people start jerky kissing, kissed girl's tears, in bone-chilling iron tower. At this time, new year fireworks split open in the horizon, are reflecting the forms of these two young people, seems incomparably lonely. 于是他们两个人开始生涩的接吻,吻到了女孩儿的泪水,就在寒风凛冽的铁塔上。此时,一朵新年的礼花在天边绽开,映着这两个年轻人的身影,显得无比寂寞。