Chapter 458 is painful and proud 第458章痛苦和骄傲 Ice Monroe grips the hand of Long Dangdang gently, has not opened the mouth, but passes message through the spirit crystal. 凌梦露轻轻的握住龙当当的手,没有开口,而是通过灵晶进行传音。 „Ding-dong, are you good? Since coming, I can feel that your is somewhat sad.” “当当,你还好吗？自从过来之后,我就能感觉到你的情绪有些低落。” Long Dangdang similarly through passes message to respond: „Relax, I am all right. In dead spirit state environment, the mood will come under some influences.” 龙当当同样通过传音回应道:“放心吧,我没事。在亡灵国度这种环境下,情绪都会受到一些影响。” Ling Menglu will lean in his shoulder, „can that you tell me, why you since previous time come back after the dead spirit state, has been alienating me?” 凌梦露将头倚靠在他的肩膀上,“那你能不能告诉我,为什么你自从上次从亡灵国度回来之后,就一直在疏远我？” Long Dangdang gawked, subconscious say/way: „No! How I will alienate you.” 龙当当愣了一下,下意识的道:“没有啊！我怎么会疏远你。” Ling Menglu sighed, said: „You must know, the girls are very sensitive. Beforehand you, see my time, your look will straighten occasionally, although you covers is very good, but you sometimes, the look will flutter toward me on, looks the place that these feel ashamed, I pretend does not know, we also young, this is normal.” 凌梦露叹息一声,道:“你要知道,女孩子都是很敏感的。以前的你,看到我的时候,你的眼神偶尔会发直,虽然伱掩盖的很好,但你有的时候,眼神还是会往我身上飘,去看那些羞人的地方,我只是假装不知道而已,我们都还年轻,这都是正常的。” „Coughs......” Long Dangdang to cough two, this through not sending greetings, made the partners in rest unable to bear look immediately. “咳咳咳……”龙当当咳嗽两声,这可不是通过传音的,顿时令休息中的伙伴们忍不住看过来。 „All right, throat suddenly itchy.” The Long Dangdang expression somewhat is obviously stiff, just in the dark cavern, the people does not see clearly and that's the end. “没事,嗓子突然痒了一下。”龙当当的表情明显有些僵硬,只不过在黑暗的洞穴中,众人也看不清楚就是了。 Ling Menglu cannot bear „pū” smiles, the body actually suffered him to tighten, continued through passing on the sound said: „But, previous time you come back after the dead spirit state, changed. Unusual good at least everyone who you conceal not to have discovered that you have anything to change. But I am different! I am your girlfriend, I can obviously feel your difference. After coming back, you will not have that type to visit me again occasionally the infatuated look, has not held my hand on own initiative, will kiss me on own initiative, even a little desirably is avoiding anything to resemble. At the beginning, I also think that you are because Kong Kong was stressed the innermost feelings pain, could not attend to these. However, since you obtained eternal after the god of creation prints the throne certainly the approval, I can feel that your innermost feelings are calm, restored. But, has not actually restored to my attitude only, with has no difference to others. Ding-dong, do you know? Facing such you, I am quite uncomfortable. But I know, is confident, you were not do not like me, you deliberately avoided me, can tell me, why was this? I am your girlfriend, is your cousin, the previous time, you want to save the parents, abandoned me, goes alone, actually I am very angry, even if again dangerous, I can not go with you together? But, Kong Kong falls to the enemy in the dead spirit state, when you come back is such scared, I am not cruel enough to blame you, but this does not have the resentment on behalf of I. But you are still alienating me unexpectedly, I do not know alone what you want to withstand is what, but why can't share with me? What matter also there is you are not willing to open the heart with me?” 凌梦露忍不住“噗哧”一笑,身体却挨得他更紧了一些,继续通过传音道:“但是,上次你从亡灵国度回来之后,就变了。你掩饰的非常好至少大家都没发现你有什么变化。但我不一样啊！我是你的女朋友,我能明显感觉到你的不同。回来之后,你再也没有那种看着我偶尔会痴迷的眼神了,也从来没有主动牵过我的手,主动亲吻我,甚至有点刻意的在回避着什么似的。刚开始的时候,我还认为你是因为空空被抓内心痛苦,顾不上这些。但是,自从你获得了永恒与创造之神印王座的一定认可之后,我能感觉到你的内心平静下来,恢复了。可是,唯独对我的态度却没有恢复,和对其他人并没有什么区别。当当,你知道吗？面对这样的你,我心里好难受的。但我知道,也有信心,你不是不喜欢我了,你是故意回避我,能不能告诉我,这是为什么？我是你的女朋友,也是你的表姐,上次,你想要去救父母,抛弃了我,独自前往,其实我真的很愤怒,哪怕是再危险,难道我会不跟你一起去么？可是,空空失陷于亡灵国度,你回来时是那样的失魂落魄,我不忍心去责怪你,但这却并不代表我内心没有怨气。但你竟然还在疏远我,我不知道你想要独自承受的是什么,但为什么就不能跟我分享呢？又有什么事情是你不愿意和我打开心扉的呢？” Although others in the respective rest, suddenly found that their disappearances have a scare, after staring one next, the ocean nighttide cannot bear say: „How regimental commander and did Monroe transmit? What situation?” 其他人虽然在各自休息,突然发现他们两人的消失也不禁都吓了一跳,愣了一下之后,溟汐忍不住道:“团长和梦露怎么传送走了？啥情况？” Listened to her words, the Long Dangdang mood unable to control again, his ray flashed, next one flickered, he and ice Monroe two people disappeared in the cavern baseless. 听着她的话语,龙当当的情绪再也控制不住了,他身上光芒一闪,下一瞬,他和凌梦露两個人就凭空消失在了洞穴之中。 Sees him not to speak, ice Monroe snuggles was tighter, as if must rub his body the entire body, is feeling his aura change silently, the ice Monroe supple sound said: „Ding-dong, you were too tired. Present you, were too tired. You come back half year, is always trying hard, you spelled. However, our people are living, wants hopefully not? I do not know that what you encountered in the dead spirit state initially, I can also manage Auntie Xie and uncle and Kong Kong am grasped to your attack am very big, but, why doesn't let me and you undertakes together?” 见他不说话,凌梦露依偎的却更紧了,仿佛要将整个身体都揉进他的身体似的,默默的感受着他身上的气息变化,凌梦露柔声道:“当当,你太累了。现在的你,真的太累了。你回来这半年,无时无刻都在努力,你太拼了。但是,我们人活着,都要有希望不是吗？我不知道你当初在亡灵国度遭遇了什么,我也能理解姨和姨夫和空空被抓对你的打击很大,可是,为什么不让我和你共同承担呢？” „I do not want to compel your, but we thorough dead spirit state, I must know that actually again previous time you came to have anything, I was also good to supply ideas for you, we found the way to face together, rather than your one person were alone painful. Your side at least also has me!” “我不想逼你的,但我们已经再次深入亡灵国度,我要知道上次你来究竟发生了什么,我也好为你出谋划策,我们一起想办法去面对,而不是你一个人独自痛苦。你身边至少还有我啊！” The peach numerous coughs, „is reasonable, but is unimportant, we rest our, do not care.” 桃林林咳嗽一声,“有道理,但不重要,我们休息我们的,不要在意啦。” Long Dangdang raised the head, looks to ice Monroe, her tone is very gentle, but her words are very firm. Under the legendary luminous pearl weak ray, her look is tranquil and rigid, decides looks at him, looked Long Dangdang heart feels weak. 龙当当抬起头,看向凌梦露,她的语气很平和,但她的话语却无比坚定。在夜明珠微弱的光芒下,她的眼神平静而执着,就那么定定的看着他,看的龙当当心头一阵发虚。 „Monroe, you should know that I am a strong person. Even if the parents were seized, my innermost feelings are still strong. I had not led you to go at that time , because I know, this very possible is a rescue of a narrow escape. But such, my heart does not have the half a point to pace back and forth even, is the children, rescues parental this should be the matter, our lives are the parents gave. You do not know what I face is anything, you said right, the person lives is being hopeful. However, experienced after the matter of dead spirit state, in my heart does not have the hope, do you know? Until now I did not determine how future I will do, how I can let you and I undertake this to fill uncertainty all together!” “梦露,你应该知道的,我一直都是一个坚强的人。哪怕爸妈被抓走,我的内心依旧坚强。我当时没有带你们前去,是因为我知道,这很可能是一次九死一生的营救。可就算是那样,我的心也没有半分徘徊,为人子女,营救父母这是应该的事情,我们的生命本来就是父母给的。你不知道我面对的是什么,你说得对,人活着要有希望。但是,经历了在亡灵国度的事情之后,我的心中却已经没有了希望,你知道吗？直到现在我都不确定未来的我会怎么做,我怎能让你和我一起来承担这充满了不确定性的一切啊！” The sky is still dusky, the light of star moon/month is unable to penetrate by the thick fog of dead spirit world, therefore the dead spirit state night ray is very throughout weak, even if outside the cavern , can only see the form in hundred meters indistinctly. 天空依旧是灰蒙蒙的,星月之光根本无法透过亡灵世界的浓雾穿透下来,所以亡灵国度夜晚的光线始终十分微弱,哪怕是洞穴外,也只能在百米之内隐约看到身影而已。 Peach numerous complexion somewhat strange say/way: „They......” 桃林林脸色有些古怪的道:“他们……” Ice Monroe can feel the pain in Long Dangdang words with struggling, cannot bear ask: „Actually to have what, makes your pain be in so the degree unexpectedly? Told me, let me and you undertakes together, how, I will support your, I did not want your alienation, I even can feel the dead will from you, this was I most is worried. I understand, you are feared after you died, delayed me. I do not care tell you who I can confess, in this world, I am not possible to have a liking for others again, only then you, possibly become my husband. When our time carries out the task to go back, I told the grandfather, I must marry you. Therefore, if you died, my live alone, living is not your person, dying is your ghost, if you dare to abandon me again, I die directly to you look.” 凌梦露能够感受到龙当当话语中的痛苦与挣扎,忍不住问道:“究竟是发生了什么,竟然让你痛苦到如此程度？告诉我吧,让我和你共同承担,无论是怎样,我都会支持你的,我不要你的疏远,我甚至能够从你身上感受到死志,这是我最担心的。我明白,你是怕你死了之后,耽误了我。我不在乎我可以坦白的告诉你,在这个世界上,我不可能再看上其他人,只有你,才可能成为我的丈夫。等我们这次执行任务回去,我就告诉爷爷,我要嫁给你了。所以,你如果死了,我也不会独活,生是你的人,死是你的鬼,你要是敢再抛弃我,我就直接死给你看。” Long Dangdang sighed to put out a hand finally, closely held in the arms her, lowers the head, arrived at own forehead in her hollow of the shoulder place, ice Monroe even felt that his body somewhat shivered in this moment. 龙当当叹息一声终于伸出手,紧紧的搂住她,低下头,将自己的额头抵在她的肩窝处,凌梦露甚至感觉到他的身体在这一刻有些颤抖。 Long Dangdang was silent, he truly is continuously diligently is concealing, he alienates ice Monroe , because he does not know how own future, not to fear to implicate him, but feared falls into is too deep, if oneself except for anything, she will not really be able to bear. 龙当当沉默了,他确实是一直在努力的掩饰着,他疏远凌梦露,是因为他不知道自己的未来会怎么样,不是怕连累他,而是怕陷入的太深,如果自己真的除了什么事儿,她会受不了。 Moon/Month aberration color: „Do not let one's thoughts wander, they definitely are discussed that anything.” 月离正色道:“别乱想,他们肯定是去商量什么事情去了。” woof Changxin has not opened the mouth from beginning to end, but in the look also left for several points to have doubts. 汪常欣从始至终都没有开口,但眼神中也多出了几分疑惑。 Long Dangdang tight is hugging ice Monroe, at this moment, his mood is unable to suppress again, suppresses is restraining the sentiment fire to burst out, the kiss that he makes an effort her red lip, in this flickered, he cannot attend to all again, only has that to output to her strong sentiment crazily. 龙当当紧紧的抱着凌梦露,这一刻,他内心的情绪再也无法抑制,抑制克制着的情火迸发,他用力的吻住了她的红唇,在这一瞬,他再也顾不得一切,唯有那对她浓厚的感情疯狂输出。 Say/Way of ocean nighttide doubts: „Even if discussed the matter, can still private chat through the spirit crystal! Why can go out?” 溟汐疑惑的道:“就算是商量事情,也可以通过灵晶私聊啊！为什么要出去？” Ice Monroe is responding similarly intensely, she can feel, the heart that his shuts tightly, opened finally, at this kind of time, how regardless of he demands, she will not reject, even if gives him the most precious thing, she also wants. 凌梦露同样激烈的回应着,她能感觉到,他那紧闭的心扉,终于重新打开了,在这种时候,无论他如何索取,她都不会拒绝,哪怕是将自己最珍贵的东西交给他,她也愿意。 But he not about one excessive action, but is kissing her, long time and long time...... 但他并没有近一步过分的举动,只是吻着她,良久、良久…… After kissing, is tight supports, as before is long time and long time...... 吻过之后就是紧紧的相拥,依旧还是良久、良久…… Has not known how long, outside weather seemed to have started to transfer brightly, Long Dangdang longing loosened person in bosom. 不知道过了多长时间,就连外面的天色都已经似乎开始转亮,龙当当才恋恋不舍的松开了怀中的人儿。 „Monroe, you know my, I am not always a spiritless person, but, returned after the dead spirit state initially, I am the despair of real from the heart. As if all road aheads have sealed up, that time I, even thought that even died is happiness after an extrication.” “梦露,你知道我的,我从来都不是一个懦弱的人,但是,当初从亡灵国度回归之后,我是真的发自内心的绝望。仿佛一切前路都已经封闭,那时候的我,甚至觉得连死亡都是一种解脱后的幸福。” Ling Menglu hears the Long Dangdang slightly hoarse sound to tell, the complexion also gradually changed, yes, Long Dangdang is a strong person, even if initially after knowing the parents was grasped, he can stand firm as before, insisted, when have certain strength, after having the possibility, rescuing goes alone, not only this is calm, and courage. Can make such him so depressed, big of accident can be imagined. 凌梦露听着龙当当略微沙哑的声音讲述着,脸色也渐渐变了,是的,龙当当一直都是一个坚强的人,哪怕是当初在知道父母被抓之后,他依旧能够稳得住,坚持等到自己有一定实力,有了去营救的可能之后才独自前往,这不只是沉稳,而且还是勇气。能够让这样的他变得如此消沉,变故之大可想而知。 Saying that „the aunt and uncle they......” ice Monroe have muttered. “难道说姨和姨夫他们已经……”凌梦露喃喃的说道。 Long Dangdang bitter and astringent shaking the head, „if so, at least the heart of revenge can make me firmer, goes to attempt diligently to take revenge for them, strikes to kill the powerful enemy.” 龙当当苦涩的摇了摇头,“如果是那样的话,至少复仇之心能让我更加坚定,去努力的尝试为他们复仇,去击杀强敌。” The ice Monroe look changes said: „That is......” 凌梦露色变道:“那是……” The Long Dangdang forced smile said: „When if you know, until now stood to you most important family member in the opposite unexpectedly, even is not willing to acknowledge that your son, how do you think?” 龙当当苦笑道:“如果当你知道,一直以来对你最重要的家人竟然站在了对立面,甚至都不愿意承认你这个儿子,你会怎么想？” Ice Monroe loses the sound said: „The aunt and uncle were they controlled the mind by the dead spirit state?” 凌梦露失声道:“难道姨和姨夫他们被亡灵国度控制了心神？” Long Dangdang shakes the head, „dead spirit state supreme leaders have the name of dead souls Saint law god, is the creator in entire dead spirit state, most powerful has me is falls to the enemy in her hands. She is your aunt, my mother.” 龙当当摇摇头,“亡灵国度最高领袖有死灵圣法神之称,乃是整个亡灵国度的创办者,最为强大的存在我就是失陷在她的手中。她就是你的六姨,我的母亲。” Ling Menglu said: „Originally the leaders in dead spirit state are called the dead souls Saint law god, wait/etc, what did you and you say? You......” 凌梦露道:“原来亡灵国度的首领被称为死灵圣法神,等等,你、你说什么？你……” In an instant the ice Monroe's eye pupil opens instantaneously, some pupil enlargements, body even some uncontrolled shiver. 刹那间凌梦露的眼眸瞬间睁大,就连瞳孔都有些放大,身体甚至有些不受控制的颤抖起来。 Long Dangdang bitter and astringent say/way: „Still remembers that the grandfather has said that mother's origin is very special, was picked from the overseas cavern by him, for this reason, even underwent various investigations of federation afterward. However, even if the federation has not investigated, she is not the person in this world actually, she from another potential surface, having the full hatred, the reincarnation rebirth to come.” 龙当当苦涩的道:“还记得外公说过,妈妈的来历十分特殊,是被他从海外洞窟之中捡回来的,为此,甚至后来经过了联邦的各种调查。但是,哪怕是联邦也没有调查出来,她其实并不是属于这个世界的人,她是来自于另外一个位面,带着满腔的仇恨,转世重生而来。” „This and this are how possible......” “这、这怎么可能……” Long Dangdang looks at her, what in the eye is revealing is the full pain, „, therefore you can understand, at that time I when know this fact in the innermost feelings has how shocking? But my mother, told me, the dead spirit state was she founds single-handedly, and goal was to take revenge to human, must kill all human, when lets the dead spirit ruled this world, to me has how huge subversion?” 龙当当看着她,眼中流露着的是满满的苦痛,“所以你能理解,当时我在知道这个事实的时候内心之中是有多么震惊的么？而我的母亲,告诉我,亡灵国度是她一手创建,并且目的就是要向人类复仇,要杀死所有的人类,让亡灵来统治这个世界时,对我有多么巨大的颠覆么？” At that moment, he starts the experience 1510 in dead spirit state told, he can also burying divulges finally in oneself heart deep place biggest pain outward. 当下,他开始将自己在亡灵国度之中的经历一五一十的讲述出来,他也终于可以将埋藏在自己内心深处最大的痛苦向外宣泄了。 This all, to him, brought influence, the brought pressure is too big and is too big, but now, some people can tell finally, although he does not know, after listening respectfully to his narration, what kind of response ice Monroe can be. 这所有的一切,对他来说,带来的影响,带来的压力实在太大、太大,而现在,终于有个人可以讲述,尽管他也不知道,在聆听了他的讲述之后,凌梦露会是怎样的反应。 The matter memory of Long Dangdang to that day was really profound, therefore, his narration also contained all details, contained two complete stories. 龙当当对那天发生的事情记忆的实在是太深刻了,所以,他的讲述也包含了所有的细节,包含了两个完完整整的故事。 The ice Monroe's elegant face gradually becomes pale, in look inconceivable in unceasing promotion, she understands finally why returns after the dead spirit state, Long Dangdang will have that big transformation, she also understands that finally why Long Dangdang is alienating itself, because, he has even filled living of dead will not to be possible the love! 凌梦露的俏脸渐渐变得苍白,眼神中的不可思议在不断的升级,她终于明白,为什么从亡灵国度回归之后,龙当当会发生了那么大的转变,她也终于明白为什么龙当当在疏远自己,因为,他甚至已经是充满了死志的生无可恋啊！ Long Dangdang as witch Yaowang the father has bled off speaking of oneself, and told him, perhaps eternal printed the throne to change all these possibilities with the god of creation. 龙当当一直说到自己被身为巫妖王的父亲放走,并且告诉他,或许永恒与创造之神印王座才有改变这一切的可能为止。 Told finished, looked in the eyes, ice Monroe saw, was Long Dangdang eye pupil deep place that profound pain. 讲述结束了,四目相对,凌梦露看到的,是龙当当眼眸深处那深邃的痛苦。 But tears, starts to flow from her eye pupil. 而泪水,也开始从她的眼眸之中流淌而出。 „Monroe, I do not want to tell you these, I am not really willing to disappoint your true feelings. But, I cannot! Why you know me unable now. I have even thought that if one day, my strength contends with the dead spirit state sufficiently, I will face, will be my parents and younger brother, how should I do? Killing evil that the dead spirit state makes, is not the merit can wash clean, but regardless of they made anything, they are my family member. Can I really punish guilty family members? I do not know. By that time, I estimated that it is very likely I by own innermost feelings tears into shreds puzzled. Therefore I will tell you, I am one do not have in the future......” “梦露,本来我不想告诉你这些的,我真的不愿辜负你的真情。可是,我不能啊！你现在知道了我为什么不能吧。我甚至想过,如果有一天,我的力量足以抗衡亡灵国度,我将面对的,将是我的父母和弟弟,我该怎么做？亡灵国度所造下的杀孽,已经不是什么功劳可以洗清的了,但无论他们做了什么,他们都是我的家人。我真的能大义灭亲吗？我不知道。到了那种时候,我估计,很有可能我会被自己内心的纠结所撕碎。所以我才会告诉你,我是一个没有未来……” He said here, his lips already by the kiss that one double belting the lip of salty wet flavor is making an effort, his following words, submerged completely in the throat. 他才说道这里,他的双唇就已经被一双带着咸湿味道的唇瓣用力的吻住了,将他后面的话,完全淹没在了喉中。 She is bursting into tears, is kissing him. Until, her truly is at this moment clear, since these days, what kind of suffering in his heart had been, bore how huge pain. But for all this, he does not have the slight complaint, does not have slight flinching. 她流着泪,吻着他。直到此时此刻,她才真正明白,这些日子以来,他内心之中是怎样的煎熬,又是承受了多么巨大的痛苦。而尽管如此,他也没有丝毫的怨言,没有丝毫的退缩。 This is the man who she loves, even if were the birth parents stands in the opposite, has not changed his belief, even if facing so the danger, he actually can also rely on good heart inspiring eternal to print the response of throne with the god of creation, her heart for her, but pain, but also same, was proud for him. 这就是她爱的男人,哪怕是亲生父母站在了对立面,也没有改变他的信仰,哪怕是面对如此危难,他却还能凭借着一颗善良的心引动永恒与创造之神印王座的回应,她的心为了她而痛苦,但也同样的,为了他而骄傲。 ( This chapter ends) (本章完)