**************************************************************************************** **************************************************************************************** clear(ly) knows that will not reply, I am staring at the tombstone for a very long time. 明知道不会回答,我还是久久凝视着墓碑。 Perhaps, I want is not the answer, but is perhaps because...... wants to look to understand own person to lean to state. 或许,我想要的不是答案,只不过是因为……或许是想找个懂自己的人倾述吧。 Really the person who the hope finds is living big beauty, rather than only left over does not have the bad old man of character tombstone together. 真希望找的人是个活生生的大美女,而不是只剩下一块无字墓碑的糟老头啊。 The gallon old man avoided the alliance, avoided the social millenniums, the lonely person is living, is really only because is afraid others to be involved by him, was injured by Beryl? 加仑老头躲避了联盟,躲避了社会千年,孤独一人生活着,真的只是因为害怕别人被他牵连,被贝利尔加害吗？ Perhaps gallon old man also think that this indeed is the primary cause. 或许就连加仑老头自己也是这么想的,这的确是主要原因。 However, present I want to ask the gallon. 但是,现在的我不禁想问问加仑。 Really not other reasons? For example, is not willing to face to part forever, is not willing to be suffered by the time, forgets the person who does not want to forget gradually, recollection that does not want to forget. 真的没有一丝其他原因吗？比如说,不愿意面对生离死别,不愿意被时间折磨,渐渐遗忘不想遗忘的人,不想遗忘掉的回忆。 Only forgot the family member and rural population, forgot own hatred this matter, is greatest suffering. Therefore, you who do not want to increase the burden again, in the following time, do not want the friend simply, does not leave behind the recollection that made itself yearn, chose this alternative escape way. 光是遗忘了家人和村人,遗忘了自身的仇恨这件事,就已经是莫大的折磨了。所以,不想再增加负担的你,在接下来的时光里,干脆不要朋友,不留下令自己留恋的回忆,选择了这种另类的逃避方式。 Even if must look, is still looks for the twin tails this type to live the fellow of similar years, even if the opposite party is a monster, is earnestly seeking can speak words with whom. 就算要找,也是找双尾这种能活上同样岁月的家伙,哪怕对方是一只怪物,也在渴求着能够和谁说句话。 Is this? 是这样么？ Said even yourself hadn't realized? Continuously and Beryl made the secretive deal with oneself the alliance rebel, does not want to involve others, therefore cannot produce any connection with others, did this reason convince itself? 还是说连你自己也没有意识到？只是一直在用自己和贝利尔达成了不可告人的交易成了联盟叛徒,不想牵连别人所以不能和其他人产生任何瓜葛,这种理由说服自己？ No, at this moment, gallon old men have hung, deep cuts the inquisition again, is too late. 不,事到如今,加仑老头都已经挂了,再去深挖探究,也已经太迟了吧。 Perhaps, I want a reference. 或许,我只是想要一个参照而已。 If oneself gallon old man this, can likely many? 如果自己像加仑老头这样,会不会更好些？ Abandons something as beyond redemption simply, one breath all this/should forgetting should not the matter of forgetting, forget completely, this has not worried, without pain. 干脆破罐子破摔,一口气把所有该忘的不该忘的事情,全部忘记掉,这样也就没有烦恼,没有痛苦了。 Do I go all out for whom? Why can I by like this suffering? 我这么拼命都是为了谁？为什么我要遭受这样的折磨？ I thought that for girls, my beloved girls. 啊,我想起来了,是为了女孩们,我心爱的女孩们。 Therefore, I cannot forget, I cannot stop the footsteps. 所以,我不能忘记,我不能停下脚步。 Was sorry, the gallon...... the teacher, making you listen to some foolish talk. 抱歉了,加仑……老师,让你听了一些蠢话。 I, am eventually different from you, even if inherited your inheritance, even if same is withstanding lonely suffering with you. 我,和你终究是不同的,哪怕继承了你的传承,哪怕和你一样承受着孤独的折磨。 Person who you must protect, the person who you must retain, had died, how regardless to struggle, how regardless to detain, even if successfully takes revenge finally , is just one type satisfies, idle void, is not meaningful, from that day, you is actually a empty shell. 你要保护的人,你要留住的人,已经死了,无论怎么挣扎,无论怎么挽留,哪怕是最后成功复了仇,也只不过是一种自我满足,空余空虚,没有任何意义,自那一天起,你其实就已经是一具空壳了。 Said that perhaps is somewhat brutal, but is actually the fact, naturally, is not unchangeable, for example regains one to meet with, launches the new affection, found the new family member, new village person who as well as must protect, new friend. 这么说或许有些残酷,但却是事实,当然,也并不是不能改变,比如说重新获得一段邂逅,展开新的恋情,找到新的家人,以及必须守护的新村人,新朋友。 However this old man one-track mind, in 1000 cannot turn round, but also in rigid in the past, in the dead lover, the family member, the rural population, in the brain could not accommodate the new thing rigid completely, conversion was my words...... considers as finished, why I must imagine this matter is not possible, not compared with miserable king competition. 但是这老头很死脑筋啊,一千年都没能拐过弯来,还在执着于过去,执着于已经死去的恋人,家人,村人,脑子里完全容不下新的东西,换成是我的话……算了,为什么我非得去想象这种事情不可,又不是比惨王大赛。 Really is pitiful, the stubborn bad old man, luckily such fellow is not my family member, otherwise I must be irritated by him. 真是个可悲的,顽固的糟老头啊,幸好这样的家伙不是我的家人,否则我非得被他气死。 I was different, I and this old man biggest difference, is the person who I must protect, but also living, but also side me. 我就不同了,我和这老头最大的区别,是我要保护的人,还活着,还在我身边。 Only this point, I compared with gallon old man happy 10,000,000x, lucky 10,000,000x. 仅此一点,我就要比加仑老头幸福千万倍,幸运千万倍。 Such being the case, that also has no complaint, coming to here to complain, complained before the gallon old man, did not make seemed like showing off to him same? 既然如此,那也就没什么好抱怨的了,来这里诉苦,在加仑老头面前诉苦,不就弄的好像是在向他炫耀一样了么？ You look at you to look, although I am also very miserable, but is better than 10.01 million times you. 你看你看,虽然我也很惨,但就是比你好一千一万倍哟。 Although I and twin tails have taken complaining this temperament strange bad old man as happy, but cannot make the so bad matter. 虽然我和双尾一直以吐槽这脾气怪异的糟老头为乐,但也做不出如此恶劣的事情。 Therefore should walk. 所以该走了。 But why the footsteps step motionless, can't sit? 但为何脚步迈不动,坐不起来呢？ Tick-tock tick-tock...... 滴答滴答…… Well, is this? 咦,这是？ Made an effort to wipe a face, the discovery does not know when soaked. 用力抹了一把脸,才发现不知何时湿透。 ahh...... 啊啊啊…… I understood finally. 我终于明白了。 Compared with gallon happy 10,000,000x, compared with gallon lucky 10,000,000x, is this right, but my pitiful creature, compared with the will of gallon, far more than weak 10,000,000x. 比加仑幸福千万倍,比加仑幸运千万倍,是这样没错,但是我这种可怜虫,比起加仑的意志,何止软弱了千万倍。 Comes to here to worship, sweeps the graves, complains, these reasons gave a pretext. 来这儿拜祭,扫墓,诉苦,这些理由都是借口。 I am just pure, wants to look to be able to cry, the place that can cry, cries. 我只不过是单纯的,想找个能哭的,可以哭出来的地方,哭上一场而已。 Gallon teacher. 加仑老师。 A person is living, is very lonely. 一个人活着,真的很寂寞啊。 ...... …… The last drop of liquor will fall on the fresh flower before tomb, my clapping heart, leaving of no recall. 将最后一滴酒倒在坟墓前的鲜花上,我拍拍手心,毫无留恋的走人。 Goes home to ask the girls to go, who must sit with this bad old man, the elder aura will infect, I do not want to turn into gallon old man's such old man. 回家找女孩们去,谁要和这种糟老头一直坐下去呀,长者气息是会传染的,我可不想变成加仑老头那样的老头。 Just turned around, then found the twin tails that is swinging two cat tail close to, the human eye stared the cat eye, the atmosphere was very once awkward. 刚刚转身,便瞧见了摇着两条猫尾巴的双尾,人眼瞪猫眼,气氛一度很尴尬。 „How long looked at?” I open the mouth. “看了多久了？”我开口。 „Although I want to say just came, anything has not seen, appearance that but you will not believe probably.” “虽然我很想说刚刚来,什么也没看见,但好像你并不会相信的样子。” „Do I believe am a matter, how at least do you first show the sincerity of comfort person to come?” “我信不信是一回事,至少你先拿出点安慰人的诚意来如何？” „Good, such as you hope, I just came, anything has not seen, hears.” “好吧,如你所愿,我刚刚来,什么也没看到,听到。” „Now said that is too late.” “现在说已经太迟了。” „Your this boy request also is really many, can't respect the senior?” “你这小子要求还真是多,就不能尊重一下前辈么？” „, Should not exude the sound of footsteps from the beginning, making one detect that you came, this respects others' approach, pays a man back in his own coin not?” “不不不,一开始就应该发出脚步声,让人察觉到你来了,这才是尊重别人的做法,礼尚往来懂不？” „You know, I am the cat, does not have the sound of footsteps inborn.” “你知道,我属猫的,天生没有脚步声。” „Are you are the cat good.” “你就是猫好不好。” I deeply sigh, although twin tails was seen smelly side, to extraordinary no loses face the bashful feeling, does not know that was the mentality was old, the determination grasped the twin tails bigger dirty business, for example flowers showered on the earth below by a goddess of the sky anything, therefore was secure. 我深深叹了一口气,虽然被双尾看到了出糗的一面,到是出奇没啥丢脸害臊的感觉,不知道是心态老了,还是自觉掌握了双尾更大的糗事,比如说天女散花什么的,所以有恃无恐。 „Therefore, you are also worship?” “所以,你也是来拜祭的么？” „No, had come a moment ago, but hears the sound suddenly, who coming back to have a look is.” “不,刚才已经来过了,只是忽然听到动静,回过头看看到底是谁而已。” „You added that you haven't peeped?!” “你还说你没偷看？！” „A light expression, is actually still caring about this matter obviously, your narrow-minded degree is also unusual.” “明明一副平淡的表情,却还在在意这种事,你的小心眼程度也是非同一般。” „Good, changes a topic, I find it strange, who the fresh flower before tombstone is suspends, whose interest arrives normally bored, originally is you.” “那好吧,换一个话题,我就觉得奇怪,墓碑前的鲜花到底是谁摆上去的,谁的趣味那么正常到无聊,原来是你。” „This, haven't I wanted to study the human the formality? This is just practicing, experiences the feeling of worshipping the deceased person.” Twin tails is rubbing the cat beard, the cat pupil is vertical, wants to explain. “这个嘛,我不是一直想学习人类的礼节么？这只不过是在实践,体验一下拜祭死人的感觉而已。”双尾捋着猫胡子,猫瞳竖直,想要解释一下。 „Did not feel like only experienced the appearance.” Before I then looked at a tombstone , the quantity of fresh flower. “感觉不像是只体验了一下的样子。”我回头看了一眼墓碑前鲜花的数量。 „Part is not my.” “一部分不是我的。” „In other words majority you put, right.” “也就是说大部分还是你放的,对吧。” „Your this brat also is really loathful, no wonder the gallon raised you to be foul-mouthed.” “你这臭小子还真是令人讨厌,怪不得加仑一提起你老是骂骂咧咧。” „This is my being honored, as the matter stands we tied, right.” “这是我的荣幸,这样一来我们就打平了,对吧。” „You decide, I do not want to haggle over so many with a being wet behind the ears boy.” “你说了算,我可不想和一个乳臭未干的小子计较那么多。” „A gallon teacher had walked, what do you have to plan? Does the preparation continue to remain?” “加仑老师已经走了,你有什么打算？准备继续留下来？” „This, is being considered.” “这个嘛,正在考虑中。” „Did not fear that Beryl did peel your cat skin?” “不怕贝利尔剥了你的猫皮？” „Because of this can not give careful consideration? Remembered, cat the animal of considering thoroughly.” “正因为如此才要慎重考虑不是吗？记住了,猫的多虑的动物。” „Cat status is really easy-to-use.” “猫这个身份还真好用。” „What's wrong, do you also want to work as the cat?” “怎么,你也想当猫？” „Please excuse my inability to comply.” Does not know why a fuzzy cat mother image, emits in the mind suddenly, making me shiver with fright. “敬谢不敏。”不知为何一个模糊的猫娘形象,忽然在脑海里冒出,让我不禁打了个冷战。 Well, am I so sensitive to the cat mother? Said this impression has blurred, could not clearly recognize that the cat mother of face, is the status quite special? Make me feel the chill? 咦,我对猫娘有那么敏感吗？还是说这个印象已经模糊,认不清面庞的猫娘,身份比较特别？让我感到恶寒？ „On the other hand......” “话说回来……” „Your issue also is really many, is very bothersome.” “你的问题还真是多,很烦。” „Don't this, twin tails, a gallon teacher had walked, our two was also bound by a common destiny.” “别这样嘛,双尾,加仑老师已经走了,我们两个也算是相依为命了。” „You look, my wool disgusting fell most probably, you continued to give regards, when I feared you.” “你瞧,我一身毛都恶心的掉了大半,你还是继续问好了,当我怕了你。” „Your age is bigger than the gallon teacher, right.” “你的岁数比加仑老师要大,对吧。” „This, I indeed have self-confidently like this.” Does not know why the twin tails proud throwing out the chest chest cavity, making me unable to bear complain. “这个嘛,我的确是有这样的自信。”不知为何双尾自豪的挺了挺胸膛,让我忍不住吐槽。 „Old strength actually also weak, having anything is proud.” “年纪大实力却还弱,有什么值得骄傲的。” „Your young strength does not have, to very likes doing.” “你年纪小实力全无,到是挺喜欢作死的。” The twin tails cat pupil sets upright a line shortly quickly, must have a fit of bad temper, I return to the subject hastily. 眼看双尾的猫瞳都快竖成一条线,要炸毛了,我连忙回到正题。 „I meant, since your age compared with the gallon old normal university, living were also long, right.” “我的意思是说,既然你的年纪比加仑老师大,活了也蛮久了,对吧。” „Isn't this idle talk? However beforehand explained that I may also not old, my life span also steadily.” “这不是废话吗？不过事先说明,我可还没老,我的寿命还长着呢。” „Living was so long,...... won't feel bored?” “活了那么久,不会……感到无聊么？” „What?” Continuously in wand that in the twin tails hand keeps turning, stopped, including its footsteps, has leaned the body, stares the big cat to see me, is looking at the rare animal probably. “什么？”一直在双尾手中转个不停的手杖,停了下来,包括它的脚步,侧过身子,瞪大猫眼瞅着我,就好像在看稀有动物。 „Exactly long bored? You estimated that is first person who asked our Hell spawn such question.” “活久了无聊？你估计是第一个问我们地狱一族这样问题的人。” „What having isn't right?” “有什么不对吗？” „For those not to the wrong issue, the issue that but needs to consider, was just like...... was right, was just like in one is big and hungry, in front of person who soon starved to death, making him consider that wants to eat sweetly, was spicy.” “到不是对错的问题,而是需不需要考虑的问题,就好比……对了,就好比在一个饥肠辘辘,就快要饿死的人面前,让他考虑一下更想吃甜的,还是辣的。” „You actually want to say that this issue is very stupid, right.” “你其实就是想说这个问题很蠢,对吧。” „You understand well, we, grow up in this brutal world, every day must face the law of the jungle, to survive, but diligently, become stronger, aren't all these, think the live length unceasingly? You asked that I was exactly long can be bored, what wasn't this issue stupid is?” “你理解就好,我们啊,在这个残酷的世界长大,每天都要面临着弱肉强食,为了生存下去而不断努力,变强,这一切,不就是想活的长一些么？你问我活久了会不会无聊,这个问题不是蠢是什么？” „In other words, to survive, even considers the lonely and lonely leeway, no?” “也就是说,为了生存下去,连考虑孤独和寂寞的余地,都没有么？” „Very much so, naturally, has nothing like this discontentedly regarding passing me and that's the end, in the Hell world, this is the subject, even if seven giants, perhaps is also small and weak.” “正是如此,当然,对于这样的过往我也没有任何不满就是了,在地狱世界里,这才是主题,哪怕是七巨头,或许也曾经弱小过。” „Actually is like this good.” “其实这样挺好的。” „What? I to the first time am saw the person actually to envy the life in Hell world...... not, should be the second time.” “什么？我到是第一次见人竟然会羡慕地狱世界里的生活……不,应该是第二次。” „First is a gallon teacher, right.” “第一个是加仑老师,对吧。” „You and he are very predestined friends.” “你和他果然挺有缘的。” „I also thought so, is the recent matter, before I may absolutely not have this idea.” “我也这么觉得,也就是最近的事情,以前我可完全没这种想法。” „You recently really changed.” “你最近真的变了很多。” „Is good is bad?” “是好是坏？” „Was difficult saying that if in taking my eye of Hell spawn, that should be good, your Bind were too many, they can be the powers that you went forward, will hinder you to go forward, if as the friend of gallon, your elder, I thought......” “难说,如果是在作为地狱一族的我的眼里,那应该是好的,你的束缚太多了,它们可以是你前进的动力,也会阻碍你前进,如果是作为加仑的朋友,你的长辈,我想……” Twin tails, said: „Possibly became more senseless, beforehand you, were more interesting......” 双尾顿了顿,道:“可能变得更无趣了吧,以前的你,可是更有趣一些……” „Yes......” “是么……” With twin tails is chatting with pauses , the tombstone goes far away to us gradually gradually. 和双尾有一搭没一搭聊着,渐渐地,渐渐的,身后的墓碑离我们远去。 Gust has blown, under blew the fresh flower before tablet, the flower petal danced in the air, several colorful, almost with the mushroom that the fresh flower fused together, braved quietly over...... 一阵风吹过,吹起了碑前的鲜花,花瓣飞舞之下,几朵色彩斑斓,几乎和鲜花融为一体的蘑菇,悄悄冒了出头…… ... 。。。