**************************************************************************************** **************************************************************************************** Comes for the first time time, limited to the vision, I have thought the end battlefield is the decisive battle of Angel and Demon, the peripheral battlefield the observed many details, confirmed this point. 第一次来的时候,受限于眼界,我一直以为末日战场是天使与恶魔的决战,外围战场所观察到的诸多细节,也证实了这一点。 But now, with the thorough battlefield, what I discovered? 可是现在,随着深入战场,我发现了什么？ Probably...... from the postures of these corpses, cause of death wait/etc clues, probably is not such matter. 好像……从这些尸体的姿势,死法等等线索来看,好像并不是这么回事。 Present I, observed truth, Angel...... Demon...... big dragon...... is coping what fearful existence probably with joint forces? 现在的我,所观察到的真相,天使……恶魔……巨龙……好像在合力对付什么可怕的存在？ Certainly is my misconception, the vision is probably insufficient, is unable to see clearly the truth, after all the light is a surrounding 【Cannon fodder】, Is more powerful than me of strength heyday, does an ant, what qualifications have and ability fights of analysis and judgement two elephants? 一定是我的错觉,大概还是眼界不够,无法看清真相,毕竟光是外围的【炮灰】,就远比实力全盛时期的我更加强大,一只蚂蚁,有什么资格和能力去分析判断两头大象的打架？ Puts down the doubts and shock of heart, steps out to continue, finally, I saw that corpse mountain. 放下心头的疑惑和震惊,加快脚步继续前行,最终,我看到了那座尸山。 With the Lena's first meeting time, that corpse mountain that sees. 和艾芙丽娜第一次见面的时候,所看到的那座尸山。 That is piled up by the innumerable most powerful skeletons, overlooks the entire end battlefield, giving the person is most frigid, the giant grand corpse mountain of most solemn most and stirring aura. 那座由无数最强大的尸骸所堆积起来,俯视整个末日战场,给予人最惨烈,最悲壮气息的巨大雄伟尸山。 Lena has not played what cheap trick with me, when it one such as just met such , inserts in the corpse summit end high high, raises head to look, does not know why made me have an misconception, as if it is sending out the sorrowful atmosphere, the vicissitudes old person who probably stood in the high place, wandered in the middle of this unforgetable vast battlefield unceasingly, review, sigh. 艾芙丽娜并没有和我耍什么小把戏,它一如刚见面时那样,高高地,高高地插在尸山顶端,仰头望去,不知为何让我产生了一种错觉,似乎它在散发着悲哀的氛围,像是一个站在高处的沧桑老人,在这个难以忘怀的浩大战场当中不断徘徊,回顾,叹息。 Suddenly, the fermentation good lines, unexpectedly how did not know say, open mouth several times, do not have the means to send out a syllable. 一时间,原本酝酿好的台词,竟不知道怎么说出口,张嘴数次,都没办法发出一个音节。 This time meeting, imagines the atmosphere more serious than me, heavy. 这次的见面,比我想象中的气氛要严肃,沉重。 „Was too slow.” Lena takes the lead to open the mouth, not being able to distinguish clearly is male is the female neutral voice, is slightly low and deep, really did not have the atmosphere that in the past that type complained mutually. “太慢了。”艾芙丽娜率先开了口,分不清是男是女的中性嗓音,微微低沉,果然没有以往那种互相吐槽的气氛了。 „Also not because of your wicked interest, manipulates these dense fog to fool the person.” It is not able to complain, I also refuse to admit being inferior, this pot I do not carry. “还不是因为你的恶趣味,又摆弄那些迷雾来唬弄人。”无法吐槽,我也不甘示弱,这个锅我不背。 „That is not I makes especially, my wicked interest did not have low level that but...... considers as finished from the reality, told you you do not understand, considers such matter, even so, come was too still slow.” “那可不是我特地弄出来的,我的恶趣味还没那么低级,只不过是从现实……算了,跟你说了你也不会明白,就当是这么回事吧,就算如此,来的也太慢了。” „Passed by to look met the scenery, with arrived here time for the first time, some different sensibility.” “路过看了会风景,和第一次来到这里的时候,有些许不同的感悟。” „Right? Different sensibility?” “是吗？不同的感悟？” The atmosphere is a silence, ahh, before and atmosphere of this salt fish sword never had is so awkward and bad, should have anything to say anything, complained the opposite party to be right. 气氛又是一阵沉默,啊啊,以前和这咸鱼剑的气氛可从来没那么尴尬和糟糕过,应该是有什么说什么,往死里吐槽对方才对。 „Are you...... afraid?”, Jumps suddenly bewilderedly from it such a few words. “你……在害怕？”忽地,从它那儿莫名其妙蹦出这么一句话。 „Ha? What is afraid? Suddenly says this words to come.” My response is also a little bewildered, in wanting compared with imagination was more intense, like stepped on the cat of tail. “哈？害怕什么？忽然冒出这种话来。”我的反应也是有点莫名其妙,比想象中的要激烈许多,就像被踩到了尾巴的猫。 „Fear arrived here, the fear sees me.” “害怕来到这里,害怕见我。” „Lena, doesn't your brain really have the issue? Ok, discussed what brain with a sword.” I rubbed the temples, shakes the head to shrug to sigh. “艾芙丽娜,你脑子真没问题？算了,和一把剑讨论什么脑子。”我揉了揉太阳穴,摇头耸肩叹气。 „Should say that had anticipated is right, my present condition, but let alone you are not clear.” “应该说早就期待了才对,我现在的状态,可别说你不清楚。” „Naturally, what a pity was not worth sympathizing.” “当然了,可惜不值得同情。” ahh, again solid this peeping charge of salt fish sword, hey, is the monster monster spirits, can I report to the police? 啊啊,再次坐实了这把咸鱼剑的偷窥罪名,喂,是妖妖灵么,我可以报警么？ „Therefore , why will you draw the conclusion that I am afraid?” “所以说,为什么你会得出我害怕的结论？” „Because you are afraid the result that cannot obtain you to want.” “因为你害怕得不到你想要的结果。” „......” “……” Really this? Perhaps yes, but, is afraid even still well, I must come, must look for Lena. 真是这样吗？或许是吧,只不过,就算是害怕也好,我必须来,必须来找艾芙丽娜。 „Because in addition, already not other means that right.” As if saw through my idea, the Lena's indifferent tone, making me very uncomfortable. “因为除此之外,已经没有其他办法了,对吧。”仿佛看穿了我的想法,艾芙丽娜的冷漠语气,让我心里十分不爽。 „Did your fellow, how many garlic eat? The expression irritates the nose especially.” “你这家伙,到底是吃了多少大蒜？言辞格外呛人。” „You should be well aware are right, is not my expression is sharp, was you becomes weak.” “你应该心知肚明才对,不是我言辞犀利,是你变得软弱了。” „ahh, was I was weak, was spiritless, became more incompetent, you satisfied.” I somewhat become angry out of shame, sits down, sits cross-legged, both hands hold the chest, should say ill-humoredly. “啊啊,是我软弱了,懦弱了,变得更加无能了,你满意了吧。”我有些恼羞成怒,一屁股坐下,盘着腿,双手抱胸,没好气应道。 Immediately, discouraged lowering the head. 随即,泄气的低下头。 „But, what means I have, strength that supported at this time, is strong?” “但是,我有什么办法,难道这种时候强撑起来的坚强,算是坚强吗？” „Because of this, this poor clumsy performing skill makes one be unable to continue watching.” Lena is also said icily, the meaning of slightly under the mouth not having been forgiving. “正因为如此,这场劣拙的演技才让人看不下去。”艾芙丽娜又是冷冰冰说道,没有丝毫嘴下留情的意思。 „Is worrying each other, is worried each other, therefore has been deceiving oneself and others.” “顾虑着彼此,担心着彼此,所以一直在自欺欺人。” „But, you need to know.” “但是,你需要知道一点。” „Regardless of you are again strong, how to buoy up again, does not help matters, even you can class transfer, obtain adventurer strength in a short time again, what's the big deal? But is newly emerged rookies, after you think your class transfer, can retrieve strength that loses immediately?” “无论你再怎么坚强,再怎么振作,都无济于事,就算你能在短时间内重新转职,获得冒险者的力量,那又如何？只不过是一介初出茅庐的菜鸟而已,你以为你转职以后就能立刻找回失去的力量吗？” „Cannot.” I lower the head, worn out. “不能。”我低下头,有气无力。 „Even you can also along the original route, by quicker speed increase, ten years, on the flower ten years, return the original boundary strength, sufficed to give you face.” “就算你还能沿着原来的路线,以更快的速度提升,十年,花上十年时间,重新回到原来的境界实力,够给你面子了吧。” „Ten years...... the face somewhat gave excessively.” I smile bitterly. “十年啊……面子有些给过头了。”我苦笑一声。 „Ten years, in this crucial phase, variable big, does not need me to explain that you should very be also clear, its anticipated you ten years later restores strength, will want to repose to others would rather, right.” “十年时间,在这关键时期,变数有多大,不用我解释你应该也十分清楚,与其期待你十年后重新恢复力量,倒不如将希望寄托到其他人身上,对吧。” „ Yes, Aalto Liya, Elder Sister Sharna, Carlos Thea Tuker, the small fox, Tiya, the small spirit, as well as 12 knight inheritance, with its waits for one probability uncertain ten years, might as well rely on them more credible, they are true talent. „ “是啊,阿尔托莉雅,莎尔娜姐姐,卡洛斯西雅图克,小狐狸,蒂亚,小幽灵,以及十二骑士传承者,与其去等待一个几率渺茫的十年,不如依赖她们更加靠谱,她们才是真正的天才。“ I am thinking aloud, the reality is such brutal, these I understand, very yes, but how understood even can? 我自言自语着,现实就是这么残酷,这些我都明白,很明白,可是就算明白了又能怎么样呢？ Is deliberately bad? Wallows in degeneration? Self- dispirited? 自暴自弃？自甘堕落？自我颓废？ „Therefore you chose self-deception.” “所以你选择了自欺欺人。” „Ehm, yes, deceives oneself and others, a point also right.” “嗯啊,是的,自欺欺人,一点也没错。” „But you are clear, others deceive oneself and others, believes you, encourages you, thought that you can buoy up, leads everyone to march to the victory again, for hello/you good, but you are deceiving oneself and others, attempt makes others believe you, thinks that you can also stand, shoulders the heavy responsibility of Savior, gives their illusory hopes, is actually injuring someone.” “但是你要清楚,别人自欺欺人,相信你,鼓励你,觉得你能重新振作起来,再次带领大家走向胜利,是为了你好,但是你在自欺欺人,试图让别人相信你,认为你还能站起来,重新肩负起救世主的重任,给予她们虚无缥缈的希望,却是在害人。” I raised the head, soulless looks to keep aloof, Lena of tone satire: „You meant, since had turned into a beach mud, should the consciousness of beach mud, to make others feel that forcefully you can also change the expensive marble, mounts in the splendid palace, affects artisticly?” 我抬起头,无神的看着高高在上,语气讽刺的艾芙丽娜:“你的意思是说,既然已经变成了一滩烂泥,就应该有一滩烂泥的觉悟,不要强行让别人觉得你还能变回昂贵的大理石,镶嵌在富丽堂皇的宫殿上,影响美观？” „Roughly is such meaning, present you, give the qualifications that others hope not to have continually.” “大致上就是这么个意思,现在的你,连给予别人希望的资格都没有。” „Really is brutal.” “真是残酷啊。” „Reality is so always brutal.” “现实总是那么残酷。” „Lena you are also, although before the mouth was also poisonous, but is especially brutal today.” “艾芙丽娜你也是,以前虽然嘴巴也毒,但今天格外无情。” „Because I have decided.” Lena as if made a deep breath, the tone is firmer: „Before tolerated you, made you get down time and time again willfully, this time, I will not help you absolutely again.” “因为我已经打定主意了。”艾芙丽娜似乎做了一次深呼吸,语气更加坚决:“以前太纵容你了,一次又一次的让你任性下去,这一次,我绝对不会再帮你了。” The mouth that „......” the serious dizziness of brain oxygen deficit, a blank, gathers, wants to say anything, a character could not say, completely discouraged, all things all up with, ice-cold and covered the whole body desperately. “……”大脑缺氧似的严重晕眩,一片空白,一张一合的嘴巴,想说些什么,却一个字也说不出来,万念俱灰,万事休矣,冰冷和绝望笼罩全身。 Last ray of hope, a wee bit rays, sealed off firmly on? 最后一丝希望,一丁点光芒,也被牢牢封堵上了吗？ Why does not know, paces back and forth also well, desperate, actually does not have any doubts, perhaps before seeing Lena, had known its reply? 只是,不知为何,彷徨也好,绝望也罢,却没有任何疑惑,或许在见艾芙丽娜之前,就已经知道了它的回答？ Perhaps, oneself look around, hauls, really in...... fear? 或许,自己一路东张西望,拖拖拉拉,真的是在……害怕？ But is forcing itself, telling Lena was last hope that can't give up absolutely, making the innermost feelings have the improper hope? 只不过是在强迫自己,告诉自己艾芙丽娜是最后一丝希望了,绝对不能放弃,让内心产生了不该有的期盼？ „But...... but......” my scared lowering the head , the upper part shook shaking, pours to get down, face upwards lying down in the ground, the pupil of black salt, is contaminated the sky plumbeous. “但是……但是……”我失魂落魄的低下头,上半身晃了晃,倒下去,仰躺在的地上,黑灰的瞳孔,浸染着天空的铅色。 „What means I can have, in addition, what means do I have? I must come, must ask you, only then you can help me, can make me break out of the present difficult position, even if clear(ly) knows that you will reject, I must come......” “我又能有什么办法,除此之外,我还有什么办法？我必须来,必须求你,只有你才能帮我,才能让我摆脱眼前的困境,就算明知道你会拒绝,我也要来啊……” „You asked me to rescue your night demoness like before? Sheds bitter tears, brazen-faced and shameless, sways back and forth everywhere?” “就像以前你求着我救你那个夜魔女儿一样？痛哭流涕,死皮赖脸,满地打滚？” „If does that to you are effective.” “如果这么做对你有效的话。” „Will not be effective, this time I have set firm resolve, you must depend upon yourself to help oneself.” “不会有效的,这次我已经下定了决心,你必须依靠你自己自救。” „I? Self-help?” I am vacant, the eye pupil sags slightly, falls to Lena of occupying a commanding position on. “我？自救？”我茫然,眼瞳微微下垂,落到居高临下的艾芙丽娜身上。 „ahh, almost should play enough, the game time should end.” “啊啊,差不多该玩够了,游戏时间应该结束了。” „Plays? Game?” I sat, winks looks at Lena, the expression stems from the tranquility that oneself anticipate, the innermost feelings mighty waves are turbulent, are flooding the shame and being unwilling. “玩？游戏？”我重新坐了起来,一眨不眨的看着艾芙丽娜,表情出乎自己意料的平静,内心却波涛汹涌,充斥着羞辱和不甘。 „Why...... you think why you do want to describe?” “为什么……你会这么想,为什么你要这么形容？” „You believe, I to have played the noisy mood, lives, becomes friends, with the beloved girl marriage, wants to protect everyone's mood, the action, is playing?” “你认为,我一直是在以玩闹的心情,过日子,交朋友,和心爱的女孩结婚,想要保护大家的心情,举动,是在游戏？” „It is not true, I meant, you in a very willful wrong way, earnest is living, protects you person who earnestly wants to protect......” “并非如此,我的意思是说,你是在以一种非常任性的错误方式,认真的活着,认真的保护你想要保护的人……” „I do not understand that to you willful definition is anything! What mistake is also! I achieve the bottom to have anything is not right like this!” Interrupted Lena's words, I, even more am loudly excited, eye the sand, uncontrolled gushed out the grieved feeling, becomes fuzzy. “我不明白对你来说任性的定义到底是什么！又是什么样的错误！我这样做到底有什么不对！”打断了艾芙丽娜的话,我高声的,越发激动,眼睛似进了沙子,不受控制的涌出酸楚感,变得模糊。 „I do not understand that you are saying anything! I do not understand that who I am! Perhaps had had very extraordinary status!” “我不明白你在说些什么！我也不明白我到底是谁！或许曾经有过很了不起的身份！” „Perhaps, I actually somewhat bewildered understanding, you wanted to say anything, how wanting me to do.” “或许,我其实有些莫名其妙的明白,你想要说什么,想要我怎么做。” „But, Lena......” “但是,艾芙丽娜……” „I now am Druid Wu Fan, is Dark Continent one, is the member of alliance, there are many friends, has me to love, and is loving my family member.” “我现在是德鲁伊吴凡,是暗黑大陆的一员,是联盟的一份子,有许多的朋友,有我爱的,并且爱着我的家人。” „I want with these people in the same place, even if doomed unable to be leisurely and carefree, tranquil, continuously under the shadow of war and death covered, hopes that can with everyone in the same place, crying, to smile, crossed this life.” “我想和这些人在一起,哪怕注定无法悠闲,平静,一直在战争和死亡的阴影笼罩之下,也希望能够和大家在一起,哭着,笑着,渡过这一生。” „Lena, told me, didn't I really match to have such happiness?” “艾芙丽娜,告诉我,我真的不配拥有这样的幸福吗？” „I...... can't I pursue the happiness that I want?” “我……难道我就不能追求我想要的幸福吗？” „Can I the learned give up this happiness?” “我就非得学会割舍这份幸福吗？” „Was such happiness, extremely to me serious and luxurious?” “这样的幸福,对我而言太过沉重和奢侈了吗？” „......” “……” „......” “……” Long time...... 良久…… „No, all of this world, do not have any you not to have the qualifications to obtain, but......” reverberates along with Lena one leisurely, vague sigh. “不,这个世界的所有一切,不存在任何你没有资格获得的,但是……”伴随着艾芙丽娜一声悠悠回荡,若有若无的叹息。 „You are tired, earlier rests.” “你已经累了,早点休息吧。” Then instantaneous power failure, at present one black, fell into the heavy sleep...... 然后瞬间断电似的,眼前一黑,陷入了沉沉的睡梦之中…… ... 。。。