NSK :: Volume #9

#860: If I cannot see you


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I am summer eye, average person who can see the monster. 我是夏目,一个看得见妖怪的普通人。 Since childhood, I then because of being able to see monster, but is incompatible with the surrounding person. 从小,我便因为看得见妖怪而和周围的人格格不入。 Therefore, I have been discriminated. 所以,我一直被歧视。 Some people display this discrimination in the action, some people display this discrimination in the look. 有些人将这种歧视表现在行动上,也有些人将这种歧视表现在眼神里。 But these, I understand. 而这些,我都明白。 What I am not clear, why wants me to withstand this destiny. 我不明白的是,为什么要我来承受这种命运。 Because of these, I once loathed the monster. 因为这些,我一度十分厌恶妖怪。 I thought that was they eliminated my life. 我觉得是他们剥夺了我的人生。 Let me like a normal child to grow up. 让我不能像一个正常的孩子一样长大。 Just, with the growth of age, I as if also starts to understand existence of so-called monster. 只不过,随着年龄的增长,我似乎也开始理解所谓妖怪的存在。 In childhood, I met Kakashi-Sensei, he is mysterious existence. 小时候,我遇见了卡卡西老师,他是一个神秘的存在。 Even if until now, I also insufficiently understand him. 哪怕直到现在,我还不够了解他。 However he is first understood truly my person, I am very grateful to him. 但是他是第一个真正理解我的人,我对他很感激。 Because of his appearance, making me many to yearn to the future. 因为他的出现,让我对未来多了一丝向往。 Because I realized, I am not lonely. 因为我意识到,我并不孤独。 In this world as if also has much with my similar person. 这个世界上似乎还有不少跟我相似的人。 Although later Kakashi-Sensei vanished for several years, but I am still so believing, I will meet him again. 虽然之后卡卡西老师又消失了几年,但是我依然这般坚信着,我会再次遇见他。 I go through many places in each relative's family/home. 我辗转在各个亲戚的家中。 They are the good people, but is actually not able to understand my strange behavior. 他们都是好人,但是却无法理解我奇怪的行为。 Therefore, they are scared about me. 所以,他们对我感到害怕。 Until I arrived in home of Kuzuhara and his wife. 直到我来到了藤原夫妇的家里。 They were first said on own initiative must adopt my relative, was only one. 他们是第一个主动说要来领养我的亲戚,也是唯一的一个。 Moreover, they have not adopted strong or are the helpless attitudes. 而且,他们并没有采取强硬或者是无奈的态度。 They solicited my suggestions. 他们征求了我的意见。 This has never had the matter. 这是从来都没有过的事情。 At that moment, I felt the respect. 那一刻,我感觉到了尊重。 I have a feeling, perhaps there, I will start the completely different lives. 我有一种感觉,或许在那里,我会开始完全不同的人生。 Because this is two very warm people. 因为这是两个十分温暖的人。 I went to Kuzuhara home, started my new life. 我来到了藤原家,开始了我新的生活。 On that day, I did not untie a seal carefully. 那一天,我不小心解开了一个封印。 Therefore, I met kitty Sensei. 于是,我遇见了猫咪老师 Just started, because of kitty Sensei with the Kakashi-Sensei same sound, I thinks that they are the same people. 刚开始,因为猫咪老师卡卡西老师相同的声音,我以为他们是同一个人。 However later two people appear simultaneously make me understand, this is only a misunderstanding. 但是之后两人同时出现让我明白,这只是一场误会。 On that day, I met kitty Sensei, saw Kakashi-Sensei. 那一天,我遇到了猫咪老师,也见到了久违的卡卡西老师 All as if toward developed with the past completely different directions, because were many one thing. 一切似乎朝着与以往完全不同的方向发展,因为多了一样东西。 Friend tent/account. 友人帐。 This relic from grandmother, carrying/sustaining innumerable monsters' remembrance of Ling child grandmother. 这个来自外婆的遗物,承载着无数妖怪对玲子外婆的思念。 I want to understand Ling child grandmother, therefore inherited the friend tent/account. 我想要了解玲子外婆,所以继承了友人帐。 I want the monster who the name gives back to these with hardship waiting, does the last matter for the grandmother. 我想要将名字还给这些苦苦等待的妖怪,为外婆做最后一点事情。 Kitty Sensei became my bodyguard. 猫咪老师则是成了我的保镖。 Walks, I had returned the names of many monster. 一路走来,我已经归还了很多妖怪的名字。 But in this process I also discovered, actually monster I had not thought is so terrifying. 而在这个过程中我也发现,其实妖怪并没有我原本想的那么恐怖。 They are also divided into the monster and bad monster, this and person is divided into the good person and unprincipled person has no difference. 他们也分为好妖和坏妖,这和人分为好人和坏人并没有什么区别。 I rejoiced very much, met many good monsters. 我很庆幸,遇到了很多好妖。 With them, I also had the friendship. 和他们之间,我也结下了友情。 Especially kitty Sensei. 尤其是猫咪老师 Although kitty Sensei does not meet sometimes credibly, but with him in the same place, I have a security sense unexpectedly inexplicably. 虽然猫咪老师有些时候会不靠谱,但是和他在一起,我居然莫名地有一丝安全感。 The monsters in my life, as if occupy more and more important role. 妖怪在我的生活中,似乎占据着越来越重要的角色。 I even start to feel, can see the monster is also a good matter. 我甚至开始觉得,看得见妖怪也是一件不错的事情。 Perhaps I had not realized on human the thing that can be filled from the monster. 或许我在人类身上没有体会到的东西,可以从妖怪身上得到填补。 Thus, as if also good. 这样,似乎也不错。 However the day, I met one greatly troublesome. 但是这一天,我遇见了一个大麻烦。 Because a monster licked to lick my eye, I lost ability that saw the monster. 因为一只妖怪舔舐了我的眼睛,我失去了看见妖怪的能力。 Although Kakashi-Sensei said that two days then can restore, but I actually felt a fear. 虽然卡卡西老师说两天便能恢复,但是我竟然感觉到了一丝害怕。 What am I afraid? 我在害怕什么? Can't see the monster? 看不见妖怪? Haven't I loathed such ability? 我不是一直都厌恶这样的能力吗? Why will feel the fear? 为什么会感觉到害怕? Cannot see the monster, all terrible business will go to me, I can the life of my average person. 看不见妖怪,所有的麻烦事都会离我而去,我就可以过好我普通人的生活。 Isn't this good? 这样难道不好吗? It is not good! 不好! My innermost feelings are actually summoning like this. 我的内心竟然这样呼唤着。 In the evening, I like got Kuzuhara home in the past. 晚上,我像往常那样回到了藤原家。 Holds on the pillow, kitty Sensei calmly sits above. 抱枕上,猫咪老师静静地坐在上面。 I somewhat am suddenly sad, can I have naive visible kitty Sensei. 我忽然有些感伤,我会不会有天真的看不见猫咪老师了。 Kitty Sensei, you turn into the true body the words, I could not see you.” “猫咪老师,你变成真身的话,我是不是就看不见你了。” Kitty Sensei revealed the taunt look, said: Can try?” 猫咪老师露出了嘲讽的眼神,说道:“要不要试试?” Has not needed I to nod, kitty Sensei bang, vanished. 还不待我点头,猫咪老师砰的一声,消失了。 In room empty, does not have half shadow. 房间里空空荡荡,没有半个影子。 Kitty Sensei that noble true body has not appeared before me. 猫咪老师那高贵的真身没有在我面前出现。 In room empty, making me somewhat feel nervous. 房间里空空荡荡,让我心里有些发慌。 If all these real, if the eye could not see the monster again, one day, with the kitty Sensei true farewell. 如果这一切都是真的,如果眼睛再也看不见妖怪了,是不是有一天,也会跟猫咪老师真正的告别。 Why thinks of here, in the heart is somewhat sad. 为什么想到这里,心中有些难过。 Do the monsters to me, what mean now? 妖怪对我而言,如今到底意味着什么? I was confused. 我迷茫了。 As if that no longer is the community that I dislike. 似乎那已经不再是我所讨厌的群体。 I stand in dull same place, what to do suddenly does not know should. 我呆呆地站在原地,一时间不知道该怎么办。 At this time, kitty Sensei changed the shape of cat again. 这时候,猫咪老师再度变回了猫的形态。 It seems like you truly are look to disappear. In this case, perhaps you will be eaten by the monster, I can bring back the friend tent/account logically.” The kitty Sensei faint smile said. “看来你确实是看不见了。这样的话,说不定你会被妖怪吃了,那我就可以顺理成章地拿回友人帐了。”猫咪老师似笑非笑地说道。 I heard that the word somewhat said reluctantly: That is your bodyguard isn't competent?” 我闻言有些无奈地说道:“那是你这个保镖的不称职吧?” „, Also is not you acts unreasonably.” “嘁,还不是你来乱来。” In the kitty Sensei tone, as if doped annoyingly some. 猫咪老师的语气中,似乎掺杂了一些懊恼。 I do not know how should say, but always felt, I and between kitty Sensei, as if had a marvelous relation. 我不知道该怎么去说,但是总觉得,我和猫咪老师之间,似乎有了一种奇妙的联系。 Perhaps was receiving that moment of friend tent/account, all different. 或许在接过友人帐的那一刻,一切就都不一样了吧。 That evening, I have not had a good sleep. 那一晚,我没有睡好。 In the mind is the strange ideas. 脑海中都是奇奇怪怪的想法。 Kitty Sensei has not as if fallen asleep, I can feel. 猫咪老师似乎也没有睡着,我能感觉到。 What is he also thinking? 他也在想着什么吗? What is like me is being worried about? 或者和我一样在担心什么吗? I do not know, but looks at that chubby cat body, had a relieved feeling inexplicably. 我不知道,但是看着那胖乎乎的猫身,莫名有了一种安心的感觉。 Next morning, I am washing in the restroom. 第二天一早,我在厕所洗漱着。 Suddenly, has the sound to transmit. 忽然,有声音传来。 summer can eye, see today?” “夏目,今天能够看见了吗?” Is the Kakashi-Sensei sound? 卡卡西老师的声音? No, is the kitty Sensei real sound. 不,是猫咪老师的真声。 I responded quickly, the glance, is everywhere completely empty. 我很快反应了过来,四处扫视,却空空如也。 I said disappointedly: „It is not good.” 我失望地说道:“还不行。” That sound was silent. 那声音沉默了。 I sighed, continue to wash, when I saw Kagami/mirror actually has a scare. 我叹了口气,继续洗漱,然而在我看到子的时候却吓了一跳。 Loach beard!” “泥鳅胡子!” Originally, present I can see the monster through Kagami/mirror. 原来,现在的我可以通过子去看见妖怪。 Although without before was convenient, but was not too bad. 虽然没有之前方便,但是也不算太糟。 My heart decided that all have not arrived at the conclusion time. 我的心定了下来,一切还没有到结束的时候。 However, really one day to finish? 但是,是不是真的会有一天结束呢? Perhaps is the time that the friend tent/account rips, perhaps is I cannot see the monster the time...... 或许是友人帐撕完的时候,或许是我看不见妖怪的时候…… Really on the day of the hope, never come...... 真希望那一天,永远都不要来啊…… I look at kitty Sensei, said: Kitty Sensei, if some day I could not see the monster, you will also treat side me?” 我看着猫咪老师,说道:“猫咪老师,如果有一天我看不见妖怪了,你还会待在我身边吗?” Kitty Sensei showed that taunt expression. 猫咪老师又露出了那嘲讽的表情。 Fool, I will take the friend tent/account to leave you.” “笨蛋,那我会拿着友人帐离开你。” Real?” “真的吗?” I somewhat lose. 我有些失落。 Finally does the relation of I and kitty Sensei only have the friend tent/account? 难道最后我和猫咪老师的联系只剩下友人帐吗? I also think that is not this. 我还以为不是这样的。 I and kitty Sensei experienced so many together, not? 我和猫咪老师一起经历了那么多,不是吗? At this time kitty Sensei said suddenly: Looks in your family's meals good share, when the time comes I will consider to keep some time.” 这时候猫咪老师忽然说道:“不过看在你家的伙食不错的份上,到时候我会考虑多留一段时间。” Kitty Sensei said, is swinging the body, faces forward to walk. 猫咪老师说完,摇摆着身躯,朝前走去。 Kitty Sensei......” “猫咪老师……” I gawked, immediately in heart one happy. 我愣了一下,随即心中一喜。 I with, closely held kitty Sensei quickly in the bosom. 我快步跟了上去,将猫咪老师紧紧地抱在怀里。 Fool summer eye! You hugged too tightly! I was about to suffocate!” “笨蛋夏目!你抱得太紧了!我快窒息了!” Kitty Sensei is struggling unceasingly. 猫咪老师不断地挣扎着。 Thank you, kitty Sensei.” “谢谢你,猫咪老师。” If some day I cannot see you, hopes that is that day that I died. 如果有一天我看不见你,希望那是我死去的那天。 ...... …… I am the spot, now is called kitty Sensei by summer that fool. 我是斑,现在被夏目那个笨蛋叫做猫咪老师 Although before this name not me aggression, but can also accept reluctantly. 虽然这个名字没有我之前的霸气,但是勉强还能接受。 After all by the brain of summer that fool , can only find out calls like this. 毕竟以夏目那笨蛋的脑子,也就只能想出这样的称呼了。 Today the matter that silly summer eye is an idiot, was seized by the monster. 傻乎乎的夏目今天又做一件白痴的事情,被妖怪抓走了。 What is worse, because the eye was licked by the monster, unexpectedly temporarily could not see the monster. 更糟糕的是,因为眼睛被妖怪舔了一下,居然暂时看不见妖怪了。 Really is a fool! 真是个笨蛋! Always makes such mistake! 老是犯这样的错误! Was injured by the monster is not a time twice, why always doesn't grow the memory? 被妖怪伤害也不是一次两次了,为什么总是不长记性? Although a little because of my reason, but this cannot change summer eye is the fact of fool. 虽然有一点是因为我的原因,但是这也不能改变夏目是个笨蛋的事实。 The one who is more hateful is that monster, unexpectedly dares to lick summer eye! 更可恶的是那个妖怪,居然敢舔夏目! If were met by me, I ate certainly it! 要是被我遇见了,我一定吃了它! This base and low monster, dares to hurt human that I protect unexpectedly. 这个卑微的妖怪,居然敢伤害我保护的人类。 That is my prey, how can allow others to bribe! 那可是我的猎物,怎么可以允许别人染指! Doesn't place in the name of my spot the eye? 不将我斑之名放在眼中吗? Damn! 该死! In the evening, at the summer goal request, I turned into the true body. 晚上,在夏目的要求下,我变成了真身。 To play jokes upon his, when sees his expression, I was actually shocked. 原本想戏耍他一番,但是看到他的表情时,我却愣住了。 That fool, in the eye is confused. 那个笨蛋,眼中都是迷茫。 He could not see me. 他看不见我了。 I in his side, his actually anything cannot see obviously. 明明我就在他的身边,他却什么都看不见。 Really is a idiot. 果然是个大笨蛋。 I calmly visit him, white body its package in central, but he, as soon as does not have to think. 我静静地看着他,白色的身躯将其包裹在中央,但是他一无所觉。 I approach his nape of the neck gently, the breath spit above. 我轻轻地凑近他的脖颈,鼻息吐在上面。 He has not detected. 他还是没有察觉到。 Suddenly in my heart one tight. 忽然我心中一紧。 These time temporary, but one day, he will really lose sees the ability of monster. 这一次是暂时的,但是总有一天,他真的会失去看见妖怪的能力。 Even no, one day, he will still die. 就算没有,有一天,他也会死去。 After all he is only a human. 毕竟他只是一个人类。 Is human, will be old, will die. 是人类,就会老,就会死。 By that time, how should I? 到那个时候,我该如何? The life of human to the monster is only the flash. 人类的生命对妖怪来说只是一瞬间啊。 No, is not right, he is only my pastime. 不,不对,他只是我的消遣而已。 Even if he looks to disappear, died, what relations also has with me? 就算是他看不见了,死了,跟我又有什么关系? I am the spot, close to domain of god high-level monster. 我是斑,接近神之领域的高级妖怪。 How to yearn to a human? 怎么会对一个人类留恋? My goal is only the friend tent/account. 我的目的只是友人帐而已。 Un, is this...... 嗯,是这样的…… I calmly look at summer eye, the look that his confused and loses also really makes people think uncomfortable. 我静静地看着夏目,他那迷茫和失落的眼神还真是让人觉得难受啊。 Snort, fool. 哼,笨蛋。 I do not want to manage this fool! 我才不想管这个笨蛋! I changed the appearance of kitty, sat on my hugging pillow. 我变回了猫咪的模样,坐在我的抱枕上。 „, In any case also temporary. Don't worry.” “嘛,反正也是暂时的。不用担心。” I so said that to let that fool feels better. 我这般说道,为了让那个笨蛋心里好受一点。 In the heart the deep place, is so as if also comforting itself. 只是心中深处,似乎也这般安慰着自己。 Un, I understand.” “嗯,我明白。” In the evening, I lost sleep. 晚上,我失眠了。 I start to reexamine me and between the relations summer eye. 我开始重新审视我和夏目之间的关系。 This with Ling child similar human of without a doubt is a fool, but why...... 这个跟玲子相似的人类毫无疑问是个笨蛋,但是为什么…… I do not talk clearly. 我自己也说不清楚。 All these, seemed to be different. 只是这一切,似乎都不一样了。 I know, summer that fool has not fallen asleep. 我知道,夏目那个笨蛋也没有睡着。 What is he also thinking? 他也在想什么吗? Next day, did the loach beard come Sir summer eye unable to see early? ” 第二天,泥鳅胡子早早地过来了夏目大人还是看不见吗?” „, Tried not to know.” “嘁,试试不就知道了。” I turned into the true body, is summoning summer eye gently. 我变成了真身,轻轻呼唤着夏目。 Summer looks around at a loss everywhere. 夏目茫然地四处张望。 Really cannot see me. 果然还是看不到我。 This type as if can see the future appearance, but also is really repugnant. 这种似乎能够看到未来的模样,还真是讨厌啊。 On the road, summer eye asked me suddenly. 路上,夏目忽然问我。 Kitty Sensei, if some day I could not see the monster, you will also treat side me?” “猫咪老师,如果有一天我看不见妖怪了,你还会待在我身边吗?” Is this does not give up me? 这是舍不得我吗? I cannot help but showed the happy expression, in the heart somewhat was unexpectedly happy. 我不由得露出了笑意,心中竟然有几分高兴。 Fool, I will take the friend tent/account to leave you.” “笨蛋,那我会拿着友人帐离开你。” Noble I, how will remain side you who cannot see the monster? 高贵的我,怎么会留在看不见妖怪的你身边呢? I told myself like this. 我心里这样告诉自己。 However sees the look that summer that loses, I thought suddenly some do not feel better. 但是看见夏目那失落的眼神,我忽然觉得心中有些不好受。 Looks in your family's meals good share, when the time comes I will consider to keep some time.” “不过看在你家的伙食不错的份上,到时候我会考虑多留一段时间。” Un, I choose to remain for food, not for summer that fool. 嗯,我是为了食物才选择留下来的,才不是为了夏目那个笨蛋。 After all the craftsmanship of tower that girl is very good. 毕竟塔子那丫头的手艺可是十分不错。 Then, I walked swaggering in front, left a fool summer eye noble back. 说完,我大摇大摆地走在了前面,留给笨蛋夏目一个高贵的背影。 summer Muwen spoke discreetly showed the smile newly. 夏目闻言重新露出了笑容。 He flushed, closely grasped me. 他冲了上来,紧紧地抱住了我。 Fool summer eye! You hugged too tightly! I was about to suffocate!” “笨蛋夏目!你抱得太紧了!我快窒息了!” I struggle must leave the summer goal bosom, but summer eye said: Thank you, kitty Sensei......” 我挣扎着要离开夏目的怀抱,但夏目却说道:“谢谢你,猫咪老师……” I gawked, actually also stopped struggling. 我愣了一下,却也停止了挣扎。 summer eye, your fool...... 夏目,你这个笨蛋…… If some day you cannot see me, I should still also protect you, until death end. 如果有一天你看不见我,我也会依然守护你,直到死亡的尽头。 This is I, high-level monster, the commitment of spot. 这是我,高级妖怪,斑的承诺。 Hopes on the day , never arrive. 希望那一天,永远都不要到来。 The recommendation read: Giant silkworm potato big god new book «Yuan Revering», trick big god recent work «Main road Facing upwards» 推荐阅读:天蚕土豆大神新书《元尊》、猫腻大神新作《大道朝天》
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