124 124 The autumn rain that lightly drainings falls in the basin surface of small garden light, brings the faint trace ripples 淅沥沥的秋雨轻飘飘地落在小庭院的水池面上,带起丝丝涟漪 Two gigantic Japanese bananas drag with the wind gently, that broad leaf surface has covered originally the dim ray, lets on the floor of fuzzy shadow rubbing in landing glass door 两株硕大的芭蕉随风轻轻摇曳,那宽阔的叶面遮挡了本就昏暗的光线,让模糊的阴影拓印在落地玻璃门内的地板上 In the morning, in the Qiangwei bedroom appears chilly and quiet, has the bedside lamp of plain chart article decoration not to close all night, because is the cloudy day, this moment that group of lights appear Huang the dizzy especially bright eyes 清晨,蔷薇的卧室里显得清冷而静谧,带有古朴图文装饰的床头灯彻夜未关,由于是阴天,此刻那团灯光显得黄晕晕格外亮眼 Has changed upper body blue white loose flax pajamas Yang Chen to face upward Tang on the bed, is shutting both eyes, sends out weakly, but even breath, but the thick pitch-black brow is actually light locked 已经换上身蓝白色宽松亚麻睡衣的杨辰仰躺在床上,闭着双眼,发出微弱但均匀的呼吸,只是浓密乌黑的眉头却是轻锁着 The coffee color just likes the liquid chocolate bed sheet fold cannot withstand, seems tells others, the man who last night on the bed fell asleep, has made the how fierce movement 咖啡色犹如液态巧克力般的床单褶皱不堪,好似告诉别人,昨夜床上睡着的男人,是做了多么剧烈的动作 At this time, the door lightly was shoved open, is carrying Qiangwei of millet gruel and dish garlic in syrup has traded cream-white silk nature nightdress, on beautiful face full is the gloomy mood with worrying, the lotus steps moved to arrive at the Yang Chen bedside to put down the gruel dish lightly, bent down to give Yang Chen to draw the thin quilt 这时候,房门被轻悄悄地推开,端着一盘小米粥和一碟子糖蒜的蔷薇已经换了身乳白色的绸质睡裙,姣美的脸蛋上满是愁绪与担忧,莲步轻挪着走到杨辰床边将粥菜放下,俯下身给杨辰拉了拉薄被 Sits in the sides of the bed, complex the man who the Qiangwei look looks at the sound sleep, her whole evening has not rested, brings Yang Chen was going to the hospital first, after checkoff, to ask the personal doctor to come here to give Yang Chen treatment and other Yang Chen to be steady the determination anything danger, Qiangwei has not processed the matters concerned after banquet 坐在床沿,蔷薇神色复杂地看着酣眠的男子,她一整晚都没睡,带着杨辰先去了医院,检查完毕后又叫了私人医师来到这里给杨辰治疗等杨辰平稳下来确定没什么危险,蔷薇才去处理了宴会后的事宜 Quick after makes astonishingly a series of affected Western District in the future the important decision of underground pattern, Qiangwei in a hurry returns to the room, looks after Yang Chen to this morning personally 快的惊人地作出了一系列影响西区未来地下格局的重要决策后,蔷薇又匆匆地回到屋子里,亲手照料杨辰到今天早晨 This man has taken to her thorough shock once again, but, made her have one time to feel the gap of barrier 这个男人又一次带给了她彻彻底底的震撼,但同时,也让她有一次感受到了彼此间所隔阂的鸿沟 Qiangwei does not like this feeling, she has too many questions, but must wait for Yang Chen to wake 蔷薇不喜欢这种感觉,她有太多疑问,可一切都必须等杨辰醒过来 In Qiangwei is pondering some numerous and diverse pictures, Yang Chen awake song that closed one's eyes opens both eyes, long exhaled 就在蔷薇沉思着一些繁杂的画面时,原本闭着眼的杨辰惺忪地睁开双眼,长长地呼了口气 Qiangwei catches this to flicker keenly, immediately surges a pleasant surprise, makes an effort to grab a hand of Yang Chen, „did husband, you awake?” 蔷薇灵敏地捕捉到这一瞬,顿时涌起一阵惊喜,用力地抓住杨辰的一只手,“老公,你醒了？” „Now several : 00?” Yang Chen smiled lightly, throws one look that makes Qiangwei feel relieved “现在几点？”杨辰淡淡地笑了笑,投去了一个让蔷薇放心的眼神 „Also early, can seven points, again rest a while?” Qiangwei looks at the Yang Chen pale complexion, heart acid, but represses laughter saying: „You may scare me, suddenly so is strange, my whole evening has not rested” “还早呢,才七点,要不要再休息一会儿？”蔷薇看着杨辰苍白的脸色,心头一酸,但强忍着笑笑说:“你可吓坏我了,突然就这么奇奇怪怪的,我一整晚都没睡呢” The Yang Chen double arm rest under the surface of bed, own sat to set out, gathered the Qiangwei cheeks place to kiss the mouth, „I have been all right, I fainted actually after last night, what had?” 杨辰双臂撑了下床面,自己坐起身来,凑到蔷薇脸颊处亲了口,“我没事了,倒是昨晚我昏了以后,都发生了什么？” Qiangwei sees Yang Chen not to have the meaning that own explained that also has not asked very much cleverly, reorganized under said: „I led you to go to the hospital yesterday, after simple inspects , the doctor did not say that anything specially, is only you specially is probably stimulated, heartbeat is also quite quick, after you have hit the sedative, you are peaceful many afterward I to lead you to return to here, invited my personal doctor to prescribe the calming the nerves medicine to you, you have rested now” 蔷薇见杨辰没有自己解释的意思,也很乖巧地没开口询问,整理了下说道:“我昨天带你去了医院,简单检查完后医生说没什么特别的,只是你好像特别亢奋,心跳也比较快,给你打了镇静剂后,你就安静了许多后来我带你回到这里,请来我的私人医生给你开了点安神的药,你就一直睡到现在” „Yes...... I do not remember”, Yang Chen smiles bitterly is tracing forehead, in fact he remembers only a matter, is in the own brain explodes the general fierce ache “是么……我都不记得了”,杨辰苦笑着摸了摸额头,事实上他唯一记得一件事,就是自己大脑内爆炸一般的剧烈疼痛 Thought the training one year, the half year leisurely and carefree day, own has had no recourse real, kills dozens individuals, will not be hard-to-control like the past, but has not thought that own that old problem still few minutes change for the better 原本以为修养了一年,又过了这半年多的悠闲日子,自己就算迫不得已动一次真格,杀几十个人,也不会像过去那样难以控制,可是没想到,自己的那个老毛病依然没有几分好转 Fortunately continually promotes along with own that strange skill/effort (kung fu) realm, can restrain reluctantly that terrifying wild mood, had afterward called Qiangwei to knock down own that otherwise...... 所幸随着自己那门古怪功夫的境界不断提升,已经能够勉强克制一下那恐怖的狂暴情绪,才有了后来叫蔷薇打晕自己的那一幕,要不然…… Yang Chen fear, it seems like own has pulled rank, later must pay attention to make own as before maintain relaxation of nerve, relaxes the mentality, cannot the transition be tired, otherwise cannot constrain the own mood, cannot control accidentally promptly, cast the blunder to be also hard to recall 杨辰一阵后怕,看来自己还是托大了,以后依旧要注意让自己保持神经的放松,放宽心态,不能过渡劳累,要不然压抑不住自己的情绪,又万一没能及时控制住,铸成大错也就难以挽回了 Qiangwei continues saying: „As for banquet conference site that side, only then Situ Mingze and four bodyguards lived, I have imprisoned West Union Society to be now in great confusion Situ Mingze, almost all important characters were killed me to make my subordinate coordinate Zhang Hu by you to reorganize the West Union Society influence, in the day of going the possible matter to be many, but soon, entire Western District will not have ‚West Union Society’ these three characters to be right, what is funny is Zhou Guangnian that old fox, after receiving the news unexpectedly, telephones to congratulate me on own initiative, added, must live together in peace and harmony” 蔷薇继续说道:“至于宴会会场那边,只有司徒明泽和四个保镖活了下来,我已经将司徒明泽监禁了西盟会现在已经乱成一团,几乎所有重要的人物都被你杀了我已经让我的手下配合张虎去整顿西盟会的势力,接下去的日子里可能事情会很多,但用不了多久,整个西区就不会有‘西盟会’这三个字对了,好笑的是周光年那个老狐狸,竟然获得消息后,主动打电话恭喜我,还说以后要和睦相处” Yang Chen nodded, asked: „How that Situ Mingze do you plan to process?” 杨辰点点头,问道:“那司徒明泽你打算怎么处理？” In the Qiangwei eye flashes through together severe glow, but hesitant for a long time, sighed: „I do not know that I had planned temporarily the section day, sends to the overseas him, chooses the Europe small country, gives him a sum of money, making him care for the aged” 蔷薇眼中闪过一道厉芒,但犹豫了许久,叹息道:“我不知道,我暂时打算过段日子,把他送去国外,选个欧洲的小国家,给他一笔钱,让他去养老” „Don't you kill him?” Some Yang Chen accidental/surprised, in his opinion, Qiangwei clearly has the potential of blood and iron underworld gang queen “你不杀他？”杨辰有些意外,在他看来,蔷薇显然有铁血黑道女王的潜质 The Qiangwei vision looks at Yang Chen complex, „, if before, I definitely will kill him, but now, because of you, I thought that I cannot kill him” 蔷薇目光复杂地看着杨辰,“如果是以前,我肯定会杀了他,但现在,因为你,我觉得我不能杀他” „Why?” Yang Chen thought that own is not very intelligent “为什么？”杨辰觉得自己不够聪明 Qiangwei said with a smile mournfully: „Actually he had words to say right, who regardless of he were, the person was also good, the animal was also good, but in my body was flowing his blood, this fact will never change him is my father, although I hated him, looked down upon him, may indeed be he together leads me to arrive at this world not him with my mother, did not have my me to think, regardless of any reason, the daughter killed the own father, was one not the mistake that allowed to forgive......” 蔷薇凄然笑道:“其实他有句话说得对,不论他是谁,人也好,禽兽也好,可我的身体里流淌着他的血液,这个事实永远不会改变他是我的父亲,虽然我憎恨他,看不起他,可的确是他跟我母亲一起带我来到这个世界没有他,就没有我我想,不论什么原因,女儿杀死自己的父亲,都是一个不容原谅的错误……” „Decides like......” Qiangwei looks at Yang Chen, said: „Like, if, we had the child, I am really unconceivable, how the child can kill you, has killed his father...... Even if as mother, even if I died at that time, I will also die by heartbreak in another world” “就像……”蔷薇定定地看着杨辰,道:“就像,如果以后我们有了孩子,我实在不能想象,孩子怎么可以杀了你,杀了他的父亲……哪怕作为母亲,哪怕我那时候已经死了,我也会在另一个世界伤心欲绝的” Yang Chen has been startled being startled, slowly said with a smile: „This does not have any comparability probably, I possibly am how same as Situ Mingze, I will not make my children hate me even to kill me” 杨辰怔了怔,才姗姗笑道:“这好像没什么可比性,我怎么可能跟司徒明泽一样,我可不会让我的子女恨我甚至想杀我” „Situ Mingze is not wants to make my this daughter hate him from the beginning, wants to kill his” Qiangwei hidden bitterness tunnel “司徒明泽也不是一开始就想让我这个女儿恨他,想杀他的”蔷薇幽怨地道 Yang Chen is flabbergasted, cannot speak, has pondered, said: „As you like, so long as you think that correct is good I to support you” 杨辰咋舌,说不出话来,思考了下,才道:“都随你,只要你认为正确就好我都支持你” Qiangwei went forward to kiss the mouth on the Yang Chen lip quiet with a smile moistly, delimited together the cool trace with the lilac small tongue on the face of Yang Chen creamy, in bright and intelligent eyes affectionately lovingly, „husband, thank you, thank you gave all my” 蔷薇恬笑着上前在杨辰嘴唇上湿润地亲了口,又用丁香小舌在杨辰的脸上滑腻地划出一道凉凉的痕迹,水汪汪的眼眸里脉脉含情,“老公,谢谢你,谢谢你给我的一切” „Has nothing to thank, I am being me the matter that likes handling” Yang Chen having deep feelings tunnel “没什么可谢的,我只是在做我喜欢做的事情罢了”杨辰感触颇深地道 „I decide to tell you a secret”, Qiangwei under decides some important determination suddenly, „I planned not to say for a lifetime, but I thought now that concealed that past, was to our sentiment was irresponsible” “我决定告诉你一个秘密”,蔷薇突然下定某重要的决心,“原本我打算一辈子都不说的,但我现在觉得,隐瞒那段过去,是对我们感情的不负责” Yang Chen frowned, silent did not speak 杨辰皱了皱眉头,默然不语 Qiangwei took a deep breath, said: „Reason that actually I leave Situ Mingze, takes today's path, and not only because of my hateful his people skills, other reason” 蔷薇深吸一口气,才道:“其实我之所以离开司徒明泽,走上今天的道路,并不仅仅是因为我讨厌他的为人处事,还有别的原因” „Husband, you knows that I with the appearance of my mother young time, almost am much longer......” Qiangwei to say “老公,你知道吗,我跟我母亲年轻时候的样子,几乎长得一模一样呢……”蔷薇说道 Yang Chen nodded, he remembers that Situ Mingze had mentioned this matter in the liquor 杨辰点了点头,他有记得,司徒明泽在酒曾经提起过这个事 „When I am a child, Situ Mingze has led the West Union Society troop person to fight in Western District, he every day is liquor air/Qi, even in a smell of blood went home he to our mother and daughter two, good time, seems the world best husband and father, he loves my Mother, Mother will want any him also is very pain to him I, I will cry he to coax me to arrive to smile, will also hug me to turn circle, leading me to swing......” “在我还是个小孩子的时候,司徒明泽就已经带领着西盟会的大群人在西区打拼,他每天都是一身酒气,甚至一身血腥味地回到家里他对我们母女两个,好的时候,就仿佛是天下最好的丈夫和爸爸,他非常宠爱我妈妈,妈妈要什么他都会给他也很疼我,我一哭他就会哄我到笑,还会抱着我转圈,带我荡秋千……” „But, whenever he was drunk, or has killed many people, sad time, he with changing individual same...... His cruel aura, savage, is inhuman he, as soon as will arrive home to come with any tiny slight defect to my Mother both beating and cursing, will also pound my Mother with beverage bottle...... Also can...... Also will be in front of my, does that matter to my Mother......” “可是,每当他喝醉了酒,或者杀了很多人,心情不好的时候,他就跟变了个人一样……他暴戾,凶残,毫无人性他一到家就会用任何细小的瑕疵来对我妈妈又打又骂,甚至还会拿酒瓶子砸我妈妈……还会……还会当着我的面,对我妈妈做那种事……” „Wait/Etc.”, the Yang Chen doubts asked: „Wasn't your mother, you slightly leaves the world very much?” “等等”,杨辰疑惑地问道:“你母亲,不是你很小就离世了么？” „That is false, this is I Qiangwei agonized smiled with lie that Situ Mingze scatters together” , to continue to relate...... “那是假的,这是我跟司徒明泽一起撒的谎言”蔷薇苦涩笑了笑,继续诉说…… „At that time I was very young, does not understand the matters between many Sirs, but I know that Situ Mingze is the lion of being subject to changing moods, you side him, never know that the next moment is returns alive dies” “那个时候我还很小,不懂很多大人间的事情,但我知道,司徒明泽就是个喜怒无常的狮子,你在他身边,永远不知道下一刻是生还是死” Here, Qiangwei, resembling recalls many past events, has scratched the eye socket of wet, then continued saying: 说到这里,蔷薇顿了顿,似是回忆起不少往事,擦了擦润润的眼眶,而后继续道: „Until one day, me hears Mother to quarrel with Situ Mingze, at that time I on the elementary school, I could understand them to discuss anything...... My Mother has gone off track, she had the relations with a Situ Mingze subordinate . Moreover the man who tries to leave this mental aberration, wants to elope...... But, was realized by Situ Mingze, early contained” “直到有一天,我又听到妈妈跟司徒明泽吵架,那时候我已经上了小学,我听得懂他们在谈些什么……我妈妈出轨了,她跟一个司徒明泽的手下发生了关系,而且还试图离开这个精神失常的男人,想要私奔……可是,偏偏被司徒明泽察觉,及早地遏制了” „Sound that on that day Situ Mingze with mother quarrelled must make me feel that greatly the entire building must collapse was the same, I hid outside of door, wanted to escape, but I did not have the strength to leave” “那天司徒明泽跟妈妈吵架的声音大得让我感觉整个楼都要塌了一样,我躲在房门的外面,想要逃跑,但我却没力气离开” „To finally, me hears in room to spread the Mother pitiful yell sound, Mother shouts help unceasingly, called to me be scared, but I anything did not know besides crying at that time......” “到最后,我听到房间里传出妈妈的惨叫声,妈妈不断地喊救命,叫得把我都吓傻了,可我当时除了哭以外什么也不知道……” „After and other room inside peaceful calm down, the door was opened, at that time Situ Mingze walked, saw that I cry in door, but a foot gives to kick out of the way me, then did not return walked......” “等屋子里安静下来以后,房门才被打开,当时司徒明泽走了出来,看到我在房门口哭,只是一脚把我给踢开,然后就头也不回地走了……” Qiangwei is nipping colorful flowery lips, said with a smile grieved: „Husband you knows that my this whole life first time sees the deceased person, the death, is my Mother......” 蔷薇咬着殷虹的唇瓣,惨然笑道:“老公你知道吗,我这辈子第一次看见死人,死的,是我的妈妈……” „My Mother was beaten by Situ Mingze livingly, kicks the whole body to be been incarnadine by the blood, died in the family/home, died in my front, I have the nightmare to the present, will dream of that scene to awaken, because the eye of Mother was opens, I felt probably she was visiting me, she hates me probably, hating me unable to go to prevent...... But...... But a I ten -year-old girl can make anything......” “我妈妈被司徒明泽活生生拳打脚踢,踢地全身被血染红,死在了家里,死在了我的面前,我到现在做噩梦,梦见那个场面还是会惊醒过来,因为妈妈的眼睛是睁开的,我好像感觉她是在看着我,她好像是恨我,恨我没能进去阻止……可……可我一个十岁的女孩子能做什么呢……” Yang Chen calmly is listening, did not speak, since he has had memory, calls Yang Chen besides own, does not know the so-called family, so-called parents, therefore Qiangwei passing, although sad, but Yang Chen and is unable to comprehend truly, can only listen attentively silently 杨辰静静地听着,也不说话,从他有记忆以来,除了自己叫杨辰以外,根本不知道所谓的家庭,所谓的父母,所以蔷薇的过往虽然感伤,但杨辰并无法真正地领会,只能默默倾听 „Afterward I slowly had grown up, Situ Mingze is not what kind to me, he had forgotten probably radically he has killed my Mother, his wife, he was happy time smiles with me, his angry/vitality time beats and scolds me......” “后来我慢慢长大了,司徒明泽也没对我怎么样,他好像根本忘记了他打死了我的妈妈,他的妻子,他高兴的时候还是跟我笑,他生气的时候还是打骂我……” „I lost Mother, but I always convince own , because Mother betrayed the father, will have that fate, therefore I have not revolted against Situ Mingze, I think that he definitely loves my” “我失去了妈妈,但我总是说服自己,是因为妈妈背叛了爸爸,才会有那个下场,所以我并没有反抗司徒明泽,我想他心里肯定是爱我的” „To...... My 18 th birthday......” the tears air seasoning of Qiangwei corner of the eye, was gradually chilly on that day was saying: „In that night, after he and several uncle I celebrated the birthday, together went home he arrived in my room suddenly very much specially, talked to me many words, had about me in childhood, had about his business, had about the gang, with other others children's matters......” “一直到……我18岁生日那一天……”蔷薇眼角的泪水渐渐风干,清冷着说道:“那天晚上,他和几个叔伯给我庆祝完生日后,一起回到家里他突然很特别地来到我房间里,跟我谈了很多话,有关于我小时候的,有关于他生意上的,有关于帮会的,和一些别人家孩子的事的……” „I do not understand why at that time he said these many, but I have been listening such...... To finally, him starts to discuss had not mentioned Mother......” “我当时不明白他为什么说这么多,但我一直这么听着……到最后,他开始谈一直都没提起过的妈妈……” „He said that he thinks of Mother very much, he regretted very much, because cannot control the mood to kill Mother, but he hopes that I do not blame him, because he wants the pain compared with anyone......” “他说他很想念妈妈,他很后悔因为控制不住情绪将妈妈打死,但他希望我不要怪他,因为他比谁都要痛苦……” „Actually a lot time were long, were naturally pale, although I am very sad, has the indignation to him at heart, but he cries to ask me to forgive in me at present sadly, I am very difficult to have the blame to him the thoughts, after all he is my father” “其实很多事情时间久了,自然也就淡了,虽然我很难过,心里对他也有怨愤,但他在我眼前那么伤心地哭着求我原谅,我实在很难对他起责怪的心思,毕竟他是我亲生父亲” „But......” the Qiangwei breath is somewhat rapid, „, but he said suddenly that said I look like with my Mother very much, with his first time saw that the Mother time the appearance is exactly the same he with long for suddenly infinitely, full is the vision of aggression look at me, asked that I am willing to help him compensate for the disappointment, replaces the Mother position, becomes West Union Society mistress” “可是……”蔷薇呼吸有些急促,“可是他突然说,说我跟我妈妈很像,就和他第一次见到妈妈时候的样子一模一样他突然用无限渴望,满是侵略的目光看我,问我愿不愿意帮他弥补缺憾,代替妈妈的位置,成为西盟会的女主人” „He wants his biological daughter to be his woman” “他要他的亲生女儿做他的女人” The final words seemed exhaust Qiangwei all strengths, Qiangwei have dangled to reach the head, muttered: „I do not remember how at that time I think, I crazily have promoted the room him, has cried a whole evening in the quilt...... To afterward...... I had realized finally his non- medicine may rescue, I also set firm resolve to leave him......” 最后的话语好似用尽了蔷薇所有的力气,蔷薇垂下臻首,喃喃道:“我不记得当时我怎么想的,我只是疯狂地把他推出了房间,在被子里哭了一整晚……到后来……我才终于意识到了他的无药可救,我也才下定决心离开他……” Yang Chen has not thought that the matter really also has such background, Qiangwei has Situ Mingze such father, has not taken the road of no return to be indeed lucky, sees the Qiangwei prostration tender body, puts out a hand to hug the bosom her, the racket the soft back, „will say should unload, at least me can help you share, mindless person like me, most suited helps the woman share these headache matters” 杨辰没想到事情竟然还有这样的背景,蔷薇有司徒明泽这样的父亲,没有走上不归路的确是万幸,看到蔷薇虚脱似地娇躯,伸手将她搂进怀里,拍拍柔软的脊背,“说出来应该会卸下许多,起码我能帮你分担,像我这样没心没肺的人,最适合帮女人分担这些头疼事了” Qiangwei lies down in the Yang Chen chest, purses the lips to say with a smile: „Yes, is at heart more comfortable, how regardless of the husband you sees, I have been able with a clear conscience facing you” 蔷薇躺在杨辰胸口,抿嘴笑道:“是啊,心里舒服许多,不论老公你怎么看,我都已经可以问心无愧地面对你了” „Actually you did not need to hide the truth from me, that is not your mistake, you are only a role of injured party” Yang Chen casually said “其实你本来就不用瞒着我,那不是你的错,你只是一个被害者的角色罢了”杨辰无所谓地道 Qiangwei struggles suddenly turning around, raised the head is staring at both eyes of Yang Chen, incomparable concern, somewhat feeling wronged asked: „The husband you should also tell me some of your pasts, at least, I want to know you last night, how was?” 蔷薇突然挣扎着转过身,抬头凝望着杨辰的双眼,无比关切,又有几分委屈地问道:“那老公你是不是也应该告诉我一些你的过去,起码,我想知道你昨晚,到底是怎么了？”