LISIL :: Volume #3 龙蛇

#238: Road of going home ( 4 )

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What said was the childhood matter. 说的是小时候的事情。 „... At that time, mother did not like me very much, because I am girl.” Looks at that sky, Su Tan'er „ she has been hoping after mouth that smiling has opened in a soft voice...... “…那时候,娘亲很不喜欢我,因为我是女娃。”望着那片天空,苏檀儿在笑过之后轻声开的口“她一直希望着…… Later can live a boy to the father, the father also thinks that like this, but the father at least to my warm feelings point, he said me to be intelligent, in the future will have Younger Brother also to be definitely more intelligent. The father always looks in the future the Younger Brother appearance from me, mother looked that does not want to look, at that time I died of old age stick mother, but mother paid no attention to me,[] 以后能给爹爹生个男娃,爹爹也是这样想的,不过爹爹至少对我热络一点,他说我聪明,将来有个弟弟肯定也会更聪明。爹爹总从我身上看将来弟弟的样子,娘亲就连看都不想看,那时候我老去粘娘亲,可娘亲不理我,[] Sometimes I make the any mistake, stirred up her to be tired, she did not hit me, but waving made the wet nurse pick up me. husband, in this world's largest looking down upon was this type...... 有时候我做错什么,惹得她烦了,她也不打我,只是挥手让奶娘把我抱走。相公,这世上最大的瞧不起就是这种了吧…… Arrived me knows afterward mother always wants Younger Brother, from the beginning I even somewhat hated Younger Brother, does not understand that girl had anything differently ............... ” wild huā on hillside to open the spots, Su Tan'er put the hand on the lower abdomen, looked that in the evening below white clouds scattered. Ning Yi closed eye smiled, at this time opened eyes: „All right, they do not like us, we do not like her.” „Heh, I can not like mother, husband is not good, otherwise pricked spine and ground bone, will be said Son-in-Law is not filial.” Ning Yi turned the head around, looked at her a while, said seriously: „They scolded me.” „Pū” Su Tan'er could not bear cover up the mouth, after the well carved, just now looks at that day to be spatial, opened the mouth again. 到后来我知道娘亲老想要个弟弟,一开始我甚至都有些恨弟弟了,不明白女娃有什么不同……………”山坡上的野huā开得斑斑点点的,苏檀儿将手搁在小腹上,看傍晚下的白云流散。宁毅原本闭上眼睛笑了笑,这时候睁开眼:“没事,她们不喜欢我们,我们也不喜欢她。”“呵,我可以不喜欢娘亲,相公不行呢,否则会被人戳脊粱骨的,说女婿不孝顺。”宁毅偏过头来,看了她一会儿,一本正经地说道:“他们骂不过我。”“噗”苏檀儿忍不住掩住了嘴,井刻后,方才望了那天空,再度开口。 „I among the girls am quite strange, afterward read some books, like these lady had not thought that this is the way things should be, but thought the father and mother are not good to me, is unfair. I grow up with the wet nurse in that big house, on the one hand thought that oneself must work as a boy who lets the father and mother regrets, must the home business following, on the other hand thought that oneself is a girl, must learn the thing that the girl should study, otherwise did not show that oneself actually envies these boys, didn't this lose?” “我在女孩子中间算是比较奇怪的,后来念了些书,没有像那些大家闺秀一样觉得这是人之常情,而是觉得爹爹和娘亲没有对我好,一点也不公平。我在那大宅子里随着奶娘长大,一方面觉得自己要当个让爹爹和娘亲后悔的男孩子,要把家里的生意接下来,另一方面又觉得自己是个女孩子,一定要把女孩子该学的东西都学好,要不然不就证明自己其实羡慕那些男孩,这样不就输了么？” Ning Yi puts out a hand to pick up one for her dry in the grass stalk of start, the Su Tan'er sound long: „Grows up in such home, the wet nurse was good to me in childhood, always said, we are the rich people, I am lady, others envy. however to I am sensible the time, I felt there is nothing to envy. The father does not like me, mother does not like, if the small family/home small family, without this were then worried, actually I also understand, if not for that family/home is too big, if on me has Elder Brother, the father and mother such tremendous pressure, I have not been insufficient to be treated coldly, my I do not like the father with mother's these time, afterward discovered, I also became with their same people, that home...... does not have the touch of humanity......” 宁毅伸手替她拈走一根枯在发端的草茎,苏檀儿的声音悠悠的:“在那样的家里长大,奶娘小时候对我好,总是说,我们是大户人家,我是大家闺秀,人家都羡慕。可是到我懂事的时候,我才觉得,没什么好羡慕的。爹爹不喜欢我,娘亲也不喜欢,若是小家小户,便没有这等苦恼,其实我也明白,若不是那个家实在太大,若是我上面有一个哥哥,爹爹和娘亲没有那样大的压力,我也不至于被冷落,我我不喜欢爹爹跟娘亲的那些时间里,后来发现,我也成了跟他们一样的人了,那个家里……没有人情味……” „I...... Concubine, is not a lady, but following others study, actually not like. Concubine likes the poetry, but oneself does not well, cannot look, told oneself, at that time must study, different Western Pacific in business were many, simply did not have the time actually not, Concubine did not like the poetry, but sometimes liked that type the hounded feeling thinks of these, saw the father mother's appearance, thinks, later do not have a child, if has a child, could not recuperate, she also like me, blaming my to be mother, may what's to be done .........” “我……妾身,不是一个大家闺秀,只是跟着旁人学来学去,其实也不像。妾身喜欢诗词,可自己作得不好,也不太会看,就告诉自己,那时候要学的、生意上的异西太多啦,根本没时间其实也不是的,妾身根本就不喜欢诗词,只是喜欢那种被人追捧的感觉有时候想到这些,看到爹爹娘亲的样子,就想,以后也不要生孩子了,若是生了孩子,养不好,她也像我一样,怪我这个做娘亲的,可怎么办………” „Standard was too high, no one will like the poetry you being able to be a good mother purely.” Ning Yi inserted one. “标准太高了,谁也不会纯粹喜欢诗词你会是个好娘亲的。”宁毅插了一句。 Su Tan'er shakes the head to smile: „By the 14 or 15 years old time, does not want to get married, has towed to tow, then to the time of really not being able to tow, chose husband.” She leaning head, looks to lie down in nearby Ning Yi: „ But that little while is not the sincerity, makes small 苏檀儿摇头笑笑:“到了十四十五岁的时候,不想成亲,就一直拖啊拖啊,然后到真的拖不下去的时候,才选了相公。”她偏了头,看着躺在旁边的宁毅:“可那会儿也不是真心的,让小 Chan looks after husband, got married ran away on that day, several days later came back, to behind, although lived in together, didn't have too to respect too carefully to husband...... ” „is not already is very good?” Su Tan'er shakes the head on the lawn, expression already becomes tranquil, is only some natural smile: „It is not when” spoke this saying, her sound already faint choked getting up „is not very good, that was only Concubine in the attire, installed to seem like lady, installed to have the cardinal principles in mind very much, with installing very like liking the poetry. Concubine...... is thinking oneself, is thinking stands firm husband, making the home seem like a family/home, not by others pricked spine and ground bone, enough, Concubine had not thought husband, .........” 婵去照顾相公,成亲那天跑掉了,好几天以后才回来,到后面虽然住在一块儿,对相公也没有太敬重太上心……”“不是已经很好了么？”苏檀儿在草地上摇头,表情已经变得平静起来,只是些许自然的笑容:“不是的”说这话时,她的声音已经微微哽咽了起来“不是很好的,那只是妾身在装,装得像是大家闺秀,装得很识大体,就跟装得很像喜欢诗词一样。妾身……只是在想着自己,想着稳住相公,让这个家看起来像个家,不被别人戳脊粱骨,也就够了,妾身没想过相公,………” „Woman really troubles......” “女人真麻烦……” „..............., But thinks now.” “……………,可现在想了。” The sound sounds of two people in the same place, Ning Yi are mumble bored, Su Tan'er is faint sobs whispering. 两个人的声音响在一起,宁毅是无聊地嘟囔,苏檀儿是微微哽咽中的低语。 After saying, pours cannot help but for this speech, but the chuckle gets up, Ning Yi closed one's eyes the palm horizontal in the past, finger almost got the cheeks of Su Tan'er leaning, Su Tan'er the leaning head, closed one's eyes, the cheeks by his hand, is feeling touching of finger. 说完之后,倒不由得为这说话而轻笑起来,宁毅闭着眼睛将手掌横过去,手指几乎打上苏檀儿的脸颊,苏檀儿偏了偏头,微闭着眼睛,将脸颊靠在他手上,感受着手指的触碰。 Two people usually were the resolute people, unhappy artificial, in the same place, no doubt there is small building night words that in this age it seems like romantic conversation. But in fact, Su Tan'er nature is experienced, initially opening heart above small building, is speaking with as far as possible natural attitude, the sweet talk mi language is not many. Afterward Su Family met with the catastrophe, two people sentiments progressed by leaps and bounds, burnt the building and consummating a marriage to Su Tan'er again, although occasionally several sweet talk mi languages, but that also basically in bed between. 两人素来都是果决之人,不喜矫情,在一起的时候,固然有小楼夜话那等在这年代看来浪漫的交谈。但实际上,苏檀儿xing情练达,当初在小楼之上的交心,也都是以尽量自然的态度在说话,甜言mi语是不多的。后来苏家遭逢大祸,两人的感情突飞猛进,再到苏檀儿烧楼、圆房,虽然偶尔会有几句甜言mi语,但那也基本是在chuáng第之间。 Su Tan'er youngest daughter jiāo condition by no means sees, each other is the fierce people, even if really flirts with one another, is still the heart according to stops. Over the two days, knew the own pregnancy, after knowing the Ning Yi state again, although she accompanied silently in Ning Yi nearby has not spoken the idle talk, but to at this time, opened the mouth to think these her the thing that truly does not need to care about vented. 苏檀儿的小女儿jiāo态并不多见,彼此都是厉害的人,就算真是打情骂俏,也都是心照即止。只是这两天,得知自己的身孕,再知道宁毅的伤情之后,她虽然默默陪在宁毅身边没怎么说废话,但到得此时,才真正开口将这些原本她认为无须在意的东西发泄出来。 „Concubine knows that now husband looked to that time matter at heart, that this curved curve say/way that wife body in the heart thought that it is estimated that could not hide the truth from husband, thinks that was really embarrassed...... that time Concubine when husband was silly Scholar(egghead), read several dull books, will not think the matter, way one treats people was not good, is thinking......, so long as can control husband to be good, husband this and other silly Scholar(egghead), where can be the Concubine opponent” “妾身现在知道相公对那时的事情都看在心里,妻身心中想的那此弯弯道道,估计也瞒不过相公,想起来真是难堪……那时候妾身就当相公是个傻书生,读几本呆书,不会想事情,待人接物也不行,就想着……只要能控制住相公就行了,相公这等傻书生,哪里会是妾身的对手啊” Ning Yi smiled: „Now is not.” 宁毅笑了笑:“现在也不是。” „husband in the heart is open-minded, perhaps thought that is also the way things should be. But Concubine thinks now, if these can come to be good again, Concubine to husband, Concubine...... wants certainly to complete study true lady to want well to help support the family, Concubine does not think that 18 years old marry husband, making others say, husband married a rude and unreasonable unmarried woman. If 14 years old married husband that to be good...... in that case...... all things to be in that case different at age 15, Concubine not no matter what xing drew husband to come Hangzhou......” “相公心中豁达,或许觉得那也是人之常情。可妾身现在想,要是这些能重来就好了,妾身一定好好对相公,妾身……想要学成真正的大家闺秀想要相夫教子,妾身不想十八岁才嫁给相公,让别人说,相公娶了个泼辣的老姑娘。要是十四岁15岁的时候就嫁给了相公那就好了那样一来……那样一来……所有事情都不同,妾身就不会任xing地拉着相公来杭州了……” When Su Tan'er is speaking the front these words, although somewhat choked, actually was calm, when spoke of this last, finally cried truly, her both hands pinched the fist to place the body side, faint shiver, cry hard. This female is arrogant all along, although is reserved under the gentle representation, outlook on life that but usually the market fostered vertically and horizontally/able to move unhindered almost also such as Ning Yi general sharp like the blade, matter happens, first then only asked the solution, the mood of regret, can only be called the induction or the introspection at most. But knew the journey to be difficult at this time, husband's injury also likely because of making a long and wearisome journey to be involved, was unexpectedly guilty for this grade of mood. 苏檀儿说着前面那些话时尽管有些哽咽,倒也冷静,只是说到这最后一句时,才终于真正的哭了出来,她双手捏起拳头放在身侧,微微颤抖,哭得厉害。这女子一贯高傲,虽然都是内敛在温婉的表象之下,但平素纵横商场养成的人生观几乎也如宁毅一般锋利如刀,事情一旦发生,首先便只求解决之道,后悔的情绪,顶多只能叫做归纳或反省。但在这时知道路途艰难,丈夫的伤势也很可能因长途跋涉而受牵连,竟是为这等情绪内疚起来。 Ning Yi sighed, moves moves, toward the wife that side by the past, Su Tan'er seized his clothes to clench teeth to sob in silence. 宁毅叹了口气,挪啊挪的,往妻子那边靠过去,苏檀儿揪住他的衣服咬牙饮泣着。 „also has opportunity that Lou Men can go back.” Ning Yi said one. “娄们会回去的还有机会。”宁毅说了一句。 Su Tan'er already cries: „ I want a child for husband now wanted to help support the family, does not want to show off power again, does not want to do business again, I already does not think that oneself may I think now, if the present did not have this child to be good, after is now not, had on different, I saw husband to handle these things over the two days, how going all out to go out, I know that husband was being pressed by the responsibility, although will not have child's responsibility husband also like this, may I really fear...... Doctor say that the husband injury needs to be relieved, needs to convalesce, then supported the past by the own body. husband you for matter such working with the heart labor force of escaping, how the body support Ah…... 苏檀儿已经哭起来:“我现在想为相公生孩子了想要相夫教子了,不想再逞强了,不想再做生意了,我已经不想自己了可我现在又想要是现在没有这个孩子就好了,就是现在没有以后有就异了,我这两天看见相公做那些事情,拼命想怎么出去,我知道相公被责任压着,虽然没有孩子的责任相公也会这样,可我真的害怕了……大夫说相公的伤势需要安心,需要静养,然后靠自己的身体撑过去。相公你为了逃跑的事情这样子劳心劳力,身体怎么撑得过啊…… I somewhat persuaded, but I know that cannot persuade...... ” her to cry hard in Ning Yi nearby, constrained fiercely, therefore the body shivered also fiercely: „ Over the two days, husband was asking that these person of things, is planning these things, I... I am enduring the does not say words in husband nearby in husband nearby, many people have been telling me at heart, said also useless, said also uselessly, but makes you worry, cannot let you worries to work also while worries I. 我有些相劝,可我知道根本劝不了……”她在宁毅身边哭得厉害,压抑得厉害,因此身体颤抖得也厉害:“这两天,相公在问那些人事情,在计划着那些东西,我在相公身边…我在相公身边忍着不说话,心里一直有很多人在告诉我,说了也没用,说了也没用,只是让你更烦心,不能让你一边烦心做事还一边烦心我。 But I think, if I looked like these ordinary females to be good, is only weeping and wailing not allowed to you to make these, then did not need to manage...... ” Ning Yi to pat her shoulder on anything: „You also know said uselessly......” 可我又想,要是我像那些普通的女子就好了,就只哭着喊着不许你做这些,然后就什么事情都不用管了……”宁毅拍了拍她的肩膀:“你也知道说了没用的……” „Arrived not being able to bear......” Su Tan'er attracted nose „to not being able to bear, I arrived in the tent to hide, sat a while, bore does not make oneself cry. Chan'er they have cried several, they want to urge you, I keep off them. I do not want to make you also probably speak to them with effort, but must urge them, I you did not tell that useless words, the physical strength of speech does not think that you consumed...... me not to want you to tell these......” “到忍不住的时候……”苏檀儿吸了吸鼻子“到忍不住的时候,我就到帐篷里去躲起来,坐一会儿,忍住不让自己哭。婵儿她们都哭过好几遍了,她们想要过来劝你,我都把她们挡下来。我不想让你还要费力跟她们说话,还要劝她们,我也不跟你说没用的话,说话的体力也不想你耗掉……我本来也不想跟你说这些的……” She said these, in a low voice crying, but compares it just now, eventually was good. Ning Yi waited for a while, said: „I will be good.” 她说完这些,低声哭着,但比之方才,终究是好了一些。宁毅等了一会儿,说道:“我会好起来。” Su Tan'er mo mo tears, but the teardrops , by his pit of the stomach, the nod have said: „To be good, if you very get up, I could not meet such husband, the child I did not want, the family/home did not want...... me is not a good mother, made the matter that others were with one's family broken up and decimated I have also done...... husband you to me, my belly in have your child, you now are very tired may be unable to shout tired, but must support. But cannot support not to relate, we get down to look for you......” 苏檀儿mo了mo眼泪,但泪珠还是一直在掉,靠在他xiong口上,点头道:“一定要好起来,若你好不起来,我也遇不上这样的相公了,孩子我也不要了,家也不要了……我原本就不是个好娘亲,弄得别人家破人亡的事情我也做过的……相公你给我记着,我肚子里有你的孩子了,你现在很累了可也不能喊累,还得撑过去。但撑不过去也没关系,我们就下去找你……” She opens the eye to stare at Ning Yi, on the gentle oval face, cherry chun sips tightly. She by being of market women's on vertically and horizontally/able to move unhindered, is always the sleek/moist silent style, because appearance is fine, is only 20 over young girls, not that and other sofa resolute merchants, but at this time, only then that has just now cried in big eye, flows above the reveals long-term market to foster actually continuously the obstinate aura of restraining, with that gentle facial features combination in the same place, to gives a more frustrated information to the person at present: This is your woman. 她睁着眼睛盯着宁毅,温婉的瓜子脸上,樱chun紧抿。她以女子之身在商场上纵横,从来都是润物无声的风格,因为本身的样貌精致,又只是二十出头的少女,不似那等沙发果决的商人,但此时,只有那方才哭过的大眼睛里,流lu出长期商场之上养成却一直收敛的执拗气息,与那温婉的面容混杂在一起,到只是给眼前人传递出一个更窝心的信息:这是你的女人。 Ning Yi smiled: „Do not despise your family husband, no matter what kind of, I will live. This child you lived.” 宁毅笑了笑:“别小看你家相公,不管怎么样,我会活下来。这孩子你生定了。” Su Tan'er mo the lower abdomen, soon after was depending toward Ning Yi, her another hand is clutching the Ning Yi front piece, shut the eye, in the mouth seemed to be mumbling is saying anything, seems praying anything, but the mountain breeze blew, could not hear clearly the concrete expression. 苏檀儿mo着小腹,随后往宁毅靠了靠,她另一只手揪着宁毅的衣襟,闭了眼睛,口中似乎在念念有词地说着什么,似乎在祈祷什么,但山风吹过来,听不清具体的言辞。 In the sky the soft cloud circulation, the setting sun mist burnt down the horizon and mountain range water current, at night arrived, among the camp of fugitive, the army started to operate busily. 2nd day breaks camp again, the rear pursuing troops distance already is not actually far, when to that noon approached, they start from the leaving behind refugee mouth to obtain a news, in their front, that biggest fugitive team, started the internal strife......!. 天空之中绵云流转,夕阳霞火烧遍了天际与山脉水流,夜晚降临,逃亡者的营地当中,军队开始繁忙运作起来。第二天再度拔营,后方的追兵距离这边其实已经不算远,到得这天中午逼近时,他们开始从落单的难民口中得到一个消息,就在他们前方,那支最大的逃亡队伍,开始内讧了……！。
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