Kirei stands in the church entrance, breeze blow own hair that whatever the sea blows. Kirei has turned the head, silent turning back church. 绮礼站在教堂门口,任凭海上吹来的微风吹拂自己的头发。绮礼转过头,一言不发的走回教堂。 His was recalling at heart the time that and double-hour study, reorganizes this to be close carefully for three years, the double-hour leaves his impression. 他的心里回想着自己和时辰修习的时光,细细整理着这接近三年来,时辰留给他的印象。 As far as he know Tokiomi half a lifetime passed in the difficulty, bitter but who walk lick silently cleanly, transforms to become the self-respect completely. 据他所知时臣半生都在艰难中度过,不过一路走来的辛酸自己默默舔干净,全部转变成为自尊。 He is such man, the man who the arrogance and lofty and unyielding character have both. 他就是这样的男人,傲气与傲骨兼备的汉子。 Such person Kirei understood. 这样的人绮礼十分理解。 Did not say others, his father Kotomine Risei is Tokiomi similar. 不说别人,他的父亲言峰璃正就是时臣的同类。 These men, they define the significance of significance and life of oneself birth world, and as the lifetime faith, believes does not doubt. 这些男人,他们自己定义自己降生人世的意义、自己人生的意义,并将之作为一生的信念,坚信不疑。 They are never at a loss, never hesitates. What kind of aspect regardless of the life facing, realizes the life whole-heartedly the given objective, has the explicit policy, has the practical steel will. 他们从不迷惘,从不踌躇。无论人生面对怎样的局面,都全力以赴去实现自己人生的既定目标,带着明确的方针,带着实干的钢铁般的意志。 But „faith form”, manifesting in Kirei father there is the devout belief, but manifests , on Tohsaka Tokiomi, as day electing proud- different, shoulders the self-awareness that the privilege and responsible party have with the common person. Specifically speaking, at the present already very scarce „true aristocrat” acting with constraint. 而“信念的形式”,体现在绮礼父亲那里就是虔诚的信仰,而体现在远坂时臣身上的时候,就是作为天选者的骄傲-与凡民不同、肩负特权与责任者所具备的自我意识。具体来说,就是在现在已经十分稀少的“真正的贵族”的矜持。 This is close for three years studies, existence of Tohsaka Tokiomi regarding Kirei, has the great significance......, but, he cannot with the Kirei accommodating person, only from him be in Kotomine Risei similar this point absolutely, has been able to conclude. 这接近三年的修习来,远坂时臣的存在对于绮礼而言,具有重大的意义……但是,他绝对不是能与绮礼相容的人,单从他是言峰璃正的同类这一点上,已经可以断定。 Only sees own ideal person, is impossible to understand these, because do not have the ideal to be at a loss the worried person. 只看到自己理想的人,根本就不可能理解那些因为自己没有理想而迷惘苦恼的人。 Like Tokiomi this person, „the idea of purpose of” on them holding, is completely stave in the Kotomine Kirei spirit. This type of thing in he more than 20 years of lives, has not pieced together completely. 像时臣这种人,他们身上所持的“目的意识”,在言峰绮礼的精神中已经完全破碎了。这种东西在他二十多年的人生中,从来没有拼凑完整过。 From the record starting from, he had not thought that at that time has what idea can be said as lofty, never thought has anything pursues can be said as joyful, never thought has what entertainment to relax itself. Such person, was impossible to have what idea of purpose. 从记事那时开始,他从来没有觉得有什么理念可以说是崇高的、从来不觉得有什么追求可以说是快乐的、也从来不曾觉得有什么娱乐可以放松自己。这样的人,本来就不可能持有什么目的意识。 He is not even clear, own perception why so far with the values difference in world average person. Regardless of any domain, even if one is worth itself investing the interest in go to goal diligently merely, he had not found. 他甚至不明白,自己的感性为何与世间一般人的价值观差那么远。无论任何领域,哪怕仅仅是一个值得自己投入兴趣去努力的目标,他也从来没有找到过。 For all this, he chooses to believe „god”. He said to himself, because perhaps only not yet mature, does not know that anything is true lofty. 尽管如此,他还是选择相信“神”。他对自己说,也许只因为自己尚未成熟,不知道什么才是真正的崇高。 One day, the true lofty truth can guide him and true sacred sound to save him. Has such hope to go on living, he pins the significance of life in this hope, such as the straw to grasp grasps in the palm. 总有一天,真正的崇高真理会来引导他、真正的神圣音会来拯救他。带着这样的希望活下去,他把人生的意义寄托在这份希望上,如救命稻草般抓在手心。 But in heart, Kirei already completely clear, even if oneself this person obtains the favor of god unable to be saved. 但在心底,绮礼已经完全明白,自己这种人就算得到神的恩宠也无法得救。 Brings to own angry and despair, he unceasingly from oppressive. In the name of self-torture, serves with the autonomy to oneself unceasingly. But is tempered into steel, when discovers time, he unmanned energy enemy, has become sacred hall to teach like this elite- „performer”. 带着对自己的愤怒与绝望,他不断地自虐。假借苦修的名义,对自己不断地施以自残。但百炼成钢,等到发现的时候,他已经无人能敌,就这样成为了圣堂教会中的精英-“执行者”。 Everyone calls it „honorably” this. Denying oneself and devotion of Kotomine Kirei, were treated as the model of pulpit to be commended, even/including his father Risei also takes this as the honor. 人人都把这称之为“光荣”。言峰绮礼的克己和献身,被当作圣职者的典范得到褒扬,连他父亲璃正也以此为荣。 Kirei knows that his father trusts himself and appreciates, but, without a doubt this is huge misunderstanding this fact, making him be offended. Although he also knows, perhaps the life is unable to correct this misunderstanding. 绮礼知道他父亲是多么的信赖和赞赏自己,但,毫无疑问这是天大的误解这一事实,令他十分介怀。虽然他也知道,也许一生都无法纠正这一误解。 The personality flaw in Kirei heart deep place, still also no one can understand. 绮礼内心深处的人格缺陷,至今也没有人能够理解。 Right, only that has fallen in love with the female is no exception- 没错,连仅有的那个相爱过的女子也不例外- „......” “……” Discovered when oneself seem to have fallen into the dizzy feeling, Kirei slowed down the rate of march, one hand-held on forehead. 发现自己似乎已经陷入昏眩的感觉中时,绮礼减缓了步速,一手扶在额头上。 When remembers the wife who died, his train of thought like falling into the dense fog, expunged unknowingly sloppily. In the fog as if looks like stands in the nearby of cliff, so long as treads one step to fall into the abyss the avoidance feeling of instinct. 一想起死去的妻子时,他的思绪就像陷入了迷雾,不知不觉就散漫开去。雾中仿佛就像是站在断崖的边上,只要踏出一步就落入深渊的本能的退避感。 Kirei had turned back the basement in church, had waited there for some time body Assassin to report this morning trend information to him. 不知不觉之间,绮礼已经走回了教堂的地下室,早已经等候多时的一体Assassin向他汇报着今晨的动向情报。 Kirei these information processing a relatively simple information, gave the double-hour through the phonograph report. 绮礼将这些情报整理成一个相对精简的情报,通过留声机汇报给了时辰。 Assists the double-hour to achieve Tohsaka meticulously the long-cherished wish. 一丝不苟的协助着时辰达成远坂家的夙愿。 But, Kirei does not have a point to satisfy at heart, even more void, in the brain is also circling a huge question. This question in he has been made the incantation is close to three years of time, lingers the Kirei heart unable to scatter as before. 可是,绮礼的心里却没有一点满足,越发的空虚,脑子里也一只盘旋着一个巨大的疑问。这个疑问在他已经得到令咒的接近三年的时光里,依旧萦绕绮礼的心头不能驱散。 Why „will Holy Grail” select Kotomine Kirei? 为何“圣杯”会选中言峰绮礼？ Originally he should be that „will not be elected absolutely” the person. 本来他应该是那个“绝对不会被选上”的人。 Kirei not „idea of purpose”, will therefore not have what ideal and desire. Regardless how to think, he should not obtain „the multipurpose full Yuan machine” such miracle. 绮礼没有“目的意识”,因此也不会有什么理想、愿望。无论怎么想,他也不应该得到“万能的满愿机”这样的奇迹。 Has the dim melancholy facial expression, Kirei to look at three red marks that on the right hand back of the hand appears. 带着黯淡忧郁的神情,绮礼看着右手手背上显现的三条红色的印记。 Made the incantation. 令咒。 „? During you fell into this demon to be startled, Kirei.” Gilgamesh comes in the basement, shakes the red wine in cup, is looking at Kirei that the whole face teased. “哦？你又陷入这种魔怔之中了吗,绮礼。”吉尔伽美什现身于地下室里,晃着杯中的红酒,满脸戏谑的望着绮礼。 Kirei tidied up the mood, looks to Gilgamesh, asked: „Why last night can kill Assassin? Why can protect that Caster? Accurate is, that boy?” 绮礼收拾了心情,看向吉尔伽美什,问道:“昨夜为何要杀死Assassin？为什么要保护那个Caster？准确的来说,是那个男孩？” Using 【Altogether feels consciousness】, Kirei obtained the precious information from last night killed Hassan of the Hundred Faces there. 利用【共感知觉】,绮礼从昨夜被杀死的百貌哈桑那里得到了弥足珍贵的情报。 „Why didn't you also tell the double-hour this matter?” “那你又为什么不把这件事情告诉时辰呢？” „This matter, I will tell the teacher later.” “这件事情,我稍后就会告诉老师。” Gilgamesh snorts contemptuously contemptuous smiles, later stands up, the red wine in hand sprinkles on the face of Kirei directly, asked: „Awoke, Kirei?” 吉尔伽美什嗤之以鼻的轻蔑一笑,随后站起身来,手中的红酒直接泼到绮礼的脸上,问道:“醒了吗,绮礼？” The behavior of this so insult, however on the face of Kirei actually does not see the anger, the appearance that but accepts quietly, asked: „What do you mean?” 这如此侮辱的行为,但是绮礼的脸上却丝毫不见怒意,只是一副平静接受的样子,问道:“什么意思？” „Do not deceive yourself, Kirei. From knowing this news, you have related the double-hour three times, actually has not informed this matter one time. Arrived this degree, hasn't awakened?” Gilgamesh showed the smile of ridicule, probably is satirizing Kirei. “别骗自己了,绮礼。从知道这个消息起,你已经联系时辰三次了,却一次也没有告知此事。到这种程度了,还没有醒悟过来吗？”吉尔伽美什露出了讥讽的笑容,像是在讽刺着绮礼。 „Lived in the natural disposition by Messiah's doctrine frame, locked in the freedom of exploration by one crowd of bastard knitting iron cages. So did not know about oneself unexpectedly really, common and lives, becomes in others eyes, actually forgot as own. Therefore your innermost feelings will grow to extremely so chaos.” Gilgamesh pungent satire. “是被弥赛亚的教条框住了本性,还是被一群杂种编织铁笼锁住了探索的自由。竟然对自己如此不甚了解,碌碌而活,成为别人眼里的自己,却忘记了身为自己的自己。所以你的内心才会偏激成长到如此混沌。”吉尔伽美什辛辣的讽刺着。 He filled to the brim the liquor to oneself wine glass, later holds on the Kirei collar, the red wine gets down from his head but actually, along his hair, his face every little bit falling to the ground. 他给自己的酒杯倒满了酒,随后拉住绮礼的衣领,红酒从他的头上倒下去,沿着他的头发,他的脸庞一点一滴的落到地上。 Tick-tock, tick-tock. 滴答,滴答。 „Awoke?” Gilgamesh asked again. “醒了吗？”吉尔伽美什再问。 „Puzzled its meaning.” Kirei revealed the vacant vision. “不解其意。”绮礼露出了茫然的目光。 Gilgamesh smiled, smile probably sharp blade, satirizing. Ridiculing. Is ridiculing the laws of these so-called salvations. 吉尔伽美什笑了,笑容像是锋利的刀,讽刺着。讥讽着。嘲弄着那些所谓的救世的法。 „That makes this/Ben king to come tell you, anything can fill your void mind. What, is called the true joyfulness.” Smiling of Gilgamesh satire, „goes. Goes to tell Lancer that bastard Master the reality of that boy.” “那就让本王来告诉你,什么才能填补你那空虚的心灵。什么,才叫做真正的愉悦。”吉尔伽美什讽刺的笑着,“去吧。去把那个男孩的真实告诉Lancer的那个杂种御主吧。” „Why?” The Kirei whole face is vacant. “为什么？”绮礼满脸茫然。 „Your chaos will be liberated, you understand that actually your essence is anything.” “你的混沌会得到解放,你会明白你的本质究竟是什么。” Gilgamesh put down Kirei, reveals is wiping the ridicule general smile, gradually vanishes. 吉尔伽美什放下了绮礼,露着一抹讥讽一般的笑容,逐渐消失。 Only left behind Kirei to be vacant. 只留下了一个绮礼茫然无措。