Therefore he was long in childhood thin and young, even after is grown, is not high, what fortunately is his also one is the intelligent head, after he grows up some, is accepted demon crystal item skill school that temple established. 因此他小时候长得又瘦又小,哪怕是成年之后个头也不高,不过所幸的是他还有一个算是聪明的脑袋,他长大一些后考上了神庙建立的魔晶道具技能学院。 The demon crystal item appears with the time, each country and influence start to need one batch to be able proficiently to control the average person of demon crystal item. 魔晶道具随着时代出现,各个国家和势力开始需要一批能够熟练操控魔晶道具的普通人。 He goes to the school overjoyed, wears the new clothes, head high, chest out, changes the appearance. 他欢天喜地地去学院,穿上新的衣服,昂首挺胸,改变样貌。 Thinks that since then can become a top dog. 以为从此就能够成为一个人上人。 When he arrives in the school, the teacher announced everyone he came from the slum and through the status of especially incurring, did not cover up arranges him in the position of corner. 但是当他抵达学院的时候,老师就宣告了所有人他来自贫民窟和通过特招进来的身份,丝毫不遮掩地将他安排在了角落的位置里。 At that time the teacher opened one about his joke, attracted everyone to taunt laughs. 当时老师开了一个关于他的玩笑,引来了所有人嘲讽地哈哈大笑。 „Hahahaha!” “哈哈哈哈！” He did not speak, but actually feeling humiliation to the extreme. 他不说话,但是却感觉屈辱到了极点。 But a series of bad things that then experiences, makes him quiet. 而接下来经历的一系列糟糕的事情,也让他变得沉默寡言。 Poor, humiliation and does not have the dignity, lonely and does not have the security sense to follow his first half of life throughout. 贫穷、屈辱而且没有尊严,孤独和没有安全感始终伴随着他的前半生。 Perhaps starting from that day, he had one type regarding the infinite hope of money and status, intensely to the hope that others are unable to compare. 或许从那一天开始,他产生了一种对于金钱和身份的无限渴望,强烈到其他人无法比拟的渴望。 He always felt that the surrounding person looks down upon himself, he always felt each line of sight of periphery transmitting brings despising, regardless of that is real. 他总感觉周围的人看不起自己,他总感觉周围传来的每一道视线都带着鄙夷,不论那是不是真的。 After growing up . 长大后。 He starts to work to make money desperately, makes more money. 他开始拼命地工作赚钱,赚更多的钱。 Because money can give him to bring the infinite security sense, money that he will make saves, he hardly spends. 因为钱能给予他带来无限的安全感,他将赚来的钱存起来,他几乎不花钱。 He felt that each spending money is to consume own security sense, he puts in money, must make more money, he resolves to be a big merchant. 他感觉每一份花掉的钱就是消耗掉自己的安全感,他将钱投入进去,要赚更多的钱,他立志要做一个大商人。 He treats harshly everyone, does not believe that everyone, thought that everyone is because money and benefit follow in his side, when he really goes to think, matter also toward this direction evolves completely. 他苛待身边的每一个人,不相信身边的每一个人,觉得每一个人都是因为钱和利益跟随在他的身边,而当他真的这么去想的时候,事情也就完全朝着这个方向演变。 His partner betrayed him, his family member goes to him. 他的合作伙伴背叛了他,他的家人离他而去。 However this time, the life in movie became different. 不过这一次,影片里的人生变得不一样了。 He took another road, he in young seized the opportunity on the potential, he becomes richer, the beginning is higher. 他走上了另外一条路,他在年轻的时候抓住了机遇应势而起,他变得更有钱,起点更高。 „Look!” “看！” „Change.” “改变了。” Even if only the illusion in theater, that also lets him happily, in the heart gushes out an illusory hope. 哪怕只是影院里的幻象,那也让他开心不已,心中涌出一阵虚幻的希望。 He saw himself to marry a prettier wife, had two children, he looks at himself to have the long-awaited huge wealth, sat smiles to make noise in the theater box. 他看到自己娶了一个更漂亮的妻子,又生了两个孩子,他看着自己拥有了梦寐以求的庞大财富,坐在包厢里笑出了声。 „Right, this should be true I.” “没错,这才应该是真正的我。” „Wants me to be rich enough, so long as I have not lost all, no one dares to leave me, everyone will think highly of me.” “只要我足够有钱,只要我没有失去一切,就没有人敢离开我,所有人都会恭维我。” „I will be happy, my anything has, my anything is not afraid.” “我就会幸福,我什么都有,我什么都不害怕。” This time, he becomes fiercer. 这一次,他变得更厉害。 This time, no one dares to betray him again. 这一次,没有人再敢背叛他。 He looks that another become the Toupa kingdom richest person. 他看着另一个自己成为了托帕王国最有钱的人。 He noticed that oneself piles up a mountain money, rests above, he is smelling the flavor of money, that flavor makes him unequalled relieved. 他看到自己将钱堆积成一座山,睡在上面,他嗅着钱的味道,那味道让他无与伦比地安心。 However. 但是。 Regardless of how he makes money, how to elevate own position, as if how he felt that forever is insufficient. 他不论怎么赚钱,怎么去提升自己的地位,似乎怎么样他都感觉永远不够。 He also wants forever, forever must be stronger. 他永远还想要更多,永远还要更强。 He does not know how oneself should stop, as if stops this matter to make him feel that the fear and terrified, he thought oneself stops to lose all. 他不知道自己该怎么停下来,似乎停下来这件事情会让他感觉害怕和惶恐,他觉得自己停下来就会失去一切。 He noticed that oneself persecuted to death oneself wife for money, remarried to marry another person. 他看到自己为了钱逼死了自己的妻子,续弦娶了另外一个人。 And becomes the congressman for the position, compelling own daughter to marry to marry one with almost big one-eyed person military officer. 为了地位和成为议员,逼着自己的女儿进行联姻嫁给了一个和自己差不多大的独眼龙军官。 He delivered the battlefield oneself son, gives the euphemistic name tempers, finally after the opposite party died in battle becomes the honor father, finally becomes a congressman during the election and speech. 他将自己的儿子送上了战场,美其名曰进行锤炼,最后在对方战死之后成为荣誉父亲,在选举和演讲之中终于成为了一名议员。 In order to obtain a higher money and position, he can sacrifice all. 为了获得更高的金钱和地位,他可以牺牲掉一切。 The time line approaches his present age little, therefore he saw again oneself turned into the loner, in another way. 时间线一点点逼近他现在的年纪,于是他再度看到了自己变成了孤家寡人,以另外一种方式。 The movie ended, the man watches the movie dull. 影片结束,男人呆呆地看着影片。 „Probably.” “好像。” „Also good, did I attend the national parliament member unexpectedly?” “也不错,我竟然列席成了国家议会成员？” The men exude the laughter, but why does not know the laughter somewhat dry. 男人发出笑声,但是不知道为什么笑声有些干涩。 Suddenly, he patted a chair. 突然,他拍了一下椅子。 „Hateful, false.” “可恶,假的吧。” „Why will I turn into a loner?” “为什么我还是会变成一个孤家寡人？” „Is deceives people?” “是骗人的吧？” The men get more mad, more is more unacceptable. 男人越想越气,越想越不能接受。 He opened the life choice and change theater again, then started to choose the human world node again. 他再度开启了人生选择和改变影院,然后再度开始选择了人间节点。 This time, he traded a result, but finally he as before is a loner. 这一次,他换了一个结局,但是最终他依旧是个孤家寡人。 Time and time again, the man is attempting unceasingly, has the good result and bad result. 一次又一次,男人不断地尝试着,有好结局和坏结局。 Each time, he can always obtain some successes, but the association/will loses anything. 每次,他总能够获得一些成功,但是又总会失去些什么。 Even if however obtained again many, he always feels insufficiently. 但是哪怕获得了再多,他总感觉不够。 „Has the issue, this machine definitely has the issue.” He starts to blame this machine, thought that it has the issue. “有问题,这机器肯定有问题。”他开始责怪这台机器,觉得它有问题。 „Swindler, how I can like this.” He thought that oneself received deceiving. “骗子,我怎么会这样。”他觉得自己受到了愚弄。 „Why, why can like this?” However, he also starts to suspect itself. “为什么,为什么会这样呢？”但是,他也开始怀疑自己。 In this process. 这个过程之中。 Train stopping stations, the times place opens once again, the man has revolved in front of the machine, goes to look that continually has not gone to look. 列车一次次停站,又一次次地重新开启,男人一直都围绕在机器前面,连出去看一眼都没有去看。 He missed stood another stand. 他错过了一站又一站。 Finally. 最终。 The sky special train surrounds world one week, will soon arrive in his depart place. 天空专列环绕世界一周,即将抵达他出发的地方。 There, is his terminal. 那里,也是他的终点站。 But after looking at many different choices, the man somewhat looked to understand gradually suddenly. 而看了很多次不同的选择之后,渐渐地男人突然有些看明白了。 Did not look to understand the life, but looked to understand itself. 不是看明白了人生,而是看明白了自己。 „It is not right, will not be I will turn into a loner throughout.” “不对,不是我始终会变成一个孤家寡人。” „Because I am a loner, I repel to accept anybody, therefore I will be doomed to lose remove everyone.” “因为我内心就是一个孤家寡人,我排斥接受任何人,所以我注定会失去掉所有人。” „It is not they go to me, but is I am doomed to abandon them.” “不是他们离我而去,而是我注定要抛弃他们。” Has how much money with him irrelevant, with his position irrelevant, but decided from his heart from the beginning, he is a loner. 和他有多少钱无关,和他的身份地位无关,而是一开始从他内心就决定了,他就是一个孤家寡人。 From the beginning decided that he is going to neglect in the life all others, only tracks down that to make him feel the peaceful wealth. 从一开始就决定了,他将要忽视生命里所有的其他人,只追寻那份让他觉得安宁的财富。 The men look in movie, is somewhat hard to accept. 男人看着影片之中的自己,有些难以接受。 „Why?” “为什么？” „Why I cannot stop a meeting, enjoys the life well?” “为什么我不能停下一会,好好地享受人生呢？” „My so much money, why cannot to the family member good, even if I put out part, enough......” “我有那么多的钱,为什么不能对家人好一点呢,我哪怕拿出一部分,也足够……” „Why cannot believe others, even if gives one......” “为什么不能相信别人,哪怕给予一丝……” Why he has many. 他有着很多个为什么。 The men were not very happy, he even wants to jump in the movie very much, goes to generation to make the choice especially. 男人很不高兴,他甚至很想要跳进影片里面,去代替另一个自己做出选择。 However he himself actually knows, do not look own present says orally now again fiercely, encounters the situation truly time, oneself will be certain and be similar to the movie such does. 但是他自己却知道,别看自己现在口头上现在说得再厉害,真正遇到情况的时候,自己又一定又会如同影片里的那样去做。 Because, he is such a person. 因为,他就是那样的一个人。 Finally he lies on the bed, somewhat said reluctantly. 最后他躺在床上,有些无奈地说道。 „Originally I am such a person!” “原来我是这样的一个人啊！” The men felt that for the first time oneself so see oneself appearance clearly, feels inferior, greedy and selfish, incomparably is longing for of money and position. 男人第一次感觉到自己如此清晰地看到自己的模样,一个自卑、贪婪、自私的自己,一个无比渴望着金钱和地位的自己。 However obtains money and position after truly, as before feeling also insufficient person. 但是真正获得金钱和地位之后,依旧感觉还不够的人。 Lies down on bed, he looks at the vehicle roof. 躺在床上的时候,他看着车顶。 „I want what is?” “我想要的到底是什么呢？” „Money, happiness and family member?” “钱、幸福、家人？” „Unceasingly I pursue what is, why I have much money , fill hope of innermost feelings to money and position?” “我不断追逐的又是什么呢,为什么我拥有再多的钱,也填补不了内心对钱和地位的渴望呢？” The men toss about, finally set out to arrive at the front of life change and choice theater. 男人翻来覆去,最后又起身来到了人生改变与选择影院的面前。 He bead investment, looks at unceasingly before oneself, life change and choice that produces. 他不断地将珠子投入其中,看着自己之前生成的人生改变和选择。 „Why will I, why turn into this?” “我到底为什么,为什么会变成这样？” „Why will I become such person?” “我为什么会成为这样的人？” Suddenly, he somewhat hates himself unexpectedly. 突然间,他竟然有些痛恨自己。 , The train arrived gradually. 渐渐地,列车又到站了。 The men bead investment, he saw of childhood time again. 男人再度将珠子投入其中,他再度看到了幼年时候的自己。 He understood anything finally. 他终于明白了什么。 Men: „I wanted to fill me once the thing of defect, but the thing of present, substituted and cannot fill forever in the past.” 男人:“我只是想要填补我曾经缺失的东西罢了,但是现在之物,永远也替代和填补不了过去。” The men are silent, hand according to knob. 男人沉默着,将手按在了旋钮上。 He as to make a fresh start. 他似乎想要重新开始。 But this time, he wanted born to start from himself. 而这一次,他想要从自己出生开始。 However he rotated half, stopped. 不过他只是转动了一半,就停了下来。 He hesitated. 他犹豫了。 If were chosen including childhood from the beginning, that this he himself, is he himself? 因为如果连一开始小时候的自己都被重新选择了,那这个他自己,还是他自己吗？ Didn't such choice, suspect and abandons oneself this thoroughly to have itself? 这样的选择,不是彻底地怀疑和抛弃自己这个存在本身了吗？ „Winter winter winter.” “冬冬冬。” At this time the train attendant knocked his gate suddenly, the man then recovered, made him relax. 这个时候乘务员突然敲开了他的门,男人这才回过神来,也让他松了一口气。 He opened the door, saw that the train crew told him. 他打开了门,就看到列车乘务员告诉他。 „Mister, hello.” “先生,您好。” „Your scheduled terminal.” “您预定的终点站到了。” The men nod, he raised the box to walk at a loss, as he trod the vehicle door, the bead that these he produced also poured into the life choice and change theater completely, flowed to terminal. 男人点了点头,他茫然地提着箱子走了出去,随着他踏出车门,那些他生成的珠子也全部注入了人生选择与改变影院之中,流淌向其中终端。 The train attendants shouted at this time: „Invited next time passenger.” 乘务员这个时候喊道:“有请下一位光阴旅客。” During the tide of people is turbulent. 人潮汹涌之中。 The men get out, raised the head saw the name in station. 男人下了车,抬起头就看到了车站上的名字。 „King Toupa station.” “托帕国王车站。” He feeling of another era, actually felt oneself return in same place pai. 他恍若隔世,却又感觉自己在原地徘回。 He boarded the world's best tourist train obviously, actually never has to look outside one point of scenery well, the entire process passed in that depressed compartment. 他明明踏上了世界上最好的观光列车,却从来没有好好地看过外面的一分风景,整个过程都在那个沉闷的车厢里度过。 He started one obviously the yearned visit world to trip, in like this was thin the lake to spread arrived in the end point. 他明明开始了一场被人向往的环游世界之旅,却就这样稀里湖涂地抵达了终点。 He remembered the name of that miniature theater suddenly. 他突然想起了那个微型影院的名字。 Stands in the crossroad of station, he looks up the distant place to say. 站在车站的路口,他抬起头看着远方说道。 „Which path life important outcome is the choice moves toward, changes itself?” “人生重要的究竟是选择走向哪一条道路,还是改变自己呢？” But also same has others who walks from this compartment with the man, everyone as if had some sensibility, the sensibility of everyone also has the difference. 而和男人一样从这辆车厢里走出来的还有其他人,每个人都似乎有了一些感悟,每个人的感悟也都有不同。 And. 其中。 Some as if people really changed, but some people chose to maintain the past as before. 似乎有的人真的做出了改变,而有的人依旧选择维持着从前。 So-called life choice and change theater, merely is only special watching movies. 所谓的人生选择和改变影院,也仅仅只是一场特殊的观影罢了。 What is only different, in ship demon Item of demon spirit clan henceforward started to appear change and choice theater that such tradition placed the life, but first time person who mounted the demon spirit vehicle, will try to use this machine. 唯一不同的是,自此以后的魔灵一族的载运魔具之中都开始出现了摆放人生的改变和选择影院这样的传统,而第一次登上魔灵载具的人,也都会尝试一下使用这台机器。