Said that was tired, wanted to rest, but on the entire road, Yahan has not actually rested, sat there lazy looks at Jiaming to drive, does not know that is thinking anything, occasionally then spoke with small Taotao in a soft voice, mother and daughter two talked in whispers, only then the little girl laughter seemed especially clear in the compartment. 说是累了,想要休息,但其实整个路上,雅涵都没有睡下去,慵懒地坐在那里看着家明开车,也不知道在想些什么,偶尔回头与小淘淘轻声说话,母女两窃窃私语,就只有小女孩的笑声在车厢内显得格外清脆。 The rain is very big, outside sky is cloudy, but also flushed this world thoroughly, making all in this heavy rains limpid, some blocks shone the street light, ray sparkling sparkled, the car that drove shone the headlight, the flower-bed trees of roadside entirely lush green, soon , the familiar scenery also mapped the view. 雨很大,外面的天空阴沉沉的,但也将这个世界彻彻底底地冲洗了一遍,让一切都在这片大雨中变得清澈,有的街区亮起了路灯,光芒晶晶闪闪的,驶过来的小车亮了车灯,路边的花坛树木通通青翠欲滴,不久之后,熟悉的景色也就映入了眼帘。 Sacred Heart Academy is the summer vacation at this time, in the heavy rain all coldly Qingqing, the path and residential district are surrounding the entire school, separates the two sides in the Sacred Heart Academy main entrance square, goes to small building that Jiaming, Lingjing and Shasha live together, while goes to her when villa that Sacred Heart occupies, the two sides great distance is not far. Jiaming high school that little while, four people often take a walk, afterward Jiaming had the relations with her, afterward Lingjing and Shasha walked, two people live in that villa, Jiaming goes back to give small building to make final cleaning, she also helped in the past, the present scenery, seemed like with that year seemed like. 圣心学院此时正值暑假,大雨之中一切都冷冷清清的,道路与住宅区环绕着整个学校,在圣心学院正门广场分开两边,一边去往家明、灵静、沙沙同住的小楼,一边就去往她在圣心时所居住的别墅,两边相隔不远。家明高中那会儿,四个人就时常走动,后来家明与她有了关系,再后来灵静和沙沙都走了,两个人住在那别墅里,家明回去给小楼做最后的打扫,她也过去帮忙了,如今的景色,看起来与那年的好像。 When to Sacred Heart, remaining distance then not how many, arrived in villa, that house semblance seems like the same as usual, the rainwater washed out cleanly the outer wall. When opens the door, the key that the hand of Yahan takes have not aimed at the key hole several times. After the front door opens, hoodwinked plain white cloth all also to map the view. 到了圣心,剩下的路程便没有多少,抵达别墅时,那房子外表看起来还是老样子,雨水将外墙冲刷得干干净净。开门时,雅涵的手拿的钥匙好几次都没有对准钥匙孔。大门打开之后,蒙着白布的一切也就映入了眼帘。 „Mama had said this is place Oh that Taotao was lived.” little girl looks at all in room curiously, later then walked vivaciously in front, here she has not come, if the time, approximately came also to forget early, although no one lived, dust not many that but accumulated, all ornaments are maintaining as before several years ago appearances. “妈妈说过这是淘淘被生出来的地方哦。”小女孩好奇地看着房间里的一切,随后便蹦蹦跳跳地走在了前头,这里她没怎么来过,时间如果早一点,大约来过也已经忘记了,虽然没有人住,但积累的灰尘不多,所有的摆设依旧保持着几年前的模样。 „Every half year cleans one time......” “每半年就过来打扫一次……” Yahan pulls out the open covering the white cloth cover of sofa, is speaking in a soft voice, Jiaming also spoke these thing heavily to lift in the past. Taotao helped occasionally in the past, occasionally sits on the sofa, hits several to roll, the upstairs and downstairs, asked: „Mama, which room I live.” And so on issue. 雅涵抽开覆盖着沙发的白罩布,轻声说着话,家明也过去讲这些东西重又掀开。淘淘偶尔过去帮忙,偶尔在沙发上坐着,打几个滚,楼上楼下的,问些:“妈妈,我在哪个房间里生出来的啊。”之类的问题。 „...... That year cherished Taotao. Had a falling out with the family member, asking Auntie to take care of me...... with Taotao that several months but actually good, spat does not calculate when fierce...... always kicked I......” mentioned am pregnant the matter, on the Yahan face showed the gentle happy expression, „in October/ten months was pregnant has not annoyed anything to me, but was earlier than the expected date of childbirth was born half a month, this child...... that afternoon suddenly thought that must live, called to call the doctor, the doctor came the time. The clean room that prepares here receives simply, because lives quickly, two hours. Taotao came out, cries the big sound......” “……那年怀了淘淘。跟家里人闹翻了,请了个阿姨过来照顾我……怀着淘淘那几个月倒还好,吐得也不算厉害……就是老踢我……”说起怀孕时地事情,雅涵脸上露出了温柔的笑意,“十月怀胎都没给我惹什么事,可是比预产期早出生了半个月,这孩子……那天下午突然就觉得要生了,打电话叫医生,医生过来的时候。就干脆在这边准备的干净房间里接生的,因为生得快,两个小时。淘淘就出来了,哭得好大声……” At the same time tidies up, Yahan is saying these, Taotao opened the big eye to follow in while listened, such matter was actually quick, more than ten minutes, have then restored to the original condition, Yahan took a big pile to hold the pillow, arrived on the living room sofa on the pillowcase. Taotao sat in the pillow pile mentioned intimate conversation with the big polar bear softly, she naturally did not lack the puppet, but wants to come Yahan or others will not deliver this type compared with on she build big 2-3 times of toys, was quite suddenly novel. Jiaming went to outside sales store to buy several packages to facilitate, the electricity thermo heated the boiling water to soak eating, inside put two sausages. 一边收拾,雅涵一边说着这些,淘淘睁了大眼睛跟在一边听,这样的事情倒是快,十多分钟时间,上上下下便都已经恢复了原貌,雅涵拿了一大堆抱枕,到客厅沙发上上枕套。淘淘坐在了软绵绵地枕头堆里跟大白熊说起悄悄话,她自然是不缺玩偶的,但想来雅涵或者别人也不会送她这种比她体型大上2-3倍的玩具,一时间颇为新奇。家明去外面的小卖部买了几包方便回来,用电热水壶烧了开水泡着吃,里面放上两根火腿肠。 „At noon has not eaten meal, assembles.” “中午没吃饭,凑合一下。” Small Taotao then visits him in the opposite with the sparkling vision. 小淘淘便在对面用亮晶晶的目光看着他。 The instant noodles are not the precious thing. But under the Yahan attendance. Taotao grows such is big. Naturally also has nothing to eat this junk food opportunity. Yahan looks that the daughter vision cannot help but smiles. Afterward also gave Taotao to swell one bowl. Steaming hot. little girl holds the large bowl. Sorption this eats the ground strip in gulps for the first time. 方便面不是什么珍贵事物。但在雅涵地照顾下。淘淘长这么大。自然也没什么吃这种垃圾食品地机会。雅涵看着女儿地目光不由得一笑。随后也给淘淘冲泡了一碗。热气腾腾中。小女孩捧着大碗。大口大口地吸着这第一次吃地面条。 The instant noodles ate the less than half bowl. Taotao accompanied the polar bear to speak a while words on the sofa. Heavy rests. She to give in to mother this morning, but bored half of the day. At this time although to new place. Could not find anything to play eventually. After eating to the full . Also will accompany the polar bear to sleep to take pastime. When Yahan hugs is sleeping soundly little girl to go to inside room. Jiaming finished eating the Taotao remaining ground strip. Goes to wash cleanly the dish to the kitchen. In the room is peaceful. Has Yahan to coax the daughter to go to sleep singing sound in broken bits. The footsteps are slight. Before long. The female sympathized his back familiar. Both hands bypass the chest front. Grasped him. The atmosphere tends to be peaceful. Both people have not spoken. Jiaming returns the kitchen cabinet the china bowl slowly. Yahan gripped his two hands in the future. Let him grasp her. 方便面吃了小半碗。淘淘在沙发上陪着白熊说了一会儿话。沉沉地睡过去。她今天上午为了迁就母亲而无聊了半天。这时虽然到了新地方。终究也找不到什么玩地。吃饱之后。也就将陪着白熊睡觉作为了消遣。雅涵抱着熟睡地小女孩去里面房间时。家明吃完了淘淘剩下地面条。去到厨房里将碗洗干净。房间里安静下来。有雅涵哄女儿入眠地细碎歌声。脚步轻微。不一会儿。熟悉地女体贴上了他地后背。双手绕过胸前。抱住了他。气氛趋于安谧。两个人都没有说话。家明缓缓将瓷碗放回碗柜。雅涵握住了他地两只手往后。让他抱住她。 „In hand also wet......” “手上还湿呢……” „I, no matter......” the Yahan sound just like in the dream to talk during sleep lightly. “我不管……”雅涵地声音犹如梦中轻呓。 „Hē.” “呵。” Jiaming smiles. Dried hand on the surface with the new towel water stain. Has just now turned around. The hand extends the knee to hug her. Although latter goes to the sofa. Let her lie down on oneself leg. Four years of foreland that winter. At night. They frequently are this. Yahan is covering the blanket. Holds the pillow to speak to him. It is not always willing to rest early. Jiaming is hugging her. Passes the moment. Just now opens the mouth: „For these years...... crossed very laboriously?” 家明笑了笑。用新毛巾擦干了手上地水渍。方才转过了身。手伸下膝盖将她抱起来。虽后去到沙发。让她躺在自己地腿上。四年前地那个冬天。每到夜晚。他们就常常是这样。雅涵盖着毯子。抱着枕头跟他说话。总不愿意早早地睡下去。家明搂着她。过得片刻。方才开口:“这几年……过得很辛苦吧？” „Had Taotao in not painstakingly.” Yahan holds the pillow to hug one in the bosom, rolled up near his leg gently the body. “有淘淘在就不苦了。”雅涵将一只抱枕搂在怀里,在他的腿边轻柔地蜷缩了身体。 „Was thinner than before......” “比以前瘦了……” „Frequently exercises the place.” Yahan raises head to look at him, „still remembers me multiple?” “常常去锻炼地呢。”雅涵仰头看他,“还记得我多重？” „Still remembers that your here is very solid.” “还记得你这里很结实。” The finger across the skirt-width of clothing, on the flesh of lower abdomen according to her, the four years ago first flesh touches gently, among that fingers and palms just like has the fire in the fever, the body of Yahan shivered, closed the eye, later just now opened, a hand pasted gently on the back of the hand of Jiaming: „Has had a child, before where also has such.” 手指穿过衣衫的下摆,轻柔地按她上小腹的肌肤,四年前的第一次肌肤相触,那指掌之间犹如有火在烧,雅涵的身体颤抖了一下,闭上眼睛,随后方才睁开,一只手轻轻贴在家明的手背上:“都已经生了孩子了,哪里还有以前的那样子啊。” „Taotao was taught very well by you.” “淘淘被你教得很好。” „Before thinks, this whole life is living...... her silent moment for her”, „before you to song such that I sang, hopes that can accompany her to grow up, looks that she married finally, crosses happily, wanted to live for a long time, gave her best thing, perhaps...... can also see your appearance on her. Gets sick not to have, in a disorderly way made the maintenance compared with before, did not have the means to be willful, cannot cry in front of Taotao, sometimes before going to your grave, cried a afternoon......” “以前想,这辈子就是为她活着了……”她沉默片刻,“就像你以前给我唱的歌那样,希望能一直陪着她长大,看着她最后结婚,过得幸福,想要活得久一点,把最好的东西都给她,也许……还能在她身上看见你地样子。病还没好,就比以前更加有规律地做保养,也没办法任性了,也不能在淘淘面前哭,有时候去你的坟前哭一个下午……” Her eyes closely are shutting, the hand of Jiaming according to the own lower abdomen. Crossed just now opened the mouth for a long time in a soft voice: „That night that you walk...... I know that...... cries to look at you to walk in the balcony......” 她的双眼紧紧地闭着,将家明的手按在自己的小腹上。过了好久方才轻声开口:“你走的那天晚上……我知道……在阳台上哭着看你走的……” „I understand......” “我明白……” „In the four years passes well tired, Jiaming......” “这四年过得好累啊,家明……” „I understand that...... was all right......” “我明白……没事了……” Low nan of gentle voice, comforts leisurely, Yahan is recalling all these things, is speaking in the Jiaming bosom, as if must come matter each article to say four years. 柔声的低喃,轻缓地安慰,雅涵回忆着这一切地事情,在家明怀里说着话,仿佛要将四年来地事情桩桩件件都说出来。 „After...... you walked . I do not dare others to tell the matter that is pregnant, resigns in Sacred Heart Academy, can only live here, in the family/home does not dare to go back......” “……你走了之后。我不敢跟别人说怀孕的事情,在圣心学院辞了职,只能住在这里,家里也不敢回去了……” „...... Papa knows after being pregnant the matter, compelling me to wipe out Taotao, stubborn I have also thought stronger, I almost die to him look......” “……爸爸知道怀孕地事情之后,逼着我要把淘淘打掉,拗不过我还想过要强来,我差点就死给他看……” „...... Taotao makes every effort to succeed, after seeing her, Papa does not have the words to say. Afterward made me go back, compelling me to say your status......” “……淘淘争气,看见她之后,爸爸也没话说。后来就让我回去,逼着我说你的身份……” „Taotao Qizhi early......” “淘淘启智早……” „Afterward went to the company to work......” “后来就去公司里做事了……” „Taotao always my shield......” “淘淘总是我地挡箭牌……” „Every morning gets up, sings listens to her. Taotao study speech that bit......” “每天早上起来,唱歌给她听。淘淘学说话那会……” „Many chaotic 7-8 bad things, but sees Taotao each time, I thought that all things are worth......” “很多乱七八糟的事情,但每次看到淘淘,我就觉得所有事情都是值得的……” The time is close to five points, light twittering in sound, Yahan also heavy rested finally, Jiaming looks that outside weather was dark, hugs Yahan for a long time, is hugging her to arrive at the room in master bedroom next door finally, making her lie down on the bed. Covers the light blanket. He sits in the bedside looks at the resting posture of woman, later sets out to leave. 时间接近五点,淡淡呢喃声中,雅涵终于也沉沉地睡了过去,家明看着外面的天色暗了,搂着雅涵好久,终于抱着她去到主卧隔壁的房间,让她在床上躺好。盖上薄薄的毯子。他坐在床边看着女人的睡姿,随后起身离开。 When arrives at the master bedroom, Taotao also holds the hand of polar bear to rest just soundly, the little girl resting posture is very peaceful, this point image mother. This is his daughter, Yahan with his fresh daughter, thinks of this point, in his heart has a quite strangely mood, feels some not realistic appearance. 来到主卧时,淘淘也拉着白熊的一只手睡得正香,小女孩的睡姿很安静,这一点像母亲。这是他地女儿,雅涵与他生的女儿,想到这一点,他的心中有一种相当陌生地情绪,觉得有些不现实的样子。 In any event. He has not thought become the matter after father, with the reunion of Yahan is he anticipated that the scene, Yui(only) has this daughter ---- Even before knows has her existence ---- When meets felt some not handles. 无论如何。他都没有想过自己成为父亲后的事情,与雅涵的重逢是他预期中的情景,唯有这个女儿----纵然之前知道了有她的存在----见面之时还是感到了些许的无措。 The good young person, the children somewhat are troublesome. Person who does not have the affection, before quite bothersome child Jiaming thinks, drew the quilt for the daughter. This is a brand-new person, just like a white paper, you accountability to her future, this matter will not have the rule to follow. The opportunity of again not having come. Past various experiences are useless at present, but you. Actually must guarantee that she can obtain the happiness ---- He does not like such feeling, can foresee, in the future will become extremely troublesome, he will not be when the Teacher material, on will let his responsible student Kaoru, perhaps also can only say is the half-finished product, with him once estimated that prospect, will really be difference between Heaven and Earth. 好小的人,小孩子都有些麻烦。并非是多么有爱心的人,以前就比较烦小孩地家明想了想,为女儿拉好了被子。这是一个全新的人,犹如一张白纸,你对她的未来负有责任,这件事没有规律可循。没有重来的机会。以往的各种经验都在眼前毫无用处,而你。却要保证她可以获得幸福----他并不喜欢这样的感觉,可以预见,未来将会变得极度麻烦,他也不是当老师的材料,上一个让他负责的学生薰,恐怕也只能说是半成品,与他曾经预想中的前景,真是天差地别。 „Without the means that this matter......” he is thinking, finally sighed, mutters, „had the difficulty to want on, without the difficulty...... the manufacture also wanted on...... sown area result this difficultly”...... “没办法啊,这种事情……”他想着,终于叹了口气,喃喃自语,“有困难要上,没困难……制造困难也要上呐……”播种地结果就这样…… Does not want to disturb Taotao continues to sleep, does not want to be again worried for this matter, Jiaming goes out of the room, starts to reorganize some daily thing, although sofa, bed, cabinet and electric appliance and so on thing lifts the plain white cloth to use, but many thing, at this time after all were unusable. The washroom, bathroom and garage...... each place walked, probably after a half hour, when he takes several types of thing are arriving at the preparation to the 2nd floor storage, suddenly detects, in room that Yahan is resting at this time, as if somewhat slight sound. 不想打搅淘淘的继续睡觉,也不想再为这事而苦恼,家明走出房间,开始整理一些日常的东西,虽然沙发、床、柜子、电器之类的东西掀开白布就能用,但很多的东西,这时毕竟还是不能用的。洗手间、浴室、车库……各个地方走了一圈,大概半个小时后,他拿着几样东西来到准备去往二楼的储物室时,才陡然察觉到,雅涵此时正在休息的房间里,似乎有些细微的动静。 Opens the door gently, sees only above that bed, the Yahan body anxious earth movement, the frown is tight, does not know that had what nightmare, the hair had made on the pillow neatly at this time disorderly. He looked at two, prepares to return the storage thing in hand under to come to see again. thing puts away, heard Yahan to call one below suddenly: „Jiaming!” 轻轻推开门,只见在那大床之上,雅涵地身体正不安地动着,双眉紧蹙,也不知道是做了什么噩梦,原本整齐地头发此时已在枕头上弄得凌乱。他看了两眼,准备将手中的东西放回储物室再下来看看。东西才放好,陡然听见雅涵在下面叫了一声:“家明！” The half step arrives at the stairway, in the eye the insight, is Yahan suddenly the scene of the room flushing, the sound of opening the door is very loud, her facial expression is anxious, the whole face is the beads of sweat, about looked at several, has swept above the staircase obviously, as if absolutely did not have seeing to stand there Jiaming, the breathing rapidly stood for several seconds, she opened the doors of downstairs several room, the vision has somewhat swept out of the window at a loss, later then ran to the villa front door. 快步走到楼梯口,眼中所见地,是雅涵陡然从房间冲出来的情景,开门的声音很大,她神情焦急,满脸都是汗珠,左右看了几眼,明明扫过了楼梯上方,却似乎完全没有看见站在那里的家明,呼吸急促地站了几秒钟,她打开了楼下几间房的房门,目光有些茫然地扫过窗外,随后便跑向了别墅大门。 There Jiaming stayed, stunned, he almost can hear in the Yahan mouth clearly twittering with low shout, that is the own name, oneself stand in her front, she actually cannot see herself, such cries, seeks in the room, opens the front door to run several steps, soon entered the curtain of rain just now to stop, she cried to seek for the form that wanted to see in the rain, a moment later ran, ran toward the staircase, must go upstairs probably, by the 2 layers stair, she decided suddenly stands there, visits above staircase him. 家明愣在了那儿,他几乎可以清晰地听见雅涵口中的呢喃与低喊声,那都是自己的名字,自己就站在她的面前,她却看不到自己,就那样一面哭,一面在房间里寻找,推开大门跑出几步,快要进雨幕了方才停下,她哭着在雨里寻找想要看到的身影,片刻之后又跑回来,往楼梯跑,大概是要上楼,直到上了两层台阶,她才陡然定定地站在了那儿,看着楼梯上方的他。 Jiaming understands suddenly, four years ago that snowing night that leave, when oneself in the headache to under the ignorant condition leaves, in the room happened, perhaps is the present all, she arrives in the balcony later, looks one scene in Daxueli leaving, can only cry, is actually not able to pursue. Today from meeting to afterward recounted, she makes the calm depressing mood, to this time dream, all erupts finally. 家明忽然明白过来,四年前自己离开的那个下雪的夜晚,自己在头痛到浑浑噩噩的状态下离开时,房间里发生的,或许便是眼前的一切,她随后去到阳台上,看着自己在大雪里离开的情景,只能哭,却无法追上去。今天从见面到后来的述说,她都在强作镇定压抑心情,到此时的梦里,一切终于爆发开来。 Four years later, she stands in the stairway, the vision passing will separate finally with the reality, when she saw clearly the above person's shadow, on the face has the tears and nightmare outbreak beads of sweat, put out a hand to seize the front piece of chest, in a minute, that full was on the face of tears „Hē” struggled a smile, the smile collapse that this felt relieved finally continually is deepening suffering with palpitation. She kneels in the staircase, „......” the sorrowful cry makes noise, this time, was not actually able to suppress again. 时隔四年,她站在楼梯口,目光终于将过往与现实分离开来,她看清了上方的人影,脸上带着泪水与噩梦发作时的汗珠,伸手揪住了胸口的衣襟,片刻,那满是泪水的脸上“呵”的挣扎出一个笑容,这如释重负的笑容终于崩溃在不断加深的委屈与心悸中。她在楼梯上跪下来,“哈……”的恸哭出声,这一次,却是再也无法抑制住了。 , Jiaming grasps her slowly. 缓缓的,家明抱住她。 „Was all right, I came back, was all right, was all right......” “没事了,我回来了,没事了、没事了……” „Do not leave me again......” “不要再离开我……” The mournful weeping sound, enters the soul. 凄然的哭声,直入灵魂。