On, had a good dream. 上,做了一个好梦。 In the dream, Jiaming separated with mother finally, Jiaming liked her — — this is also natural matter — — in holy indistinct, she put on white muslin, entered the cathedral with Jiaming, such that seemed in each soap opera to develop, they married, then lived together happily joyfully, with Jiaming, with Mama, naturally, like the Jiaming such fierce person, will naturally have many other seductresses to like, but the Little Heidi utilization own beautiful appearance and wisdom defeated them, finally felt inferior by them left. 在梦里,家明跟妈咪终于分开了,家明喜欢上了她——这也是理所当然的事情——在圣洁的隐约中,她穿着白纱,跟着家明进了大教堂,就好像每一部电视剧里演的那样,他们结婚了,然后幸福快乐地生活在一起,和家明,和妈妈,当然,像家明这么厉害的人,自然还会有其他的很多狐狸精喜欢,不过小海蒂运用自己的美貌和智慧打败了她们,最终让她们一个个自惭形秽地走掉了。 Thinks that is very happy, when wakes, corners of the mouth also has satisfied smile. 想起来就很开心,醒过来时,嘴角还有着满足的微笑。 Crawls from the soft bedding, she rubs the eyes, out of the window has the heavy snows of numerous raising, the north wind is howling, the weather is gloomy, however in the separation of one wall room is warm, such feeling is very good, barefoot, she gets out of bed gently, has not put on shoes, pushes the door to go out uncannily happily. 从柔软的被褥中爬出来,她揉了揉眼睛,窗外下着纷扬的大雪,北风呼啸,天色阴沉,然而一墙之隔的房间里是暖洋洋的,这样的感觉很好,光着脚丫,她轻轻地下了床,没有穿鞋,鬼鬼樂樂地推门出去。 Cannot alarm others, she wants first to have a look at the response of Jiaming and Mama, can take thing to wait for her to punish by forcing to kneel or must hit her in the living room specially. 不能惊动别人,她想先看看家明与妈妈的反应,会不会是专门拿着东西在客厅里等着她罚跪或者要打她呢。 Although had never been treated before like this, but this time happened, indeed was an important matter, at least...... was her vitality most important matter, was discrete carefully,...... 虽然之前从未被这样对待过,但这次发生的,的确是一件大事了,至少……是她生命力最重要的一件事,要谨慎、要小心…… Gets to the Jiaming room entrance quietly, she lies on the rug, pastes on the door the ear, like this listened some little time, inside actually does not see the least bit sound, in the heart somewhat cannot help but disappointed. She is knows Jiaming fierce, at this time is the afraid time, opens the door to look that does not dare, stands quietly, wants to listen to a while toward the Mama room, arrives at the stairway, below transmits makes the breakfast the sound, one hear can be clear that is mother's movement. 悄悄地走到家明的房间门口,她趴在地毯上,将耳朵贴上房门,这样听了好一会儿,里面却不见半点动静,心中不由得有些失望。她是知道家明的厉害的,此时又正是心虚的时候,推开门看可是不敢,悄悄地站起来,又想往妈妈的房间去听一会儿,走到楼梯口,下面传来做早餐的声音,一听就能清楚是妈咪的动作。 Pokes head in carefully. Determined that Jiaming not in living room, she slowly surface-to-underwater, hides in the sofa successor dynasty kitchen in living room to look, saw only Marilyn to put on of last night to rest the skirt, some movement machineries are frying the egg , from afar, that complexion was somewhat pale silent, the vision somewhat was also lax. Seemed like mother really to separate with Jiaming, Heidi thought. 小心地探出头。确定家明不在客厅,她才慢慢地潜了下去,躲到客厅的沙发后朝厨房看,只见玛丽莲正穿着昨晚的那件睡裙,动作有些机械地煎着鸡蛋,远远望去,那脸色有些苍白无声,目光也有些涣散。看起来妈咪是真地跟家明分开了,海蒂心想。 Is looking here, suddenly bang. The shovel in Marilyn hand seemed like with mistakenly the strength, the egg flew, the boiling hot oil dripping actually splashed on her finger, ground that shovel Pā fell in the kitchen. She somewhat withdrew helplessly one step, at once squats, putting out a hand to take the shovel, that from the sky shook several, actually puts in the mouth to suck by the finger that the oil splashed gently. The tears rolled from the eye socket all of a sudden. 正在这边看着,忽然间砰的一声。玛丽莲手中的铲子似乎是用错了力,鸡蛋飞了出去,滚烫的油滴却溅到了她的手指上,那铲子啪的一声掉落在了厨房的地上。她有些不知所措地退后了一步,旋即蹲了下来,伸手想去拿铲子,那手在空中晃了几下,却是将被油溅到的手指伸进了口中轻轻地吮吸着。眼泪一下子就从眼眶里滚了下来。 Heidi hides there, looked at mother to burst into tears while to sit the ground, is wiping the tears, is constraining the Wū Wū weeping sound, in the heart somewhat was suddenly painful. Without Jiaming. The mother she is also good the pain. But...... this matter...... she thinks, goes upstairs quietly. 海蒂躲在那儿,望着母亲一边流泪一边坐到了地上,揩着眼泪,压抑着呜呜的哭声,心中忽然有些痛。没有了家明。妈咪她也好痛苦啊。可是……这种事……她想了想,悄悄地上了楼。 When gets down again. Marilyn is red the eye socket to continue to make the breakfast. The hand mechanical earth movement, was seeing that Heidi walks from side. Just now is partial to inside the face, put out a hand to wipe the corner of the eye: „Got up?” 再下来时。玛丽莲红着眼眶继续做早餐。手机械地动着,见到海蒂从旁边走过来。方才将脸偏向里侧,伸手抹了抹眼角:“起来了？” Bites the lip lightly, Heidi is nodding, later walked, maintained total silence held the right hand of mother, put out the hot medicine to help her wipe, in the omelette pot spread intermittent fragrance, Marilyn is looking at the daughter, good long time, just now to hear her saying: „Mother, I also likes Jiaming......” 轻咬着嘴唇,海蒂点了点头,随后走了过去,一语不发地抓住了母亲的右手,拿出烫伤药来帮她抹着,煎蛋地锅里传出一阵阵的香味,玛丽莲怔怔地望着女儿,好半晌,方才听得她说道:“妈咪,我也喜欢家明的……” On the face revealed a complex happy expression, Marilyn hugs the daughter in the bosom, after a while, in that pot gradually spread the burnt smell, Marilyn took up the shovel, Heidi comes out from the mother bosom: „I looked that Jiaming gets out of bed not to have.” 脸上露出一丝复杂的笑意,玛丽莲将女儿搂在了怀里,过了一会儿,那锅里逐渐传出了焦味,玛丽莲拿起铲子,海蒂从母亲怀中出来:“我去看家明起床没有。” „Did not need to call.” “不用叫了。” „Did he get out of bed?” “他起床了？” „He walked last night.” “他昨晚走了。” „Uh......” unexpectedly turned the head around, the Heidi complexion becomes pallid, „how...... how can......” “呃……”蓦地回过了头,海蒂的脸色变得煞白,“怎么……怎么会……” Bang bang bang in the sound of footsteps, little girl goes upstairs fast, in a minute, opening the door sound, „Jiaming......” and so on shout hands down from generation to generation unceasingly, Marilyn holds back tears, admits in the breakfast the dish, little girl has run fast, cries to shout to mother: „Is impossible! He went certainly out, he has a lot......” 砰砰砰的脚步声中,小女孩飞快地上了楼,片刻,开门声,“家明……”之类的喊声不断地传了下来,玛丽莲忍住眼泪,将早餐放进碟子里,小女孩已经飞快地跑下来了,冲着母亲哭喊道:“不可能的！他一定只是出去了,他有很多事情地……” „His thing already not.” “他的东西已经不在了。” „I look for him!” “我去找他！” Heidi is saying, such must run to out of the door, opens the door, the north wind clamps the snowflake to howl to enter, Marilyn held on her hastily in the past: „Outside such is cold, you wear the pajamas......” 海蒂说着,就那样就要向门外跑,一把拉开房门,北风夹着雪花呼啸而入,玛丽莲连忙过去拉住了她:“外面这么冷,你穿着睡衣……” „I must look for him!” By mother, the body of Heidi sat fiercely falls to the ground, had cried loudly, she is not a fool, sees the mother appearance, hearing her voice, in the heart to sink directly, knows that the matter was noisily big, cried a while, saw mother also to wipe tears, was mute the throat saying: „When he comes back......” “我要去找他！”被母亲一拉,海蒂的身体猛地坐倒在地,已经大声地哭了出来,她不是傻瓜,看见母亲的样子,听着她的声音,心中已经直接沉了下去,知道事情闹大了,哭了一会儿,见母亲也在抹着眼泪,哑着嗓子说道:“那他什么时候回来啊……” „Does not know that......” the Marilyn sound somewhat sobbed, in the past held in the arms the daughter, „perhaps will not come back......” “不知道……”玛丽莲声音有些哽咽,过去搂住女儿,“也许不会回来了……” In the room, is only left over the Heidi weeping sound suddenly, Marilyn is hugging her, comforts saying: „Do not cry, is Mama does not do well enough......” 房间之中,一时间就只剩下海蒂地哭声,玛丽莲搂着她,安慰道:“别哭了,是妈妈做得不够好……” „It is not!” Heidi interrupted her words, cried a while, the tearful eyes are just now looking at mother tearfully, „is my mistake, I made him be angry, disliked, he walked, because yesterday evening was I harms him intentionally......” “不是地！”海蒂打断了她地话,哭了一会儿,方才泪眼汪汪地望着母亲,“是我的错,我让他生气了,讨厌了,他就走了,因为昨天晚上是我故意害他地……” She inspires diligently, cries saying: „He has not bumped me, I him told that I like him, finally makes his me return to the room to sleep, when I go out saw you to come, rushed to run back in his room, took off the clothes to make you see intentionally, he was mad at me......” 她努力地吸了一口气,哭道:“他没有碰过我,我跟他说我喜欢他,结果让他我回房睡觉,我出门时看见你过来了,就赶忙跑回他地房间里,故意脱掉衣服让你看到,他是生我的气了……” „......” Looked at the daughter, the Marilyn lips was shivering several, in a minute, just now somewhat looked helplessly to out of the window that the snowflake danced in the air, „what you and you said was really......” “……”望着女儿,玛丽莲地双唇颤抖了几下,片刻,方才有些不知所措地望向了雪花飞舞的窗外,“你、你说的是真的……” „Sorry, I do not dare......” Heidi to cry, „you make him come back, where he went, I later did not dare, you made him come back to scold me, to hit me, you made him come back, I did not dare......” “对不起,我不敢了……”海蒂哭着,“你让他回来啊,他去哪里了,我以后不敢了,你让他回来骂我、打我,你让他回来啊,我不敢了……” „Did not come back......” long time, she is touching daughter's cheeks, on the pale face reveals mournfully smiles, „did not come back...... is not your mistake, was mother's mistake, mother does not believe he...... was a mother wrong......” “回不来了……”良久,她抚摸着女儿的脸颊,苍白的脸上露出凄然一笑,“回不来了……不是你的错,是妈咪的错,妈咪不相信他……是妈咪的错……” In the wind and snow sound of out of the window, that sound as if wants momentarily fine lace, hoarse mournful, does not have by the ooze, is only left over the wail that the girl regrets, indistinct, low echo...... 窗外的风雪声中,那声音仿佛随时都欲断去的细线,沙哑凄然,逐渐消没,只剩下女孩后悔的哭泣声,隐隐约约,低迷回响…… **************************************************** **************************************************** Morning of December 21 , 98. Snowstorm arrived at New York, the dark cloud of low pressure, gloomy weather, north wind of howling across city each, snow 98年十二月21日清晨。一场暴风雪降临了纽约,低压的乌云,阴沉的天色,呼啸的北风穿过城市地每一处,雪 Yang-yang, the visibility in city fell lowly, automobile trumpet that above the path, bent down everywhere, even if all drivers put slowly the speed, but in the city still had several traffic accidents inevitably. In the news of 7 : 30 am, each New York television station is reporting the matter of related this heavy snow without exception. 扬扬,城市中的能见度降到了最低,道路之上,到处伏的汽车喇叭声,纵然所有司机都将速度放到了最慢,但城市之中仍旧不可避免地发生了好几次车祸。在早上 7 点半的新闻里,每一个纽约电视台都无一例外地报导着有关这场大雪的事情。 „Ya-oh. New York how this.” Four sides pure white, the corner is putting green ornamental trees, arranges in the fine hospital ward, put on can actually be called the woman who is beautifully attired solid as before watches the television, then to sitting the female on hospital bed is speaking, „this did not have the truth, every day was not the traffic accident. Is the gun battle and so on, at night the day before yesterday, killed people on the front street with making the movie is the same, today under the such big snow, I also think that was the good place place. The plan that today goes out to play was scrapped.” “呀哟。纽约怎么这样啊。”四面洁白,墙角放着一株绿色的观赏性树木,布置精美的病房之中,穿的严严实实却依旧称得上花枝招展的女人一面看着电视,一面回头对坐在病床上的女子说着话,“这也太没道理了,每天不是车祸啊。就是枪战之类地,前天晚上吧,在前面街上杀人跟拍电影一样,今天又下这么大的雪,我还觉得是个好地方地。今天出去玩的计划又泡汤了。” „Luck is not good.” On the bed puts on the young woman who the white patient takes to smile. „Mr. Chen was not also told us. Recently mafia big internecine strife? That person named Mantou also said yesterday that lives in of No. 14 hospital ward is the mafia person.” Mr. Chen in female spigot. Is their trip security guard Captain. It is said before was the mercenary family background, had real skill very much. The relations in various aspects are also quick, usually likes regarding the anecdote amusing thing to mention these things listens, showing own is profound, as for the nickname Mantou fellow, was that the day before yesterday knew is naturally growing childish face little fatty. “运气不好吧。”床上穿着白色病人服的年轻女子笑了笑。“陈先生不是还跟我们说。最近黑手党又大火拼吗？那个叫馒头的人昨天也说了,住十四号病房的那个就是黑手党的人呢。”女子口中的陈先生。是她们此行地警卫队长。据说以前是雇佣兵出身,很是有两下子。各方面的关系也灵通,平时喜欢将这些事情当成逸闻趣事说来听,以示自己的渊博,至于外号馒头的家伙,自然是前天才认识的那个长着张娃娃脸地小胖子了。 „I may like listening to the mafia matter.” Dresses up the woman to be interested carefully says with a smile, „that is mafia, you have looked at Godfather, really wants to go to Hollywood to ask Malone Brando to sign. Your sickness was in any case good, how do we find the time to go to Hollywood to play?” “我可喜欢听黑手党地事情。”精心打扮过地女人感兴趣地笑道,“那可是黑手党啊,你看过教父吧,真想去好莱坞找马龙-白兰度要签名。你的病反正好了,我们找时间去好莱坞玩玩怎么样？” „That is also only an actor, unlike, really the mafia anything misdemeanor does, the traffic in people, receives the protection money, murder and narcotics, you will recycle waste in New York are massacred by them.” “那也只是演员吧,跟真地又不一样,真地黑手党什么坏事都做的,贩卖人口、收保护费、杀人、贩毒,你在纽约捡个破烂都会被他们杀掉呢。” „You knew.” “你又知道了。” „I......” words export certainly one section, stops unexpectedly, puts on the patient to take on the female face to show the complex look, nearby woman asked strangely: „What's wrong?” “我当然……”话出口一截,蓦地停住,穿着病人服地女子脸上露出复杂的神色,一旁的女人奇怪地问道:“怎么了？” „It’s nothing, is only...... Hē, no.” clear and distinct remembers, about mafia and Colombian drug lords and so on matter, is regards the interesting rumor to hear from somebody mouth, at that time are playing the blood and iron Teacher role in the school, that person will actually enter when each free time to oneself that office that is regarded as the forbidden area, with the own computer, eats the own between-meal snack, occupies the own seat, rests the own sofa, thinks that somewhat is really suffering, but feels on, that seems two people a total of rooms. Such affectionate feeling...... was gone forever...... “没什么,只是……呵,没什么。”清清楚楚地记得,关于黑手党、哥伦比亚毒枭之类的事情,也是当成趣闻从某个人口中听到的,那时候自己在学校里扮演着铁血老师的角色,那个人却会在每个空暇时进到自己那间被人视为禁区的办公室,用自己的电脑,吃自己的零食,占自己的座位,睡自己的沙发,想起来真有些委屈,但感觉上,那仿佛是两人共有的房间。那样亲昵的感觉……一去不复返了…… „Remembered that heartless fellow?” Sinks in the train of thought that when the opposite party suddenly the face extends, slightly has a scare, cannot help but complained one with a smile: „Little Mother!” “想起那个负心的家伙了？”沉在思绪之中,对方陡然间将脸伸过来时,被小小地吓了一跳,不由得笑着埋怨一句:“小妈！” „No! Want! Thinks! He!” Wielded the finger, Little Mother is saying one word at a time, „I was young time that liked was not such, you were serious him, he was not serious you, after I married your Papa, he poured always looks for me , being disinclined managed him, making him regret, told you, the men were a bum, if you want him, the only means that do not make him feel that forever he had you.” “不！要！想！他！”挥着手指,小妈一字一顿地说着,“我年轻的时候喜欢的那个不也是那样,你把他当一回事了,他就不把你当一回事,我嫁给你爸爸之后,他倒老是来找我,切,才懒得理他,让他后悔去吧,告诉你,男人都是贱骨头,你要想拥有他,唯一的办法,就是永远别让他觉得他拥有你。” „Snort.” Purses the lips, „I told the father, you had another man......” “哼。”撅了撅嘴,“我告诉老爸去,你拥有另一个男人……” „I have his heart, although I now am not rare.” Smiles proudly, Little Mother said honestly, „may your father have me. Your father is the most suitable my man, if before that man in the same place, will separate finally, more close, more cannot bear.” “我拥有他的心,虽然我现在已经不稀罕了。”骄傲地笑了笑,小妈坦白地说道,“可你老爸拥有我。你老爸才是最适合我的男人,如果和以前那个男人在一起,最后还是会分开的,越靠近,就越受不了。” „such said that you do love my father?” “这么说你更爱我老爸？” „Your this small girl believes the love, that is two people arrives at one of the together reasons, but must live together, the love are little significance, the person who has not loved instead can live together, when two people live together after long time, the feeling that type was familiar with the opposite party, regards the same feeling the opposite party, is most comfortable.” “你这小丫头才相信爱呢,那是两个人走到一起的理由之一,但是要一起过日子,爱情没有多大的意义,没爱的人反而更能生活在一起,不过当两个人生活在一起很长时间之后,那种熟悉了对方的感觉,把对方当成自己一样的感觉,才是最舒服的。” „Che.” shows the whites of the eyes, „Little Mother you are not old, why to say like Old Man.” „Che.”">“切。”翻了个白眼,“小妈你又不老,干嘛说得像老头子一样。” „It is not old is strange, ten years ago I am one of the cosmetics firm opponents, now ends up looks at the cosmetics to live all day.” Patted still the clear cheek, „, therefore you best give me to clean the teeth to wash the face a bit faster, we go out to have the breakfast, reaches an agreement today to buy thing.” “不老才怪,十年前我还是化妆品的坚决反对者之一,现在就落得整天看着化妆品过日子了。”拍了拍仍旧圆润的脸蛋,“所以你最好给我快点刷牙洗脸,我们出去吃早餐,说好了今天要去买东西的。” Although two people in name are the stepmother with following female, but the sentiment with the sisters, is similar individual emotional problem, Little Mother is always very honest, two people when also frequently exchange together, many things do not know Zhang Jing’an, Yahan actually knows clear and distinct, for example love process of Little Mother with her beforehand boyfriend, the things of some of two people old feelings remain after a severed relationship, the man who several that go down in the world at present looks as before, hot-tempered Little Mother scolded him, almost called to guarantee the base hit person, Yahan acted to persuade somebody to leave the opposite party, that man scolded Little Mother to be fickle for the last time, despises the poor and curries favor with the rich, corrupt was the Zhang Family property, Little Mother When puts in great inconvenience cries, is Yahan acts, the direct statement said that the Zhang Family property is her property. Finally drives away that man. However heard the opposite party also the thought that persisted in window-shopping, Yahan cannot help but painstakingly the face. 两人名义上虽然是后母与继女,但情同姐妹,类似个人的感情问题,小妈一向都很坦白,两人在一起时也常常交流,许多事情连张敬安都不知道,雅涵却知道得清清楚楚,譬如说小妈同她以前的男友的恋爱过程,两人依旧有些藕断丝连的事情,好几次那个目前落魄的男人找过来,脾气火爆的小妈都是将他骂走,差点叫保安打人,还是雅涵出面来劝走了对方,最后一次那个男人骂小妈喜新厌旧,嫌贫爱富,贪的是张家的财产,小妈委屈得哭时,也是雅涵出面来,直接表态说张家的财产便是她的财产。终于将那个男人赶走。不过听得对方还坚持逛街的念头,雅涵不由得苦了脸。 „no way, this weather also strolls Ah?” “不是吧,这种天气还去逛啊？” „Goes to the supermarket on next door that street, two big, in the morning strolls one and afternoon to stroll one, a day sent, hurry up, dilly-dallied, were you older than me?” “就去隔壁那条街上的超市,两个好大的,上午逛一家、下午逛一家,一天就打发完了,快点啊,磨磨蹭蹭的,你比我还老吗？” „Uh...... good.” Puts on the female of patient clothing to nod reluctantly, enters the bathroom, takes up the toothbrush toothpaste, in a minute, the face of Little Mother appears near the gate: „What you take time is who my toothbrush...... that hides in your bedding knocks down I man actually is, making you be flung also such to never forget, you somewhat were starting from yesterday absent-minded, say, I not because that matter will ask him to trouble!” “呃……好吧。”穿着病人服装的女子无奈地点了点头,走进卫生间,拿起牙刷牙膏,片刻,小妈的脸出现在门边:“你拿的是我的牙刷……那个躲在你被窝里打晕过我一次的男人倒底是谁啊,让你被甩了还这么念念不忘的,你从昨天开始就有些心不在焉,说出来啊,我又不会因为那件事去找他麻烦！” „Uh...... Hehe, the mistake, Little Mother you brush again one time.” “呃……呵呵,失误啦,小妈你再刷一次。” „Che.” shows the whites of the eyes, Little Mother is waving to leave the washroom, Yahan pursed the lips, changed the own toothbrush, pushes the toothpaste, raised the head, in the mirror surface appeared a beautiful, but desolate face...... „Che.”">“切。”翻了个白眼,小妈挥着手离开了洗手间,雅涵抿了抿嘴,换了自己的牙刷,挤上牙膏,抬起头,镜面之中现出了一张美丽而落寞的脸……