HA :: Volume #2

#125: Wound

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Wanted...... not to continue to go on living again...... 要……不想再继续活下去了…… Both hands hug the body, trembling that rustlings, surrounding air exceptionally cold, even if is always in the middle of the incomparably indifferent environment, she has never felt ice-cold like present. 双手拥抱住身体,瑟瑟的发抖,周围的空气异常的寒冷,就算一直以来都处于无比冷漠的环境当中,她都从未感觉过像现在一样的冰冷。 mother when she is very young has then departed, father likes to gamble and takes drugs, the conduct is not worth praising, only family member but who in any event, is bound by a common destiny with her for a long time, although said also has Huang Family such members of the same family, but in fact no one thinks highly of her father, although can also look for the little help from there, for example makes Huang Family help pay the school expense, here there borrows living expenses, but the extra money could not fill father that bottomless pit. 母亲在她很小的时候便已经离去,父亲好赌、吸毒,品行也不怎么值得称道,但无论如何,长久以来都是与她相依为命的唯一亲人,虽然说起来还有黄家这样的一门亲族,但实际上根本就没有人看得起她的父亲,虽然也能从那里找来一点点的帮助,譬如说让黄家帮忙支付学费,这里那里借来一点生活费,但余钱根本填补不了父亲的那个无底洞。 Was despised and supercilious look since small, even also has the day of having been frozen starves, after having read many books, once was tried to struggle or strive to improve, however a child's naive idea can play the major role to the life, finally made her eccentric, feels inferior , she also learned gradually snobbishly, the learned camouflaged, the learned deceived people, and learned hid in the gloomy corner looks at these to live good people in the heart taunts and curses. 从小以来受人轻视与白眼,甚至也有过受冻挨饿的日子,看过许多的书后,也曾是试图挣扎或是自强,然而一个孩子的天真想法又能对人生起到多大的作用,最终只是使她变得孤僻、自卑,渐渐的,她也学会了势利,学会伪装,学会骗人,学会躲在阴暗的角落里望着那些生活得好的人们并且心中嘲讽和诅咒。 She had stolen in the class schoolmates' ball pen and eraser, but had not been discovered certainly, once deceived to have been to the pocket money by the pitiful appearance in some family member there, thought to flatter on Jiaming, but discovered afterward Jiaming in Huang Family also does not have any position, therefore gave up, after Dongfang Wan helps she repaid 100,000 Yuan, she starts unintentionally to contact the opposite party, although meets to chat several temporarily occasionally, but she knows that the advantage definitely has, time that the mind gradually sinks, she learned taking drugs. 她曾经偷过班上同学们的圆珠笔、橡皮擦,但当然没有被发现,曾经以可怜的面貌在一些亲人那里骗到过零用钱,原本也想过巴结上家明,但后来发现家明在黄家原来也没有任何地位,于是作罢,东方婉帮她偿还了十万元之后,她开始有意无意的接触对方,虽然暂时只是偶尔见面聊上几句,但她知道好处肯定是有的,心灵逐渐沉下去的时候,她学会了吸毒。 After tried one time secretly, could not swear off again...... 偷偷地尝试了一次之后,就再也戒不掉了…… She knows that the bottomless trench that after that is gets sucked into, is hard to extricate oneself, once attempts gave up the drug dependence, when outbreak that feeling is really uncomfortable, got sucked into father in drug dependence to say no that on was good or bad, saw Xu Yiting each time when the drug dependence manifested suddenly struggled, finally can not be cruel enough to see the daughter uncomfortable appearance, branched out points the own narcotics to her. Then, each she tries to struggle time, one hour and two hours and three hours......, but every arrives one time finally, she would taking the narcotics. 她知道那是深陷之后就难以自拔的无底深渊,也曾经一次次的试图戒除掉毒瘾,然而发作时的那种感觉实在是太难受,深陷于毒瘾之中的父亲说不上是好还是坏,每次见许毅婷在毒瘾发作之时挣扎,最终都会不忍心看见女儿难受的样子,将自己的毒品分出一点来给她。就这样,每一次她都试图挣扎,一个小时、两个小时、三个小时……但每一次到最后,她总会将毒品吸下去。 I have at least attempted, I every is enduring one time, gradually bears is longer, at least...... my drug dependence is also not very deep, without has manifested suddenly before the schoolmate, these endured to be very long time, perhaps next time can endure completely, perhaps next time...... 至少我尝试过了,我每一次都在忍,逐渐忍得更久,至少……我的毒瘾还不是很深,没有在同学面前发作过,这一次忍了很久了,说不定下次就能完全忍过去,说不定下一次…… However now, all are unimportant. 然而现在,一切都不重要了。 After such father died, in the world was only left over her, how to struggle, can only fall into a more miserable position. 那样的父亲死掉之后,世界上就只剩下她一个人了,无论怎样挣扎,都只能陷入更凄凉的境地吧。 Quite cold...... 好冷啊…… Shivers is discovering the key, opened the door. The ornaments of hotel room are still warm and magnificent, if only then she and father, cannot live in such room in any event, the Huang Family person is rich, obviously is the family member, why cannot help us, just now in below, they father that discussed dead, was considering indifferently how can be insufficient to tarnish the Huang Family reputation, why can this appearance...... 颤抖着找出钥匙,打开了房门。酒店房间的摆设依旧温暖而华丽,如果只有她和父亲,是无论如何都住不起这样的房间的,黄家的人多有钱啊,明明是亲人,为什么都不能帮帮我们呢,方才在下面,他们一个个谈论起死去的父亲时,都只是冷漠地在考虑着如何才能不至于败坏黄家的名声,为什么会这个样子…… Puts out the matches from the pocket, puts out that packet narcotics again, just now when that Manager fled in horror fell on the ground, she took advantage to pick afterward randomly, a packet that in the room actually also has she left behind, in addition the words, were she has never tried the large dose, will be very certainly happy, in that case, what pain could not feel. 从口袋里拿出火柴,再拿出那一小包毒品,方才那经理被吓得逃跑时掉在了地上,她后来又趁乱捡了起来,房间里其实还有她留下的一小包,加起来的话,是她从未试过的大剂量,一定会很开心,那样一来,就什么痛苦都感觉不到了。 Starts the exothermic water in the bathtub, she returns to the room to discover the fruit knife, will discover the father use syringe — — this to be it is said more joyful, will should better to make her also therefore sudden die — — to stand in front of a person of high mirror, she put down two ugly bread twist pigtails, later will take off big glasses, the young girl in mirror somewhat will be slightly fuzzy, later will become clear, although the appearance will be extremely mournful, but could see as before, she will be very attractive, at present miserable delicate feelings. 在浴缸里开始放热水,她回到房间找出水果刀,找出父亲使用的针管——据说这样会更快乐,最好让她也因此猝死掉——站在一人多高的镜子前面,她放下了两条难看的麻花辫,随后摘下大眼镜,镜子里的少女微微有些模糊,随后变得清晰,虽然面目太过凄然,但依旧看得出,她很漂亮,眼下就更有一种楚楚可怜的柔弱感觉。 That is her only can proud thing, even if met many difficulties, she has never thought makes money with the own body. The 15 or 16 years old young girl read the novel, occasionally is fantasizing the future, was fantasizing she will have an imposing love, therefore she will dress up, for first did not cause other female students' envy, secondly......, if the opposite party were because her appearance fell in love with her, then with her went, when others' lover also had anything to distinguish. 那是她唯一可以自豪的东西,就算遇上了再多的困难,她也从未想过用自己的身体去赚钱。十五六岁的少女看多了小说,偶尔幻想着未来,幻想着她会有一场轰轰烈烈的爱情,所以她将自己装扮起来,一来是为了不引起其他女生的嫉妒,二来……假如对方是因为她的样貌爱上了她,那与她去当别人的情妇又有什么区别。 That was in her heart the only hope. 那是她心中唯一的希望了。 Stands before the mirror, took off the clothes little, whole body gradually becomes naked, but also the body during growth is tender and delicate and shy, without the devil curve, contains one like bursting out faintly the strange vitality, the pigeon breast is not big, is strong and attractive, as a result of the reason of emotional tension, the flesh of whole body presents one light pink, between both legs has the pale black wool clump...... 站在镜子前,一点点地脱掉了衣服,全身上下逐渐变得赤裸,还在发育之中的身体娇嫩而青涩,没有魔鬼般的曲线,却隐隐蕴涵着一股如同迸发般的奇异生命力,鸽乳不大,却坚挺而诱人,由于情绪紧张的缘故,全身的肌肤呈现出一种淡淡的粉红色,双腿间已经有了淡黑色的毛丛…… She wants dead by the most appealing image, tells these indifferent or had ridiculed her these contemporaries, Xu Yiting is not dull, is not ugly, she must carve the own image in the mind of everyone — —, when most difficult follows father to visit Huang Family, she had even fantasized which Elder Male Cousin will have to notice own to be beautiful , helping itself, when the time comes even the incest are not related, but what kind of white horse Prince in mind fantasy will have, will never appear...... will never have appeared...... 她想以最吸引人的形象死去,告诉那些冷眼或是嘲笑过她的那些同龄人们,许毅婷一点也不呆,一点也不难看,她要将自己的形象刻在每个人的脑海中——在最困难的时候跟随父亲造访黄家,她甚至幻想过有哪位表哥会注意到自己的美丽,帮助自己,到时候就算是乱伦也没有关系,可无论是存在于脑海幻想中的怎样的白马王子,始终不曾出现过……永远都不会出现了…… Because the mood in brain „will soon die” this fact becomes trembles, she prepared all thing, sat to the hot water, according to the father method poured into the small bowl the narcotics, 脑中的情绪因为“即将死去”这个事实而变得战栗,她准备好了所有的东西,坐到热水里,按照父亲的方法将毒品倒进小碗, Enters the syringe. Outside some people are knocking on a door, is looking for I not to speak for the father matter, is not willing to reply. Immediately will leave, she thinks why must disturb me to this time, but can also come to ridicule me? 入针管。外面有人在敲门,是为了父亲的事情在找I不愿意说话,不愿意回答。马上就会离开了吧,她想,为什么到这个时候还要来打搅我呢,还要过来嘲笑我吗？ The syringe shivers in the hand, is looking at the needle in hand, visits nearby fruit knife, after the injection, cuts the wrist/skill, these must do immediately, otherwise feels comes up, she will forget to shear, must remember. 针管在手中颤抖,望着手中的针,又望望一旁的水果刀,注射之后,划开手腕,这些一定要马上做,否则感觉一上来,她就会忘记割了,要记得。 Also at this time, outside gate „ka” opened, what resounds just now attracted everyone's that delightful female voice in the casino: „Has a look, knocks anything to knock, casual can come.” 也就在这个时候,外面的门“咔”的一声打开了,响起的是方才在赌场吸引了所有人的那个悦耳女声:“看看吧,敲什么敲,随随便便都能进来。” „Good, your fierce line, Yiting, Xu Yiting, in?” “好了好了,就你厉害行了吧,毅婷,许毅婷,在吗？” „Probably in inside.” “好像在里面。” During the speeches, hung the fashion females of seven color bead chains to appear in the bathroom entrance, is looking at the needle in her hand, nearby blade, selected the eyebrow actually attractively, blew a whistling, later, Yahan also walked. 说话间,挂着七彩珠链的时尚女子已经出现在了浴室门口,望着她手中的针,旁边的刀,倒是好看地挑了挑眉毛,吹声口哨,随后,雅涵也走了进来。 „You go out Ah!” Xu Yiting to have one of the weeping voice to shout, Yahan as if realized anything, pushes woman hastily: „She has not worn the clothes, you go out quickly! Go out! Yiting, you must do, do not do the stupid thing.” “你们出去啊！”许毅婷带着哭腔的一声喊,雅涵似乎意识到了什么,连忙推身边的女人:“她没穿衣服,你快出去！出去！毅婷,你要干什么,别干傻事啊。” „Must commit suicide, in her hand has the blade, can injure to your, making me come......” “是要自杀吧,她手上有刀,会伤到你的,让我来……” „Cannot injure me, you go out to me.” A foot kicks out Jiaming, Yahan in Xu Yiting close to bathtub, „Yiting, do not fear anxiously, anything will have solution, we will help you......” “伤不到我,你给我出去啦。”一脚将家明踢了出去,雅涵紧张地靠近浴缸中的许毅婷,“毅婷,别怕,什么事情都会有解决的办法,我们会帮你……” „Do not come!” Xu Yiting screamed one, took up nearby fruit knife, Yahan actually deeply inspired, put out a hand slowly: „All right, we will help you, was really all right, outside that Elder Sister you also saw, she fierce, has her, some people do not dare to blame your anything again, even Huang Family these people......” “你不要过来！”许毅婷尖叫一声,拿起了旁边的水果刀,雅涵却是深吸了一口气,缓缓伸手过去:“没事的,我们会帮你,真的没事了,外面的那位姐姐你也看到了,她有多厉害,有她在,不会再有人敢责怪你什么,就算黄家那些人……” She also studies has entered the time of naked sword empty-handed, therefore actually is not will be afraid Xu Yiting to hold very much with the blade, however will hear the Huang Family two characters, seeing only her will also be one weeps and wails, reversed the blade edge suddenly, punctured toward the own chest. 她也学过空手入白刃的功夫,因此倒不是很害怕许毅婷会拿刀捅过来,然而才听到黄家两个字,只见她又是一声哭喊,陡然间倒转了刀锋,朝着自己的胸膛刺了过去。 „Does not want!” Yahan yelled, throws fiercely. “不要！”雅涵一声大叫,猛地扑上。 Blood light suddenly/violently Zhanjian, the knife point pricks in the breast probably about one centimeter, however the right hand of Yahan had gripped the knife of fruit knife ruthlessly, time blood directing current. Suppressed the fierce ache, Yahan called one, strength emission, the fruit knife was thrown the rearward fiercely, she also fell the ground of bathroom. 血光暴绽间,刀尖刺入乳房之中大概有一厘米左右,然而雅涵的右手已经狠狠地握住了水果刀的刀身,顿时间鲜血直流。强忍住剧烈的疼痛,雅涵叫了一声,猛地发力,水果刀被扔向后方,她也跌坐到了浴室的地上。 „Sorry......” wept and wailed, in eye of Xu Yiting lightened the responsible look, took up that to inject the narcotic the syringe, then wanted to illuminate the chest to puncture again, however in the next quarter, only heard „ka ka” two, the severe pain to transmit, her both hands the female who was walked by side have drawn the dislocation directly, later, coming the person to seize a Xu Yiting long hair directly, her such direct drawing from bathtub. The body of young girl from the sky struggles, the water drop splash, seems like the dolphin that pulled out the water surface forcefully. “对不起……”一面哭喊,许毅婷的眼中一面闪出了负责的神色,拿起那注射毒品的针管,便想要再次照着胸膛刺下去,然而在下一刻,只听得“咔咔”两声,剧痛传来,她的双手已经被旁边走来的女子直接拉到脱臼,随后,来人已经直接揪住了许毅婷的一头长发,将她就那样从浴缸里直接拉了出来。少女的身体在空中挣扎,水珠飞溅,看起来就像是被强行拉出水面的海豚。 „Very sorry, disturbed you great ideal that wants to commit suicide.” “很抱歉,打搅了你想要自杀的伟大理想。” As before is the delightful female voice, resounds in this moment, the tone is actually absolute ice-cold, she seized Xu Yiting, then the stark naked young girl toward the room lira the past, Yahan will be frightened to crawl directly hastily from the ground, follows close in: „Why your you...... you must......” 依旧是悦耳的女声,在这一刻响起,语气却是绝对的冰冷,她揪住了许毅婷,便直接将赤身裸体的少女朝着房间里拉了过去,雅涵被吓得连忙从地上爬起来,紧跟而上:“你你你……你要干什么……” „You manage me to do! Now quickly looks for the gauze your palm hematischesis and wrap, these do not need me to teach you. Your idiot, had said I came!” “你管我要干什么！现在赶快找纱布把你的手掌止血、包扎,这些不用我教你吧。你个白痴,说过我来了！” „But, but......” “可是、可是……” Saw with own eyes Jiaming to reveal even in vicious the look compared with the casino, Yahan held the bruised and lacerated right hand to follow close on behind, threw the patten Xu Yiting, has not worn her to get down but actually, the female had blocked her throat single-handed, according to lifted on the wall her directly. 眼见家明露出了甚至比赌场中更凶狠的神色,雅涵捧着皮开肉绽的右手只是紧跟在后面,一把将许毅婷扔到墙脚,还没戴她倒下去,女子已经单手扼住了她的咽喉,将她按在墙壁上直接举了起来。 The ache and suffocation, Xu Yiting opens mouth sends out „Uh, uh......” the sound, the naked body from the sky struggles desperately, the white and tender both legs springing, Yahan frightens crazily hastily wants the arm of switchroom Jiaming, but where can play the least bit effect. 疼痛、窒息,许毅婷张开嘴发出“呃、呃……”的声音,赤裸的身躯在空中拼命地挣扎,白嫩的双腿疯狂地弹动,雅涵吓得连忙想要扳开家明的手臂,但哪里能够起到半点效果。 „Your you...... you will massacre her, will massacre her...... lets loose and lets loose quickly......” “你你你……你会杀掉她的,会杀掉她的啊……放开、快放开……” „I am helping her.” “我是在帮她。” „Lets loose......” “放开放开放开啊……” , The pressure on neck is gradually getting bigger and bigger, Xu Yiting opened the mouth, the tongue spat desperately, near the ear as if can hear the bone broken off sound, lower part of the body finally incontinence time, at present in the dim field of vision, is that Big Sister is still pretty nearly perfect image, whole body as if covers this halo that directed the person, that was she had fantasized the own image, however at present, the vision of opposite party actually nearly slights ten thousand years of cold ice. 渐渐的,颈上的压力越来越大,许毅婷张大了嘴,舌头拼命地吐了出来,耳边仿佛能够听到骨头都被折断的声音,下身终于失禁的时候,眼前朦胧的视野中,依旧是那位大姐姐靓丽得近乎完美的形象,全身上下都仿佛笼罩这一层引人的光环,那曾经是她幻想过的自己的形象,然而在眼前,对方的目光却冷淡得近乎万年的寒冰。 Wanted...... to be massacred by her...... 就要……被她杀掉了……
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