19 years later 十九年后 Late autumn, 深秋, The icy rain is continuous, 冷雨连绵, Youngster wooden sitting in the middle of the coffee shop, was staring at heavy traffic of out of the window, numerous noisy metropolises. 一个少年木然的坐在了咖啡店当中,凝视着窗外的车水马龙,繁闹都市。 Although he grips in the palm of cup to transmit intermittent nice and warm, but in the heart is actually an icy coldness 尽管他握住杯子的掌中传来一阵阵的暖热,可是心中却是一片冰凉 Why? 为什么呢？ Because bosom the check list of that hospital. 因为怀中的那一张医院的检查单。 Although the doctor was illustrating to the check list at that time time is equivocal, used many „doubtful”, „possible”, „not to remove” and so on glossaries, but side Linyan smelled a very ominous flavor. 虽然当时医生对着检查单解说的时候闪烁其词,用了诸多的“疑似”,“可能”,“不排除”等等词汇,但方林岩还是从中嗅出了一股非常不祥的味道。 Therefore, he then dialed the telephone, hit to a customer that understood the medical skill, had not said that was own check list, only said that was a friend, after he read check list inside content, customer very optional say/way: 所以,他接下来拨通了电话,打给了一位懂医术的客户,也没说是自己的检查单,只说是朋友的,等他将检查单里面的内容念完以后,客户很随意的道: „Lung cancer late stage, has not basically been saved.” “肺癌晚期,基本没得救了。” Then, in his mind on the entire blank the most hour, such standing in the roadside, does not know that finally how to go home. 然后,他的脑海里面就整整空白了大半个小时,就这么怔怔的站在了路边,最后都不知道怎么回家的。 When he recovers, detected that has stayed before the bed, both hands ice-cold, in the heart is also vacant. He arrived at downstairs coffee shop according to the custom, ordered one cup of coffee, then the brain restored the reason gradually. 等他回过神来的时候,发觉已经呆坐在了床前,双手冰冷,心中也是一片茫然。他按照习惯来到了楼下的咖啡店,点了一杯咖啡,然后大脑才渐渐的恢复了理智。 Suddenly, his strength from top to bottom seemed found time all of a sudden, fell on the ground all of a sudden, both hands closely covered the face, made the sound of sobbing: 忽然,他浑身上下的力气仿佛一下子被抽空了似的,一下子就跌坐在了地上,双手紧紧的捂住了脸,发出了呜咽的声音: „I do not want dead I am only 19 years old!” “我不想死我才十九岁啊！” Regarding side Linyan, this late autumn in November, is in the middle of his life crosses longest one month, first passed away with the family member who it was bound by a common destiny, then just got through the funeral, oneself were checked the lung cancer late stage. 对于方林岩来说,这个深秋的十一月,是他人生当中过得最漫长的一个月,首先是与之相依为命的亲人去世,然后刚刚办完丧事,自己就被查出来肺癌晚期。 Although side Linyan fully suffered the setback since childhood, the nerve has exercised enough tenaciously, but in the face of like this continual heavy losses, collapses directly, stayed for two days to recover consciousness in the rented room fully, but in the face of the big terrifying between life and death, he still met the intermittent temper tantrum. 尽管方林岩从小就饱受挫折,神经已经锻炼得足够坚韧,但在这样的连续重创面前,也直接崩溃掉,整整在出租屋里面呆了两天才缓过来,但在生死之间的大恐怖面前,他依然会间歇性的情绪失控。 However who is not such, drifting silently in the distant place, has to shout wildly occasionally weeps bitterly, the number was called the eruption to be rude upwards, finally cooled gradually, numb is clenching teeth to struggle in this indifferent world? 但是谁不是这样的呢,默默的漂泊在远方,偶有狂叫痛哭,朝天号叫爆发失态,最后还是渐渐冷却,麻木的在这冷漠的世间咬着牙挣扎？ The indifferent cold night icy rain cold reception, during this month, side Linyan suffered too many supercilious looks, bore the too tremendous pressure, he did not have to collapse thoroughly is the psychological quality was really intrepid, this world too strict was too rather thin to him, however he is still clenching teeth by the cockroach general was tenacious is supporting by hard and stubborn effort! 冷眼冷夜冷雨冷遇,这一个月当中,方林岩遭受了太多的白眼,承受了太大的压力,他没有彻底崩溃真的已经是心理素质强悍了,这世界未免对他太苛太薄,然而他依然咬着牙以蟑螂一般的顽强在硬撑着！ Separated a while, side Linyan stood, wiped the tear stains of corner of the eye, the deep breath several tones, readjusts own condition finally well. He coughed several, frowns tightly is suppressing the pain obviously, after looking at home, discovered half already the dried beef of some resurgences. 隔了一会儿,方林岩才重新站了起来,拭去了眼角的泪痕,深呼吸了几口气,总算是重新调整好了自己的状态。他咳嗽了几声,紧皱眉头显然是在强忍痛楚,在家里找了找以后,发现了半根已经有些回潮的牛肉干。 Although side Linyan the appetite does not have, but is clenching teeth to remain dried beef eating of bit by bit this. If some people in side, will think that side Linyan is frowning with the tooth tears food the appearance, like a wolf. 尽管方林岩一点儿胃口都没有,但还是咬着牙将这剩牛肉干一点一点的吃了下去。倘若有人在旁边的话,就会觉得方林岩皱着眉头用牙齿撕扯食物的模样,像极了一头狼。 Was compelled the dead end in the snowstorm, is actually still grinning to explode the hungry wolf of wool!! 在暴风雪当中被逼到了穷途末路,却依然龇着牙炸着毛的饿狼！！ Is wild, is the danger is fuller! 野性十足,更是危险十足！ In side Linyan the heart, is always always remembering a few words: 在方林岩的心中,始终铭记着一句话: These cannot kill our things, will only make us more powerful! 那些杀不死我们的东西,只会让我们变得更强大！ Finished eating behind the thing forest Yan to put out the cell phone to look, detected that the account a sum of money, just wanted to go out, suddenly is a fierce incomparable cough attack, making his rickets the body hold the wall all of a sudden, almost coughed to the five main internal organs (entrails) cough rendingly. 吃完了东西后方林岩拿出手机看了看,发觉到账了一笔钱,刚刚想要出门,猛然就是一阵剧烈无比的咳嗽来袭,让他一下子佝偻着身体扶着墙,咳得撕心裂肺几乎要将五脏六腑都咳出来。 Some little time, side Linyan pants for breath to set out, his corners of the mouth have the blood that obvious flows, covers in the middle of the palm of that hand was quiet, was blood-stained. He pulled a paper to erase the blood conveniently, took a medicine to oneself, then went out of the gate weakly. 好一会儿,方林岩才重新喘息着直起身来,他的嘴角已经有着明显流淌出来的鲜血,捂住嘴的那只手的手心当中,更是血迹斑斑。他随手扯了一张纸把血抹掉,给自己吃了一颗药,然后才虚弱的走出了门去。 *** *** The supermarket in corner is also opening now, but the space is having the light rain, the ice-cold raindrop mix cold wind falls on the body of person, there is a chill in the air of thorough marrow. Even if the person of opening an umbrella, is shrinking or the neck, step in a hurry. 街角的超市现在还开着,但天上下着小雨,冰冷的雨点混合冷风落在人的身上,有一种深入骨髓的寒意。哪怕是撑着伞的人,也是缩着头或者脖子,步履匆匆。 This path because of the quite remote reason, therefore the camera and electronic eye of installment has damaged, in addition here slum area, above attaching great importance to is insufficient, therefore the freight vehicles of many overload, transport/fortune the slag car unscrupulous speeding along from this road, exudes bang bang the loud sound sound, may be called batters, the road surface is the damage is also serious. 这条道路因为比较偏僻的缘故,所以安装的摄像头和电子眼早就损坏了,加上这里还是贫民区,上面的重视不够,所以很多超载的货车,运渣车就从这条路上肆无忌惮的飞驰而过,发出轰隆轰隆的巨响声,堪称横冲直撞,路面也是损坏严重。 side Linyan walked with the indifferent expression on the road, after five minutes , after arriving at the supermarket, started to purchase. 方林岩用漠然的表情走在了路上,五分钟以后来到了超市后开始采购。 „A big food barrel instant noodles box” “大食桶方便面一箱” „Vermicelli( near insurance promotion) ten jin (0.5 kg)” “挂面(临保促销)十斤” „Dried beef one bag( diet supplements)” “牛肉干一袋(补充营养)” „Thick bean sauce one package( surface seasoning)” “豆瓣酱一包(面调料)” „” “” Can look, these things that side Linyan purchases, is in order to eats to the full to buy radically, is he so why economical? Is because before , gives to adopt own Uncle Xu to treat an illness, making funeral arrangements time, but also borrowed many foreign loans, adds to have hundreds of thousands numerous. 看得出来,方林岩采购的这些东西,根本就是为了能吃饱而买的,为什么他这么节省呢？是因为之前给收养自己的许叔治病,办丧事的时候,还借了不少外债,林林总总加起来有十几万。 Although side Linyan the childhood, the youngster period passes very poverty-stricken, in the heart has vicious tendencies, when his outlook on life formation, comes under the honest sincere Uncle Xu's influence very deep. 方林岩虽然童年,少年时期过得很是困苦,心中有着一股戾气,可是在他人生观成型的时候,受到老实诚恳的许叔的影响很深。 Therefore in his time heart has one to hold to read, even if oneself had the incurable illness really incurable, must pay off the debt before dying. In addition before this time side Linyan , the boss is a stingy person, this is he so economical reason. 所以他此时心中有一个执念,哪怕自己得了绝症真的不治,也要在死前把债还清。加上此时方林岩之前遇到的老板是个铁公鸡,这就是他如此节省的原因。 After the thing that fast will need buys is uneven, side Linyan then takes the thing to plan that the register paid, but he thought at this time suddenly some belly pains, then went to the washroom in supermarket. 快速将自己需要的东西买齐之后,方林岩便提着东西打算去收银台买单了,不过这时候他忽然觉得有些肚子痛,便去了超市的洗手间。 Came out after the restroom, on outside washing the hands stage that very natural arrives at washes the hands, under normal conditions, the directly opposite of washing the hands stage is a mirror, the convenient customer handles own correct manners discipline. 从厕所出来了以后,很自然就来到的外面的洗手台上洗手,通常情况下,洗手台的正对面就是一面镜子,方便顾客打理一下自己的仪容。 The pale light projects from the above, washing the hands stage here nobody left, after side Linyan washes the hands, routine patted the face to stimulate with the cold water, this was he goes to work be used to it that in the repairing a vehicle factory several years formed. 惨白的灯光从上方投射下来,洗手台这里空无一人,方林岩洗了手以后,又习惯性的用冷水拍了拍脸来提神,这是他在修车厂里面上班几年形成的习惯了。 However, when he raised the head looks to the opposite mirror, he suddenly all of a sudden feels the whole body to be icy cold, an indescribable frightened feeling covered whole body instantaneously!! 不过,就在他抬头望向对面镜子的时候,他陡然一下子就觉得浑身冰凉,一股无法形容的恐惧感觉瞬间就笼罩住了全身上下！！ Originally, side Linyan has not seen own face in the mirror! 原来,方林岩并没有在镜子里面看到自己的脸！ Originally should be the place of mirror, is covering one group of thick black fog vortex unexpectedly! Not only so, stretched out one from the vortex unexpectedly fully is the palm of scar blood, one held side Linyan the neck, ruthlessly drew toward the front him. 本来应该是镜子的地方,竟是笼罩着一团浓密的黑色云雾漩涡！非但如此,从漩涡当中竟是伸出了一只满是伤痕鲜血的手掌,一把就抓住了方林岩的脖子,狠狠的将他朝着前方拉了过去。 side Linyan only thought that on the neck the held place transmits a blazing severe pain, looked like by the iron came up to the brand mark simply! He from top to bottom is nerveless, strength that or accurate, he has in the front of blood-color palm basic on ability of no resistance. 方林岩只觉得脖子上被抓住的地方传来一阵炽热的剧痛,简直就像是被烙铁给烙印了上去似的！他浑身上下更是毫无力气,或者准确的来说,他拥有的力量在血色手掌的面前根本就毫无反抗的能力。 When side Linyan the face will soon hit that group of black fog vortex, he suddenly discovered that in the middle of the vortex presented a crazy blood red eyeball, that eyeball seems like digs unexpectedly from the eye socket, around the eyeball also has the scarlet organization of vestiges, inside filled the blood threads. 就在方林岩的脸即将撞到了那团黑色云雾漩涡的时候,他忽然发现漩涡当中出现了一只疯狂的血红色眼球,那只眼球看起来竟然是从眼眶里面生生挖出来似的,眼球周围还有残余的猩红色组织,里面充满了血丝。 But the profound pupil as if has huge attraction, side Linyan the look with a it contact, had one type to mount the clouds and ride the mist immediately the dizzy feeling, then the whole person lost the consciousness directly, anything did not know. 而深邃的瞳孔仿佛带有巨大的吸引力似的,方林岩的眼神与之一接触,立即就生出了一种腾云驾雾天旋地转的感觉,然后整个人就直接失去了意识,什么都不知道了。 *** *** Also has not known how long, side Linyan thought suddenly a chest fierce incomparable stabbing pain, the whole person twitched immediately, restored in the middle of the dizziness. 也不知道过了多久,忽然方林岩觉得胸口一阵剧烈无比的刺痛,整个人顿时抽搐了一下,在天旋地转当中恢复了过来。 Then he detected that oneself still stood before the washing the hands stage, his big mouth panted for breath several, swallowed saliva, looked all around, actually detected the palm of no blood-color scar, no thick black fog vortex, had nothing eye that filled the blood threads. 然后他发觉自己依然站在了洗手台前,他大口的喘息了几声,咽下了一口唾沫,环顾四周,却发觉没有什么血色伤痕的手掌,没有什么浓密黑色云雾漩涡,也没有什么充满血丝的眼睛。 Pale light that the sound that the peaceful washroom, front the Water Dragon the surface water drops, on the top of the head projects temperately, oneself maintained both hands to support on the washing the hands stage posture, is staring at the front mirror, as if before experienced is completely an illusion! 只有安静的洗手间,水龙头里面水滴落下来的声音,还有头顶上面温和投射下来的惨白灯光,自己保持着双手撑在了洗手台上的姿势,凝望着前面的镜子,仿佛之前经历的完全就是一场幻觉！ side Linyan is at a loss stayed a while, then went out of the entrance to raise the shopping basket to plan that the register paid, but after he went out of the washroom, immediately was shocked, because he saw impressively this inside staff have started to tow to tidy up the shelf. 方林岩迷惘的呆了一会儿,然后走出了门口提起了购物篮打算去收银台买单,但他走出了洗手间以后顿时愣住,因为他赫然看到了这里面的工作人员已经开始拖地收拾货架了。 This common matter, actually represented this time almost to be close 9 : 30, because the supermarket was ten o'clock closes, to get off work on time, these sales clerk shopping guide must certainly clean ahead of time. 这寻常的一件事,却代表着此时已经差不多接近九点半了,因为超市是十点钟关门啊,为了准时下班,这些售货员导购肯定是要提前打扫的。 But, side Linyan actually remembers clearly, oneself are 7 : 30 goes out. Because leaves, in the entrance sales store television is broadcasting the weather forecast of ccav, from own family/home to supermarket, even if will be the walk not over 20 minutes, oneself coming in supermarket will also never stroll, according to the thing on list bought walked, then oneself in washroom 可是,方林岩却记得清清楚楚的,自己是七点半出门的。因为离开的时候,门口的小卖部电视里面正在播放ccav的天气预报,从自己的家到超市哪怕是步行也不会超过二十分钟,自己进来超市也从来不逛,根据清单上的东西买了就走,那么自己在洗手间里面 Stayed was close for one -and-a-half hours!! 足足呆了接近一个半小时！！ Such secretive matter, made on side Linyan the back the fine body hair stand upside down all of a sudden. 这样诡秘的事情,一下子就让方林岩的脊背上寒毛都倒立了起来。 „This is impossible!” “这这不可能！” If oneself real both hands supported on the washing the hands stage stood for one -and-a-half hours, then in the supermarket person had examined, at least now does not see own aloof face. 自己若真的双手撑在洗手台上站了一个半小时,那么超市里面的人早就来查看了,至少不会一副现在看到自己无动于衷的面孔。 In did this -and-a-half hours, actually have what? 这一个半小时内,究竟发生了什么？