Chapter 674 good start 第674章好的开始 Beirrogo changed that serious appearance, as if did not have the matter to affect him, like one efficient ice-cold, the machinery of named expert. 伯洛戈又变回了那副严肃的样子,仿佛没有事能影响到他,如同一台高效冰冷的、名为专家的机械。 Knows that he not really indifferent, on the contrary, Beirrogo is a sentimental fellow. 艾缪知道他不是真的冷漠,相反,伯洛戈是个多愁善感的家伙。 She listens to Beirrogo to tell Adele's story, are not many regarding the number of times that story Beirrogo mentioned, the content was not detailed, but can see the eye of Beirrogo, when telling that story, in eye of Beirrogo sparkling. 她听伯洛戈讲过阿黛尔的故事,对于那段故事伯洛戈提及的次数并不多,内容也不详细,但艾缪能看到伯洛戈的眼睛,在讲那段故事时,伯洛戈的眼里闪闪发光。 Beirrogo will rarely reveal that soft side. 伯洛戈很少会露出那柔软的一面。 When with the Irwin final farewell, thought that an indifferent person will not write such result, do not say an indifferent person, will not choose to save itself. 与厄文最后的告别时,艾缪觉得一个冷漠的人是不会写出那样的结局,更不要说一个冷漠的人,是不会选择拯救自己。 Thought that Beirrogo has the strong mood, but this person is not good at expressing this mood, therefore he is always cold the face, often to work with expert and other excuses, comes to extricate for oneself, volcano that probably seems like the deathly stillness. 艾缪觉得伯洛戈具备着强烈的情绪,只是这个人不善于将这股情绪表达出来,所以他总是冷着脸,常以工作与专家等说辞,来为自己解脱,像是一座看似死寂的火山。 Beirrogo has been maintaining such attitude life, left behind a fissure until Irwin on his firm atrium, but Beirrogo also tries to increase the fissure, and even destroys the shackles thoroughly. 伯洛戈一直保持着这样的态度生活,直到厄文在他那坚固的心房上留下了一道裂痕,而伯洛戈也试着将裂痕变大,乃至彻底打碎桎梏。 After detecting these, realized suddenly oneself can make anything for Beirrogo. 在察觉到这些后,艾缪忽然意识到自己可以为伯洛戈做些什么了。 What a pity has no way to install to be drunk. 可惜没法装醉。 Thinks, the alcoholic intoxication is a very good excuse, letting everyone the words that usually could not say, complete saying, but did not drink, Beirrogo was so. 艾缪想到,醉酒是个很好的借口,让大家把平常说不出的话,完完全全的说出来,可艾缪不喝酒,伯洛戈更是如此。 „What expert stance aren't you because, really willing to drink?” “你真的是因为什么专家姿态,不愿喝酒吗？” Narrowed the eye, is sizing up Beirrogo carefully, Beirrogo does not understand how she raised these suddenly, spoke thoughtlessly on the bypass, „drank after a period of time, me swore off afterward.” 艾缪眯起了眼睛,仔细地打量着伯洛戈,伯洛戈不明白她怎么忽然提起这些,随口应付道,“喝过一段时间,后来我戒掉了。” „When?” “什么时候？” „Becoming a soldier time, during that time I almost will whenever there is time drink wine, sometimes will also take some spirit classes the medicine,” Beirrogo has not stated clearly, „some stimulants, only by doing so, we can maintain the high degree of concentration lasted several hours, only then this can lull us the fear to the death.” “当兵的时候,那段时间我几乎一有时间就会饮酒,有时候还会服用一些精神类的药物,”伯洛戈没有明说,“一些兴奋剂,只有这样,我们才能保持高度集中长达几个小时,也只有这样才能麻痹我们对死亡的恐惧。” „Later is the first year work, during that time my state of mind was very bad, is good passes because of all.” “之后就是第一年的工作,那段时间我的精神状态很糟,好在一切都过去了。” Asked, „un...... you are not willing to drink, was afraid itself to reveal bad side?” 艾缪问道,“嗯……你不愿意喝酒,是害怕自己露出糟糕的一面吗？” Beirrogo has not replied, he thinks, possibly is very difficult to go to admit others completely, like said when must try the heart repeat shadow, own resistance. 伯洛戈没有应答,他想,可能是自己很难去完全地接纳他人,就像艾缪说要试试心迭影时,自己的抗拒。 This is not Beirrogo dislikes others, is more like...... him to dislike itself, Beirrogo will not have the courage real to show to others. 这并不是伯洛戈讨厌别人,更像是……他在讨厌自己,伯洛戈没有勇气将真实的自己展现给其他人。 Noble person. 高尚的人。 In the Beirrogo mind flashes through such thought that how he himself cannot comprehend should become such person, can only put on shackles to oneself, even before close relative's person, is not willing to take off. 伯洛戈的脑海里闪过这样的念头,他自己也搞不懂该如何成为那样的人,只能给自己套上一个又一个枷锁,即使在近亲的人面前,也不愿意脱下。 „You give my feeling, is very strange, Beirrogo.” “你给我的感觉,很怪,伯洛戈。” „Where strange?” “哪里怪？” „Very is sometimes warm , is sometimes very indifferent, the done person cannot find out the mind.” “有时候很热情,有时候又很冷漠,搞的人摸不清头脑。” Deep breath, since wants to conquer a mountain, first you must have the courage of climb, she is controlling the expression, said, „...... now hot and now cold, I will often feel, I annoyed you to be angry.” 艾缪深呼吸,既然想要征服一座高山,首先伱要有攀登的勇气,她强控制着表情,说道,“就……忽冷忽热的,我时常会觉得,我是不是惹你生气了。” Beirrogo replied decisively, „not, no.” 伯洛戈果断地回答道,“不,没有。” Follows up a victory with hot pursuit, „why can that like this?” 艾缪乘胜追击,“那为什么会这样呢？” These days the change of Beirrogo she watches, the limit of but by the Beirrogo personal ability making, said in other words the joke, wish let his about one step, under interference without external force, simply is fantasy story. 这段时间伯洛戈的改变她有看在眼里,但以伯洛戈个人能力所做的极限,也就是说说笑话而已了,想要让他更近一步,在没有外力的干涉下,简直是天方夜谭。 „Why......” “为什么……” Beirrogo thought deeply, until now he has not realized significance that and he talked, only treated as the normal discussion, and seriously pondered. 伯洛戈深思了起来,直到现在他也没有意识到艾缪和他对话的意义,只当做正常的讨论,并且认真思考了起来。 About after one minute, Beirrogo opens the mouth to say. 大约一分钟后,伯洛戈开口道。 „, I do not excel at the public relations.” “艾缪,我并不擅长社交。” Anticipates the Beirrogo later words. 艾缪期待伯洛戈之后的话。 „Exchange between person and person, compared with difficult that I imagine, compared with these, I am good at speaking with the sword, but I also know, this matter is avoidless, sooner or later must attempt.” “人和人之间的交流,比我想象的要难,比起这些,我更擅长用刀剑说话,但我也知道,这种事是无法避免的,迟早要尝试的。” Beirrogo was saying stopped, regarding this matter, his accidental/surprised earnestness, each some seriously was pondering, cannot find out an accurate answer how. 伯洛戈说着又停了下来,对于这件事,他意外的认真,每一句都有在认真思考,奈何想不出一个准确的答案。 „Friend of mine are not many.” “我的朋友并不多。” „Continue.” “继续。” „Therefore I care about your ideas very much, perfect that as far as possible I will display.” “所以我很在意你们的想法,我会将自己表现的尽可能完美。” „When you and Palmer together not this.” “但你和帕尔默一起时可不这样。” Looked at eye cheering Palmer, he projected the value of being possible be called the miracle, gorilla that the exciting resembles only wins the spouse power. 艾缪看了眼欢呼的帕尔默,他又投出了一个堪称奇迹的数值,兴奋的像只获得配偶权的大猩猩。 „I said when right, you and Palmer together relaxes very much, delivers some words carelessly, watches some movie carelessly together , because you can admit him? Said, you do not care about him, therefore doesn't care about his view?” “我说的没错吧,你和帕尔默一起时很放松,讲些胡乱的话,一起看些胡乱的电影,是因为你更能接纳他吗？还是说,你并不在意他,所以也不在意他的看法？” Tries to talk becomes thorough, in the look had/left several points of cunning appearance, like only finds out the small fox of thick patch of grass. 艾缪试着将谈话变得深入,神色里多出了几分狡黠的模样,像只探出草丛的小狐狸。 „No, I do not care about Palmer, but he does not need me seriously to treat,” Beirrogo said, „we are the friends, how we relate again intimately, throughout distance, but that distance cannot fill. That is Worthy position.” “不,我并不是不在意帕尔默,只是他并不需要我认真对待,”伯洛戈说,“我们是朋友,我们关系再怎么亲密,始终有一段距离,而那段距离并不是能填补的。那是沃西琳的位置。” Beirrogo is reorganizing own language, at this time he discovered that own mouth is very stupid, detected that this, she is thinking that were somewhat excessive. 伯洛戈整理着自己的语言,这时他发现自己嘴很笨,艾缪也察觉到了这点,她在想自己是不是有些过分了。 „A room, everyone lives in the different rooms, if needed sways back and forth in the living room together, when but the door shuts tightly, no one can go into your world- except for person who that you can admit truly.” “一间屋子,大家住在不同的房间里,需要时就一起在客厅打滚,但当房门紧闭时,就无人能闯入你的世界-除了那个你真正能接纳的人。” „Therefore?” “所以？” „Therefore Palmer is my roommate, in various significances, is together with him, I will not worry that he rushes in my world.” “所以帕尔默就是我的室友,各种意义上,和他相处,我不会担心他闯进我的世界里。” Beirrogo was saying looked, he is frowning, in the eye thoughts constantly welling up, have not drunk obviously, on the face is actually hanging anxiety feeling after an alcoholic intoxication. 伯洛戈说着看向了艾缪,他皱着眉头,眼睛里思绪万千,明明没喝酒,脸上却挂着一种醉酒后的愁苦感。 „I do not know how should treat you, I do not excel at the public relations, do not say with the opposite sex.” “我不知道该怎么对待你,我不擅长社交,更不要说与异性。” „You and pays respects Liliao is also very good?” “那你和拜莉聊的也很好啊？” „You determined what I and she chatted was very?” “你确定我和她聊的是很好吗？” If unnecessary, Beirrogo will be will not respond pays respects Li absolutely, even said that meets by chance that will also detour. 如非必要,伯洛戈是绝对不会搭理拜莉的,甚至说偶遇了也会绕路走的那种。 Seeing the Beirrogo response is so intense, cannot bear smile, then the polite talk said that „why? Is because you do dislike her?” 见伯洛戈反应如此强烈,艾缪忍不住笑了笑,接着套话道,“那为什么？是因为你讨厌她？” „It is not repugnantly.” “也算不上讨厌。” „That similarly is the opposite sex, why you can live in peace together with her, will be now hot and now cold to me?” “那同样是异性,为什么你能和她和平相处,对我却会忽冷忽热呢？” Without Beirrogo replied, strikes while the iron is hot, „am I different to your significance?” 没等伯洛戈回答,艾缪趁热打铁,“难道我对你的意义不一样？” Beirrogo as before is that cool appearance, mentioned own idea, has not answered issue. 伯洛戈依旧是那副面不改色的模样,自顾自地说起了自己的想法,没有去回答艾缪的问题。 „Sometimes you more care about a thing, you will more worry that the view of opposite party, will become cautious, more will be wants to make itself become perfect.” “有时候你越在意一个东西,你越会担心对方的看法,越会变得拘谨,越是想要令自己变得完美。” Beirrogo asked that „ before you, became very cautious, because of what? Relations unfamiliar? I thought that we are very at that time ripe, was the good brothers of risking one's life. 伯洛戈反问道,“你之前就变得很拘谨,又是因为什么呢？关系的生疏吗？我觉得我们当时已经很熟了,都算是出生入死的好兄弟了。 What you care about? ” 那你是在意什么呢？” Beirrogo suddenly counter-attacks, made is caught off guard. 伯洛戈忽然的一记反攻,弄的艾缪措手不及。 Such that just like Beirrogo said that how cared about Beirrogo to regard her very much, therefore she tried hard to study, improved diligently, in the action of crisis, demonstrated own value diligently, this point and this time Beirrogo were so similar. 正如伯洛戈所言的那样,艾缪很在意伯洛戈怎样看待她,所以她努力学习,努力变好,在危机的行动中,努力展现自己的价值,这一点和此时的伯洛戈如此相似。 Bursts out laughing, does not know that should say anything, her surface is seemingly uneventful, in fact the facial expression is about to lose control. 艾缪哑然,不知道该说些什么,她表面看起来风平浪静,实际上面部表情已经快失控了。 Two people seem like the scholar same, is discussing the strange issue seriously. 两个人像是学者一样,一本正经地讨论着奇怪的问题。 Beirrogo has not stated clearly, but felt oneself attain the answer that oneself wanted, Beirrogo also cares about himself, therefore he will become such strange, now hot and now cold, because he does not know that should should do. 伯洛戈没有明说,但艾缪觉得自己拿到了自己想要的答案,伯洛戈同样在意自己,所以他会变得这么古怪,忽冷忽热,因为他也不知道该如何是好。 Yes, Beirrogo seems like that is a non- dead, but calculates carefully, the years that he passed through actually link for 30 years not to arrive, do not say overwhelming majority time are killing. 是啊,伯洛戈看似是一位不死者,但仔细算去,他实际度过的岁月连三十载都未到,更不要说其中绝大部分的时间都是在打打杀杀。 Beirrogo experienced many matters, the heart is equally harder than the iron stone, may his barren the picture desert in the emotion, even if there is seed to fall, he does not know how should maintain. 伯洛戈经历了许多事,心比铁石一样硬,可在情感上他贫瘠的像片沙漠,哪怕是有种子落下来,他也不知道该如何养护。 Enters in face conceals the shadow, she thought that this topic works, is easy to lose control. 艾缪把脸庞藏进阴影里,她觉得这个话题进行下去,容易失控。 „You can be more interesting, Beirrogo, for example the spoken language, leaves always that icily, serious and earnest appearance.” “你可以更有趣些的,伯洛戈,比如言语,别总是那副冷冰冰的、严肃认真的样子。” This point suggested sincerely, a just dialogue, she thought she seems like listening to the test report of Beirrogo. 这一点艾缪诚心建议,刚刚的一段对话,她觉得自己像是在听伯洛戈的实验报告。 „I do not like like this, no cornerstone of determination relations, the optional spoken language will make me feel that...... feels......” “我不喜欢这样,没有任何确定关系的基石,过于随意的言语会让我觉得……觉得……” Beirrogo does not know how suddenly should describe that feeling, he heard another to cheer. 伯洛戈一时间也不知道该怎么形容那种感觉,紧接着他听到了又一声欢呼。 Serez stepped in the table, is ridiculing Palmer loudly, he lucky, finally welcomed the misfortune. 瑟雷一脚踩在了桌子上,大声嘲笑着帕尔默,他幸运了一宿,终于迎来了厄运。 „I felt, I will turn into Serez that appearance, I do not want to turn into such,” Beirrogo said, „I am very high to my request.” “我觉得,我会变成瑟雷那副样子,我不想变成那样,”伯洛戈说,“我对自己的要求很高。” Said, „does not have some bold actions, you again how sincere, the relations are also difficult to continue to advance, not?” 艾缪说,“可是没有一些大胆的举动,你再怎么真挚,关系也难继续推进,不是吗？” Beirrogo silent, from beginning to end his expression not too big change, but can see the look that he shivers, probably is fleeing is the same, everywhere drifting away. 伯洛戈沉默了下来,至始至终他的表情都没有太大的变化,但艾缪能看到他颤抖的眼神,像是在逃离一样,四处游离着。 This somewhat seems to be difficult to Beirrogo, is hard to break the paradox that like one. 这对伯洛戈而言似乎有些难,像一个难以打破的悖论。 Did not have the sound, after crossing for a long time, she long sighs, put out a hand to pat the shoulder of Beirrogo. 艾缪没了声息,过了好久后,她长叹了一口气,伸手拍了拍伯洛戈的肩膀。 „At least this is a good start.” “至少这是个好的开始。”