Chapter 13 silent eruption: Seeks the change 第13章沉默中的爆发:寻求改变 So-called 【Changes itself, the world will change】 This matter, is impossible. 所谓的【改变自己,世界就会随之改变】这种事,是不可能的。 The people cannot see the true self of reality. Only can see wants to look reality that wants to have. 人看不到现实的本来面目。只能看到想看的、想拥有的现实。 The so-called reality is just idee fixe and already saves the impression. 所谓的现实只不过是固定观念和既存印象而已。 Therefore when seeking change person, from the beginning is then wrong, has made what kind of effort, is unable to change the reality the fixed pattern, the world still toward a directional rotation, own growth nothing but crawled in Pyramid of world a high position. 所以在寻求变化之时的人,一开始便是错误的,无论是做出了怎么样的努力,都是无法改变现实的固定格局,世界依然会朝着一个方向转动,自己的成长无非是在世界的金字塔中爬到了较高的一个位置罢了。 Similar to several thousand students in institute is ordinary, as one, arrives at the end diligently is also only first, but becomes first does not represent the school not to need to exist, or the surrounding person who will disappear, will not be changed in the impressions of other people by own disposition, is just obtains to award, for a while is prominent, and about not past and in the future. 如同在一个学院中的数千名学生一般,作为其中的一员,努力到尽头也只是第一名,但是成为第一名并不代表着学校不需要存在,或者周围的人谁会消失,也不会让自己的性格在其它人的印象中改变,只不过是得到褒奖而已,一时显赫,并左右不了过去与未来。 However, Arthur still wanted to change itself. 但是,亚瑟仍然想要改变自己。 Even if he in the Kirigaya Yuu's world, but is ‚progress’ existence, perhaps is the community of benefit. 即使他在桐谷优的世界之中,只不过是‘上进者’的存在,或许是利益的共同体。 Even if he regarding «Parasyte» this world, merely is a traveler, how to struggle again also the pattern of being incapable reformation of the world. 即使他对于《寄生兽》这个世界来说,仅仅是个过客,再怎么挣扎也无力改变世界的格局。 After all, he purely is hoping change, changes the present situation, exerts a small gear on world the wheel of huge destiny, is unable to change the entire world, only needs to change itself. 毕竟,他只是单纯地希望着自己改变,改变现况,在世界的巨大命运之轮上施加一个小的齿轮,无法改变整个世界,只需要改变自己就可以。 To put it bluntly, the thought of person will only tend to the advantageous matter, before cannot the reformation of the world, the person only be able to change itself, then knew that wrongly the world changed. 说白了,人的思想只会趋向于对自己有利的事情,在没能改变世界之前,人只能改变自己,然后错误地认识世界已经改变。 Arthur that the train of thought flutters about is extremely calm, perhaps he thought that oneself stands in a proposition high angle like this regards the world, has not been considered as that ‚human’, however he while pondering this present situation, was in itself ordinary human. 思绪纷飞的亚瑟极度地冷静着,或许他觉得自己这样站在一个命题较高的角度看待世界,已经不算是‘人类’了,然而他在思考这种现况的同时,本身就是普通的人类。 This perhaps is 这或许是 Spirit the one self- narration of lacking in vigilance. 麻痹精神的一种自我叙述。 How not to matter. 无论怎么样都无所谓。 Now, he is only thinking changes itself, from the beginning, the general innermost feelings are envying Kirigaya Yuu's that valiant choice, but this just he regarding her excessive cognition, today's dialog allows him to understand that actually she is also only an ordinary young girl, but had calmly some in the crucial time. 现在,他只想着改变自己,一开始,大概内心是羡慕着桐谷优的那种飒爽的抉择,但其实这只不过他对于她过度的认知,今天的对话让他了解到她也只是一个普通的少女,只是在关键的时刻有了一些从容。 Therefore, the mood that at this moment he wants to stiffen should more tend to the urgent idea of own soul, wants to obtain to change oneself destiny the strength. 所以,此刻他想要变强的心情应该更多是趋向于自己灵魂的迫切想法,想要去获得改变自己命运的力量。 The dense fog that his pasts, parents as well as the real status, this layer upon layer wrapped, making his soul shiver, human can the flying, then as a result of the curiosity instigator, he want at all not because of Kirigaya Yuu that grow stronger, because of him. 他的过去、父母以及真实的身份,这层层包裹的迷雾,令他灵魂颤动,人类能够飞天,便是由于好奇心的始作俑者,他想要变强的根本不是因为桐谷优,而是因为他自己。 Dá...... Dá...... Dá...... 哒……哒……哒…… The step of under foot becomes more and more lively, even can say the condition of dashing. 脚下的步伐变得越来越轻快,甚至可以说得上飞奔的状态。 Like this ran advance Arthur to see his first match finally, was a woman, about 30, palm color office lady office small suit wrapped tightly incomparably the body of curve feeling, although looked at not the clear face, but vaguely can feel that outline was very exquisite, seemed the water-drop curve is lithe to make people feel comfortably. 这样奔跑前进的亚瑟终于看到了他的第一个对手,是一个女人,年龄在30岁左右,棕榈色的OL办公室小西服将曲线感的身躯包裹得紧实无比,虽然看不清晰脸庞,但是依稀能够感觉那种轮廓很是优美,仿佛是水滴般的曲线般轻盈得让人感觉到舒服。 However 但是 How in the air the elegant crimson color makes here world see that is this woman is not in tune. 空气中飘逸的绯红色彩使得这里的世界怎么看都是和这个女人不搭调的。 Generally, in the impression of average person, what is not normal is the world? 一般情况下,普通人的印象中,不正常的是世界吧？ However, in the Arthur's thought that not normal should be this woman. 但是,在亚瑟的思维中,不正常的应该是这个女人。 The women are very graceful wiped cleanly own lip with handkerchief, dark square beam column sleeve beautiful has covered her behind thing, in the darkness, is unable to see the after body of this curve, had what kind of scenery. 女人很是优雅的用手帕擦干净了自己的嘴唇,黑暗的四方梁柱体完美的遮盖了她身后的事物,黑暗之中,更是无法看到这曲线美的身躯后拥有怎样的风景。 „Can such quick integration world, really be different races......” “能够这么快的融入世界,真得算是一个异类……” Hidari( left hand) revealed that his surprised, he has not thought will really have understood like this human behavior the parasite exists, generally, won't definitely mind the blood of mouth? 小左（左手）表露出了自己的惊讶,他也没有想到竟然会有这样了解人类行为的寄生生物存在,一般情况下,肯定不会介意嘴边的鲜血吧？ „Really is the interesting discovery, I also think that similar, has not thought that is the parasitic failure...... A very good research individual, whether to make me leave? Although wants to study your structure under very much, but I ate to the full, moreover such good source material destruction easily extremely has wasted......” “真是有趣的发现呢,我还以为是同类呢,没有想到是寄生失败的……很棒的一个研究个体,可否让我离开呢？虽然很想研究下你们的构造,但是我已经吃饱了呢,而且这么好的素材轻易的破坏太过浪费了……” The women have not released to kill intent, the idea of as if not having fought. 女人并没有释放出杀意,似乎并没有战斗的想法。 Arthur has not seen the parasitic bodies of other complete parasitism after last night, therefore is unable to determine whether all parasites will make this manner after ‚eating to the full’, but his very clear this is absolutely impossible, Hidari just also had said that she is the different races. 亚瑟在昨夜之后没有见过其它完全寄生的寄生体,因此无法判定是否所有的寄生生物在‘吃饱’之后都会做出这种态度,但是他非常清楚这是绝对不可能的,小左刚刚也说过了,她算是异类。 „Can fight? Arthur?” “要战斗么？亚瑟？” Hidari was inquiring the Arthur's wish. 小左询问着亚瑟的意愿。 „Un......” “嗯……” Arthur will not be flinching at this moment. 亚瑟并不会在此刻退缩的。 „This cannot leave behind you......” “这样的话就不能够留下你们了……” The head of woman starts to split instantaneously, the hair and face twist instantaneously, the elongation, turned into the bright blade in the end. 女人的脑袋瞬间开始分裂,头发与脸部瞬间扭曲,伸长,在尽头变成了明亮的刀刃。 „This fellow...... Has two shapes...... Has been careful......” “这家伙……有两种形态……小心了……” Hidari simultaneously elongates to start to attack woman. 小左同时伸长开始进攻起女人。 Suddenly, in the entire space, sharp blade fast flashing, splits open, but little Mars made the entire space fill an inconceivable twinkle. 一时间,在整个空间之中,锋利的刀刃快速的闪动,迸裂而出的一点点火星令整个空间弥漫上了一层不可思议的闪烁。 Quick, Hidari then fell the leeward condition. 很快,小左便落到了下风的状态。 Has two women of attack shapes, making Hidari be hard to resist 拥有两种攻击形态的女人,使得小左难以招架 „Arthur, was sorry, must use that( to refer to Spiritual Energy)...... Otherwise we must be defeated here, even if uses that also can only put together equally matched with her, remaining must think yourself......” “亚瑟,抱歉了,现在必须使用那个（指精神能量）了……不然我们要在这里覆没了,即使使用那个,也只能与她拼个不相上下,剩下的要看你自己了……” Hidari was saying used Spiritual Energy, the speed and strength promotes instantaneously, gradually followed the rhythm of woman. 小左说着使用上了精神能量,速度与力量瞬间提升,逐渐跟上了女人的节奏。 „Has not thought that you have card in a hand, the strength of impossible promotion, your strength should, only then these...... Is the body of this human?” “没有想到你还有着底牌,不可能提升的实力,你的力量应该只有刚才的那些啊……难道是这个人类的身体？” The women had detected instantaneously Hidari's change, she was also surprised, in she thinks under situation that oneself must win, had the accident unexpectedly. 女人瞬间发觉了小左的变化,她也同时惊讶了起来,在她认为自己必胜的情况之下,竟然出现了意外。 „Moves...... Moving...... Gets up......” “动……动……起来……” Endlessly is thinking a moment ago still how to change own Arthur, during fell into murderous aura of woman to be scared instantaneously, the both legs as if were frozen generally, is unable to lift to take a step. 刚才还在喋喋不休地想着如何改变自己的亚瑟,瞬间陷入女人的杀气恐慌之中,双腿仿佛被冰冻上了一般,无法抬起迈步。 ...... This is really laughable! 啊……这还真得是可笑呢！ human above seeking way of change, but also follows the way of self- destruction, the so-called pursue change, is eliminates oneself lifestyle actually one manner, sometimes the excessive distortion pursue, perhaps is the heavy package. 人类在寻求改变的途径之上,还伴随着自我毁灭的途径,所谓的追求改变,其实也是消灭自己生存方式的一种态度,有时候过度的扭曲追求,或许是沉重包裹。 Just like that famous saying 正如那句名言 Does not erupt in the silence, died in the silence. 不在沉默中爆发,就在沉默中死亡。 The two sides of world line have the birth and death, regardless of which direction is the way of change. 世界线的两边有着生与死,无论哪个方向都是改变的途径。 Then, does he want to do? 那么,他要怎么做呢？ Suddenly, perhaps from the one force of soul, eyes gradually crimson Arthur brandishes the iron rod in hand 蓦然之中,或许是来自于灵魂的一种强迫,双眼渐渐绯红的亚瑟挥舞起手中的铁杆