Many people will feel, the white hair, is actually not ugly, even, according to the aesthetic appreciation of later generation, a man white hair, so long as he is not the senile appearance, will look will also feel some makings, there is an unusual beauty. 很多人会觉得,白发,其实并不难看,甚至,按照后世的审美,一个男人白发,只要他不是老态龙钟的样子,看起来还会觉得有些气质,有一种异样的美。 When previous life Zheng Fan draws manhua, likes portraying the character with this method very much, thought that this way can quickly and highlights the role effectively the makings. 上辈子郑凡画漫画时,就很喜欢用这种方法去塑造人物,觉得这种方式可以很快且有效地凸显出角色的气质。 Furthermore, later generation because of popularity of various dyeing, therefore people regarding the different color hair, the receptivity are very often high. 再者,后世因为各种染发的流行,所以人们对于不同颜色的头发,接受程度往往很高。 But this time South Pacifying Marquis, 但此时的靖南侯, His white hair, 他的白发, Only presented a misery, was a sorrow of grief, was one type, ruined that late autumn is unable to build. 只呈现出了一种凄凉,是一种哀莫大于心死的悲哀,是一种,深秋都无法营造出来的破败。 What makings, what image, what these these, are unable to describe that this saw in the past alarmed. 什么气质,什么形象,什么这些那些的,都无法去形容这一眼看过去后的惊心。 The chest of Zheng Fan seems like by a stone is stopped up, stops up solid. 郑凡的胸口像是被一块石头堵住,堵得严严实实。 For a long time, facing Tian Wujing, Zheng Fan continuously just right „performance” oneself. 很长时间以来,面对田无镜时,郑凡都一直是在恰到好处地“表演”自己。 With the affectionate daily family activity of high-rank, does not pass the moment, actually cannot be unfamiliar, the laughter scolded shouts, making him feel that you were his person, and made him know, you also understood the discretion very much. 和上位者的亲昵家常,不逾矩,却又不能生疏,嬉笑骂嚷间,让他觉得你是他的人,且让他知道,你还很懂得分寸。 But at this point, Zheng Fan has not hidden, is disinclined or feels not to need, Zheng Fan is not clear, he proceeded several steps, then looked to the threshold, 但在此时,郑凡没有去隐藏,是懒得去还是觉得没必要,郑凡不清楚,他只是往前走了几步,然后看向门槛后面, After a little while, 少顷, Said: 道: „Marquis?” “侯爷？” Marquis replied very much calmly: 侯爷很平静地回答: „She fell asleep.” “她睡着了。” In the Marquis look, cannot see sadly, not disorderly , there is nothing hysteric, he is very quiet, but this tranquility, before actually quietness like volcanic eruption. 侯爷的眼神里,看不出悲伤,也没有凌乱,更没有什么歇斯底里,他很平静,但这种平静,却如同火山喷发前的静谧。 If neglects a night of white drop hair, he original oneself, has not as if had any change. 如果忽略掉一夜白掉的头发,他似乎还是原来的自己,没有发生过任何变化。 But Zheng Fan is clear, the sorrow of some people are, 但郑凡清楚,有些人的悲哀就在于, He is extremely strong, is extremely powerful, this is not the mask on his oneself face, because the mask has fused together with the face of oneself. 他太过坚强,太过强大,这已经不是他自己脸上的面具,因为面具已经和自己的脸融为一体。 Sorrowful, when lies in you wants to express the sadness of oneself, you have forgotten, how should do. 悲哀,在于你想去表达自己的哀伤时,你已经忘了,该如何去做。 You can only so sit on the threshold, sits one. 你只能这般坐在门槛上,一坐一宿。 You that mood, the glass had had the body of oneself early, you thought that oneself this whole life will not use its day again, you thought that you, is only a burden. 你已经将那种情绪,早早地玻璃出了自己的身体,你觉得自己这辈子都不会再用到它的那一天了,你觉得那于你而言,只是一种累赘。 But you have not expected, in afterward some day, you will discover that oneself compared with needs it at any time. 但你没有料到,在后来的某一天,你会发现自己比任何时候都需要它。 It can tell you, is cries, is yells, goes angrily, but being insufficient made you seem like one just the learned to walk to the front piece of confused disturbed child is the same, handled no use and not. 它能告诉你,是去哭,是去叫喊,还是去愤怒,而不至于让你像是一个刚学会走路对前方一片迷茫忐忑的孩子一样,无助、无措。 Even, your side person, does not know how should comfort you, no one dares to comfort you. They have been used to you not to need, has been used to you to stand in ten thousand people of beforehand forms. 甚至,你身边的人,都不知道该如何去安慰你,也没人敢去安慰你。他们已经习惯了你的不需要,也已经习惯了你站在万人之前的身影。 You with this world, are the isolation, a suffocating isolation. 你和这个世界,是隔绝的,一种让人窒息的隔绝。 Tian Wujing puts out a hand, was incurring to Zheng Fan. 田无镜伸手,对着郑凡招了招。 Trades to be others, facing this time Tian Wujing, has possibly knelt fearful and apprehensive got down or escapes flurriedly ; 换做其他人,面对此时的田无镜,可能已经胆战心惊地跪了下来或者慌乱地逃开; After all, angry lion really not situated in the fearfulness that the lion of angry edge comes, god knows after bearing patiently the extreme, violent anger it, what kind of response will make. 毕竟,一头愤怒的狮子真的没有一头处于愤怒边缘的狮子来的可怕,天知道隐忍到极点之后,暴怒的它,会做出怎样的反应。 Zheng Fan walked, 郑凡走了过去, Tian Wujing has not spoken, 田无镜没有说话, Zheng Fan has not spoken. 郑凡也没有说话。 In this position, in Zheng Fan sees to put a coffin. 在这个位置,郑凡看见里面放着一口棺材。 Tian Wujing continues to sit there, 田无镜继续坐在那里, Zheng Fan hesitant, does not dare to lift the foot to walk. 郑凡犹豫了一下,还是没敢抬脚走进去。 The atmosphere, here, stagnated. 氛围,在这里,是凝滞了的。 Finally, Zheng Fan deeply inspires, to Tian Wujing slowly single knee. 终于,郑凡深吸一口气,对着田无镜缓缓地单膝跪了下来。 Tian Wujing leans the face, looks at has knelt in oneself front Zheng Fan. 田无镜侧过脸,看着跪在自己面前的郑凡。 Two people look in the eyes ; 二人四目相对; A boundless pressure engages in factional strife to come to Zheng Fan, that is carefully examining from soul level, the invisible in pressure, making Demon Pill in Zheng Fan chest start to tremble slightly. 一股磅礴的压力向郑凡倾轧而来,那是一种来自灵魂层面的审视,无形之中的威压,让郑凡胸口里的魔丸都开始微微发颤。 Was ready for any sacrifice. 豁出去了。 Zheng Fan clenches teeth, 郑凡咬了咬牙, Said directly: 直接道: „Marquis, I want to know Mistress, how dead!” “侯爷,我想知道夫人,到底是怎么死的！” „She fell asleep, she and others I came back is too long, first rested.” “她只是睡着了,她等我回来等太久了,就先睡了。” You are very difficult to imagine, Tian Wujing will say this words. 你很难想象,田无镜会说出这种话。 At this time, what do you need to make to him? 在这个时候,你需要对他做什么？ If he is not Tian Wujing, you can throw basin cold water to him, you can shout abuse to him, you even can go forward a palm of the hand to pull out awake he. 如果他不是田无镜,你可以对他泼一盆冷水,你可以对他破口大骂,你甚至可以上前一巴掌抽醒他。 But because just he is Tian Wujing, others do not dare, 但正因为他是田无镜,其他人不敢, Zheng Fan, 郑凡, Also does not dare. 也不敢。 Because of the Emperor new clothes, only then Emperor puts on, can play the effect. 因为皇帝的新衣,只有皇帝来穿,才能起到效果。 Zheng Fan opens mouth slowly, 郑凡慢慢地张开嘴, Each a few words that he speaks now, likely causes in next moment, the head of oneself to be smashed by a Tian Wujing fist. 他现在说的每一句话,都很可能导致在下一刻,自己的脑袋被田无镜一拳砸烂。 Demon Pill, is unable to prevent. 魔丸,根本无法阻止。 But Zheng Fan felt, oneself should say anything, should attempt to make anything. 但郑凡觉得,自己应该说些什么,应该尝试去做些什么。 The rural area others make funeral arrangements to manage the liquor, the relations will also locate the good neighbor relative to pass spontaneously 1-2 days ahead of schedule, help work. 农村人家办丧事办酒,关系处得好的邻居亲戚也会自发地提前一两天过去,帮忙做事。 Is this is doing? 这是在作死么？ Yes, 是吧, Does. 作死。 Zheng Fan opens the mouth saying: 郑凡开口道: „Marquis ......... child ......... child ......... child .........” “侯爷………孩………孩………子………” Zheng Fan can clearly detect that the tooth of oneself is trembling, the speech is also off and on. 郑凡能够清楚地察觉到自己的牙齿在哆嗦,说话也断断续续的。 He in the wire walking, under the body, is ten thousand zhang (3.33 m) cliff. 他在走钢丝,身下,是万丈悬崖。 Before had to pass through the steel wire, but that was to pursue some benefit, but now, really does not attempt anything, really does not want to ask anything. 以前不是没走过钢丝,但那是为了追求某种利益,而现在,真的不图什么,也真的不想去求什么。 Zheng Fan thought that oneself is not so for a long time pure, 郑凡觉得自己好久都没这么纯粹了, Does purely. 纯粹地作死。 Tian Wujing looks at Zheng Fan, 田无镜看着郑凡, This time looks, 这次的看, Before different. 和之前不一样。 Beforehand Tian Wujing, no matter innermost feelings how, but, the vision is at least tranquil, but now, in his vision, has the clear mood. 之前的田无镜,不管内心如何,但至少,目光是平静的,而现在,他的目光里,却带着清晰的情绪。 He is restraining, 他在克制, He has been restraining, 他一直在克制, A volcano, 一座火山, Has been restraining the eruption of oneself, 一直在克制着自己的喷发, But what very unfortunately is, 而很不巧的是, Zheng Fan words, 郑凡的话语, Must the beforehand all restraints, the revolutions vanish into thin air shortly. 眼看就要将之前的一切克制,都转化为乌有。 Zheng Fan lowers the head, 郑凡低下了头, At heart actually direct horizontal, 心里却直接横下来, Paralysis, 麻痹的, Does dies greatly does dies greatly, 作大死就作大死吧, Your Tian Wujing has rescued father several lives in any case, is really not good gives back to you again! 反正你田无镜救过老子几次命,实在不行就再还给你！ „ Marquis, Mistress walked, does this matter check, you must give a truth! “侯爷,夫人走了,这事儿到底查不查,您总得给个准话！ Also or Marquis you have actually begun to materialize, but must ask you to give a truth! 又或者侯爷您心里其实已经有了眉目,但更要请您给个准话！ Words that Marquis you do not check ......... ” 侯爷您不查的话………” „You how?” “你怎样？” „I ......... my oneself, father several lifetime adds not to become the father, have an expectation with great difficulty, now he, the father has not been convinced bewilderedly!” “我………我他妈的自己查,老子几辈子加起来都没当过爹,好不容易有个盼头,现在他莫名其妙地没了,老子不服气！” At this point, 说到这里, Zheng Fan raised the head simply, breathing heavily, the sound is getting higher and higher, nearly shouts: 郑凡干脆抬起头,喘着粗气,声音越来越高,近乎喊道: „ Has the suspicion grasps to examine, has the clue to make one to check, inside and outside, with screen over one round, one round of two rounds, has not believed that such a big matter, it can a clue not have. “有嫌疑的抓来审,有线索地就叫人查,上上下下里里外外,都拿个筛子过一轮,一轮没有就两轮,就不信,这么大的一件事儿,它会一点线索都没有。 No matter what, cannot like Marquis you, sit now shouted here Mistress rested! 不管怎么样,都不能像侯爷你现在这样,坐在这里喊夫人睡了！ Marquis, you are a man, I have admired you, but you this appearance, really makes the subordinate look down upon now. 侯爷,您是爷们儿,我一直敬佩您,但您现在这个样子,真的让属下瞧不起。 The greatly old man, the pregnant wife was harmed, you are sad like mad that are should, to live on the edge to follow the wife and children to go, can understand, but at least, must wait to wipe the neck hatred/enemy report again! ” 大老爷们儿,身怀六甲的媳妇儿被人害了,你伤心得要死要活那是应该,要寻死觅活跟着去妻儿去,也能理解,但最起码,得等把仇报了再自个儿抹脖子吧！” Roars these, 吼完这些, Zheng Fan thought that oneself was crisp, 郑凡觉得自己爽了, Sent crisply greatly. 爽大发了。 After ending crisply, is only left over void, dies dies. 爽完之后就只剩下空虚,死就死吧。 After the Zheng Fan words saying, here fell into silent. 当郑凡话说完后,这里陷入了沉默。 Tian Wujing puts out a hand slowly, the Zheng Fan body shakes, 田无镜缓缓地伸出手,郑凡身子一抖, The hand of Tian Wujing, held the shoulder of Zheng Fan. 田无镜的手,抓住了郑凡的肩膀。 Zheng Fan is waiting for the oneself shoulder by the crumb, but no. 郑凡在等待着自己肩膀被捏碎,但没有。 Tian Wujing has turned head, looked at an behind coffin, 田无镜回过头,看了一眼身后的棺材, Said: 道: „Helps me the child, looks.” “帮我把孩子,找回来。” „Child?” Zheng Fan was shocked. “孩子？”郑凡愣住了。 „Cuckoo was used the sword, pierced the belly.” “鹃子是被人用剑,刺穿了肚子。” „That .........” “那………” „I inspected the cuckoo child body, discovers on her belly, there are another has sutured opening.” “我检查了鹃子身子,发现她肚子上,有另外一条缝合过的口子。” „This .........” “这………” „Cuckoo before on Heavenly Tiger Mountain, the child, had, but in mansion, without child.” “鹃子在上天虎山前,将孩子,生了下来,但府里,没有孩子。” The brain of Zheng Fan is somewhat chaotic, is not, this...... what's the matter! 郑凡的脑子有些乱,不是,这……到底是怎么回事！ „Marquis, Mistress, why does Mistress want on Heavenly Tiger Mountain?” “侯爷,夫人,夫人为什么要上天虎山？” Accidental/Surprised birthplace, in Heavenly Tiger Mountain. 意外的发生地,在天虎山。 This is also the place that Zheng Fan most is puzzling, ordinary citizens will think on Marquis Mistress Heavenly Tiger Mountain to give expedition Marquis outside naively pray. 这也是郑凡最百思不得其解的地方,寻常百姓会天真地认为侯爵夫人上天虎山是为了给远征在外的侯爷祈福。 But who Du Juan/cuckoo is, she is that type ordinary only knows woman who seeks help from gods and Buddhas? 但杜鹃是谁,她是那种普通的只知道求神拜佛的女人么？ Why she must leave Marquis Residence, goes to Heavenly Tiger Mountain outside Litian City? 她为何要离开侯府,去历天城外的天虎山？ And, 而且, Very possibly before climbing mountains, 很可能在上山前, She first had the child forcefully. 她先强行将孩子生了下来。 The woman who just produced, oneself cuts open the belly sutured the woman to oneself, actually can still climb mountains? 一个刚刚生产完的女人,一个自己给自己剖腹缝合了的女人,却依然要去上山？ Why? 为什么？ In the ancient times did not have Caesarean birth subject, but ancient midwife, will really have at the child difficult labor, preserve big preserve small decided to guarantee the hour, takes out child's method the pregnant woman belly incision with the blade or the scissors. 古代是没有剖腹产这个科目的,但古代的接生婆,也确实会有在孩子难产,保大保小决定保小时,会用刀或者剪子将孕妇肚皮切开取出孩子的法子。 Du Juan/cuckoo is not the common woman, she has cultivation base, but that pain...... 杜鹃不是寻常女人,她有修为,但那种痛苦…… Therefore, she is clearly knows that oneself could die, therefore first gives birth to the child, she climbs mountains, for seeking death? 所以,她是明知道自己可能会死,所以才先将孩子生下,她上山,是为了求死？ „The grandfather in palace, came, stops over in Heavenly Tiger Mountain.” “宫中的太爷,来了,落脚在天虎山。” Zheng Fan hears this saying, the brain immediately „buzz humming sound” crack. 郑凡听到这话,脑子当即“嗡嗡嗡”炸响。 In the Yanjing imperial palace in that palace that grandfather in officials mouth, he has also heard, that grandfather is qi refiner, long ago to rescue the previous sovereign whole family is injured, the body is incomplete, later has lived in the deep palace, teaches the method of court eunuches qi refining, Wei Zhonghe, is that grandfather's apprentice. 燕京皇宫内那位宫中宦官们口中的那位太爷,他也听说过,那位太爷是一位炼气士,早些年为了救先皇一家子受了伤,身体残缺,之后一直住在深宫之中,传授太监们炼气之法,魏忠河,也是那位太爷的徒弟。 Great Yan Secret Intelligence Department, inside has the foreigner, there is qi refiner, on outwardly, the one who controls Secret Intelligence Department is Wei Zhonghe, but in the true sense, Secret Intelligence Department leader in fact, is that grandfather. 大燕密谍司,里面有番子,也有炼气士,明面上,掌控密谍司的是魏忠河,但真正意义上,密谍司实际上的首领,是那位太爷。 Tian Wujing said slowly: 田无镜缓缓道: „I thought this whole life, the heart will not be painful, but I was wrong.” “我原以为这辈子,心都不会再痛了,但我错了。” Some Zheng Fan ignorant say/way: 郑凡则有些浑浑噩噩道: „Then said that yes, yes, is Your Majesty .........” “那么说,是,是,是陛下………” Was Sovereign of Yan insane? 燕皇疯了么？ Started in the heir of this time to South Pacifying Marquis, how he thought! 在这个时候对靖南侯的子嗣下手,他怎么想的！ Tian Wujing shakes the head, 田无镜摇摇头, „ Does not know, but that grandfather does not come to here, cuckoo, she will not climb mountains. “不知道,但那位太爷不来这里,鹃子,她不会上山。 I sit wait here, this marquis waits here on for day, when he descends the mountain, when he comes, when he, to a this marquis view. ” 我坐在这里等,本侯在这里等上一天,等他下山,等他过来,等他,给本侯一个说法。” „If...... if he...... doesn't descend the mountain?” “如果……如果他……不下山呢？” Hears this issue, 听到这个问题, Tian Wujing replied very much calmly: 田无镜很平静地回答道: „That South Pacifying Army called ......... Calamity Pacifying Army.” “那靖南军就叫………靖难军吧。”