The war...... might end. 战争……也许就要结束了。 This diary, perhaps is my final diary. 这个日记,也许是我最后的日记。 I am born in small community, I...... do not know reason that I am born, is who makes me be born, why must make me be born, I all do not know. 我是在一个小群体里诞生的,我……不知道我诞生的理由,是谁让我诞生的,为什么要让我诞生,我全都不知道。 I only know, since I have the memory at that moment, I am forced to put on the equipment, goes to the battlefield, then kills the enemy furiously. 我只知道,从我有记忆起那一刻,我就被迫穿上装备,踏上战场,然后奋力杀敌。 Our enemies...... are our similar, another community, nearby here everywhere is such community, all communities are keeping attacking each other. 我们的敌军……是我们的同类,另外一个群体,这里附近到处都是这样的群体,所有的群体都在不停地互相攻击着。 This is the fight that will not cease, that time I have not thought of this point, is only thinking how to go on living, at that time...... also was really quite laborious. 这是一场不会停息的战斗,那时的我还没想到这一点,只想着怎么样活下去,那时……还真是相当的辛苦。 My community is not big, even is quite small and weak, but our commanders disregard this point, the director we rushes unceasingly, with the community battle that we are more powerful. 我的群体并不大,甚至比较弱小,但我们的指挥官无视这一点,不断地指挥我们冲上去,与比我们强大的群体交战。 In the exceptionally fierce fight, I lived, but by the enemy community to the captive, this community had not been cared about me to kill their companions, they make me put on the equipment, fights for them. 在异常激烈的战斗中,我活了下来,不过已经被敌方群体给俘虏,这群体没有在意我曾经杀死过它们的同伴,它们让我穿上装备,为它们而战。 Then, I went to the battlefield again. 就这样,我再次踏上了战场。 I do not like the battlefield, if possible, I want never to fight, but such means the death, must therefore fight. 我并不喜欢战场,可能的话,我想永远不要战斗,但那样意味着死亡,所以必须要战斗。 A time...... once again. 一次……又一次。 I killed many heteromorphous lifeform, killed innumerable similar, from initial knowing what to do, to gradually adapted finally. 我杀死了许多异形生物,也杀死了无数的同类,从最初的不知如何是好,到最后慢慢适应了下来。 Why? I am thinking unceasingly this issue, why does need to kill so many similar? Why can fight? 为什么？我不断想着这个问题,为什么要杀死那么多同类？为什么要战斗？ The reason that I discover is only...... to go on living. 我唯一发现的理由就是……为了活下去。 Community that I am, also becomes in the fight more and more huge, recruits the captive unceasingly, increases the quantity, sweeps away the surrounding all communities. 我所在的群体,也在战斗中变得越来越庞大,不断地吸收俘虏,增加数量,横扫周围的所有群体。 At this time, I also understood how finally we are born, I discovered that for the first time we had ‚sex’ the division, therefore we can make the descendant. 在这个时候,我也总算了解我们是怎么诞生的,我第一次发现我们原来有‘性别’之分,所以我们能制造出后代。 But these descendants, will be the same with me, was just arriving at this world. Also is at a loss the incomparable time must become the recruit to go to the battlefield. 而这些后代,也会和我一样,在刚来到这个世界。还迷惘无比的时候就要成为新兵踏上战场。 But they me were better, to be at least born in powerful community. 但它们比我好一些,至少出生在一个强大的群体之中。 I do not want the descendant, because I do not think that they...... a birth like me must fight. 我没有想拥有后代,因为我不想它们像我一样……一出生就要战斗。 We destroy completely these small and weak communities continually, uses their corpses as the food. Becoming by oneself more and more powerful, but I also lived in the innumerable field battles, how I learned to distinguish the small and weak individual of opposite party to kill them rapidly, but opposite party these powerful, and my equally experienced individual. I will leave our here recruits it. 我们持续地灭掉那些弱小的群体,以它们的尸体为食。让自己变得越来越强大,而我也在无数场战斗中活了下来,我学会了怎么分辨对方的弱小个体并迅速杀死它们,而对方那些强大,和我一样有经验的个体。我则会把它留给我们这边的新兵。 Let them use the quantity to win, possibly the recruit will therefore die, but doesn't matter, so long as can win well. 让它们用数量取胜,可能新兵因此会死很多,但没有关系,只要能赢就好。 So long as can win...... the war to finish. 只要能赢……战争就会结束。 I think that at that time, kills the enemy unceasingly, making the surrounding community vanish one after another, finally, we could not have found any small and weak community in the surroundings. 我那时就是这么想的,不断地杀敌,让周围的群体一个接一个地消失,最后,我们在周围已经找不到任何弱小群体。 The war ended, we won. 战争结束了,我们胜利了。 Because has no enemy, we do not need to fight. I do not need to kill the enemy, I can have the descendant finally...... 因为已经没有任何敌军,我们再也不需要战斗。我再也不需要杀敌,我总算能有后代…… Will the peace soon arrive......? 和平即将到来了……吗？ Indeed, the peace continued...... the little time. 的确,和平持续了……一点点时间。 After this short past, the dispute started again, at first happened because of disappearance of commander. 在这短暂的过去后,纷争再度开始了,最初是因为指挥官的消失而发生的。 The commander disappears, at that time I also on the scene, it vanished in my front suddenly, I felt quite surprisedly. 指挥官不见了,那个时候我也在场,它就这么突然消失在了我的面前,我感到相当惊讶。 But however, making me feel what is more surprised, the adjutants of these commanders. Why unexpectedly not the surprised commander disappears, but presented to compete for the position of commander immediately mutually. 而然,让我感到更惊讶的是,那些指挥官的副官。居然不惊讶指挥官为什么消失,而是立即就在场互相争夺起了指挥官的位置。 I...... do not understand how at that time completely they think, but other surroundings companion, because also supports the different adjutants to start the battle to get up mutually. 我那时……完全不明白它们是怎么想的,而周围别的同伴,也因为互相支持不同的副官而开始争斗起来。 This battle is getting more and more fierce. Finally caused once the huge community to start...... divide. 这场争斗越来越剧烈。最后导致曾经庞大的群体开始……分裂。 Huge incomparable community, after that battle on divided and became many small communities, the dispersion everywhere, was maintaining very strong hostility mutually. 一个庞大无比的群体,在那次争斗之后就分裂成了许许多多的小群体,分散四处,互相保持着很强的敌意。 All, returned to the zero point. 所有的一切,又回到了原点。 I also therefore to some small community , the companion of this community they, because respects my rich fight experience therefore to follow me. Simultaneously also several...... like my opposite sex. 我也因此到了某个小群体之中,这个群体的同伴它们因为崇敬我那丰富的战斗经验因此想追随我。同时还有几个……喜欢我的异性。 But I do not want to fight...... ‚want to go on living’ this reason already the mood that is unable to prevent me to give up fighting. 但我已经不想战斗了……‘想活下去’这个理由已经无法阻止我要放弃战斗的情绪。 I used that accompanying me experience the innumerable field battles the weapon to aim at me, I must finish all these. 我用那把陪伴我经历无数场战斗的武器对准了我自己,我要结束这一切。 But, I actually cannot make next, I have met the innumerable dangers in the battlefield, this makes me think that I do not fear the death, in fact actually exactly opposite. 可是,我却没能做出下一步,我在战场遇过无数危险,这让我以为我早已不惧死亡,实际上却恰好相反。 The extreme fear to death, making me give up the idea of suicide, but...... do I also want to continue to fight? 对死亡的极度恐惧,让我放弃了自杀的想法,但是……我还要继续战斗下去吗？ The answer is...... 答案是……是的。 I must continue to fight, is not because I want to fight, because I felt at that time...... had anything...... to neutralize me to talk in my brain probably directly. 我要继续战斗下去,不是因为我想战斗,而是因为我那个时候感觉到了……好像有什么东西……直接在我的脑中和我对话。 It said that...... wants me to continue to fight, wants me to become this arises from division the commander of small community, leading them to fight. 它说……要我继续战斗下去,要我成为这个分裂出来的小群体的指挥官,带领它们战斗。 So long as fights again at the last minute, can welcome the true peace, after that can cross forever far away from the life of fight. 只要再次战斗到最后一刻,就能迎来真正的和平,在那之后,就能永远地过着远离战斗的生活。 In this flash, I saw my ‚in the future’, lies on the comfortable soft bed, is enjoying food of delicacy, looks that these descendants play the noisy chase mutually...... 在这一瞬间,我看到了自己的‘未来’,躺在舒适柔软的床上,享受着美味的食物,看着那些的后代互相玩闹追逐…… This is the future that I want! 这就是我所想要的未来！ I must fight......, because had the new reason, I want that future, I have wanted on that peaceful life! 我要战斗……因为有了新的理由,我要那种未来,我要过上那种和平的生活！ Therefore, I must kill off all dare to prevent before me similar...... at that time, I think that this mood is quite strong, I have no doubts. 因此,我要杀光所有敢阻挡在我面前的同类……那个时候,我就是这么想的,这种情绪相当强烈,我也没有任何疑惑。 Therefore, I start to become the commander, directs our communities to attack other community, kills off them, connects the capitulant, looks like beforehand such. 于是,我开始成为指挥官,指挥我们的群体去袭击别的群体,把它们杀光,把投降者接入,就像是以前那样。 That thing in my brain...... has then been helping me, said how I should do, how should assign the equipment, whom should make be the adjutant, moreover asked me with the recruit do not have exchange outside any order. 我脑中的那个东西……接下来一直都在帮助我,说我该怎么做,应该怎么分配装备,应该让谁来当副官,而且也叫我不要和新兵有任何命令以外的交流。 I...... complied, said, I had not suspected actually at that time unexpectedly...... our equipment from where comes. 我都……照做了,说起来,我那时候居然没有怀疑……我们的装备究竟是从哪来的。 I experienced the innumerable field battles again, again step by step climbs up the peak from small and weak community. 我再次经历了无数场战斗,再次一步一步的从一个弱小的群体爬上巅峰。 But this time, I thought that I became more and more powerful, because before not having, that being at a loss, has a clear goal. 但这次,我觉得我变得越来越强大了,因为没有了以前那种迷惘,有着一个明确的目标。 In order to pursue this goal, I periphery once was the companion or am not a companion all similar almost killed off. 为了追求这个目标,我将周围曾经是同伴或者不是同伴的所有同类几乎杀光。 I become a commander of giant community, I saw that because without the opponent again, but peaceful scene, I also know, this maintained was very not long. 我成为了一个巨大群体的指挥官,我再次看到了那因为没有对手而和平的景象,我也知道,这维持的不是很长。 This time, I know the commander who vanishes will change into me, after I disappeared, the community that I command should start like before the dispute. 这次,我知道消失的指挥官会换成我,在我消失了之后,我所统领的群体应该会开始像之前那样纷争吧。 Adjutant who because, I choose although loyal in me, but their relational difference. 因为,我挑选的副官虽然忠诚于我,但它们互相之间的关系都十分的差。 They must experience a fight again, but I do not use, therefore I did not care at all to them. 它们要再次经历一场战斗,但我不用,所以我对它们毫不在意。 I am going to greet not to have the war, peaceful future...... 我将要迎接没有战争的,和平的未来…… I at that time, felt that the surrounding scenery was changing instantaneously, the change later appears before me is not that stretch of familiar rock open land, but is a narrow space. 我在那个时候,感到周围的景色在瞬间变化了,变化之后出现在我面前的不是那片熟悉的岩石荒地,而是一个狭窄的空间。 The ground is the metal constitution, on the two sides walls covered entirely the complex crowded mechanism. 地面是金属构成的,两边的墙壁上布满了复杂密集的机械结构。 I have not looked at such place, but I do not feel strange, moreover I can call the names of many things. 我从来没看过这样的地方,但我却不感到奇怪,而且我能叫出许多东西的名字。 I in this place advance that is full of the physical construction, wanders, I discover here quite greatly, but nothing will be...... I in has looked in ‚the future scene’. 我在这个充满机械构造的地方前进,游荡,我发现这里相当的巨大,但没有任何东西是……我在‘未来景象’里看过的。 All these although specially, but my point does not care, I want to know, actually I will fight bravely that long future where? Here? 这一切虽然特别,但我一点也不在意,我只是想知道,我为之奋战那么久的未来究竟在什么地方？这里又是哪？ When I think, it greeted me. 当我这么想的时候,它来迎接我了。 Is that continuously in the brain with the thing that I talked over the telephone, it is representing here, but this did not say that it was here ruler anything, but yes...... 就是那个一直在脑中与我通话的东西,它代表着这里,但这不是说它是这里的统治者什么的,而是…… It is here it. 它就是这里的本身。 This huge mechanical environment, has one ‚will’, this will showed a lot to me. 这一个庞大的机械环境,有着一个‘意志’,这个意志向我说明了很多事情。 It said, is it makes us fight, it has been controlling our war, under its control specially, the war will never finish. 它说,是它让我们这么战斗的,它一直在控制着我们战争,在它的特意操控之下,战争是永远不会结束的。 Even because finished accidentally/surprisingly, it will still make the war start again. 就算是因为意外结束,它也会让战争再度开始。 Why I asked it, it has not told me the reason. 我问它为什么,它没有告诉我理由。 It indicated, it will come to the belt/bring to here these community commanders of victory, like me now this. 它表示,它会把战争胜利的那些群体指挥官给带到这里来,就像我现在这样。 Can that these commanders, escape from the war? 那这些指挥官,能够脱离战争吗？ It said that...... can be separated temporarily. 它说……可以暂时脱离。 Then it closed/pass me, closed/pass in a narrow and small space. 然后它就把我关了起来,关到了一个狭小的空间之中。 This space is constituted by the metal, just like other place, does not have the soft bed, does not have the chase to play the noisy descendant, although will supply food fixed time, but is actually unpalatable very much. 这个空间由金属构成,和别的地方一样,没有柔软的床,也没有追逐玩闹的后代,虽然会定时供应食物,但却很难吃。 This and I saw at that time, completely different...... 这和我当时看到的,完全不同…… I do not know how...... must do. 我已经不知道……到底要怎么做了。 But I have not committed suicide, but such live. 但我并没有自杀,而是就这么活着。 It to me was still saying that more things, told me to have about its matter. 它还在向我说更多的事情,告诉我更多有关于它的事情。 This will, gives my feeling to seem like one ‚god’, it has been controlling us, is watching our pain. 这个意志,给我的感觉就好像是一个‘神’,它一直控制着我们,观赏着我们的痛苦。 But then I discovered, it is not ‚god’, but is the thing that...... we make. 可接下来我才发现,它并不是‘神’,而是……我们制造出来的东西。 Environment that this entire machinery composes, we fight with equipment, all...... is we make. 这整个机械组成的环境,我们战斗用的装备,还有所有的一切……都是我们自己制造的。 This matter makes me feel shocking, but it has not given me any shocking time, because it then said that...... must fight. 这件事情让我感到震惊,但它没有给我任何震惊的时间,因为它接着就说……要战斗了。 My fight had not ended, the object but who this time with the similar fight, I do not fight, demonstrates in my present three-dimensional picture. 我的战斗还没有结束,只不过这次并不和同类战斗,我要战斗的对象,显示在我眼前的立体画面之中。 That is one...... is covered with the fur white spheroid, it is flying outside, strikes to kill my companion. 那是一颗……长满绒毛的白色球体,它在外面飞行着,击杀着我的同伴。 I do not have the opportunity to ask that is anything, I will also go to the battlefield. 我没有机会问那是什么,我也将踏上战场。 Can this time, live?( ~ ~) 这次,能否活下来呢？(~~) ps: Thank ~ continuous rain yu xiao ~ hitting enjoyed ~ ps:感谢~霖肀咲~的打赏~ Thank ~ view book knowing and doing ~ engineering technician ~ monthly ticket ~ 感谢~观书知行~工程技术员~的月票~