IHHH :: Volume #6

#561: 4 th

Zhang Ya...... 张雅…… Read her name silently, what making Chen Ge indistinctly somewhat anxious was, he has not gotten any response. 默默念出她的名字,让陈歌隐约有些不安的是,他没有得到任何回应。 Turned head toward to look at one behind, the dim light of night was jet black, the surroundings did not have one to lighten the light, therefore he could not see oneself shadow. 扭头朝身后看了一眼,夜色漆黑,周围没有一点亮光,所以他根本看不见自己的影子。 „Are you doing?” The men discovered that the Chen Ge manner is somewhat strange, said in a low voice: „Your complexion seems like not quite good.” “你在干什么？”男人发现陈歌行为举止有些奇怪,低声说道:“你的脸色看起来不太好。” „I the first time am heard suicide intervention operator this occupation, what do you need to make every day?” Chen Ge has also seen the person of great storms, he adjusts the good condition immediately, changes the topic. “我是第一次听到自杀干预接线员这个职业,你们需要每天做什么？”陈歌也是见过大风大浪的人,他立刻调整好状态,岔开话题。 „The world every year about 1 million people commit suicide, this number goes far beyond the murder, but this topic because frequently the shame and silence, rarely enter the public eyes, what actually we should do is faces up to it, when alone presents the suicidal tendency , helping him promptly, cures him. Rather than blames him with the vision that type does not understand, isolates him.” “全球每年近百万人自杀,这个数目远远超过凶杀,但这一话题常常因为耻辱和沉默,很少走进公众视野,其实我们更应该做的是去正视它,当一个人出现自杀倾向时,就及时去帮助他,治愈他。而不是用那种不理解的目光去责怪他,孤立他。” „No one will be stupid to taking lightly the life, when alone was really compelled that situation, the pain that he bears only then can understand.” “没有人会笨到看轻生命,当一个人真的被逼到那种地步时,他所承受的痛苦只有自己能明白。” The men seemed like think anything, he is looking at the limitless nighttime sky: „I am suicide intervention operator, the work that I must do every day is, arrived at abyss nearby person to extend own hand to these, told them in this world some people willing to help him, I am unable to tow to entrain the abyss them, but I can tell them in the world also to have very beautiful thing.” 男人似乎是想到了什么东西,他望着无边无际的夜空:“我是一名自杀干预接线员,我每天要做的工作就是,向那些走到了深渊旁边的人伸出自己的手,告诉他们这世界上有人愿意帮他,我无法把他们拖拽出深渊,但我可以告诉他们世界上还有很美的东西。” „Is that number suicide intervention hotline?” Chen Ge nods: „The front several people are so no wonder strange with the tone that I spoke.” “那个号码就是自杀干预热线？”陈歌点了点头:“怪不得前面几个人跟我说话的语气那么奇怪。” „Their that is not strange, if you encounter the matter that they once encountered, perhaps will also be the same with them.” The men then looked at Chen Ge one: „In fact, these harbor the person who must the dead faith will rarely call our seeking help hot lines. Choice in life finally dials the suicide intervention hotline person, the heart deep place, is actually also retaining deep love of one to this world. Their being incompatible, their all sorts of strange performance, are actually also seeking help from person.” “他们那不是奇怪,如果你遭遇了他们曾经遭遇的事情,恐怕也会和他们一样。”男人回头看了陈歌一眼:“事实上,那些怀着必死信念的人很少会拨打我们的求助热线。选择在生命的最后拨通自杀干预热线的人,他们内心深处,其实还保留着一丝对这世界的热爱。他们的格格不入,他们种种奇怪的表现,其实也是在向身边的人求助。” „Help?” “求助？” „Right, the suicide is not the temporary action that facilitates shortly, various reasons when will be very early will lay down, these not good mood and matter will save in the heart, then suddenly in one day, because some point was triggered, that flash person will be submerged by the negativity. Many suicides actually have the omen early, however person will actually rarely detect, if they can a morning discovery, change, the tragedy can definitely avoid.” “没错,自杀不是一个短暂促成的临时性举动,各种原因在很早的时候就会埋下,那些不好的情绪和事情积蓄在心中,然后突然在某一天,因为某一个点被触发,那一瞬间人被会负面情绪淹没。很多自杀其实早有预兆,但是身边的人却很少会察觉,如果他们能早一点发现,做出改变,悲剧完全能够避免。” On the man coat the blood-color is abating slowly, the blood-color tattoo color on his left face is also becoming pale. 男人外衣上血色在慢慢消退,他左脸上的血色纹身颜色也在变淡。 Chen Ge encounters this situation for the first time, before he has seen all Red-clothed, no matter, that blood red coat will not change, this Red-clothed as if somewhat is at present different from other Red-clothed. 陈歌还是第一次遇到这种情况,之前他见过的所有红衣,不管在什么时候,那血红色外衣都不会改变,眼前这个红衣似乎和其他红衣有些不一样。 The men do not care about the Chen Ge’s vision, he should want to find a person to speak: „I have listened to the reasons of many suicide, the factory goes bankrupt, to stage a comeback, owed the large amount of usury. Had no way out, in the final time of life, still does not dare to go home, at that time I put through that phone call/number time, hears that 40-50 years old man to cry, his only wish has a look at the child. Similar matter were too many were too many, when night time, the person would becomes frailer, 12 : 00 am to 3 : 00 am was we busiest time interval, my first rescue failure was also at that time.” 男人并不在意陈歌的目光,他应该只是想要找个人说说话:“我听过很多自杀的理由,厂子破产,为了东山再起,欠下了巨额高利贷。走投无路了,在生命的最后时刻,仍旧不敢回家,当时我接通那个电话的时候,听到那个四五十岁的男人一直在哭,他唯一的心愿是看看自己孩子。类似的事情太多太多了,每到夜深的时候,人总会变得更加脆弱,凌晨12点到凌晨 3 点是我们最忙碌的时段,我第一次救助失败也是在那个时候。” The railway rail in middle, the man and Chen Ge have the tacit understanding is maintaining the distance horizontally. 铁轨横在中间,男人和陈歌很有默契的保持着距离。 „You still remember own first making a connection phone call/number?” “你还记得自己第一个打通的电话吗？” „Has the impression.” “有印象。” „That writer had called phone call/number me before one's death once, I listened to crazy in his tone, but I underestimated his determination. I think that he wants to find the person to pour out, because his sound is very calm, in process that in talked with him I could not feel him to have an unusuality, was only very ordinary fall in the blues.” The men when spoke this saying, “那个作家生前曾给我打过电话,我听出了他语气中的疯狂,但是我低估了他的决心。我本以为他只是想要找人倾诉,因为他的声音真的很冷静,在和他对话的过程中我感受不到他有一丝异常,只是很普通的情绪低落而已。”男人在说这话的时候, The blood-color tattoo on his profile has the slight change, blood threads interweave, slowly outlined the face of another person. „I remember very clearly, that is my first intervention is defeated, until now I even can also and him the dialogue the complete back between me come out.” The voice of man is somewhat painful: „I see in the next day newspaper his, regretted very much, he gave me the final hope, but I actually neglect it, that tragedy I am also responsible.” 他半边脸上的血色纹身出现轻微变化,一根根血丝交织,慢慢勾勒出了另外一个人的面孔。“我记得很清楚,那是我第一次干预失败,直到现在我甚至都还能把我和他之间的对话去全部背出来。”男人的声音有些痛苦:“我是在第二天的报纸上看到他的,很后悔,他把最后的希望交给了我,但是我却将其忽视,那个悲剧我也有责任。” „From that I and person talked careful, but the situation has not actually been improved.” “从那开始,我和人交谈时会更加的小心,但情况却并没有好转。” „A month later some day, I intervene the failure again, that day was that person 30 th birthday. He chose this day specially, wears the work clothes, in place farewell that once most accepted as a memento.” The men said should be the patient who contracts the Nobita and Big G syndrome, Chen Ge can listen to a pain from the opposite party tone. “一个月后的某一天,我再次干预失败,那天是那个人30岁生日。他特意选择了这一天,穿着工作服,在曾经最留念的地方告别。”男人说的应该是患有大雄胖虎综合征的病人,陈歌能从对方语气中听出一丝痛苦。 „Living human life is vanishing at present, I clearly have the opportunity.” The blood-color tattoo on man profile changes once again, Chen Ge discovered that he will say alone every time, the blood-color tattoo on face will change one time, with experience that he and Specter will have to do, obsession of person of these suicides seemed like entered in the middle of body of man. In other words, possibly is the man by one's effort, lifted up obsession of phone call/number that side all suicidees. “活生生的人命在眼前消失,我分明是有机会的。”男人侧脸上的血色纹身又一次发生变化,陈歌发现他每说道一个人,脸上的血色纹身就会变化一次,以他和厉鬼打交道的经验来看,那些自杀之人的执念似乎是进入了男人的身体当中。换句话来说,也可能是男人以一己之力,扛起了电话那边所有自杀者的执念。 „The third intervention failure the next day, I am the preparation had a look on a suicidee personally.” The man intonation had the change for the first time: „He is really a very good person, I had once inquired him, in life finally frequently has what wish. He gives my reply is, he worried that will die will cause the house of landlord unable to rent in the room master, therefore rushed to other places specially, he had placed in the suitcase the house rent that the water and electricity charges and owed, but he did not have a friend, therefore hopes that I can informing the landlord, give the landlord the water and electricity charges.” “第三次干预失败就在第二天,我原本是准备亲自去看看上一位自杀者的。”男人语调第一次出现了变化:“他真的是一个很善良的人,我曾询问过他,在生命的最后时刻有没有什么心愿。他给我的回答是,他担心死在房东家会导致房东的房子租不出去,所以特意跑到了其他地方,他已经把水电费和欠的房租放在了行李箱上,但是他没有一个朋友,所以希望我能将通知一下房东,把水电费交给房东。” „I on that day and he chatted, until he falls asleep, I should report to the police, but where my he does not know.” “我那天和他聊了很多,直到他睡着,我应该报警的,可是我连他在哪里都不知道。” „Has not gotten rid from the matter of previous suicidee, I ran into another suicidee.” “还没从上一个自杀者的事情中摆脱出来,我又遇到了另一位自杀者。” „He contracts the cancer, was suffered by the pain, is different from other suicidees, this in the daytime to phone call/number that I hit, he passed through thought.” The men, look at this point once again to Chen Ge: „My work entrained from the death mire alone, but on that day, I have not gone to handle such matter. Perhaps is because the pressure is too big, perhaps is because received the stimulation continuously, I do not have to persuade him to hug the life, but respected his choice.” “他患有癌症,饱受病痛折磨,和其他自杀者不同,这一位是在白天给我打的电话,他是经过了深思熟虑的。”男人说到这里,又一次看向陈歌:“我的工作是把一个人从死亡的泥潭里拽出,但在那一天,我并没有去做这样的事情。也许是因为精神压力太大,也许是因为连续受到了刺激,我没有去劝说他拥抱生命,而是尊重了他的选择。” The men mentioned a suicidee every time, the blood-color tattoo of his profile will have a change. 男人每提到一位自杀者,他侧脸的血色纹身就会出现一次变化。 „I have not gone to the matter that is itself to handle, but did I make the mistake?” “我没有去做自己应该做的事情,可我做错了吗？” The man facial expression is more vacant: „Our all telephone conversation records will be preserved, my set up an electric circuit words are no exception, but does not know afterward what happened, shortly after he has an accident, between I and him that time talked over the telephone finally am publicized.” 男人神情更加茫然:“我们那里所有的通话记录都会被保存,我的那通电话也不例外,但后来不知道发生了什么事情,在他出事后不久,我和他之间的最后那次通话被人公开了。”
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